Category: Daily Notes

UPDATE:  i shared my dream w/brother rick.  i had not originally shared in the piece below that one of the people i saw in the dream is someone i have been seeing in the dreamspace for months – male – and he’s always in a stocking cap with short facial hair/beard.  stocky. the me here now has no idea who he is – he just feels familiar.  i have no recall of him interacting with me much less looking at me – but he keeps appearing.  well he appeared again last night – this time there was a female next to him.  and this time he was looking at me – smiling.  so rick tells me he feels it’s his brother (deceased) – whose b-day just also happened to be one day before mine.  i looked him up on rick’s social media page – and sure enough – i was looking at an older version of who i have been seeing.  another tribe member it seems.

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i had strange, new dreams last night.  lots of new people and i was inside of a large house with a wrap around deck – kept going on and on – morphing into new situations.  the experience began after i received, in the dream, a text message from brother rick and as i went to answer it, my current reality i was in (this house) changed.  i felt like suddenly i was inside the eye of a tornado in terms of my space felt calm but all around me was rapid change.  it felt as though a lot of different realities/timelines were merging at the speed of light – into one – and then suddenly i’m in this house.  all along i feel calm but curious – a big confused – wondering “what’s happening?”

today i am absolutely wiped out so i am leaving this as it.  here are some energy reads.  the wackiness continues…..

thought this little odd ball image was kinda weird….

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whew boy what a day this has turned into.

to start off with i found out someone had hacked into my debit card and tried to buy some prescription drugs so that warranted a trip to the bank where i learned they don’t handle that – so i had to call the 800 number. then i went to drop off my child at a friend’s house for a playdate but no one was home.  i received a phone call telling me of the hold-up so i took care of the bank business and returned home.  we decided with the spare time we would call our neighbor and adopted grandpa at the hospital.  we were thinking of going up for a visit late in the weekend but he said NO VISITORS – just phone calls.  so being i had notified some of his friends and a social group of his that he was in the hospital i had to get on the phone again and pass along that message.

so i head out to deliver our girl to her friend’s house.  upon walking in we are greeted by a very aggressive, barking/charging dog – thankfully it was on a leash.  it’s the grandparents dog and they are visiting for the week to help out the dad while the mama is out of town.  i requested the dog be put outside.  at first i was told it’s ok we’ll just keep him on a leash.

wtf?  are you kidding me?  first face palm moment.

my girl’s friend said the dog scares her too and he nips at her a lot.

face palm #2.  poor little girl.

so i said i was not comfortable leaving my girl there as long as that dog was in the house so the dog was placed outside.

then………..i was told the little girl had been home for the past couple of days because she got her – FLU SHOT – and had a reaction.

wtf??

so i said i could not let our girl stay there.  viral shedding.

viral shedding?  what’s that, i was asked.

so i briefly explained it – essentially saying to look it up – while expressing my concern over the child receiving the flu shot as i know the mama has stated absolutely NO to the flu vaccine.  she and i have had talks about it.  so the grandparent simply said “well she’s not here.  she’s been gone all week.”  i reiterated i felt the mother would be upset knowing this had happened.  again – she hasn’t been home all week.

so……………visit with grandparents who bring their dog who nips at the child and barks aggressively and shoot her up with a toxic cocktail.  i was seriously having one of those gobsmack moments.  one of those “i cannot believe i am experiencing this – get me OUT OF HERE” so i got our girl – apologized to her friend – telling them this had nothing to do with either of them – they could play in another 2 weeks – but we had to go.

upon returning home i had to look for the other neighbor’s cane – which had been left over at grandpa’s house plus try and find the very expensive prescription pills that were said to have been left at his house on the porch. i investigated (we have his spare keys) and realized it after entering the house to get the can – that the package was inside the house.  how it got there?  i haven’t a clue.

i’m still too “i cannot believe i had THAT experience” of early in the day.

life it seems is telling me to detach and let it ALLLLLLLLLLLLL go – all of the blocks.  the contrary energies.  if it feels and appears to be “augh!” – it isn’t mine to experience.

