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Ok first I put the “higher self” in quotes as I don’t feeeeeeel what has been referred to as “higher self” is of Us (in the QHHT sessions).

So…..I listened to One Harmony’s latest last night.  He said a very strange thing is happening:  our “higher selves” are not coming through on QHHT sessions now.  He said he also heard from many other practitioner’s who are reporting on the same thing.

My take – this is a GOOD thing.  I began to feeeeeel over a year ago that many of these QHHT sessions were receiving and sharing matrix programs. I grew very weary of hearing how we “chose” these experiences (always of torture and trauma – you notice that theme??).  I could not resonate w/that nor could I resonate w/how I made a “contract” with another to watch them die or experience trauma.  My goodness – it is BEYOND time to let go of all of that nonsense.  It is their program.

Would any of you wish any of this on your own child?  The trauma and the suffering and the struggle and the “pull yourself up on your own and get out there and take all you can”?  This entire experience has been a sham from the word “go” and deep within every one of us know it.

So….as I said – this is a good sign, imho.  It could also explain why many of us have felt cut off and in a void for awhile.  I DO feel there IS a grander part of Who We Are and if ANYTHING has been cut off from us it is that. Certainly the ability to tap into our Pure Potential has been a huge challenge – at times impossible.  In an Original Organic experience, that is simply who we are at every moment.

For any act of withholding is deception and deception is their agenda and I stopped consenting to that agenda long ago.

So….I welcome this recent “strange” activity.  I think we are going to see some “red pilling/questioning/awakening” going on in that community. Anyone wanting to talk with me about this – I am here to listen and support.

If it doesn’t feel like love – if it doesn’t feel supportive of what YOU need and desire – it is not worth giving focus/attention to.

That is all for now.

Love,

Victoria

 

schumann continues with that annoooooying “here i come WHAM there i go bye here i come again WHAM”….today felt like i was in a blender being shaken until i screamed….surrendered…went poof….gave up….take your pick.  so i did a bit of everything.  what got me centered (at least for a time) – one moment of kindness from someone – asking me if my family had enough food.  so much better (for me) than being ignored, challenged or given unasked for advice.  a simple question.

love is simple…and can break through the most chaotic storm – at least soothe it some.

it is early evening here and i am absolutely wiped.  mate as well.  time for some sleep.  things continue to feel different and i am not sure what this is about.  as i am seeing – thinking my way out of an experience in which i don’t align and thinking my way through all that is going on out there – that way of seeking “truth” doesn’t really come from focused logic (thankful for that as that part of me doesn’t work so well now) – but rather from allowing Truth to flow in and from me.  it’s far too quiet for me but it’s all i have now as a “tool”.

here’s the latest schumann and a couple of odd lasco captures.

 

ggrrr….you can stop the slamming jabs….give me the bubbles of bliss please….

 

explosions?

 

love,

victoria

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one word:  UGH

the energies feel jarring.  jagged.  harsh.  and heavy.  and yet – as far as “time” – that felt “fast” today.  so overall….last week was smoother. this (sense of heavy and harsh) likely changed by their recent sacrifice.  i continue to feel we’re all really just in one giant room hooked up to this show so when something gets changed, we feel it immediately – especially the more “awake” we become.  the more we seek to know.

the schumann spikes – i’ve shared this before – i don’t like the feel when the frequencies do this.  pauses of “silence” followed by massive yet brief spike.  in spite of the practice i employed today of remaining neutral – it was a challenge to feel pure real Me – the way i wanted to feel.

so………i made banana coconut walnut dark chocolate cinnamon maple syrup bread.  a mouthful to say – but it turned out very moist and delicious and put some smiles on the faces in this house.

i’m also sharing an interesting capture from last night of the solar ultraviolet imager.  it wasn’t up for long – got removed pretty quickly.  the lasco continues to have missing data – including about 24 hours of it today. other than that the insanity of the others continues and today – feels like it has returned to “their” control today – of which i absolutely do not consent to.

so let us focus on speeding this movie up and bring it to an end NOW before any other being has to struggle or suffer.

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victoria

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Well, I feel this was one of her best ones.  We all seem to be slowly putting together the puzzle of who we are, where we are, what’s going on and where we’re “going”.

So my feels:

I had a feeling yesterday – a thought – that the energies of 2019 are still playing out.  I had hoped to feel an energy of “freedom” once 2020 appeared.  Didn’t happen.  Now I see – I feel – we haven’t really entered that cycle yet.  Maybe it’s like Lisa said – something about March to March being more of the year cycle.

And speaking of….March has always been a month for me that has felt significant.  When I had my first dream of the event in early 2017 (maybe it was early 2016) – my first feel was “march”.  That month continues to hold some meaning for me.

