wow talk about an emotional roller coaster. yesterday with its beautiful moments of gratitude, surprise acts of kindness to today learning our adopted grandpa has just days left and is in the first stages of dying. we had not been visiting the last 2 weeks due to a cold virus we had been passing around to each other and now that all are well, we were going to go visit later this weekend. however after i spoke with his daughter in law today and hearing the urgency of where he is now – which knocked us for a pretty good loop – we knew it was time go see him today.
the visit was beautiful and difficult. he was very peaceful – in and out of sleep and for the first time since we have had the honor of knowing him, we had to carry the conversation. he has the true meaning of “the gift of gab” and it is in such a way as to lift you up if you are feeling down.
we held his hand. stroked his forehead. i sang to him and when he was alert, joked with him about dancing with beautiful ladies and going sailing with them. he’s an east coaster by birth and he has been “visiting” the cape cod region recently as his Soul is likely coming and going. who knows what wonderful adventures he is having. a few weeks ago we had purchased a card and my mate and i each wrote him a letter. we read them today. he was in and out, eyes would open and close, but i know somewhere he got the messages we were conveying – between a lot of tears.
this just sucks. there’s no other way to put it. i’m grateful he isn’t in pain or showing signs of struggle. it’s just hard on everyone else watching this beautiful Soul transition up and out to Home. but i see that’s where he is headed – where he wants to go. about 2 years ago he and my mate bought compasses they wore on their wrists. today my mate placed his on grandpa’s chest and said use it to find your way Home.
wishing him a gentle transition and a continuation of many adventures.
Today was a whirlwind. We had to hire someone to come out and inspect and clean our chimney. The man who came out was very friendly and kind. A smile on his face and in his eyes. The kind of person you want to be around. He agreed to take a look at no cost and was available within 48 hours of calling him. The issue we had was after burning in our open fireplace, the room slowly filled with smoke. We’ve had draft issues before – but nothing like this. So he came out, ascertained there was a large accumulation of creosote that was causing the draft and smoke issues.
When he was getting ready to leave, I asked him how much we owed him. He hesitated and quoted me $50 less than what he originally said. I looked at him – at first confused – and said “are you sure?” He smiled and said yes he was sure. So as I looked down to fill in the check I thanked him – saying how tight things were for us this year after a year of financial hits. I said “this really means a lot to us!” What he said next put me in tears.
“You know what?” he said. “No charge. It’s the holidays. Merry Christmas!”
I looked at him and shook my head. “No,” I said. “That is SO kind of you but we have to pay you something for the work you did.” Nope. He had made up his mind. “Just leave me a good business review online,” he said. I laughed and said “I already was going to do that even before this amazing generosity of yours!” I walked over to hug him – at least shake his head – and he laughed and said he was all sweaty and dusty so I touched his arm. “I HAVE to touch you in some way,” I said laughing. And crying. I told him for this act of kindness he was going to be blessed hugely.
So he left and I went online and shared the story on two local social media pages. Some hours later it has already received over 300 likes and loves and a lot of comments including many saying they will definitely be using him (YAY!) and some offering us an extra christmas tree and decorations. (we already have a lot of decorations – too many – i should give some away – 30 years of accumulation adds up!)
Wow. You know? Sometimes there are just no words. Tears and a “thank you”. I was happy to share the story and even happier to see so many who were touched by the story – some even saying they were crying reading it. THAT is gold to my heart!
So later this evening my mate went to light a fire. The same thing happened. Smoke slowly filled the room. Dang. My mate thinks it may be a structural issue which no way do we have the means to fix that. He will call the guy in the morning as he had said if we notice the same issue, to call him.
We talked about this. This will mean we have to run the electricity more which here in my state is is one of the most expensive even though we are right next to an abundance of rivers, lakes and the pacific ocean. Kinda like how we get our gas direct from Alaska and yet pay some of the highest rates in the country. (rolling my eyes) How will we afford that, we discussed. “We’ll manage. We always do,” I said reminding my mate.
Our heating system in this house isn’t the best – the front half (450 square feet) has just one little wall cadet 3 feet from the front door – an absolutely ridiculous place to put one. BUT we will make do if we have to. As Linea said in her recent video – it has been tough lately for some of us especially $$ – so we expand the thinking. Certain “things” seemingly being pulled away from us so we get creative.
All throughout today I kept getting nudged to look at the tv. The soundscape music channel was speaking to me each time I looked. Messages about heaven and earth and home and incoming waves in the sky and the sun and portals. Far too many to just be a coincidence.