so even with all of that i did have a really fun manifestation this morning.  for months i have been wanting to see the moon in its odd position – on it’s “back”.  others have been seeing it and sharing/commenting about it and i felt left out.  lol  so i began saying “ok before i get out of this experience i want to see the moon on its’ back!”

so at 6:20am i wake up, head to the bathroom and am nudged to look out back (east).  i stand there letting my eyes adjust saying “ok what am i looking for” – then i see the moon and well, i will let the picture below speak.

we are close.  oh so very very close.  YRFT’s video last night claims this and given how absolutely crazy chaotic today was with happenings and just the general energy out there among the populace (which felt chaotic – and detached/absolutely zoned out – some of the bank employees seemed to be in a totally different space) – well something is definitely afoot.  some energy reads will show the intensity as well.

love,

victoria

PROTONS:

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it is difficult to determine if i am experiencing these incoming energies (reads below) or if what i am feeling is an accumulation of everything culminating into one big, slow, gentle really meltdown today – that is still ongoing.  body is moving very slowly – my ability to think and form a sentence a big challenge.  i did not sleep well last night – a very restless night.  worry about our neighbor, who has surgery this morning and will undergo another surgery in 2 days.  the cause behind his current issue is cancer.  then there was a family issue that triggered me – partly due to myself/not having the love and support i need and partly due to it being a potential real disappointment to my child.  i will be saying something if it turns into said disappointment.

Love does have a way of offering support during desperate moments too. we had a friend visit today.  he popped into my mind shortly after waking up and i thought “wow i could really use one of his hugs today”.  minutes later i receive a text from him.  when he came over he gave me an amazing hug – long and meaningful.  when i commented he said he had actually been studying on HOW to hug – with purpose and meaning.  yeah he’s a quick study because i felt a much needed sense of ease.

isn’t it interesting at times how others perceive us as compared to how we perceive ourselves?  he told me – as he has before – i have one of the biggest lights he’s seen.  he sees it in my eye.  i present myself as someone who has it all together.  focused.  up.  i had to laugh as i said that i don’t feeeeeeeeeeeeeel that way within.  i may present an image but inside i am screaming.  exhausted.  unfocused – at least struggling to find focus so scattered is a better term.

program taught me well – how to present myself to the world.  we’re all programmed to present a certain image.  what’s interesting – for me that is – is i have no real desire to hide my authentic inner self now.  i long to share and connect – and i do when the chance/moment presents itself.  i feel like a lonely little puppy who has wondered and searched and now needs a safe, secure place to rest until i no longer need such an experience – then i can go off on my own, tail wagging, and share and give and help the way i like and want to.  as i said – i feel my reserves are dried up.  i need to recharge.  

so these energies……….rather a new frequency – for these eyes that is.  i just had an image of a colander being shaken – removing all of the unwanted stuff.  given that is my current experience it would make sense to me that this is what these frequencies are doing to us.  whatever is going on – it can end now.  if it’s all a movie – we’re the “actors” in it and can have that choice.  there are some movies not worth watching and playing out.

in practical matters, we had a pretty big jump in the electric bill.  it became quite cold here – far earlier than the norm – and i had to run the heat at night – so i knew it would be going up.  still – when it arrives – the mind isn’t always prepared for what the eyes are seeing.  i’m absolutely done with trying to conserve and pinch and scrimp.  i do that as much as i know how to – we all do.  so unnatural to the inner Self who wants to live and be freely, unrestricted.  i am thankful for some return of more normal weather – sunny, dry.  we were supposed to do some yard work for our neighbor this week but that obviously has been put off for the indefinite future.  i understand the reason why of course – but when you are counting on making money and that chance gets either canceled or put off – and you really needed that money – it brings up – well – a lot.  anyone wanting to help – as always – it is appreciated.  deeply.  

here are today’s kapow’s and oomph’s….

