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oh am i ready.  i am ready now.  i have been purging and purging and purging and releasing.  i am so ready not just for home and new but for REAL.  REAL and AUTHENTIC.

fake news is just another metaphor for how fake things have been here for us.  education.  history.  religion.  entertainment.  media.  science. words/language.  maps.  pay to live/money.  even music has had deception and as thus has been FAKE (altering the pitch, hidden messages, etc.)  99.9% of this entire construct is FAKE.

the ONLY THING that is REAL here is our ability to SEE this and CONNECT with one another in a real/authentic way.  and let me tell you finding that has been a huge challenge.  i am ME and open and authentic – becoming more and more so – and throughout my experience here that has been met with fear (disguised as other behaviors).

as i have purged all of the old “not me” – the pain, stories, beliefs, etc. – the more i have room within to feel that longing for home.  what once was.  real. authentic.  pure.

i want a realm where i don’t have to hide my child’s eyes because of what she may suddenly see or hear.  i don’t want any f’er to power over ANY of us simply because they hold more authority as defined by the matrix systems.  i want an experience where i have people in my life i call “family” and who really fit that word as we all define it as.  i want my experience returned where i can totally heal myself on command without having ANY challenges or struggles.  I WANT ME BACK!  

NO MORE INTERFERENCE.  no more lingering trauma’s.  no more blocks.

i want love.  PURE UNIVERSAL CONNECTION at ALL TIMES and not just a hit and miss deal like it is here.  my goodness the MEME’s i continue to see about lessons and challenges and suffering (frig i recently had a friend tell me it was the human condition to suffer – Buddhist BULLSHIT, i said)….meme’s saying how one makes a decision to DO but the “universe” comes in and says “NO” – how the universe has it’s own time and experience which says SEPARATION.  then my personal “big one” – you create your own reality.  here?  in THIS construct?  really???!!!

NONSENSE!  all of it!  fake fake fake fake fake

i’ve had enough fake.  jesus wipes even today when i can present to someone an obvious SPADE – i hear “oh yes that may be a spade BUT….” fill in the blank with any number of words set to keep the person detached and programmed.

ENOUGH!

energetically my body is done with any and all experiences such as that. people want to support this system – FINE.  BE FREE TO DO SO.
I AM DONE!

i want real connections where eyes meet and where authenticity of the full Being is shared.  i want to know what that is like.

and most importantly – and most humbly – most authentically – i want to REMEMBER what this is like.  what it feeeeeeeeeeeeeels like.  

then be it.  do it.  play with it.  always.  in ALL ways.

i am here to EXPAND.  enough CONTRACTING.  enough HIDING.  enough PRETENDING.

Let’s GO!   N O W

love,

victoria

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this feeling/these words are big with me right now.  in truth, we don’t have a responsibility for anyone’s “awakening” – however that may look.  what we can do is share when we feel that inner nudge – AND when the other person is receptive and open.

what’s been a huge UGH for me is when the person is receptive – open – even goes so far as to say “ok so yes can i agree there is a deep state?  there are programs and agenda’s here to control us, enslave us, poison us?  yes, i can see that.  and yet what is the point in knowing all of this?”  as i say – have continued to say – KNOWING is the first step to EMPOWERING yourself.  KNOWING your surroundings is necessary to CHANGE the surroundings.

and yet – i have not met ONE PERSON who has been open and willing to speak with me and hear of my perceptions, the research i have done who has used that information to wake up and STAY awake.  i continue to see these same very well intentions people (but at least on this day otherwise very annoying to me)continue to push the agenda of control and enslavement.  i about popped my cork when recently i was told trump is a nazi.

yes there is a swamp yes under him he has been exposed yes the nazi party never left – but trump is THE king of nazi’s.

wow.  really W O W.

at this point i must let it all go.  continue to share my feels and perceptions and personal truths here.  that is all i can do.  those who come here are seeking the truth and are willing to challenge their narratives.  (i am in that space as well – having had my narratives and programs challenged MANY times just since putting this site out into the ether some 3 years ago.)

those who do not hold hope for new or change – well at this point it is going to take something HUGE – or ginormous as my child says – for these souls to “get it” and “see”.  something that they SEE with their own eyes – something that permeates the core of who they are – something on the outside to prod them from within.

