Category: Daily Notes

 

It is 4:44pm.  Moments ago I saw the below message on Twitter.

20 minutes prior to seeing this, I awoke from a nap.  First thought?  “Ugh – still here.”  In just recent days, I have arrived at what feels like a finality for me.  In recent days, trying to share this with others hasn’t gone well.  lol I’ve been told to “think outside of the box” (which brings up the immediate instinct to punch someone given that is exactly what I have been doing since 2002).  I’ve been told “keep going you’re awesome you’re amazing you will pull through” and other otherwise beautiful but for me now – absolutely meaningless phrases.  I am in need of people to simply hold space for me (also including below a beautiful sentiment on that).  That’s it.  Not “fix” and indeed no attempts at forcing me into a space that they are more comfortable in.

I am quite in Knowledge of how Amazing I Am.  I know my Worth.  I know my Value.  I know my gifts.  THIS IS WHY I HAVE ARRIVED AT THE SPACE WHERE I AM.  I KNOW being ME HERE in this realm – in this place we call earth in this pay to live system and all of the blah – ME doesn’t FIT here.

P E R I O D.

So prior to seeing this message from Adam, I had been looking out the kitchen window, having pulled myself up and out of bed to get dinner in the oven.  The sun was setting, creating a golden glow in the SW.  I watched quietly.  My mate walks over.  I nod in the direction of the setting sun and said quietly “that’s our way out.  Beyond that is Home.”  I felt the emotion of longing – sadness – come through me, entering my face and coming out my eyes in the proverbial tears.  I asked for a message – I needed some form of Hope from Home (only this time I said I don’t want no damn fly over w/the “see you soon” then 10 years later here we are).  I walked away with zero expectations.  None.  I linked the piece on the visualization for education – and was going to do something else when I was nudged to go to twitter.

And here is what I see:

We are going fairly soon. ED's capacitor is blowing hard with electrical discharges as the EL try & restart it. It's time to leave. True EDEN awaits. pic.twitter.com/WLvfqGfOlA

— Adam Foreman (@adamlforeman) November 28, 2019

And when all else feels lost, I always have my child-like humor.  Thanks goes out to our POTUS for this much needed laugh.  He’s such a troll artists – not everyone’s cup of tea of course – but as I say when people freak and say “OMG HE ISN’T PRESIDENTIAL!”  And I say – I know – isn’t it refreshing?  I just remembered in his rally speech last night in Florida, he remarked about his amazing chest (referring to his physical).  Makes this all the more hysterical – to me that is.

pic.twitter.com/11nzKwOCtU

— Donald J. Trump (@realDonaldTrump) November 27, 2019

Love,

Victoria

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well let me begin by saying i am not the only Being feeling angst and anger and knowing the line in the sand has been drawn in terms of the experience here.  it was the energy in my dreams last night.  when i woke up (whatever that really is here) – i saw myself in the above image.  george bailey.  it’s a wonderful life.  one of the final scenes where he is done w/the current experience he has had and is BEGGING to be returned to his Original Experience.  i’m using that as a metaphor obviously.

This is where I AM and my done-had-it has done and had it.

browsing around online i see others saying the same  when i shared my experience in one of the “Event” social media groups – i had a lot of validation and “yes same here today!”

last night’s dream had me in a room with a group of otherwise beautiful people – all of them absolutely asleep.  deeply programmed.  whatever label you wish to use.  i had been trying to reach them.  why, i don’t know given my desire to do this now while i am still awake in this body has vanished (whatever the “still awake in this body” also means here).  but that is what i was attempting to do.  i finally got it – and next thing i know i jump – fly – up on the table and began releasing.  yelling in a way that expressed my angst.  you’re all so deeply programmed.  you’re all so programmed to support the system you would rather remain asleep than see the Truth.  they all looked at me like i was crazy and i heard “victoria you are the one who is angry” and i said “I KNOW I AM ANGRY!”  nice try passive aggressive gaslighting entity.  lol  i also received the energy from them that they know they are asleep.  that is their choice.

if this is a movie as we keep hearing/reading – then some people are in that role to remain asleep.  why?  i have no clue.  no idea.  no concept.  but given even the MOVIE in and of itself is part of what is deceptive and fake here – ALL will indeed be pulled up and out of it.

the energy built throughout the day.  i had to release.  i excused myself, took my boxing gloves, went to the garage and let it all out without censoring myself or holding back.  whose experience is this?  if we the awakened (to HOME/EXIT that is) are done – then god damn it all LET US HAVE THAT EXPERIENCE.  i don’t consent to waiting.  and now there is talk about an impeachment trial in the Senate in order to “red pill the masses”.  at this point that feels like another program designed to D E L A Y that inevitable flow of energy i can feel is NEEDING to burst inside this realm and remove all of the deception and fakery and restore our Original Pure Experience – however that may have looked for you and me.