love,

victoria

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this has been a challenging day.  our neighbor – whom we call “grandpa/dad” – had to be taken to the ER today.  it wasn’t a serious emergency but enough of one his doctor ordered him to go.  he was going to schedule surgery on his back – but today the condition was so serious he could barely walk.  we helped him finish getting dressed and into our other neighbor’s car and off he went.  last call we received he will likely be scheduled for surgery first thing tomorrow.

it’s scary.  i never do well with situations like this where i have no control.  on the outside, i look together.  i can talk about it.  i can take action when i need to as i did today.  but inside?  my heart?  my mind?  i’m anything but “together”.  he really is like family to us (and that is something that is in serious short supply in our life) and we’re all afraid – worried.  our girl of course is as well and we talked with her quite a bit today about what happened.  she had never seen her grandpa like that.  she asked the question if he was going to be ok.  i said yes i felt he would be – told her his doctor and surgeon really are the best around here so he was in very competent hands. however she asked if i was really sure he would be ok.

no – i’m not.  he’s elderly.  there are risks involved at his age.  i was going to tell her yes – i knew he would be ok – but i decided to be honest.  no – i cannot guarantee he will be ok.  but i did say the odds were overwhelmingly in his favor.

this just sucks – being human in this 3d shithole, ok?  when you KNOW all that has been hidden that could be released now – in just this instance – to heal another in need.

i’m f’ing done with this game of suck it up and pretend.

the political stuff reaching new level of crazy today making my mind scream inside.  had to turn it off – walk away.  the amount of illegal happenings now – why there cannot or are not arrests happening now and i mean now – tonight – of those violating them – i don’t comprehend that.  any joe/jane average person would have been locked away long go.  i’m not liking any part of this “plan”.

tonight someone local was expressing concern over seeing someone wearing a baphomet necklace.  the talk turned to satanism and i was appalled over how many locals support satanism – saying it isn’t what people really think it is.  and hey even chelsea clinton is said to be a satanist and she’s a good person.

jeezus wipes!  awakening happening?  not in my city.  not even CLOSE to an awakening.

i’m pausing now – laughing a bit – as i have been narrowing down a group of people to go see for claustrophobia experiences.  what do i say?  hey i not only feel stuck and overwhelmed in certain situations but i feel stuck in this realm and i want a COMPLETELY NEW experience.  not just a better version of what i have (although t this point i’d jump at that experience) – but a totally new experience of freedom and real connection and creating.

an experience where i can talk freely because we’re all at the same level of awareness.

an experience where i feel deep connection with others – with my experience.

an experience where ALL has been seen and revealed.

an experience where not one more being or entity is powering-over me.

an experience where – with our “neighbor/family” – we say hey no big deal remember?  we got a quick cure for that!

and no need to concern yourself with insurance or money because hey that was old 3D crap.

say any of that to a counselor and see the look appear behind the politically correct words that come out.  i’ve had it happen.

not that i’m bitter or anything.  lol  yeah – obviously there is that element to me.  i’m just absolutely finished with how i am feeling inside – the waiting – the frustration – the longing.  thoughts create your feeling experience.  i get that.  and yet – i don’t know what new thoughts to have.  anything new feels like a lie.

so i continue on as is – and as I Am.

appreciate healing thoughts sent the way of our family member.

love,

victoria

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i was “called” to write out something in the shower today on the tile.  this is only the second time i have had this happen.  i had been thinking of the energy reads i am capturing – in particular that black line showing up again on the schumann.

i thought of the cat’s feel that these are timeline jumps.  i had dismissed that – in part because i didn’t align and mostly in part because i did not want any fuckery going on any longer.

and yet – today – i let go of my attachment to any “theory” i have and felt into it again.  i feel they are right.  and yet there is something else to it.  i felt i needed to expand upon those two words (timeline jump).

that is when i had an urge to draw out a line on the shower tile.  a beginning and an end – to this experience that is.  these “black lines” could (COULD) quite possibly be jumps ahead in the experience here.  a quicker push to the finish line.

