Category: Daily Notes

i decided to search myself (this site) on the web and noticed i am much more visible in other parts of the world.  here in the states – not much comes up now.  i show up more in australia, NZ and canada.

i also decided to check and clean up my SPAM folder on my email account. each day i get at minimum 30 messages that end up there.  tonight?  just one.

am i disappearing from this movie?  lol

an honest current rant:

just as i begin typing this i see “It’s Go Time” on a fellow “Home” sister on social media.  and as i see that i receive a message from brother rick saying we are to be ready to go at a moment’s notice – no date or time given.  just be ready.

what does that even indicate?  be ready.  how do we do that?

who among us is finished (at least today in this moment) with hearing “get ready it’s coming” – but month after month and year after year pass on by and here we are.  i’m not playing this game. i don’t want to.  i’m going on with my life – here in reality.  this reality.  the one i can see, feel, taste, smell.  while i have had plenty of experiences that have guided me that “IT” is real – why let myself feel any longing for Home at this point?  what purpose does it serve other than to distract me from the Here and Now?  to be honest – i’m feeling i no longer consent to just being “pulled out of here” without being asked – without some sort of a notice.  to do otherwise is now feeling like a violation.

could just be another program – although programs are benign until energetic intention is put into them.  so all of this could just be a never-ending torture show.  lol  feels that way to me at times.  dangle the carrot that is always just a wee bit out of reach.  at some point all stop playing the game – and we grow our own carrots.

who is down for that?

all of this being said what is going on today energetically??  around 1:30pm pacific time i was hit hard with something.  i had been feeling great – had a lot of energy then WHAM.  mate was out and when he came home he said he felt something heavy come over him at the same time.  all of the usual energy graphs i follow aren’t showing anything.  i had thought it was a proton blast – those usually make me feel the way i was and am – body suddenly feeling heavy needing to stretch and stretch and stretch.

to assist with this experience – in releasing it and moving my body – i took advantage of this amazing weather (warm and sunny) and went on a hard and fast bike ride.  that helped move some stored energy.

i will say this – whatever is happening is increasingly pushing me to speak my mind without internalizing out of fear.  i was once told – many years ago – my “real” voice was deeper.  i’ve been mistaken for being a young child over the years – and this morning i was sharing something w/my mate and as i did – i felt myself grow within about 10 feet and my voice was rather loud and booming.  i wasn’t trying to be domineering – but as i spoke words i have needed to say for a long time – i realized my voice was bigger and deeper.

what’s new with all of you?  anything amazing?  i am focused on wonderful supportive generous awesome experiences and people to enter my life.  my experience needs pretty much a full makeover.

love,

victoria

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and here I am….stuck in the middle with Q.  You.  Me.

Clowns, clowns everywhere.  (i don’t like clowns, btw – they’re creepy and deceptive)

The clowns.  I’m seeing and feeling – easier and quicker now – their deception.

If this really is a movie – a game – then there will be players on both sides. Although those seeking to expose and remove/heal ain’t playing a game. They’re hero’s in it to reveal truth.  I see my “role” and yet I don’t consider myself a “game player”.  Those who play games seek to deceive and to win at any cost – even if that means to harm others along the way.

NO.  THANK.  YOU.

There is now a channel I have been listening to for awhile – and now, not so sure I will be listening (or sharing).  In this particular video, a link to last night’s Q video link was shown – only the font was clearly different than youtube video fonts and the time of the video had been altered.  It was the time of the video that was the basis for the video for the author says it lead to an important “comm” (communication).

There are many alex jones’ out there.  People who share truth sugar-coated with deception.  If there is one thing that bounces off of me immediately – that is deception.  Intentional deception.  I miss the mark at times when it comes to sharing my truth and feels (like here it is getting near the end of this late october/early november I was feeling for much of the year for something big to switch/change – and yet, well, here we are….).  The one thing I do here more than anything else is to figure out what’s true and share it.  If I am wrong, I will admit it.