i know this – know it know it KNOW it – those people in my life out here aren’t going to be open to “new evidence”.  you can show them PROOF on paper that there was no quid pro quo blah blah blah – their addiction to the program is SO STRONG they will claim he’s still treasonous.  their hatred of him and desire to see him removed is far greater than their desire for Truth.  no joke.  i see it.  and my goodness if the MSM is still around to display all of this – that just adds to the filters that will be shown.  as i continue to say – want to end this game NOW?  truly end it by red-pilling the LIES OUT of the masses?  remove their programming?

BRING OUT JOHN KENNEDY JUNIOR AND HIS WIFE.  i gave this thought today as well.  our current POTUS is one of the most “hated” men around right now – his life in danger daily and yet he is so well protected.  why not have the same protection for Kennedy Jr?  isn’t that possible?  of course it is.

later this afternoon i hibernated in the bedroom and visualized myself now searching for Big Me on the outside.  i shook her awake and said “we’re out of here”.  i drug her to a screen – pointed to this scene in my life and said “change the scene” and selected a beautiful ocean beach scene.  warm.  i selected clothing for myself – bikini top, shorts, one of those silky skirts.  i was young.  youthful.  and full of energy. i placed a mix of trees around me – palm trees and fir trees.  some willows.  i inserted a cabin.   i then ventured out to the beach and sat down in the warm sand.  i let myself taste the sand and feel the warmth and support on my body.  warm ocean water lapped gently around my feet.  i knew it was still some matrix creation but i didn’t care.  if that is where i had to remain until all of this transitions then so be it.  i will be returning.

tonight as i was in the garage releasing i returned to seek out Big Me and commanded ENOUGH WAKE UP AND GET US OUT OF HERE!  me here and now does not consent to riding this all out while others create these final scenes or whatever’s.

i commanded a return to ALL OF ME.  i drew the line in the sand – literally (this time was concrete lol).  in desperation i commanded at the very least RELEASE THE TECH.  my desire to be Fully Restored has peaked.  it is here.  she has spoken.  i command ALL that has been repressed oppressed suppressed be restored for myself and for every single one of us.

as george bailey said please god i want to live again.  i want to live again.

i want to Live Truthfully Fully and Freely Again.  no exceptions.  NO EXCEPTIONS.

that is my Right as a Free Being and is the right of every single one of us.

love,

Victoria

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oh am i ready.  i am ready now.  i have been purging and purging and purging and releasing.  i am so ready not just for home and new but for REAL.  REAL and AUTHENTIC.

fake news is just another metaphor for how fake things have been here for us.  education.  history.  religion.  entertainment.  media.  science. words/language.  maps.  pay to live/money.  even music has had deception and as thus has been FAKE (altering the pitch, hidden messages, etc.)  99.9% of this entire construct is FAKE.

the ONLY THING that is REAL here is our ability to SEE this and CONNECT with one another in a real/authentic way.  and let me tell you finding that has been a huge challenge.  i am ME and open and authentic – becoming more and more so – and throughout my experience here that has been met with fear (disguised as other behaviors).

as i have purged all of the old “not me” – the pain, stories, beliefs, etc. – the more i have room within to feel that longing for home.  what once was.  real. authentic.  pure.

i want a realm where i don’t have to hide my child’s eyes because of what she may suddenly see or hear.  i don’t want any f’er to power over ANY of us simply because they hold more authority as defined by the matrix systems.  i want an experience where i have people in my life i call “family” and who really fit that word as we all define it as.  i want my experience returned where i can totally heal myself on command without having ANY challenges or struggles.  I WANT ME BACK!  

NO MORE INTERFERENCE.  no more lingering trauma’s.  no more blocks.

i want love.  PURE UNIVERSAL CONNECTION at ALL TIMES and not just a hit and miss deal like it is here.  my goodness the MEME’s i continue to see about lessons and challenges and suffering (frig i recently had a friend tell me it was the human condition to suffer – Buddhist BULLSHIT, i said)….meme’s saying how one makes a decision to DO but the “universe” comes in and says “NO” – how the universe has it’s own time and experience which says SEPARATION.  then my personal “big one” – you create your own reality.  here?  in THIS construct?  really???!!!

NONSENSE!  all of it!  fake fake fake fake fake

i’ve had enough fake.  jesus wipes even today when i can present to someone an obvious SPADE – i hear “oh yes that may be a spade BUT….” fill in the blank with any number of words set to keep the person detached and programmed.

