If this movie is ending, then my character is leaving the set absolutely exhausted. This system keeps throwing responsibilities and crap my way that I can no longer process or handle. Exhaustion has taken on a new level. I have a rash in various spots of my body – stress related most likely. That and really lousy air quality. Skies clearer and cleaner than ever? Not here. And not in other places throughout the country/realm from what others are showing/sharing.
Yesterday I took my girl to a girls roller derby club. I thought she had adequate supplies. I was told she needs more safety equipment. Not in the budget. I’m struggling to pay the bills now – the very basics are a challenge. Financial hit after hit has done me in. With the recent heartbreak/stress of our adopted grandpa, my already challenged focus ability took on real comical measures yesterday. I tried 3x to make homemade jam – cheaper than buying it. At least it normally is. Me? Three damn different times I forgot I had it on the stove – water boiled away each time. I was able to capture/save it the first 2 times but the 2nd time around, the berries scorched. Did the same thing with ginger tea – although no burning – just a “woops forgot that was on the stove”.
This may sound selfish but I desperately need my life to be just about me for awhile. I can’t carry this load any longer the way I have. My body is clearly telling me this.
sending off an e-mail to one of you wonderful souls/friends, i was reminded of something i was going to share earlier – but forgot – until there was mention of timelines in the email – namely resolving timelines (sandra walter piece).
i was thinking of last night’s ashtar message from Sophia. earlier today i was thinking logistically. logically. in order to implement a mass exodus out of such a complex matrix situation/simulation, it needs to be done with strategic perfection. much like the plan being implemented by the Q team, getting us out requires a lot of planning and with that planning, pursuing/exploring several options to ensure success.
it is possible these “timeline” glitches – and jumps and the like – are the team on the outside working to get us out trying out a variety of different plans to ensure when that final GO command is given, it is done with perfection with as little (if any) harm/difficulty created on the people – “awake” and “unawake”. this could explain the collective frustration – the growing impatience of people wanting to “Go Home” as well as the feeling that this is taking too long (should have happened by now) and quite possibly the feeling that we’ve already done this. perhaps in practice (the US on the outside) has.
this is so complex – much more than our current version of a brain can grasp. when dealing with technology we would not understand much less recall our Original experience (we can only feel into and get glimpses of how things once were) – well – not only are we at their mercy – shouting HURRY UP (whether energetically or literally) – well that doesn’t help speed things up. unfortunately. that’s like a child who has locked themselves inside of a car wanting out NOW but mommy and daddy have to call the locksmith first. (not that we’re children and families are all mommy’s and daddy’s – just using this as a metaphor)
anyway – just wanted to pass this “thought form” along to ya’ll. i am off to bed.
much love to you all ~
victoria
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i reflected quite a bit last night – knowing or at least open to my own pain and trigger’s could be interfering with my ability to feel into Sophia’s piece of a comm w/”Ashtar”………years ago i used to follow the whole Ashtar Command on a couple of websites. it began to feel off so i stopped. after so much deception here it has been a huge challenge for me at times to decipher what is authentic.
as i shared last night i felt there was some truth and yet had a lot of questions – namely the “do not doubt me or my message” and the “you will be taken on a ship – we have the ability to soothe anxiety and make you cooperative” part. i do not like to be controlled in any manner and that need of mine for control can make it a real challenge to trust ANYONE – even someone who may be very deserving of my trust – esp. if they are about to do something TO me.
so last night i had an all-night dream experience. my mate did too. in his dream he was flying. literally. my dream – i was allegedly flying in planes all night – and yet i never myself on any plane. i just continued to hop from one scene to another – where there were familiar people around me. i knew i was headed home. that’s all i knew. and i also felt “i should be stressed. i should be feeling fear” but i didn’t.
i feel it is absolutely possible – real – to make our transition out as easy as possible. any trauma/fear – immediately soothed. kind of like you need a necessary life saving procedure and you need to be “asleep” – comforted – to have the work done. it is possible we will be moved up and out (like i have felt for over a year after having the experience at the kitchen table where i felt myself being lifted up and heard “this is how it happens”)….moved to a temporary state/location that looks like our current surroundings. suddenly waking up in a totally new realm – and having all memories return immediately – that could be really difficult and produce a lot of fear. the need to control our experience is an inherent part of being Conscious. and given where we have come from and have experienced here – that need to control, for me and those like me, would be really kicking in. kind of like having someone literally wake you up suddenly from a deep sleep – and you are in another dream experience. it is jarring.
