Category: Daily Notes

 

apparently those sessions are not for public viewing and what i passed along had some translation issues (which ones got lost was not communicated w/me).  so i have deleted the post.  i apologize for any misunderstanding.  my intention was honorable in wanting to give some info and faith to those who are on this journey as i know many have felt quite lost and frustrated lately – myself included.  we all deserve the truth.

i don’t want this turning into some drama fest – which it was becoming given a comment that had been shared by one of the group members essentially shaming me. shaming is for those who have committed the most dark of horrors and i won’t allow that energy into my space – certainly not without first asking why i did what i did.  i did nothing to be shamed for nor did my reader – it was an honest error in choice/judgment.  but for the sake of all – the post has been removed.

love,

victoria

 

usually when my reincarnation date rolls around, i feel magic – a lift.  i would feel the Universe “celebrating” with me.  today i had a different experience.  the energy felt heavy and just weird.  a void-like energy.  i saw others speaking of their animals behaving very strangely and feeling anxiety and stomach issues themselves.  i definitely had the stomach issues that i could not attribute to anything in particular.

going out and about i was able to “feel” that connection to Home/Universe.  i was guided to a car and saw “222”….then turning on the radio, “Truckin'” was on in particular “Truckin’, i’m goin’ home.  whoa baby back where i belong…”  Next song – Two Tickets to Paradise.  Then Journey  “Don’t Stop Believin'”…..I felt this sense of “we are here with you and like you we too are waiting for the transition”….hold on and keep on…………for now i bought myself a cherry pie – locally made with pure ingredients.  i decided not to bake my own sweet treat.

i had a very interesting and powerful dream last night.  a boy i knew when i was a girl.  i had a big crush on him in junior high only he was dating a high school girl.  older woman.  lol  i didn’t see him until a few years later.  he would come visit me at the local shop in which i worked.  he kept asking me out but i felt he was just looking for a good time so i turned him down each time.  he kept at it for almost a year and then, well life happens.  he stopped visiting.  i moved on and did different things.

then a few years ago i read he had died in a horrible car crash east of here.  i felt this immediate heaviness in my heart and i cried later that night.  then last night – i dreamed of him.  he was in the same space in which i was – saw me – walked over and smiling, touched his forehead to mine.  then the dream ended and i woke up whimpering.  makes me wonder if we did have an authentic heart connection here.  oh the things we do when we’re young and lacking in frontal cortex development.  the fear.  the “there’s always later”…..

some moments i think a do-over would be wonderful.

for now – well – i am being told i need to see the news today.  my mate says they’re better.  but i am eating pie and watching old movies.  i will see how i feel about all of that at another time.  for now – inner reflecting continues.

how are all of you feeling and doing now?

love,

victoria

 

 

i’ve been slowly withdrawing from all of the awakening stuff – the politics – spending more time watching some old movies, listening to old music and eating sweet treats.  really needing that energy of sweetness and innocence.  at this point i feel i’m as awakened as i can be (obviously not done – just in a holding pattern).  got the information gathered.  put together puzzles.  and it feels like i am seeing the same story – the same narrative – on repeat and wow is that O L D.  there continues to be lots of speculation but no real answer(s) as the “new” is taking its time to manifest.  in a nutshell – the passion isn’t there as it once was and i am quite bored at the moment.  and so lately the inner question has been “now what?”  and i don’t know.  i have no answer to that.  so – some breathing room/time away is in order.

i don’t know for how long.  a day.  a week or two.  i may return and share something that inspires me – either from another or my own synch/alignment i receive – and then may decide to “go quiet” again.  sensing a theme of “i don’t know”?  lol  that’s because it is where i am.  i.  do.  not.  know.  i know i’ve been on the right path – guided – divinely guided – gently.  force fitting though – commanding or demanding – whatever it is i feel i need or want – isn’t working.  so going within and giving myself whatever it is i feel i need – as best as i can that is.

i shall return and see you when i see you.

love,

victoria

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Very tired.  Little appetite (well, none really).  And food just doesn’t taste good.  Foods – lacking in flavor.  Only craving sweet foods.  All in this house having the same experience.  And for myself after running quite warm lately, I feel cold today.