ENOUGH!

energetically my body is done with any and all experiences such as that. people want to support this system – FINE.  BE FREE TO DO SO.
I AM DONE!

i want real connections where eyes meet and where authenticity of the full Being is shared.  i want to know what that is like.

and most importantly – and most humbly – most authentically – i want to REMEMBER what this is like.  what it feeeeeeeeeeeeeels like.  

then be it.  do it.  play with it.  always.  in ALL ways.

i am here to EXPAND.  enough CONTRACTING.  enough HIDING.  enough PRETENDING.

Let’s GO!   N O W

love,

victoria

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Thank you to All who support my work!  It is so very appreciated.

I dedicate myself to The Great Awakening for free because I feel so passionate about this process.  This site (and my Patreon site) is my primary source of income.  And as such, there are many ways to support my work.  You can either leave me a donation by following the paypal button, or you can support me by purchasing one of the following:

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this feeling/these words are big with me right now.  in truth, we don’t have a responsibility for anyone’s “awakening” – however that may look.  what we can do is share when we feel that inner nudge – AND when the other person is receptive and open.

what’s been a huge UGH for me is when the person is receptive – open – even goes so far as to say “ok so yes can i agree there is a deep state?  there are programs and agenda’s here to control us, enslave us, poison us?  yes, i can see that.  and yet what is the point in knowing all of this?”  as i say – have continued to say – KNOWING is the first step to EMPOWERING yourself.  KNOWING your surroundings is necessary to CHANGE the surroundings.

and yet – i have not met ONE PERSON who has been open and willing to speak with me and hear of my perceptions, the research i have done who has used that information to wake up and STAY awake.  i continue to see these same very well intentions people (but at least on this day otherwise very annoying to me)continue to push the agenda of control and enslavement.  i about popped my cork when recently i was told trump is a nazi.

yes there is a swamp yes under him he has been exposed yes the nazi party never left – but trump is THE king of nazi’s.

wow.  really W O W.

at this point i must let it all go.  continue to share my feels and perceptions and personal truths here.  that is all i can do.  those who come here are seeking the truth and are willing to challenge their narratives.  (i am in that space as well – having had my narratives and programs challenged MANY times just since putting this site out into the ether some 3 years ago.)

those who do not hold hope for new or change – well at this point it is going to take something HUGE – or ginormous as my child says – for these souls to “get it” and “see”.  something that they SEE with their own eyes – something that permeates the core of who they are – something on the outside to prod them from within.

until that time……….well……….i feel we are at the end.  the energy now is just pushing us – well certainly myself – to LET GO OF ALL THAT DOES NOT SERVE ME – the “ME” being KEY now.  employ the “NO’s”.  let go of the obligations and such if those obligations are interfering with what i know i need to do for myself at that moment.  with the happening’s/going on in DC – on the cusp of full on disclosure – to what is happening above and beyond – aligning like a carefully choreographed script – i feel i can finally see the finish line.  that volcano of Truth can no longer be suppressed.  these slow leaks are building up to the final implosion.

and as the song is now playing in my mind:  All I Want For Christmas……..FREEDOM.  TRUTH.  LOVE.  and HOME.

love,

victoria

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Thank you to All who support my work!  It is so very appreciated.

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the energy today felt blissful to me.  i was energized for most of the day.  i decided to check out the schumann – and sure enough – the bubble of bliss as i call it went on all day.  and i pause – reflect – roll my eyes and laugh at the same time (because what else IS there to do with all of this at this point):  that here it is, november 16 2019 and we’re still having these incoming energies/whatever they are.

i had some very fun number synchs.  17, 222, 1111 and 333. the “17” i saw on licence places numerous times.  the 222 came at me in numbers and from having a conversation w/the store clerk about number combinations after she rang up my total and announced i owed $11.11 – a first!  lol  i commented on it and she said her number that comes to her is 222.  i laughed again and said that became one of my “always seeing” numbers for almost the past 2 years.  the 333 was my mate’s experience at the store earlier in the day.  (copies of the receipts are below)

the need for donations and $$ blessings continues.  as i have shared here our adopted grandpa is in a rehabilitation facility (it appears he may be going to the facility we have wished for him – much better care – great food and just down the road so back in his neighborhood).  anyway this time of year we normally do a lot of work for him in november and december and it was something we were counting on – we knew we had that income coming in for the holidays.  that won’t be happening now.  i’m sure ready to kick the door to this year shut for good – certainly financially.  this has been the most challenging year in that regard in terms of how we have been hit. doesn’t align with what we hold – the intentions we set, etc. etc.  ugh as i said that ability has been stymied all year.  any and all amounts in donations help out and are gratefully appreciated!  

Below are some proton reads, the schumann and those number combo’s on today’s receipts.  Love to you all….