as gentle as possible. that is what i am getting and feeling from this message. make it as easy as possible. as my mate said – with that level of technology we really are at their mercy as to how this happens. what choice do we have but to go along and allow the process to unfold? (i don’t like typing that – the need to control kicks in)
the message of “do not doubt me or my message” – it isn’t the words that bother me but the fear that this may be someone seeking to power over – as in harm us – all over again. and yet if it is a being who is going to help you but you must let go and trust (say in a life saving procedure) – it is much easier on you – on me – if i DO trust all will be in my Highest and Best outcome/interest. Love can speak that way – and would. much like a parent to a child putting the child on a swing the first time. child feels hesitation and parent tells the child to trust them – mama has you. child trusts – then goes on to have a wonderful experience.
what did also align with me fully last night – that i forgot to share – was the concept that this was supposed to have happened already. absolutely. felt that in my body for well over a year. that is reason for the frustration. collective – in here and out there.
i know there is so much about this my mind cannot grasp. my human brain. the concept of “no time”. so many questions. the war we see going on – is it still ongoing or in some space is it over? who goes where? in my dream i saw people in my current family – and said “hey there’s my family!” and only 2 of them walked over to me. the rest went another way.
as rose says – the division of the families. move past the separation place and into the “returning to our Original family” – gently. we would need that process to be gentle and very meticulously planned out. not sudden. as morpheus says in the matrix – sometimes the mind has difficulty letting go – especially the “older” one is (in their current form).
being as i have not mastered (at least the matrix definition) of “control” – as in control your experience – all i know to really do is to let go and allow and have even just a tiny bit of faith that “something” outside of my experience guides, protects and loves. time to totally let go into that. for we have NO memory of who we really are – no memory (all knowing that is) of WHERE we really are and WHERE we came from. to get that all back – has to be gentle and as easy as possible.
i decided to search myself (this site) on the web and noticed i am much more visible in other parts of the world. here in the states – not much comes up now. i show up more in australia, NZ and canada.
i also decided to check and clean up my SPAM folder on my email account. each day i get at minimum 30 messages that end up there. tonight? just one.
just as i begin typing this i see “It’s Go Time” on a fellow “Home” sister on social media. and as i see that i receive a message from brother rick saying we are to be ready to go at a moment’s notice – no date or time given. just be ready.
what does that even indicate? be ready. how do we do that?
who among us is finished (at least today in this moment) with hearing “get ready it’s coming” – but month after month and year after year pass on by and here we are. i’m not playing this game. i don’t want to. i’m going on with my life – here in reality. this reality. the one i can see, feel, taste, smell. while i have had plenty of experiences that have guided me that “IT” is real – why let myself feel any longing for Home at this point? what purpose does it serve other than to distract me from the Here and Now? to be honest – i’m feeling i no longer consent to just being “pulled out of here” without being asked – without some sort of a notice. to do otherwise is now feeling like a violation.
could just be another program – although programs are benign until energetic intention is put into them. so all of this could just be a never-ending torture show. lol feels that way to me at times. dangle the carrot that is always just a wee bit out of reach. at some point all stop playing the game – and we grow our own carrots.
who is down for that?
all of this being said what is going on today energetically?? around 1:30pm pacific time i was hit hard with something. i had been feeling great – had a lot of energy then WHAM. mate was out and when he came home he said he felt something heavy come over him at the same time. all of the usual energy graphs i follow aren’t showing anything. i had thought it was a proton blast – those usually make me feel the way i was and am – body suddenly feeling heavy needing to stretch and stretch and stretch.
to assist with this experience – in releasing it and moving my body – i took advantage of this amazing weather (warm and sunny) and went on a hard and fast bike ride. that helped move some stored energy.
i will say this – whatever is happening is increasingly pushing me to speak my mind without internalizing out of fear. i was once told – many years ago – my “real” voice was deeper. i’ve been mistaken for being a young child over the years – and this morning i was sharing something w/my mate and as i did – i felt myself grow within about 10 feet and my voice was rather loud and booming. i wasn’t trying to be domineering – but as i spoke words i have needed to say for a long time – i realized my voice was bigger and deeper.