There are also the alex jones types in the spiritual community.  A group of alleged psychics recently claiming to now know the date of the event – toying w/people they would share it the next day – then everything changed for them and they gave an approximation.

Does a clown admit its a clown?  Nope.

Just something to take in and feel and keep in mind.  I feel a sense of responsibility to share what I feel is true – in a way that is authentic and transparent.  And wow does it piss me off when others create deception just to draw in an audience.  Those of us who are sincere truth seekers – it is easy to fall into their traps.  Another thing that awakens my inner roar – when I see others being lead astray.  I want to bring out my sword, cut through the nonsense and say “YOU WILL NOT DECEIVE THIS PERSON”.

Reveal thyself….remove thy mask!

I feeeeeel what is happening here is all that is not authentically US is being revealed.  It is easier now to spot deception.  To feel it.  It’s as though all of the hiding places – those little energy corners inside here – don’t have anymore covers.  Blankies been removed.  Both out there and within our own self.  For we have all done things in this experience – inside this pit (or whatever “it” really is) – to make it.  All sell out – most unknowingly – but some knowingly.  The entire pay-to-live puts us in situations where we do/say things that are absolutely against and contrary to who we really are. That’s why “they” – those creepy clown types – put it here.  Any thing to knock us out of alignment w/Who We Really Are and out of our heart-space.

So while there are clowns to the left and jokers to the right, I remain (as best as I can) centered in my Heart.  That is where truth shines brightest.

Love,

Victoria

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waking up today i could feel darkness.  i did not like the energies today.  dark thick and heavy.  i don’t like this “holiday” anymore.  myself and another mama took our girls out candy collecting (what we call it in this house).  the costume’s and decorations we saw were at a new level of horror.  there are a few images i’m trying to erase from my mind.

at more than one home, someone yelled “BOO” right before opening the door.  one house had horror decorations that adults shouldn’t even have to see.  my girl’s friends mama and i talked about this – both of us in agreement there is no purpose in displaying such horror.

then there were the costumes.  in particular clown costumes.  horror movie clowns.  one frightened me so much (startled me) my instinct was to hit the person with my stick.  i spent extra time tonight with my girl working with her thoughts about a couple of the displays she saw.

i like having a good time.  i like celebrating.  but i am DONE with any type of activity whose focus is creating trauma, displaying perversion and where the focal point is a deceptive agenda to worship evil.

i am struggling to see the ending i wish to see manifesting.  the headlines are insane today.  it’s as though the satanic worshiping matrix guards gained some ground today.  if everything is allegedly “over” on the outside – then why are things looking and feeling so sick and heavy?  i was told early in the day to be patient – to allow for everything to be seen.  and yet – that feels waaaaaaaay off to me.  that’s like witnessing a dog or child being beaten – going over to stop it – but being told “no wait – more people need to see this so people can see what’s been going on”.  doesn’t resonate with me one little bit.  

but it is as it is.  my ability to create my own reality is still on hold apparently – as it is for many of us who long for a new reality.  what choice do we have but to wait?  hmmm…we can always unite and protest like they’re doing across the realm.  might have to come to that for this ongoing delay after delay while the criminals do whatever they want without any consequence is absolute nonsensical B.S.  

i found out our state-run food charity has stopped using their funds to actually buy food.  i know – insane.  crazy.  wtf, right?  instead they are using that money for “education and advocacy” which is nothing more than bureaucratic nonsense as you don’t solve hunger problems by frigging talking about it.  YOU FEED THE PEOPLE FOOD.  so now the local food bank shelves are quite bare.  we visit our local food bank when we are in need (once a month is the allowed visit) – usually in the past we didn’t need to but this year due to financial/income loss (took two more this month) – we visit there most months now.  I noticed last month the shelves had far less food than normal.  I thought it was just a one time occurrence until I saw some local news about this.