The pink bubble from Home that she mentions is surrounding this realm – carrying us out – I have been wearing pink socks and other items for a few months now.  I transitioned suddenly from orange/gray to wanting to wear Pink.

The “job here is done”.  Yes – I began feeling that late last year.

Very interesting to me she brings up the Ingersoll Lockwood book “The Last President”….I feel that book (and all of them that refer to Trump and family) is significant.  Lisa says in the book on the date March 4th, the dawn does not rise in America.  I am wondering if that is referring to that white mist so many of us have seen in our event/transition dreams and visions.

I like her commentary on language too.  After seeing how much our language has been manipulated, I began to feel a need to see it and use for good instead of being so focused on what I was saying – as though I may say a word that gave them power.  Fear based thinking/being.  She mentions Dr. Emoto’s work – which if you haven’t looked into his work you may want to.  He showed some amazing results when water is exposed to written and spoken word (as well as music).  Recently while sitting at the table, something within nudged me to bless my water.  So a good practice for me to return to.

I really align w/her feel that there are several frequency “fences” here – surrounding this realm.  When I have thought of being one of “them” (the others) – I can see why they would create such a thing to make the journey out, well, difficult and S L O W.  ALL things come to an end and they know this.  And like LMH, I do feel, as I mentioned yesterday, that we are on our way out.  The space this past week has felt lighter and faster (likely because it IS lighter).

Waking up through each layer – makes sense too – aligning w/others in synch then suddenly out of synch – including being in and out of synch with our personal experiences – I have been having that experience for months myself.

Now on to what I wanted to share about my own experience – my own feels that I had this morning….

Those who continue the deception – that energy is coming through now – making it easier to see.  And honestly many of them are looking quite repulsive to me.  It’s an icky energy – the visual I have is a yellowish energy. Sticky.  Heavy.  Sickly.

I woke up around 7am, went into the kitchen and my daughter followed.  She asked to return to bed with me to snuggle.  So we climb back into bed and I immediately started to return to sleep.  However I heard her say something to me – I was too out of it to be focused and I said something about “we’ll talk about it when we get up”.  Well, when we all did get up she told me about what she was sharing with me and now I wish I had fully heard or at least snapped myself awake.

She says she saw a large Blueish (like cobalt blue) light fill our living room space.  It was pretty big and it remained for at least a minute she said.  It did not scare her.  We don’t know what/who it was – but it feels quite beautiful to us all.

Speaking of frequency grids – my mate and I are creating our own and we wanted to pass it along to you all.  If “they” can make one – so can we.  And Lisa did say manifesting/creating is getting quicker and easier now – and I agree.  So if you are so inclined here is what he created (my mate was the one who created it last night):

Gold = Truth

Silver = Purity

Red = Heart/Love

Blue = Freedom.

Interesting the blue light showed up for our child to see isn’t it?  What is the one thing I speak of more than anything?  lol

F R E E D O M.

Anyway what my mate did was create in his mind and with thought these differing colors to surround our home, ourselves, family and friends.  So if you feel drawn to do the same, please do so.  And share any experiences you have w/this fun creation.

Love,

Victoria

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i realized i do have some reflecting to share.  energetically i pulled away from a lot this past week.  however the synchro’s and feelings/messages came in nonetheless.  here’s what i have been experiencing this week.

first i have been feeling something new about this thing we call “time”.  it began a few days ago when i noticed my clock on my computer was the same time as the clocks in the rest of my house.  we don’t honor the “turn your clocks back one hour” in the fall in this house so the clocks on my cell and computer are always 1 hour behind all of our other clocks in the house until everyone else turns their clocks ahead in march.  so i found it odd to notice – clock in living room – clock on computer – same time.  hmmm…..  i turned off my computer – it remained – until yesterday when suddenly the clock on my computer was showing an hour behind again.

never done that before.  

then i saw a tweet by VKennedy where he said something like “feels like the year is almost over”.  now many assumed he was referring to the chinese new year which began today.  that could have been the main message.  however that little voice within nudged at me – and i felt there was a deeper meaning to his tweets (which have been quite “deep” lately).  my feel?  we are seeing/feeling how fast things are really moving now.

then there is our weather here.  suddenly it feels like march.  60 – dry (mostly cloudy – and i thought if the sun comes out it’s gonna hit 70).  and overnight lows are near 50.  unreal for january.  so nature is saying “it’s march – early spring”.  buds are on the trees.  flowers are starting to bud and bloom.  4 weeks into winter.

then lisa harrison’s latest combined w/my friend rick’s dream last night – as well as yellow rose’s latest intel which was we are “good to go” – the green light being given – well i feel timeline jumps etc. are over – all has merged into One Experience and it is quickly playing out.  i am pondering too that these schumann signatures/frequencies are assisting.  or perhaps they are just reflecting what is happening back TO us.