what’s new with all of you? anything amazing? i am focused on wonderful supportive generous awesome experiences and people to enter my life. my experience needs pretty much a full makeover.
love,
victoria
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well i’m moaning and roaring today – releasing trauma. old energies. the “fed upedness” is ever present in my vessel. “so if you’re tired of the same old stories oh baby turn some pages”. i’m burning that old book that has held all of my stories. my body wants to move as i say “NO” to old behaviors both from myself and from others of significance in my life.
anyone know of someone in need of a year or two housesitting? i’m down for it. opportunities flow my way abundantly and easily and wonderfully aligning perfectly satisfying everything i need and desire right now.
really seeing certain things manifest quite quickly now – power of self talk – words – it all matters.
as i was looking into the news of the project veritas drop (definitely these folks are part of the plan if only in their timing of their drops) – j.epstein and clan – i thought of the date. november 5. early november. i had a feeling that my ongoing feel of late october/early november for something big – huge – to happen – this may be it. i then recalled lisa harrison saying something about once the epstein experience is fully revealed all really speeds up exponentially until IT.
as i have shared here our adopted grandpa is in a rehab facility dealing with a rare form of aggressive cancer. things like that pull you full into NOW and many things that are amiss about this realm. the medical system for one. i read a meme online recently that said the western medical system is just another arm of the luciferian agenda. can’t argue against that. we visited with him a couple of days ago. i get emotional at nursing homes. room after room of beautiful souls in old bodies – alone. it’s so wrong – how we bring life into this world and how we let it leave – how the system forces it out. he won’t be staying there beyond his need to get his strength again after the surgeries he had. we’re hoping for in-home care at his home – or a local assisted living facility. there are some good ones around here. i brought him several meals and requested (and was allowed) they be put in the frig/freezer at the nursing station. sure, i was told – that’s allowed as long as it’s labeled. so all got labeled and put into what i thought would be a secure place. i spoke with him tonight – our other neighbor was there visiting when i called and she informed me all of his meals were gone. i inquired further with a staff member and no one knows what happened to them. his daughter will be visiting tomorrow – she said she would look into it. there is also concern in locating his wallet. ugh.
you never know at these places. my great uncle was in a really nice facility many years ago for late stage alzheimer. he was so out of it – he was an easy target for the cleaning woman who was stealing his checks and forging his signature. he had quite a bit of money so she got away with a lot of purchases until my mother, who was monitoring his bank account, noticed the unusual activity.
i’m rambling…
all is being seen – we continue to read and hear those words. to those who have hidden the most horrible of behaviors and actions – what now? some say don’t judge them – don’t seek justice. and yet – what do we call it when such people are held accountable and removed from society so they cannot continue harming others? JUSTICE.
and now – i dive into the headlines of the day. perhaps that word JUSTICE will be more evident now.
love,
victoria
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and here I am….stuck in the middle with Q. You. Me.
Clowns, clowns everywhere. (i don’t like clowns, btw – they’re creepy and deceptive)
The clowns. I’m seeing and feeling – easier and quicker now – their deception.
If this really is a movie – a game – then there will be players on both sides. Although those seeking to expose and remove/heal ain’t playing a game. They’re hero’s in it to reveal truth. I see my “role” and yet I don’t consider myself a “game player”. Those who play games seek to deceive and to win at any cost – even if that means to harm others along the way.
NO. THANK. YOU.
There is now a channel I have been listening to for awhile – and now, not so sure I will be listening (or sharing). In this particular video, a link to last night’s Q video link was shown – only the font was clearly different than youtube video fonts and the time of the video had been altered. It was the time of the video that was the basis for the video for the author says it lead to an important “comm” (communication).
There are many alex jones’ out there. People who share truth sugar-coated with deception. If there is one thing that bounces off of me immediately – that is deception. Intentional deception. I miss the mark at times when it comes to sharing my truth and feels (like here it is getting near the end of this late october/early november I was feeling for much of the year for something big to switch/change – and yet, well, here we are….). The one thing I do here more than anything else is to figure out what’s true and share it. If I am wrong, I will admit it.