Can we say SLUSH FUND?  Assets being seized means these bastards – while they are still free to roam – are stealing from those in need – the neediest of all.  That’s why my ability to “be patient and allow” is tapped out.

I’m just at a loss tonight so I will close up this piece.  Intending for FAR BETTER energies and experiences tomorrow.  The trauma and power over/criminal activity over and done with for good and in full.  For now here are some interesting LASCO captures.  Earlier today there was a lot of missing time/data – but not tonight.  Something appears to have happened to the sun – again – and that long wide white line appears to be a massive energy beam of some sort.  And I decided to share that one rather benign looking image (the C3) – but if you look at that projected line that is always shooting up to the right, it is normally very fuzzy looking.  Tonight – it is clear w/a bright light behind it.  Like my highly technical word choice?

Love,

Victoria

Two images from the C2:

C3:

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something changed here today – again.  feeling more the ability to tune in – and hear/feel – from Home.

headed out earlier, i was drawn to turn on the radio.  as i did i heard “there is a song for you to hear”.  the song?  ozzy osbourne “see you on the other side”.  i asked brother rick if his (departed) brother steve (who i spoke of in yesterday’s reflection piece) liked ozzy.  i had a first feel/impression that he was the one sending me this song.  sure enough – rick says ozzy was one of his brother’s favorites.  he too felt he sent that song.

driving home i was again drawn to turn on the radio – this time i ran through the stations until i heard manfred mann’s “blinded by the light” – one of my favorite’s as a teen.  what’s odd is this was a station that has never come in – 105.7 to be precise.  it was a bit fuzzy and i could feel in my body an energy trying to make sure the message was sent to me (almost as though me on the outside?? was sending it thus the feeling in my body).  i even went home and tried pulling up the station on another radio and got nothing but static.  i also went to pull up the song on youtube – realized it was a live version and was over 7 minutes long so i stopped it w/the thought i’d just listen to it later.

i get up and walk away and the song began playing again anyway.  lol  so i said ok perhaps i will listen to it now.

so we listen – and being it was a live/extended version there were some new lyrics – in particular “that’s where the fun is.  in the sun.  mama i was blinded by the light.”

sigh……..i wrote all of the above mid afternoon and now it is mid-evening.  i have these wonderful moments where everything feels right –  makes sense – then i “return to earth” so to speak and feel i don’t know shizbot.  i offer no proof of anything i share here on this site – just my own feel’s and the words of other’s i can only hope are at least being authentic and honest – even IF their “intel” and info proves false.

deception abounds here.  i had a good cry earlier today thinking about the recent experience last week with my girl’s little friend who received the flu shot.  i’m still in a bit of surprise over that.  some of her others friends i know receive it – and it doesn’t surprise me as i know the parents – i know their perceptions/views, etc.  but with the family of last week – i thought i knew the mother.  and either she deceived me (presented a false front) or was blind-sided by others in her family making the decision while she was gone – i don’t know.  i’m a pretty open book – and when i feel safe enough to open up with another – i expect the same in return.  i know – having expectations leads to disappointment.  that’s how i roll though.

at times i am called to think of the movie with Jeff Bridges – Starman (80’s). there is a scene where he has upset a hunter by bringing back to life a deer the hunter had shot and strapped to his truck.  the hunter is running towards “Starman” – who is standing there with a small smile on his face.  he has no clue what’s about to happen.  the hunter stops and punches Starman in the mouth and a fight proceeds.  Starman is obviously stunned. where he comes from, Being’s don’t engage in such behavior.  there is a trust in one another.  it is that innocence in Starman that really appealed to me back when i was a young teenage girl.  oh how often i’ve been told how “naive” i am.  i’m sure many of you have had the same experience.  ….  it’s easy to get blind-sided here.  so as i tell my girl – trust yourself first and foremost.  always.  that way if – and when – you face deception, you will be OK.  solid in who you are.