A day that would have been best served sleeping with heated blankets – or on a warm beach with room service.  Could use that experience from now until exit.

I did begin to compose a song.  My mate says it’s the best one I’ve written in the 22 years we’ve known one another.

Today the feel is – I have seen it all.  Anything I now view – is a repeat.  I realized something along those lines.  The sun and moon both move in an infinity shaped pattern.  The infinity loop by its very nature says nothing changes.  One giant circle you cannot escape from that repeats itself indefinitely….or until the program running it ends – is hijacked – for FREEDOM.

I do all I can each day, spend time going within, to search for a way for me to assist w/that process in a new way and to speed it the blip up.

That is all for today.

Love,

Victoria

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So today happens to be Carolyn Bessett Kennedy’s birthday – 54th to be precise.  As I have said, she and I are exactly 6 days apart – and my mate is 5:5 to JFK Jr’s b-day (5 months and 5 days apart).  I have no logical reason to feel a connection w/these two but I do as does my mate.

So today I was at the store, sitting in the parking lot as I finished listening to a song.  I sent out a happy birthday thought to Carolyn and then I felt John Jr come in.  I felt there was something I was going to hear/feel.  Yeah I had shopping to do and I let it go (more on the “flow” after this share).  Actually I should say the feeling just left.  The me here did nothing.  That “letting go” when it is the real deal just happens.

So I did my shopping, got back into the car and turned on the radio.  “You Can’t Always Get What You Want” had just started.  Ah, ok so I get to listen to his song, I thought.  (for those who aren’t into any of this jfk jr stuff – this song by the Stones plays at the end of every single POTUS rally.  it was said to be John Jr’s favorite song – or one of them.  he also used the following lyrics in one of his editorial’s to a George Magazine piece:  “You can’t always get what you want.  But if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need.”……. there are no coincidences.)

So I continue driving home.  My girl was with me and requested we go the long way home – up into the hills – so I complied.  The song’s still playing as my girl says “MOM STOP!”  I glance over and see this flock of turkey’s just feet away from us.  I stopped – we watched.  I felt this nudge to ask her to count them.  She happily agreed.  18.

“R” I heard.

Then – I got the knowing for the reason for this song he is said to like.  Came to me in chills and a lot of excitement.  What does he want more than anything?  To get his dad back.  But – he can’t.  However by working with others, including POTUS, he (and all of us) are getting what we need:  the end to the experience that allowed for his father’s death and our enslavement.

So one last thought on “the flow”.  It is an organic, natural occurrence.  The feel of it – is very unique.  It cannot be forced.  That’s why when I have searched for an answer and wanted one at that moment, it rarely happens – but it does arrive – at some point.  And at times when it does arrive – that answer I seek – quite often I have now noticed it doesn’t feel right.  This likely explains why I pulled away from channeling’s as most (not all) are a rather “Ok I am ready to receive information.  What do you have for me?”  And in those situations, in this simulation/matrix, this has allowed for ANY THING to come through.  And until I am able to return to my Full State of KNOWING – SEEING – I am not letting any invisible “entity/being” pass along information – certainly not blindly.  The clowns are everywhere – both inside and outside of this game.

Love,

Victoria

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I was receiving a lot of inner “stuff” last night – feels.  It was too late to type up anything.  After listening to Sainted Anon’s video last night (which I am going to be listening to again), I began feeling into timelines.  We have seen for well over a year – perhaps 2 or more – these marks on the schumann some say are timeline jumps.  My feel?  They are timeline compression’s.

There is a difference.

With a jump you literally “move” to a new period on the timeline continuum.  With a compression, this is a previous timeline collapsing onto itself – to merge, eventually, into One Experience (which includes “the event” – the end – and our return to Eden/Original Experience).  Lisa Harrison stated last year we were now on “One Timeline”.  At least, according to how I feel, we are headed in that direction.  The REAL timeline – which is how this show ends – has indeed been put into place and is NOT going to be altered.  This is more than just advanced tech – this is Source Creation.  Pure.  Divine.  And it includes each of our Big/Higher/Real Selves co-creating.