until that time……….well……….i feel we are at the end.  the energy now is just pushing us – well certainly myself – to LET GO OF ALL THAT DOES NOT SERVE ME – the “ME” being KEY now.  employ the “NO’s”.  let go of the obligations and such if those obligations are interfering with what i know i need to do for myself at that moment.  with the happening’s/going on in DC – on the cusp of full on disclosure – to what is happening above and beyond – aligning like a carefully choreographed script – i feel i can finally see the finish line.  that volcano of Truth can no longer be suppressed.  these slow leaks are building up to the final implosion.

and as the song is now playing in my mind:  All I Want For Christmas……..FREEDOM.  TRUTH.  LOVE.  and HOME.

love,

victoria

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the energy today felt blissful to me.  i was energized for most of the day.  i decided to check out the schumann – and sure enough – the bubble of bliss as i call it went on all day.  and i pause – reflect – roll my eyes and laugh at the same time (because what else IS there to do with all of this at this point):  that here it is, november 16 2019 and we’re still having these incoming energies/whatever they are.

i had some very fun number synchs.  17, 222, 1111 and 333. the “17” i saw on licence places numerous times.  the 222 came at me in numbers and from having a conversation w/the store clerk about number combinations after she rang up my total and announced i owed $11.11 – a first!  lol  i commented on it and she said her number that comes to her is 222.  i laughed again and said that became one of my “always seeing” numbers for almost the past 2 years.  the 333 was my mate’s experience at the store earlier in the day.  (copies of the receipts are below)

the need for donations and $$ blessings continues.  as i have shared here our adopted grandpa is in a rehabilitation facility (it appears he may be going to the facility we have wished for him – much better care – great food and just down the road so back in his neighborhood).  anyway this time of year we normally do a lot of work for him in november and december and it was something we were counting on – we knew we had that income coming in for the holidays.  that won’t be happening now.  i’m sure ready to kick the door to this year shut for good – certainly financially.  this has been the most challenging year in that regard in terms of how we have been hit. doesn’t align with what we hold – the intentions we set, etc. etc.  ugh as i said that ability has been stymied all year.  any and all amounts in donations help out and are gratefully appreciated!  

Below are some proton reads, the schumann and those number combo’s on today’s receipts.  Love to you all….

Victoria

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Did we have one of those “insert this timeline here” today?  Today felt noticeably different and not in a blissful way but in a way that felt jagged and irritating.  Most everyone I spoke with today seemed quite irritable – myself included.  As someone on one of my social media pages said they were being seriously triggered by everyone so no “peopl’ing” today.  lol

I needed that experience today but I live with 2 other people in a 750′ space so UGH!

I did see a lot and I emphasize a LOT of numbers today.  22/222/1222…and 17.  I felt a nudge when I would see these numbers that felt like a “keep going just get through this one”.  Later in the afternoon I checked out some of the energy graphs.  The schumann has a noticeable color change that, I felt, explained the feeling that some temporary “scene” had been injected today.  (below)

On my way to the store I was nudged to look off to my right and saw a couple that felt odd to me.  I felt “see that?  that’s an example of a hologram”.  I am still on the fence w/that whole concept – I won’t know until I know – until we all know.  That being said I was inspired – within – to really begin to under and innerstand what is implied by “you are seeing a movie” last night and thought – too heavy for so late at night.  And not up to it at the moment to explore.

On a fun note, I kicked my mate’s butt at checker’s.  It was a good game – he spoke of strategy and all that while I remained quiet and came on strong at the end.  he he he

In other experiences – tonight – the fire in the fireplace just isn’t burning tonight.  The wood is fine – dry and seasoned – but something is strange tonight – cannot seem to keep it going tonight.  Also of interest along those lines – twice in the past week or so – late late at night – after we’ve gone to bed – the fire will suddenly flare up on its own.  It is an energy – and all is energy here – and something is really up/off/strange today.  The (magnetic) fire energy is telling us this tonight and as a result it is quite darn cold in here tonight!