i have yet to master that.  lol  or shall i say – i have yet to heal the pieces of me that have fallen into the energy of betrayal throughout my life.

ugh.  at times – it feels best to just live as remotely and isolated as possible.

for now i continue to feel actions “behind the scenes” take place.  i trust in my own feels that continue to guide me in the one direction:  Transition Out and Up to Home.

financial needs – currently – high electric bill (although i did just apply for energy assistance which should be coming through next month for december and january’s bill) and a battery for the car.  below you see the many different ways to support the work i do.

and as always – please share any cosmic-like experiences you’re having. reading some of the words of others today that growing anticipation is all over.  as one put it:  a HUGE change (swift too) is in the air – expanding daily.  any moment now.  aside from that some are flying high, others more neutral – others really feeling these energies and feel quite wiped out.  i continue to feel like i’m “not of this world” – doing the sideways walking at times – and if i were able would be spending about 14 hours in bed now.  for those who have asked about our neighbor/adopted grandpa – his surgery went well and he is expected to get out of the hospital tomorrow to go to a rehab facility.  duration remains to be determined.  we spoke with him tonight – he sounds great.  cognitively he’s doing well.  he’s out of pain and is gaining strength to walk.  he wants to return home asap and we do too. the ‘hood (and our experience here) isn’t the same without him.

love to you all ~

victoria

p.s. – who else among you sang revved up like a Douche??  it’s Deuce – which i did not know until last year or so when i looked up the lyrics.  going through the comment section of the channel below, i see someone comment that they’ve been singing it as “douche” for 40 years – until just 3 days ago (i actually sang it as “wrapped up like a douche”).  lol  when i first met my mate i told him of my love of stevie ray vaughn’s music.  he said he loved his music too – in particular “gotta go sideways” song.  huh?  i said i hadn’t heard that one so he began to sing it – and i broke down in giggles (giggling now as i type this) and said “that song is actually called ‘cold shot’ – that’s a cold shot, babe….”  he laughed – a bit embarrassed.  we’ve sang it as gotta go sideways ever since.  lol  that’s ok – i’ve massacred countless songs over the years with my own interpretation of the lyrics.  hey that would be a fun game to play – people give their own lyrics as they feel them to be – then the real lyrics are presented – the one who messes up the most, wins.

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Thank you to All who support my work!  It is so very appreciated.

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1. Triskelion Necklaces.

2. SELECT CBD AFFILIATE

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UPDATE:  i shared my dream w/brother rick.  i had not originally shared in the piece below that one of the people i saw in the dream is someone i have been seeing in the dreamspace for months – male – and he’s always in a stocking cap with short facial hair/beard.  stocky. the me here now has no idea who he is – he just feels familiar.  i have no recall of him interacting with me much less looking at me – but he keeps appearing.  well he appeared again last night – this time there was a female next to him.  and this time he was looking at me – smiling.  so rick tells me he feels it’s his brother (deceased) – whose b-day just also happened to be one day before mine.  i looked him up on rick’s social media page – and sure enough – i was looking at an older version of who i have been seeing.  another tribe member it seems.

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i had strange, new dreams last night.  lots of new people and i was inside of a large house with a wrap around deck – kept going on and on – morphing into new situations.  the experience began after i received, in the dream, a text message from brother rick and as i went to answer it, my current reality i was in (this house) changed.  i felt like suddenly i was inside the eye of a tornado in terms of my space felt calm but all around me was rapid change.  it felt as though a lot of different realities/timelines were merging at the speed of light – into one – and then suddenly i’m in this house.  all along i feel calm but curious – a big confused – wondering “what’s happening?”

today i am absolutely wiped out so i am leaving this as it.  here are some energy reads.  the wackiness continues…..

thought this little odd ball image was kinda weird….

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Thank you to All who support my work!  It is so very appreciated.