There are also the alex jones types in the spiritual community. A group of alleged psychics recently claiming to now know the date of the event – toying w/people they would share it the next day – then everything changed for them and they gave an approximation.
Does a clown admit its a clown? Nope.
Just something to take in and feel and keep in mind. I feel a sense of responsibility to share what I feel is true – in a way that is authentic and transparent. And wow does it piss me off when others create deception just to draw in an audience. Those of us who are sincere truth seekers – it is easy to fall into their traps. Another thing that awakens my inner roar – when I see others being lead astray. I want to bring out my sword, cut through the nonsense and say “YOU WILL NOT DECEIVE THIS PERSON”.
Reveal thyself….remove thy mask!
I feeeeeel what is happening here is all that is not authentically US is being revealed. It is easier now to spot deception. To feel it. It’s as though all of the hiding places – those little energy corners inside here – don’t have anymore covers. Blankies been removed. Both out there and within our own self. For we have all done things in this experience – inside this pit (or whatever “it” really is) – to make it. All sell out – most unknowingly – but some knowingly. The entire pay-to-live puts us in situations where we do/say things that are absolutely against and contrary to who we really are. That’s why “they” – those creepy clown types – put it here. Any thing to knock us out of alignment w/Who We Really Are and out of our heart-space.
So while there are clowns to the left and jokers to the right, I remain (as best as I can) centered in my Heart. That is where truth shines brightest.
Love,
Victoria
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waking up today i could feel darkness. i did not like the energies today. dark thick and heavy. i don’t like this “holiday” anymore. myself and another mama took our girls out candy collecting (what we call it in this house). the costume’s and decorations we saw were at a new level of horror. there are a few images i’m trying to erase from my mind.
at more than one home, someone yelled “BOO” right before opening the door. one house had horror decorations that adults shouldn’t even have to see. my girl’s friends mama and i talked about this – both of us in agreement there is no purpose in displaying such horror.
then there were the costumes. in particular clown costumes. horror movie clowns. one frightened me so much (startled me) my instinct was to hit the person with my stick. i spent extra time tonight with my girl working with her thoughts about a couple of the displays she saw.
i like having a good time. i like celebrating. but i am DONE with any type of activity whose focus is creating trauma, displaying perversion and where the focal point is a deceptive agenda to worship evil.
i am struggling to see the ending i wish to see manifesting. the headlines are insane today. it’s as though the satanic worshiping matrix guards gained some ground today. if everything is allegedly “over” on the outside – then why are things looking and feeling so sick and heavy? i was told early in the day to be patient – to allow for everything to be seen. and yet – that feels waaaaaaaay off to me. that’s like witnessing a dog or child being beaten – going over to stop it – but being told “no wait – more people need to see this so people can see what’s been going on”. doesn’t resonate with me one little bit.
but it is as it is. my ability to create my own reality is still on hold apparently – as it is for many of us who long for a new reality. what choice do we have but to wait? hmmm…we can always unite and protest like they’re doing across the realm. might have to come to that for this ongoing delay after delay while the criminals do whatever they want without any consequence is absolute nonsensical B.S.
i found out our state-run food charity has stopped using their funds to actually buy food. i know – insane. crazy. wtf, right? instead they are using that money for “education and advocacy” which is nothing more than bureaucratic nonsense as you don’t solve hunger problems by frigging talking about it. YOU FEED THE PEOPLE FOOD. so now the local food bank shelves are quite bare. we visit our local food bank when we are in need (once a month is the allowed visit) – usually in the past we didn’t need to but this year due to financial/income loss (took two more this month) – we visit there most months now. I noticed last month the shelves had far less food than normal. I thought it was just a one time occurrence until I saw some local news about this.
Can we say SLUSH FUND? Assets being seized means these bastards – while they are still free to roam – are stealing from those in need – the neediest of all. That’s why my ability to “be patient and allow” is tapped out.