Victoria

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I dedicate myself to The Great Awakening for free because I feel so passionate about this process.  This site (and my Patreon site) is my primary source of income.  And as such, there are many ways to support my work.  You can either leave me a donation by following the paypal button, or you can support me by purchasing one of the following:

1. Triskelion Necklaces.

2. SELECT CBD AFFILIATE

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Did we have one of those “insert this timeline here” today?  Today felt noticeably different and not in a blissful way but in a way that felt jagged and irritating.  Most everyone I spoke with today seemed quite irritable – myself included.  As someone on one of my social media pages said they were being seriously triggered by everyone so no “peopl’ing” today.  lol

I needed that experience today but I live with 2 other people in a 750′ space so UGH!

I did see a lot and I emphasize a LOT of numbers today.  22/222/1222…and 17.  I felt a nudge when I would see these numbers that felt like a “keep going just get through this one”.  Later in the afternoon I checked out some of the energy graphs.  The schumann has a noticeable color change that, I felt, explained the feeling that some temporary “scene” had been injected today.  (below)

On my way to the store I was nudged to look off to my right and saw a couple that felt odd to me.  I felt “see that?  that’s an example of a hologram”.  I am still on the fence w/that whole concept – I won’t know until I know – until we all know.  That being said I was inspired – within – to really begin to under and innerstand what is implied by “you are seeing a movie” last night and thought – too heavy for so late at night.  And not up to it at the moment to explore.

On a fun note, I kicked my mate’s butt at checker’s.  It was a good game – he spoke of strategy and all that while I remained quiet and came on strong at the end.  he he he

In other experiences – tonight – the fire in the fireplace just isn’t burning tonight.  The wood is fine – dry and seasoned – but something is strange tonight – cannot seem to keep it going tonight.  Also of interest along those lines – twice in the past week or so – late late at night – after we’ve gone to bed – the fire will suddenly flare up on its own.  It is an energy – and all is energy here – and something is really up/off/strange today.  The (magnetic) fire energy is telling us this tonight and as a result it is quite darn cold in here tonight!

Spoke with Grandpa D tonight.  It was right before dinner – and normally they give him a pain pill right before his dinner meal.  Not today and he was feeling it – and this was reflected in his voice on the phone.  A staff member finally checked in and he engaged in conversation with her – heard him yelp in pain (and this is not like him – if he’s giving any indication he hurts you know he’s really hurting).  We had to end the call.  This place has pretty good care – just not nearly enough of it.  Very short staffed (the for profit medical system).  Later on our neighbor called – she had gone to see him just a little bit after our phone call and he had asked her to call us as he knew we were upset to hear about his pain earlier.  He wanted us to know he was doing much better – pain pill given – and his legs/feed moved.  Turns out his feet were resting on the footboard (end of the bed). !!  They discovered he has bed sores on his feet yesterday – causing him additional pain.  Flipping frack…

I’m just horrified at his situation.  He needs more care than what he is receiving – his children are looking into other facilities around here that provide much better care and more of it – including a really nice, non-profit place just 6 blocks from here.  I’ve been inside of the place a few times – it is quite lovely – beautiful grounds.  I have had several neighbors in the past week ask me why he isn’t there.  The resident to CNA ratio is 10x that of where he is now.  Normally Grandpa D is outside walking – doing something outside – every day.  This place would have him back in his neighborhood and would give him the chance to actually be outside – do more – see more.  As he said tonight – a first in the 3 weeks he’s been away – “I just want to go home!”  My mate took it that he meant he was ready to go.  Nope, I said.  He is ready to leave the place he’s at.

Tonight things rather accumulated for me emotionally and I had a Chevy Chase moment.  Video below.

Here’s the latest schumann.  And those images around the sun continue (most recent captures below – 11/15). Hoping one of the bigger channels catch on and start talking about it.  They have far more sophisticated programs and hardware than I do.

 

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Thank you to All who support my work!  It is so very appreciated.

I dedicate myself to The Great Awakening for free because I feel so passionate about this process.  This site (and my Patreon site) is my primary source of income.  And as such, there are many ways to support my work.  You can either leave me a donation by following the paypal button, or you can support me by purchasing one of the following:

1. Triskelion Necklaces.

2. SELECT CBD AFFILIATE

3.VICTORIA’S HOMEMADE FANTABULOUS TOOTH POWDER

4.My inter-active Journal, “Live To Impress Yourself” on sale at LULU.COM.

I am also an affiliate for BlueHost.  If you or someone you know are interested in starting/creating a website and are in need of a hosting company, please consider using BlueHost.  It’s who I use and I have always found them very helpful when I have needed extra assistance.  

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