I am also hearing and reading from some that “attacks” ramped up.  This is not to invoke fear – but rather knowledge.  Being in knowing of a potential experience so you can be best informed and thus prepared.  All in my house have been feeling this as well.  Last night I had a dream experience where I was in a rather familiar house from my past.  Many people from my past were there – those I once trusted, etc. but are no longer in my experience today.

The “others” knew I was feeling quite vulnerable last night and took advantage of the longing I had in my heart before falling asleep.  In this particular dream experience, I heard a knock on the front door.  It was quite stormy outside and dark.  I was drawn naturally to go to the door.  I saw a golden swirl of energy start to permeate the cracks in the door (which was massive and solid and quite beautiful).  The feeling of ancient Knowing/Truth emitting from this door on the other side was awesome.  Very powerful with this solid sense of Knowing.  I left the crowd I was gathered with to go answer the door.  Many of them began behaving in a fearful manner, telling me not to answer the door.  I instead followed my inner feeling and went to the door.  A communication began.  I heard “We are Q.  We are here.”  YES, I felt.  The people around me increased their words of “DO NOT ANSWER THE DOOR CALL THE POLICE”.  Again, I ignored it and as I began to open the door I felt this attacking energy in my center.  Overwhelming fear hit me.  I walked away, rejoined the group, hoping for a hug from someone I once felt very close to only she hugged another female instead.  Feeling disappointed I said “I’m outta here” and left the experience.

When I awoke the fear within was still there and it was overwhelming – a level I have not experienced coming out of a dream state.  It took me awhile to shake it.  I got clarity on what it was about….and I did some inner work and removed the feeling – returning to that solid inner Me that never waivers and knows how to create a boundary.

This may be a “movie” of their creation and we may have been playing along – but speaking just for myself, I played along unknowingly – certainly not with FULL AWARENESS – if anything under their control – which makes it an INAUTHENTIC CREATION.  Therefore the movie is null and void and my participation is something of which I do not consent.  WE are writing the ending now which is #ENDGAME for them and Freedom for All.  For all that is Me knows I would never fully consent to such a nightmare.  And if I did – I have asked for forgiveness and simply stated “I have changed my heart, mind and choice.”  Actually as I type this – I receive the feeling that I may have said “yes” to an experience of Free Will – without an innerstanding of where that experience could go.

Knowledge gained.  Free Will allows for ALL to be created and that is simply not a joyful experience for the harm it leads to (was created).  Freedom it is instead.

Love,

Victoria

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well considering i just spoke the words of the title to myself and it came out “bwief wefwection” – that is a good indicator of how tired and other-worldly i feel today.  it is largely due to last night’s sleep.  no one in this house slept well.  i felt very agitated and could not sooth myself much less feel comfortable.  we spoke with a couple other people (one nearby and another further away) who commented how awful they slept last night.  in fits.  finally at around 5am, i dosed up on another round of CBD oil, ate some noodles, drank some OJ and was able to sleep for a few hours.

my body also feels – weird.  unusual pains.  that could be due to grief showing up.  we have been spending the last couple of days going through some of our grandpa d’s belongings to pick out things we want.  this is a difficult thing to do and feels invasive – even though i know he would be fine with it.  he was and is a very generous Soul.  both my mate and i were having the same experience and we both heard “hell, help yourself” – which is exactly what he would have said.  there was really just one tool of his i really wanted – and i looked for it for a good hour.  it wasn’t until the end that i finally took a moment and asked him for some help.  i was guided to look in an unusual spot – the linen closet – but there it was in the top drawer among some linens.

there is a sense of finality now which brings a sense of peace along with a very quiet but deep sadness.

that’s all for now.  i am tossed between wanting to be alone in quiet – and watching something funny.  as i would respond when i was a kid and asked to pick between two things:  “i pick both!”

love,

victoria