I’m just at a loss tonight so I will close up this piece. Intending for FAR BETTER energies and experiences tomorrow. The trauma and power over/criminal activity over and done with for good and in full. For now here are some interesting LASCO captures. Earlier today there was a lot of missing time/data – but not tonight. Something appears to have happened to the sun – again – and that long wide white line appears to be a massive energy beam of some sort. And I decided to share that one rather benign looking image (the C3) – but if you look at that projected line that is always shooting up to the right, it is normally very fuzzy looking. Tonight – it is clear w/a bright light behind it. Like my highly technical word choice?
Love,
Victoria
Two images from the C2:
C3:
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They keep coming – and it is my intention they continue for I am open to them – in so long as they are aligning with Truth and our Freedom.
Late last night, I noticed one of my subscriber’s had taken a trip back to her home state. It was either earlier this year or last year she made a similar trip and at the time she spoke of this sense of importance that she be there. We talked about maybe that was because she was supposed to be with her family during the event/transition. Well obviously that didn’t happen then because we’re all still here.
So back to last night. I notice she’s made a trip back home and I had the thought – maybe this is supposed to be the time for her to be with her family for perhaps the event is really upon us.
So I decided to share my little nudge with her. She responded back telling me of a dream her daughter (who is traveling with her) had. In the dream a ship landed in the parents yard and “human looking people came out and lined up on both sides and they were clapping. Their clothes were light green, kinda Star Trek looking.”
I know this – the collective feel is something is upon us – as in RIGHT NOW. Does this mean IT? I don’t know – I know what I WANT this feeling to be about. So for now I share this as another synchronicity experience – where the collective energies of the ALL are calling this experience to an end – so the New Original Return to ALL that once was pours through us and into our moment by moment experience for as long as we desire.
Energies – the LASCO’s continue to show missing data – today 9 hours worth (in one chunk). Some proton and electron spikes – quite large – ongoing (w/some missing data s howing up on those solar wind reads).
Collectively I am sensing a lot of angst/frustration (continuation of that). I am seeing a big increase in people suddenly requesting prayers for suffering family members/friends suddenly hit with a health crisis. Ya’ll know me – I see no need for suffering of ANY KIND – and it feels like more of that poking crappola. Let us ALL ease out of this experience – WITH ease. And Love. And Pure Freedom of Choice (which I also know some may have chosen to exit Home prior to that event moment). A S A P.
Currently my heart feels heavy. Our neighbor and adopted grandpa is in a rehab center for now. Depending upon more tests he may be staying indefinitely or he will be returning home with home health care. You could say he’s the heart of the neighborhood. He’s been like family to us – for almost 8 years – and I really sense and miss his presence. Deeply. Practical focus – we also do side work for him quite regularly and now that may be disappearing. I am beyond energetically done w/the $ hits our family took this year. Not one more. I intend my income INCREASE and have continued to intend this for months. So come on Universe. Home. Step up and help me manifest that. The stress/worry is almost chronic at this point and we literally cannot take one more hit.
I had a humorous moment at the store today. The clerk and I were both struggling to complete a transaction. I had requested to buy a roll of pennies and he tried to give me an extra $.50 in change. When I pointed this out to him, I reminded him I had bought a roll of quarters. He gives me a look and said “pennies”. We laughed as we knew it was taking the two of us to figure out this otherwise simple transaction. “It’s really been one of those days!” he said. “Scattered and unfocused?” I asked. “YES!” he said laughing. So we both canceled/cleared the experience and intended for ease – with me walking out of the store saying those words, waving my arms around – getting both odd looks and smiles my way. lol
The sun shines. We have shelter, food and warmth. For that I remain grateful. Words of healing for our adopted grandpa are very much appreciated and requested. Thank you.
something changed here today – again. feeling more the ability to tune in – and hear/feel – from Home.
headed out earlier, i was drawn to turn on the radio. as i did i heard “there is a song for you to hear”. the song? ozzy osbourne “see you on the other side”. i asked brother rick if his (departed) brother steve (who i spoke of in yesterday’s reflection piece) liked ozzy. i had a first feel/impression that he was the one sending me this song. sure enough – rick says ozzy was one of his brother’s favorites. he too felt he sent that song.
driving home i was again drawn to turn on the radio – this time i ran through the stations until i heard manfred mann’s “blinded by the light” – one of my favorite’s as a teen. what’s odd is this was a station that has never come in – 105.7 to be precise. it was a bit fuzzy and i could feel in my body an energy trying to make sure the message was sent to me (almost as though me on the outside?? was sending it thus the feeling in my body). i even went home and tried pulling up the station on another radio and got nothing but static. i also went to pull up the song on youtube – realized it was a live version and was over 7 minutes long so i stopped it w/the thought i’d just listen to it later.