i have also been drawn to focus on this experience we call our dreams.  the astral state.  i am really feeling the need to know exactly what that experience is.  it’s pretty much a mystery to us – and yet i am feeling there is now this “ability” to tap in and see more of what exactly it is and in particular, where we go in the dream state.  i also noticed VKennedy was tweeting about dreams at the same time i began having this draw.  i thought of this today in the car and guess which song came on the radio?  “DREAM WEAVER”.  no joke.  lol

i had an intense body purge of stuff last night.  mate too.  i began seeing a trauma expert and realized if i am to share an experience in words/a story, i need to finish it up by doing work to release the energy.  (she has been gathering details to get a picture of where and who i am.  not sure i am going to do this at this point.  just find where the energy is and help me release it.  no more “revisiting” the stories.)

the experience here now just feels – different.  that’s the only word to describe it at the moment.

so with that, i close up this piece.

as always, i welcome hearing of your current experiences/reflections.

love,

victoria

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what an absolutely odd nights rest.  up until almost 5am – a lot of anxiety. i went to bed early after doing a couple of meditations.  took cbd oil.  slept for maybe an hour and then was awake.  i tossed.  did deep breathing.  self talk. nothing was working.  so i let myself just be….in bed with anxiety and essentially feeling like crap.  around 4:30am i got up, returned to bed and discovered my mate was awake and had been having the same experience. couldn’t sleep.  anxiety.

as i just observed this otherwise unpleasant situation, i was able to fall asleep.

the grief is still coming in waves and all i honestly wish to do now is cocoon myself and rest.  sleep.  i have had a thought/feel for over 2 years that the closer we get to “it” – the more i will want to sleep.  never thought perhaps that could be due to grieving the loss of someone.  doesn’t matter what thoughts i create on this situation – the truth is we miss him.  period.

speaking of our adopted grandpa, we are about done going through his stuff – well at least picking out anything we want to keep.  that has been an emotional challenge.  many emotions.  we have laughed and remembered – and after that experience, we feel that heaviness kick in.  just sadness.

his children have been so wonderful in keeping us involved in all of this.  as one said yesterday “you were his chosen family.”  chosen families have that extra specialness. one of his daughter’s is making a box for us – a collection of all of the cards, pictures and drawing’s done by our child we had given to him over the years. he kept it all.  the importance of that is not lost with any of us.

the weather seems to match the “mood” in my space.  well – a collective of people here in town i should say.  many seem to be really challenged ~ allison coe wrote of this as well in her recent video.  i sure hope others will begin to question the notion of contracts – how we agree w/loved ones before coming here that one will die in order to awaken the other.  etc. etc.  that is of course part of their narrative.  who would ever set forth to create intentional trauma (other than some entity who desires to see others suffer)?  especially that of ones child.  ugh.  those who speak of “loss is an illusion” and “be thankful for the time you had” and other such heartless nonsense – well i wonder how they would respond if the grieving parent said back: “ok i cancel this contract then.  YOU can have that with YOUR child instead.  i want my child back!”  would the other parent agree to such an agreement?  of course not.  seriously people need some red pilling right now on loss and grief.  i am seeing this hugely right now and i am not remaining quiet when others say “don’t be angry” and coldness.  for that is cold.  detached.  even before i was “awake” – i knew what grief was.  never did get that part of the new age movement.

anyway – i left a comment gently stating i hope others who still align w/this narrative to at least consider maybe it isn’t Truth.  at least not OUR truth.

song messages of the day – back to back – “and the sky opens” followed by “this all ends”.

what does bring in comfort is knowing our adopted grandpa watches over us.  we are seeing this – feeling and experiencing it.  our water bill jumped up to $170 (yes – $170) and i realized it was because we have had a running toilet that, as i have been pointing out, had recently increased in its running.  too occupied w/latest life stuff to deal with it – kept saying yes we need to address that.  anyway – so my mate was able to find the replacement valve kit in grandpa’s belongings.  the man had 2-3 of just about everything. so we are thankful for that although don’t quite know how we’re going to swing that water bill next month.  as always, donations are welcome and needed.  or items i create/sell can be purchased which i usually link below my personal pieces.

all of this being said – while we are thankful for his protection – we would give back all of the “stuff” just to have him back again for another hug and conversation.

for now – we grieve.  that has shown up for me as itching and a rash.  it began days after we learned his diagnosis was terminal.  i can see my energy vessel within is completely full and all it takes is one little challenge and i feel myself bursting inside.  i know i have reached my zenith with life now.  so i am focused on releasing what is stored within me via counseling and guided meditations/release.  all i know to “do” is to care for myself as i would a child for that is how fragile and vulnerable i am right now.  i ran on fumes long enough in an attempt to convince myself i could do this alone – i could carry all i was undertaking and having to deal with.  it did become too much.  this notion that life doesn’t bring you more than you can handle is nonsense.

but what i do know – is that Love does find a way through the muck of this lower energetic realm – and brings forth a gift of kindness.  comfort.  and for those moments, i remain deeply grateful.

love,

victoria

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here are some thoughts that came up and out of me (more descriptive than “through me”)….