I reflected on this as I was scrubbing the smell of smoke from my hair and body this evening – and the walls, ceiling, curtains, etc. (that stuff is like glue!). I have shared here about our adopted grandpa and neighbor has been in a rehabilitation facility where he will likely remain with an aggressive form of cancer. When we have wanted to visit – something happens. Illness. Or he just isn’t up to company. Calling him has resulted in the same thing. The last 3 times we have called, twice he wasn’t able to talk and tonight, we waited for over 5 minutes before being disconnected.
It really is as though we are being pulled up and out and away from much of what we have had here. I feel that. Where this is leading – I cannot say for sure. I know where I WANT it to be leading to so I continue to hold that vision in my mind and heart. And…..When? Any moment now, perhaps. Lisa Harrison has a new video I will be listening to and sharing here in a bit to see what she and others have to say.
One last share. Tonight, brother Rick sent me a text saying Clair had told him the animals came here to boost the love. He recently “inherited” a cat. lol He already has a dog – an amazing, beautiful dog whom I cannot wait to meet. Last night he shared a picture of the cat with me and I smiled – then sighed. We aren’t allowed to have pets here and that, at times, has been a challenge as my mate and I have always been HUGE animal lovers – especially dogs. In our 20 years together, we have had 2 dogs and even during that time, we would have strays show up at our house – dogs and cats both. All of that stopped after we moved into this house – and well, at times it is lonely.
So viewing the picture of his new found cat (who has one of the most adorable face I have seen on a cat, btw), I felt a bit envious. I felt that longing for wanting another animal again.
Then last night I had the most amazing dream – a first. In the dream I get out of bed, look out back and see a lot of animals back there. A variety too. A mama cow and 2 adorable calves. Sheep. Goats. It was as though a farmer opened up a fence and his animals strolled right into our yard. I was tickled – giddy like a child. I walked outside only to see some of the animals start to leave and walk away. I ran to the other side of the house and saw our previous dog. I called out her name and felt excitement.
I shared, briefly, this dream with Rick and he made a comment about certain animals most always returning Home.
Perhaps the dream served a two-fold need: 1) To provide me a sense of Love from the animals and 2) To show me – I am returning Home.
We all are.
Love,
Victoria
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Late last night, as in around 2am, I was trying to fall asleep but the inner Me had things to share. I received the image of a beach ball. The beach ball can be held under water (i.e. controlled) if it isn’t aware it’s a beach ball. But once it gets just a teeny little bit of awareness – that first question of “who am i?” – that ball can no longer be totally truly controlled.
That ball then realizes – hey I’m not supposed to be trapped under water. Hey what is this crap keeping me down? Who is doing this? Who do you think you are? The ball then immediately wants to GO UP. It wants its FREEDOM.
And once that ball gets a taste of not only Who It Is but where it is SUPPOSED TO BE – it only continues to push and push and push and push until it is Free.
That is our exit. The event. Like the beach ball we pop up and out and away of ALL energies and away from ALL entities and systems and programs that were systemically and intelligently designed to keep us under water/under control.
Let’s hold hands and get outta here. It is time. WE are making this SO. We are Source and Source says MAKE IT SO. IT IS DONE.
the words and melody to this beautiful song began going through my mind earlier today. i had to listen to it. so i did – felt some comfort – then went on w/the rest of my day (which ended in yet another unexpected $$ need to take care of. and then – THEN – i learn where our city council has voted to increase our water bill – AGAIN! they already jacked it up by over $20 this summer and now they are at it again w/o citizen vote. dark just keeps on sucker punching us $$. i laugh….) then i needed to listen to it again tonight and this time i wept big ‘ole tears – not just for myself but for all of us. i cried over what has been done to us here. all of the suffering – most if not all absolutely unnecessary and against our desire/will. (whoever says “god’s will” doesn’t innerstand our will – when it comes from our Heart – IS source will). i cried in release of the stories i have been reading in recent days of all of the huge challenges some are going through – from illness to death in the family or death of friends. i don’t “get” (at all) why this is happening nor would i ever align w/the concept that experience has to be this way now that we are (allegedly) “at the end”. why not go out with a soft soothing beautiful burst of Love? that’s my focus. for now – i hold all being’s in a soft pillow of love. may every one of you – every one of us – have all we need and desire NOW. love, V.
Energies are intense today. I am seeing story after story of people on social media – sharing their current struggles and some are quite intense. The collective “I AM DONE WITH THE FILTH HERE” is huge. DONE with the controls. DONE with seeing the rats skip out on court dates and continue with their illegal activities all without (visible) consequence and the show continues to spin while good people continue to struggle and suffer and I for one am absolutely totally fully DONE with that type of experience for us.