Spoke with Grandpa D tonight.  It was right before dinner – and normally they give him a pain pill right before his dinner meal.  Not today and he was feeling it – and this was reflected in his voice on the phone.  A staff member finally checked in and he engaged in conversation with her – heard him yelp in pain (and this is not like him – if he’s giving any indication he hurts you know he’s really hurting).  We had to end the call.  This place has pretty good care – just not nearly enough of it.  Very short staffed (the for profit medical system).  Later on our neighbor called – she had gone to see him just a little bit after our phone call and he had asked her to call us as he knew we were upset to hear about his pain earlier.  He wanted us to know he was doing much better – pain pill given – and his legs/feed moved.  Turns out his feet were resting on the footboard (end of the bed). !!  They discovered he has bed sores on his feet yesterday – causing him additional pain.  Flipping frack…

I’m just horrified at his situation.  He needs more care than what he is receiving – his children are looking into other facilities around here that provide much better care and more of it – including a really nice, non-profit place just 6 blocks from here.  I’ve been inside of the place a few times – it is quite lovely – beautiful grounds.  I have had several neighbors in the past week ask me why he isn’t there.  The resident to CNA ratio is 10x that of where he is now.  Normally Grandpa D is outside walking – doing something outside – every day.  This place would have him back in his neighborhood and would give him the chance to actually be outside – do more – see more.  As he said tonight – a first in the 3 weeks he’s been away – “I just want to go home!”  My mate took it that he meant he was ready to go.  Nope, I said.  He is ready to leave the place he’s at.

Tonight things rather accumulated for me emotionally and I had a Chevy Chase moment.  Video below.

Here’s the latest schumann.  And those images around the sun continue (most recent captures below – 11/15). Hoping one of the bigger channels catch on and start talking about it.  They have far more sophisticated programs and hardware than I do.

 

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If this movie is ending, then my character is leaving the set absolutely exhausted.  This system keeps throwing responsibilities and crap my way that I can no longer process or handle.  Exhaustion has taken on a new level.  I have a rash in various spots of my body – stress related most likely.  That and really lousy air quality.  Skies clearer and cleaner than ever?  Not here.  And not in other places throughout the country/realm from what others are showing/sharing.

Yesterday I took my girl to a girls roller derby club.  I thought she had adequate supplies.  I was told she needs more safety equipment.  Not in the budget.  I’m struggling to pay the bills now – the very basics are a challenge. Financial hit after hit has done me in.  With the recent heartbreak/stress of our adopted grandpa, my already challenged focus ability took on real comical measures yesterday.  I tried 3x to make homemade jam – cheaper than buying it.  At least it normally is.  Me?  Three damn different times I forgot I had it on the stove – water boiled away each time.  I was able to capture/save it the first 2 times but the 2nd time around, the berries scorched.  Did the same thing with ginger tea – although no burning – just a “woops forgot that was on the stove”.

This may sound selfish but I desperately need my life to be just about me for awhile.  I can’t carry this load any longer the way I have.  My body is clearly telling me this.

I need a miracle.  Period.

Love,

Victoria

 

 

sending off an e-mail to one of you wonderful souls/friends, i was reminded of something i was going to share earlier – but forgot – until there was mention of timelines in the email – namely resolving timelines (sandra walter piece).

i was thinking of last night’s ashtar message from Sophia.  earlier today i was thinking logistically.  logically.  in order to implement a mass exodus out of such a complex matrix situation/simulation, it needs to be done with strategic perfection.  much like the plan being implemented by the Q team, getting us out requires a lot of planning and with that planning, pursuing/exploring several options to ensure success.

it is possible these “timeline” glitches – and jumps and the like – are the team on the outside working to get us out trying out a variety of different plans to ensure when that final GO command is given, it is done with perfection with as little (if any) harm/difficulty created on the people – “awake” and “unawake”.   this could explain the collective frustration – the growing impatience of people wanting to “Go Home” as well as the feeling that this is taking too long (should have happened by now) and quite possibly the feeling that we’ve already done this.  perhaps in practice (the US on the outside) has.