1. We have been taught to be afraid of giants.  It’s just another narrative here to keep us afraid of our Real Selves.  I have seen myself on the outside and as I stated, I was much bigger than I am in this current form.  My mate had a similar experience as have others (while in sleep or meditation).
2. Recently I saw a photo of what looked to be a huge arm in the sky holding a bird the way we do when setting such things free.  That felt like a display of Home/Us on the outside.  I felt a double message w/it.  A size comparison (the size of the arm is real Us, the bird, how small we are to All on the outside).  And the most beautiful part – we are being set free.  All on the outside which includes the rest of Us – which means we really are liberating our own selves.
3. For some reason I was thinking of cannabis.  I have felt for some time it is not native to this realm here – but is native of Home.  It was brought in here in some “secretive type” mission to not just help awaken, but to provide some much needed elements of the plan to the sleeping receptors in our bodies.  We know we have cbd receptors in our bodies.  When I first smoked cannabis, it took a lot and some time for my body to feel the effects.  I understand the reason why – it was taking the receptors in this vessel time to awaken and remember.  However, given the deception of our experience here and all that has been hidden from us, going into those psych-active like states makes us vulnerable to the hiding dimensionals – so that is something to consider when using cannabis.  I’ve been using hemp based cbd oil for about 9 months.  I’ve been able to increase the dosage as well as the mg.  If I miss a dose or two, my body lets me know.  It is literally something my vessel needs.  Even though it is costly, we also began using the broad spectrum kind which has terepenes not found in “regular” variety cbd oils.  Wow – what a difference!  Anyway – Home knew we needed something to use as a tool here for our health, well being and awakening – and what better plant than that?

Songs – music – continue for me to be the biggest gift in my awakening and my “keep on keeping on”.  Today’s songs:  Home Sweet Home (Motley Crue – was playing on the radio as I turned on the car today to come home) and “Waiting” from the album “Coming Home” on the tv music channel.

That is all.  For now, I am going to enjoy some free/quiet time.

Love,

Victoria

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this experience we are going through is for every one of us.  doesn’t matter where you live, what your “beliefs” are, male, female, conservative, liberal, financial status, etc.  those labels don’t mean squat in the end – and it is time to let them all go and embrace the energy behind the thought that says the awakening is for ALL.

that includes sharing of information – in particular personal insights.  we need to be doing this in terms of its helpfulness.  such sharing can provide hope.  validation.  a sense of belonging.  the matrix realm is in part an energy of separation and isolation.  why feed it anymore than necessary?

i understand and innerstand the need to keep certain information quiet. there has been an actual battle – a physical war – going on inside here and on the outside (although allegedly the outside stuff is over).  there are so many things we aren’t able to see due to our current body design (with our senses being hugely hindered) – that we can only feeeeeel what is happening.  in any battle, you don’t want to let known your plans to those from whom you are attempting to break free from.  that info – yeah – keep that quiet.

but this inclusive/members only creation that can come up with information that doesn’t fall into that category AND would benefit humanity – well – share it.  Love calls to do just that, doesn’t it?  well….that is my perception.  just offering that up as something to consider for those who don’t hold it.

in the end – we’re ALL Source in one form or another and thus in the end – ALL is actually revealed for ALL to see.  so why not make the process of Awakening that much easier by being fully generous from the Heart and sharing something that just may make a world of difference to another. sometimes the best gift one can give another isn’t something you can put inside a box with a pretty bow but rather a personal reflection that the other is needing to hear.

anyway – that’s what i align with and thus what i do here.

love,

victoria

 

it appears as though last year’s financial hits are continuing on into this year.  now and then i consider making some of what i do paid-only – but i can’t operate that way.  i really need an increase in donations – as i have stated – even just a small amount from many adds up.

with the death of our adopted grandpa, the work we did for him throughout the year was another big $$ hit.  my experience here is busy – my plate is full – homeschooling our child, running the house….taking care of our girl’s after school activities and then running the two sites.  i would love to find the kind of educational environment for my girl so that would free up a lot of my time – but i have yet to find that (that doesn’t cost a fortune).

i’m feeling quite uneasy over what happened with the lmh share.  again there was no malice on the part of my reader or myself.  it would have been FAR kinder if there had been attempt at personal communication to inquire why the info was shared.  certainly would have created a better situation for all.

my heart calls me to share.  and to ask.  and to seek peace.  ugh – life has just felt so heavy lately.  just wanted to check in and share a bit.

love,

victoria

btw – the schumann is back.

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