Even my DONE is DONE. lol
As I told my mate – liberation is not a process – it’s an EVENT. All of this “purge” stuff is nonsense – in terms of it being required that is. Nonetheless it is happening and today I had a visual as I was tending to my own inner stuff. All of those old programs we took on and in don’t want to surrender. All is energy – all is consciousness in some form – and thus all very much self-aware which leads to that state of Being: “I think therefore I am.” Today I spoke words of love and said “join with me in Love. Feels a lot better.” That provided some much needed soothing.
I also feel what we are experiencing (got this from tuning in last night) are the effects of this ongoing war. There are days when the controller’s are more subdued (controlled) and other days when that program is absolute madness in its intensity. The visual I have and the feel I have at this moment is this: Normally their program has been fairly controlled and intentional but now? I see them flailing – throwing darts here and there in desperation. Desperation – that is where “they” are. The program(s). Whatever label we wish to give it/them is in a state of desperation and is throwing out crap at random.
And we feel it for we are ALL plugged in/tuned in to this experience here. What I feel called to do is see it for what it is and observe as much as I can. Acknowledge my own inner struggles in this – connect in Love with others – offer my support. Hold space for anyone in need including myself – thyself. Today, other than sending love to the old programs within, I also went for a long walk alone (Solitude is soooo needed during these experiences) and played the piano – reconnecting to the Best part of myself.
Remembering Love In Action….which looks different and unique for each of us and is displayed by following the inner Me/Us from the Heart Space.
If any of you need to talk or share I am here. Just tell me what you need and I will do my best to help.
Love,
Victoria
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I had a new/unique experience yesterday that was a bit disturbing – at least perplexing. I wish to keep it to myself for the personal nature of it, but am choosing to share what I have as I of read someone else – another female – mama (truther/the event/home person) – having the exact same experience yesterday as well – which she was finding every bit as perplexing. I had a dream of it last night that deeply pulled at – likely poked at – my heart.
If it is truly darkest before the dawn we are at “peak dark” right now. I refuse to budge from what I feel to be True – the visions and desires I hold in my heart. Those remain no matter what is created “out there”. Just very very much ready to have what I hold within to manifest “out there”. What the controller’s have created is a mess and I am quite finished with their creations. I was told by brother Rick that the “All Being Seen” in full we keep pulling for to end this game will be seen very shortly. I hesitate to share that as we have heard that before. I don’t play games or mix words and hold high expectations for spoken/shared words to be kept – at least owned.
I took another financial hit. All I can do now is say “ok” – shrug it off – move on and continue to seek support/supporters from the work I do here and on my Patreon site. The holidays are upon us. Child has needs and wants (plus she really wants a tree) and we are barely able to keep afloat these days given the ongoing $$ hits/challenges we took all year (very ready to put this year/experience behind me!) It has been bitterly cold (for this time of year) and we have plowed through most of our wood. I can request a small amount of wood through a local ministry but it isn’t nearly enough for what we use to keep us warm here. Wood is ridiculously expensive – $200 and up for a cord (which is what we go through each month). As I have said before – the heating in our house is terrible. The front half has nothing so we rely on space heaters when we aren’t burning which is very costly so I keep that to a limited amount. And being we have an open fireplace, well anyone who burns knows that isn’t the most efficient means. But I am grateful we have at least this for there is no way we would be able to keep this house warm (enough) w/o it.
Today I have a loaf of bread baking. We are all healthy (aside from mate’s disease). The temperatures have climbed out of the teens and are now around 40. I am strongly intending for a warm winter.
My experience can only continue to improve with miracles and abundance flowing freely to me/us.
That is my wish for every one of us.
Love,
Victoria
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so i headed to the shower for what i intended would be a much needed break from the drama of today (more extended family related stuff) but once that hot water hit, all of this stuff began flowing through me. so i thought i would share.
i saw an ocean and waves. for decades i have used the ocean as a metaphor for Source. each of us being the wave that makes up the ocean that is Source. i got the feeling that Source really is about Creation – always expanding – always creating and that must include doing so Freeeeeeeeeely.
much like that wave – always moving – ebbing and flowing. moving moving moving. when we – our essence – leaves whatever physical experience/physical body in which we inhabit – it returns to the ocean if it chooses – returns to Source – for a rest. it’s much easier to be in movement as a wave, ebbing and flowing, w/an entire fleet of other waves. being in that kind of movement in a separate physical body can be tiring.