i get up and walk away and the song began playing again anyway. lol so i said ok perhaps i will listen to it now.
so we listen – and being it was a live/extended version there were some new lyrics – in particular “that’s where the fun is. in the sun. mama i was blinded by the light.”
sigh……..i wrote all of the above mid afternoon and now it is mid-evening. i have these wonderful moments where everything feels right – makes sense – then i “return to earth” so to speak and feel i don’t know shizbot. i offer no proof of anything i share here on this site – just my own feel’s and the words of other’s i can only hope are at least being authentic and honest – even IF their “intel” and info proves false.
deception abounds here. i had a good cry earlier today thinking about the recent experience last week with my girl’s little friend who received the flu shot. i’m still in a bit of surprise over that. some of her others friends i know receive it – and it doesn’t surprise me as i know the parents – i know their perceptions/views, etc. but with the family of last week – i thought i knew the mother. and either she deceived me (presented a false front) or was blind-sided by others in her family making the decision while she was gone – i don’t know. i’m a pretty open book – and when i feel safe enough to open up with another – i expect the same in return. i know – having expectations leads to disappointment. that’s how i roll though.
at times i am called to think of the movie with Jeff Bridges – Starman (80’s). there is a scene where he has upset a hunter by bringing back to life a deer the hunter had shot and strapped to his truck. the hunter is running towards “Starman” – who is standing there with a small smile on his face. he has no clue what’s about to happen. the hunter stops and punches Starman in the mouth and a fight proceeds. Starman is obviously stunned. where he comes from, Being’s don’t engage in such behavior. there is a trust in one another. it is that innocence in Starman that really appealed to me back when i was a young teenage girl. oh how often i’ve been told how “naive” i am. i’m sure many of you have had the same experience. …. it’s easy to get blind-sided here. so as i tell my girl – trust yourself first and foremost. always. that way if – and when – you face deception, you will be OK. solid in who you are.
i have yet to master that. lol or shall i say – i have yet to heal the pieces of me that have fallen into the energy of betrayal throughout my life.
ugh. at times – it feels best to just live as remotely and isolated as possible.
for now i continue to feel actions “behind the scenes” take place. i trust in my own feels that continue to guide me in the one direction: Transition Out and Up to Home.
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and as always – please share any cosmic-like experiences you’re having. reading some of the words of others today that growing anticipation is all over. as one put it: a HUGE change (swift too) is in the air – expanding daily. any moment now. aside from that some are flying high, others more neutral – others really feeling these energies and feel quite wiped out. i continue to feel like i’m “not of this world” – doing the sideways walking at times – and if i were able would be spending about 14 hours in bed now. for those who have asked about our neighbor/adopted grandpa – his surgery went well and he is expected to get out of the hospital tomorrow to go to a rehab facility. duration remains to be determined. we spoke with him tonight – he sounds great. cognitively he’s doing well. he’s out of pain and is gaining strength to walk. he wants to return home asap and we do too. the ‘hood (and our experience here) isn’t the same without him.
love to you all ~
victoria
p.s. – who else among you sang revved up like a Douche?? it’s Deuce – which i did not know until last year or so when i looked up the lyrics. going through the comment section of the channel below, i see someone comment that they’ve been singing it as “douche” for 40 years – until just 3 days ago (i actually sang it as “wrapped up like a douche”). lol when i first met my mate i told him of my love of stevie ray vaughn’s music. he said he loved his music too – in particular “gotta go sideways” song. huh? i said i hadn’t heard that one so he began to sing it – and i broke down in giggles (giggling now as i type this) and said “that song is actually called ‘cold shot’ – that’s a cold shot, babe….” he laughed – a bit embarrassed. we’ve sang it as gotta go sideways ever since. lol that’s ok – i’ve massacred countless songs over the years with my own interpretation of the lyrics. hey that would be a fun game to play – people give their own lyrics as they feel them to be – then the real lyrics are presented – the one who messes up the most, wins.
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