I dedicate myself to The Great Awakening for free because I feel so passionate about this process.  This site (and my Patreon site) is my primary source of income.  And as such, there are many ways to support my work.  You can either leave me a donation by following the paypal button, or you can support me by purchasing one of the following:

1. Triskelion Necklaces.

2. SELECT CBD AFFILIATE

3.VICTORIA’S HOMEMADE FANTABULOUS TOOTH POWDER

4.My inter-active Journal, “Live To Impress Yourself” on sale at LULU.COM.

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whew boy what a day this has turned into.

to start off with i found out someone had hacked into my debit card and tried to buy some prescription drugs so that warranted a trip to the bank where i learned they don’t handle that – so i had to call the 800 number. then i went to drop off my child at a friend’s house for a playdate but no one was home.  i received a phone call telling me of the hold-up so i took care of the bank business and returned home.  we decided with the spare time we would call our neighbor and adopted grandpa at the hospital.  we were thinking of going up for a visit late in the weekend but he said NO VISITORS – just phone calls.  so being i had notified some of his friends and a social group of his that he was in the hospital i had to get on the phone again and pass along that message.

so i head out to deliver our girl to her friend’s house.  upon walking in we are greeted by a very aggressive, barking/charging dog – thankfully it was on a leash.  it’s the grandparents dog and they are visiting for the week to help out the dad while the mama is out of town.  i requested the dog be put outside.  at first i was told it’s ok we’ll just keep him on a leash.

wtf?  are you kidding me?  first face palm moment.

my girl’s friend said the dog scares her too and he nips at her a lot.

face palm #2.  poor little girl.

so i said i was not comfortable leaving my girl there as long as that dog was in the house so the dog was placed outside.

then………..i was told the little girl had been home for the past couple of days because she got her – FLU SHOT – and had a reaction.

wtf??

so i said i could not let our girl stay there.  viral shedding.

viral shedding?  what’s that, i was asked.

so i briefly explained it – essentially saying to look it up – while expressing my concern over the child receiving the flu shot as i know the mama has stated absolutely NO to the flu vaccine.  she and i have had talks about it.  so the grandparent simply said “well she’s not here.  she’s been gone all week.”  i reiterated i felt the mother would be upset knowing this had happened.  again – she hasn’t been home all week.

so……………visit with grandparents who bring their dog who nips at the child and barks aggressively and shoot her up with a toxic cocktail.  i was seriously having one of those gobsmack moments.  one of those “i cannot believe i am experiencing this – get me OUT OF HERE” so i got our girl – apologized to her friend – telling them this had nothing to do with either of them – they could play in another 2 weeks – but we had to go.

upon returning home i had to look for the other neighbor’s cane – which had been left over at grandpa’s house plus try and find the very expensive prescription pills that were said to have been left at his house on the porch. i investigated (we have his spare keys) and realized it after entering the house to get the can – that the package was inside the house.  how it got there?  i haven’t a clue.

i’m still too “i cannot believe i had THAT experience” of early in the day.

life it seems is telling me to detach and let it ALLLLLLLLLLLLL go – all of the blocks.  the contrary energies.  if it feels and appears to be “augh!” – it isn’t mine to experience.

so even with all of that i did have a really fun manifestation this morning.  for months i have been wanting to see the moon in its odd position – on it’s “back”.  others have been seeing it and sharing/commenting about it and i felt left out.  lol  so i began saying “ok before i get out of this experience i want to see the moon on its’ back!”

so at 6:20am i wake up, head to the bathroom and am nudged to look out back (east).  i stand there letting my eyes adjust saying “ok what am i looking for” – then i see the moon and well, i will let the picture below speak.

we are close.  oh so very very close.  YRFT’s video last night claims this and given how absolutely crazy chaotic today was with happenings and just the general energy out there among the populace (which felt chaotic – and detached/absolutely zoned out – some of the bank employees seemed to be in a totally different space) – well something is definitely afoot.  some energy reads will show the intensity as well.

love,

victoria

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