i also felt into freedom and creation. i see what is happening here in this realm. i see the anger and FED UP/DONE energies. see it and feel it. we all can. the collective US – the Source in every one of us – is DONE with ANY sort of oppression repression deceptionand compression. by its very nature, as I said, Source seeks to ALWAYS CREATE. ALWAYS EXPAND. (except perhaps when it chooses to just BE in a state of resting – but even then – by nature will automatically resist ANY attempts to control/power over/remove that experience).
by the very nature of Source expansion and creation, that energy, in “time”, will literally destroy ANY opposing energetic experience to stop that natural tendency to create and expand. destroy. consume. whatever label or however one wishes to describe the ending of such an experience of restriction – that creation of power over/restriction in and of itself is destined to fail.
and that is what we are experiencing today. this isn’t just about government’s or institutions. this is at the very Core – the Source in every one of us saying “I WILL BE FREE AGAIN NOW”. as MLK so beautifully said: “Free at last. Free at last. Thank God Almighty we are Free at last.”
For me it has been Freedom or bust for as long as I can feeeeeeeeeeeel. And I am not planning on doing the “bust” thing. So Freedom It Is. For that is WHO I AM and who every one of you are.
One last thing that has been weighing on me – the idea of another mind wipe after so many “years” as yellow rose has said. That’s just how it is, she has said.
To that I would say that is contrary to what Source Energy is. Any being or energy or system or whatever who says “you will now lose memory of this” is NOT SOURCE. It is another power structure that may have Source within but is NOT acting on Pure Source Energy. Freedom Asks. It doesn’t take. It doesn’t violate boundaries or choice. IT ASKS. And if I am not being asked whether I want/desire/need this or that, then I ain’t taking it.
I ain’t aligning with it.
And I ain’t giving it my power.
Power tothe people. The individual. Every one of us. Sweet love doggone it, I am SO READY to see every one of us have that fully returned.
So. Ready.
Love,
Victoria
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It is 4:44pm. Moments ago I saw the below message on Twitter.
20 minutes prior to seeing this, I awoke from a nap. First thought? “Ugh – still here.” In just recent days, I have arrived at what feels like a finality for me. In recent days, trying to share this with others hasn’t gone well. lol I’ve been told to “think outside of the box” (which brings up the immediate instinct to punch someone given that is exactly what I have been doing since 2002). I’ve been told “keep going you’re awesome you’re amazing you will pull through” and other otherwise beautiful but for me now – absolutely meaningless phrases. I am in need of people to simply hold space for me (also including below a beautiful sentiment on that). That’s it. Not “fix” and indeed no attempts at forcing me into a space that they are more comfortable in.
I am quite in Knowledge of how Amazing I Am. I know my Worth. I know my Value. I know my gifts. THIS IS WHY I HAVE ARRIVED AT THE SPACE WHERE I AM. I KNOW being ME HERE in this realm – in this place we call earth in this pay to live system and all of the blah – ME doesn’t FIT here.
P E R I O D.
So prior to seeing this message from Adam, I had been looking out the kitchen window, having pulled myself up and out of bed to get dinner in the oven. The sun was setting, creating a golden glow in the SW. I watched quietly. My mate walks over. I nod in the direction of the setting sun and said quietly “that’s our way out. Beyond that is Home.” I felt the emotion of longing – sadness – come through me, entering my face and coming out my eyes in the proverbial tears. I asked for a message – I needed some form of Hope from Home (only this time I said I don’t want no damn fly over w/the “see you soon” then 10 years later here we are). I walked away with zero expectations. None. I linked the piece on the visualization for education – and was going to do something else when I was nudged to go to twitter.
And here is what I see:
We are going fairly soon. ED's capacitor is blowing hard with electrical discharges as the EL try & restart it. It's time to leave. True EDEN awaits. pic.twitter.com/WLvfqGfOlA
And when all else feels lost, I always have my child-like humor. Thanks goes out to our POTUS for this much needed laugh. He’s such a troll artists – not everyone’s cup of tea of course – but as I say when people freak and say “OMG HE ISN’T PRESIDENTIAL!” And I say – I know – isn’t it refreshing? I just remembered in his rally speech last night in Florida, he remarked about his amazing chest (referring to his physical). Makes this all the more hysterical – to me that is.