this is so complex – much more than our current version of a brain can grasp.  when dealing with technology we would not understand much less recall our Original experience (we can only feel into and get glimpses of how things once were) – well – not only are we at their mercy – shouting HURRY UP (whether energetically or literally) – well that doesn’t help speed things up.  unfortunately.  that’s like a child who has locked themselves inside of a car wanting out NOW but mommy and daddy have to call the locksmith first.  (not that we’re children and families are all mommy’s and daddy’s – just using this as a metaphor)

anyway – just wanted to pass this “thought form” along to ya’ll.  i am off to bed.

much love to you all ~

victoria

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i reflected quite a bit last night – knowing or at least open to my own pain and trigger’s could be interfering with my ability to feel into Sophia’s piece of a comm w/”Ashtar”………years ago i used to follow the whole Ashtar Command on a couple of websites.  it began to feel off so i stopped.  after so much deception here it has been a huge challenge for me at times to decipher what is authentic.

as i shared last night i felt there was some truth and yet had a lot of questions – namely the “do not doubt me or my message” and the “you will be taken on a ship – we have the ability to soothe anxiety and make you cooperative” part.  i do not like to be controlled in any manner and that need of mine for control can make it a real challenge to trust ANYONE – even someone who may be very deserving of my trust – esp. if they are about to do something TO me.

so last night i had an all-night dream experience.  my mate did too.  in his dream he was flying.  literally.  my dream – i was allegedly flying in planes all night – and yet i never myself on any plane.  i just continued to hop from one scene to another – where there were familiar people around me.  i knew i was headed home.  that’s all i knew.  and i also felt “i should be stressed.  i should be feeling fear” but i didn’t.

i feel it is absolutely possible – real – to make our transition out as easy as possible.  any trauma/fear – immediately soothed.  kind of like you need a necessary life saving procedure and you need to be “asleep” – comforted – to have the work done.  it is possible we will be moved up and out (like i have felt for over a year after having the experience at the kitchen table where i felt myself being lifted up and heard “this is how it happens”)….moved to a temporary state/location that looks like our current surroundings.  suddenly waking up in a totally new realm – and having all memories return immediately – that could be really difficult and produce a lot of fear.  the need to control our experience is an inherent part of being Conscious.  and given where we have come from and have experienced here – that need to control, for me and those like me, would be really kicking in.  kind of like having someone literally wake you up suddenly from a deep sleep – and you are in another dream experience.  it is jarring.

as gentle as possible.  that is what i am getting and feeling from this message.  make it as easy as possible.  as my mate said – with that level of technology we really are at their mercy as to how this happens.  what choice do we have but to go along and allow the process to unfold?  (i don’t like typing that – the need to control kicks in)

the message of “do not doubt me or my message” – it isn’t the words that bother me but the fear that this may be someone seeking to power over – as in harm us – all over again.  and yet if it is a being who is going to help you but you must let go and trust (say in a life saving procedure) – it is much easier on you – on me – if i DO trust all will be in my Highest and Best outcome/interest.  Love can speak that way – and would.  much like a parent to a child putting the child on a swing the first time.  child feels hesitation and parent tells the child to trust them – mama has you.  child trusts – then goes on to have a wonderful experience.

what did also align with me fully last night – that i forgot to share – was the concept that this was supposed to have happened already.  absolutely.  felt that in my body for well over a year.  that is reason for the frustration.  collective – in here and out there.

i know there is so much about this my mind cannot grasp.  my human brain.  the concept of “no time”.  so many questions.  the war we see going on – is it still ongoing or in some space is it over?  who goes where?  in my dream i saw people in my current family – and said “hey there’s my family!” and only 2 of them walked over to me.  the rest went another way.

as rose says – the division of the families.  move past the separation place and into the “returning to our Original family” – gently.  we would need that process to be gentle and very meticulously planned out.  not sudden.  as morpheus says in the matrix – sometimes the mind has difficulty letting go – especially the “older” one is (in their current form).

being as i have not mastered (at least the matrix definition) of “control” – as in control your experience – all i know to really do is to let go and allow and have even just a tiny bit of faith that “something” outside of my experience guides, protects and loves.  time to totally let go into that.  for we have NO memory of who we really are – no memory (all knowing that is) of WHERE we really are and WHERE we came from.  to get that all back – has to be gentle and as easy as possible.

love,

victoria