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certainly we were not the only ones absolutely WIRED all night – tossing and turning – even though the human brain was exhausted. today?
non-functioning day!
below is a capture of the schumann – never seen these signatures before. from the wavy-gravy lines (got turkey and gravy on the mind) to the black lines – as in multiple. something came through last night. something on the outside of ME was doing something that felt like a party but the me in this warm cozy bed was trying to sleep. there better not be any further alleged “timeline” crappola going on. i did see there is yet another impeachment inquiry set for 12/4 (senate judiciary committee). NO! NO NO NO NO NO! ENOUGH!
well let me begin by saying i am not the only Being feeling angst and anger and knowing the line in the sand has been drawn in terms of the experience here. it was the energy in my dreams last night. when i woke up (whatever that really is here) – i saw myself in the above image. george bailey. it’s a wonderful life. one of the final scenes where he is done w/the current experience he has had and is BEGGING to be returned to his Original Experience. i’m using that as a metaphor obviously.
This is where I AM and my done-had-it has done and had it.
browsing around online i see others saying the same when i shared my experience in one of the “Event” social media groups – i had a lot of validation and “yes same here today!”
last night’s dream had me in a room with a group of otherwise beautiful people – all of them absolutely asleep. deeply programmed. whatever label you wish to use. i had been trying to reach them. why, i don’t know given my desire to do this now while i am still awake in this body has vanished (whatever the “still awake in this body” also means here). but that is what i was attempting to do. i finally got it – and next thing i know i jump – fly – up on the table and began releasing. yelling in a way that expressed my angst. you’re all so deeply programmed. you’re all so programmed to support the system you would rather remain asleep than see the Truth. they all looked at me like i was crazy and i heard “victoria you are the one who is angry” and i said “I KNOW I AM ANGRY!” nice try passive aggressive gaslighting entity. lol i also received the energy from them that they know they are asleep. that is their choice.
if this is a movie as we keep hearing/reading – then some people are in that role to remain asleep. why? i have no clue. no idea. no concept. but given even the MOVIE in and of itself is part of what is deceptive and fake here – ALL will indeed be pulled up and out of it.
the energy built throughout the day. i had to release. i excused myself, took my boxing gloves, went to the garage and let it all out without censoring myself or holding back. whose experience is this? if we the awakened (to HOME/EXIT that is) are done – then god damn it all LET US HAVE THAT EXPERIENCE. i don’t consent to waiting. and now there is talk about an impeachment trial in the Senate in order to “red pill the masses”. at this point that feels like another program designed to D E L A Y that inevitable flow of energy i can feel is NEEDING to burst inside this realm and remove all of the deception and fakery and restore our Original Pure Experience – however that may have looked for you and me.
i know this – know it know it KNOW it – those people in my life out here aren’t going to be open to “new evidence”. you can show them PROOF on paper that there was no quid pro quo blah blah blah – their addiction to the program is SO STRONG they will claim he’s still treasonous. their hatred of him and desire to see him removed is far greater than their desire for Truth. no joke. i see it. and my goodness if the MSM is still around to display all of this – that just adds to the filters that will be shown. as i continue to say – want to end this game NOW? truly end it by red-pilling the LIES OUT of the masses? remove their programming?
BRING OUT JOHN KENNEDY JUNIOR AND HIS WIFE. i gave this thought today as well. our current POTUS is one of the most “hated” men around right now – his life in danger daily and yet he is so well protected. why not have the same protection for Kennedy Jr? isn’t that possible? of course it is.
later this afternoon i hibernated in the bedroom and visualized myself now searching for Big Me on the outside. i shook her awake and said “we’re out of here”. i drug her to a screen – pointed to this scene in my life and said “change the scene” and selected a beautiful ocean beach scene. warm. i selected clothing for myself – bikini top, shorts, one of those silky skirts. i was young. youthful. and full of energy. i placed a mix of trees around me – palm trees and fir trees. some willows. i inserted a cabin. i then ventured out to the beach and sat down in the warm sand. i let myself taste the sand and feel the warmth and support on my body. warm ocean water lapped gently around my feet. i knew it was still some matrix creation but i didn’t care. if that is where i had to remain until all of this transitions then so be it. i will be returning.
tonight as i was in the garage releasing i returned to seek out Big Me and commanded ENOUGH WAKE UP AND GET US OUT OF HERE! me here and now does not consent to riding this all out while others create these final scenes or whatever’s.
i commanded a return to ALL OF ME. i drew the line in the sand – literally (this time was concrete lol). in desperation i commanded at the very least RELEASE THE TECH. my desire to be Fully Restored has peaked. it is here. she has spoken. i command ALL that has been repressed oppressed suppressed be restored for myself and for every single one of us.
as george bailey said please god i want to live again. i want to live again.
i want to Live Truthfully Fully and Freely Again. no exceptions. NO EXCEPTIONS.
that is my Right as a Free Being and is the right of every single one of us.
love,
Victoria
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