it certainly is true for so many of us that this experience has dragged on – and on and on and on – for far too long for many of us – energetically.  we feel it in our bodies – and now i see a growing number of the collective saying END THIS GAME.  “game” could be what some of us call the “movie”.  it could refer to what some view as the arrests and trials.  it could refer to the releasing of tech.  and it could refer to all 3 (depending upon what your beliefs and feels and perceptions are).  the end result is the same – the collective is DONE.

and so it could be US creating the “rush to finish” – not in a way to hamper the end – but to speed it up.  continue to crash that thing we call “human created time” into Zero Point.  the jumps are actually (could quite possibly be) leaping us ahead.

that explains why we wake up and next thing we “know” – it’s the end of the day and WTFRIG did we even get done?  lol  that and the fatigue and the feeling of always trying to play catch up.

so that is my current perception on these missing gaps in data and the black line on the schumann.  below you will see those proton spikes are back.  i felt ’em again today – right on “target”.  the body suddenly began aching – i had the huge desire to stretch this vessel – and walking sideways was another (thankfully brief) experience.

and oh yes – another interesting capture on the LASCO C3.

love,

victoria

these blasts really seem to be felt by my particular vessel:

LASCO C3 ??

The infamous black line:

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WOW!  talk about intense.  today i have experienced sideways walking (where when walking i am pulled off to the left and have to ground myself to avoid stumbling) – and intense inner heat (where i had to change clothes, including socks so i could put on flip-flops) – to body aching and inner pressure.  an after-dinner massage w/the body massager and some intense stretching on the yoga mat is on the agenda.

this follows a night of discomfort – both in terms of body heat and aching – especially in the legs.  i could not sleep that well – it took me over an hour to fall asleep – even with my CBD oil.  that never happens these days.

the body heat really ramped up a couple of hours ago.  my mate had the same experience at the same time as i did.  below are some proton reads and you can see – the frequency went off the graph.  that is about when i began to feel a blast of dizziness and internal heat.

earlier today i was feeling “home”.  i “got” some things in the shower portal – don’t remember what they were now.  nothing really exciting – or new – just some confirmation of what i continue to feel.  when i was in the middle of my daily doing’s i was called to look at the television twice and saw two songs (back to back):  the gathering and ascension.  (didn’t feel like taking a pic – haven’t been doing that as much lately).  this also happened after i was making the attempt to pay my site hosting fee.  talk about blocks.  i finally had to go to live chat – but was able to finally get “through” on my own after some more attempts.

today on a walk with my child i had a flash back of the first “event” dream i had – and i was able to see in the dream what she was wearing – the same coat she had on today.

what does this mean?  please don’t ask.  i no longer know a dang thing other than what is going on in the vessel and what i desire and want – and am OH SO READY FOR.

love,

victoria

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aaaand…………..

my daughter is watching toy story – the first one – on this cool rainy breezy sunday afternoon.

it’s a huge challenge to watch any hollywood produced movie now isn’t it? the purity i once felt, for this particular movie especially, is gone.  there is an excellent scene in the movie where Buzz finds out for the first time he isn’t a real space commander but a child’s toy.  the look on his face – the inner piece of him radiating shock, devastation.

betrayal.

such an energy is very much how every one of us have felt upon awakening to the real “show” we have been a part of.  it varies for us all – for me – it’s been an experience that i have had to take in small pieces.  today i felt another round of that heaviness.  such a sweet story told by some of the most horrible creatures exhibiting the most vile of all behaviors.  (for those not know what/whom i speak of – i am referring to hollywood actors – this time one w/the last name “hanks”)

none of us consented to this.  no one in their right state of being would ever fully consent to participating in such an experience – even if it IS a type of movie.

i am called to recall a question i was asked to answer on some paperwork recently – how do i “do” with authority figures?

lol

and lol some more.

i wanted to respond with my Truth – NO ONE is an authority in my life.  I am the authority in my experience – even though others HAVE powered over/controlled by creating and supporting the various systems of power-over/enslavement.

and yet even at that – i consider NONE of them authority figures.  they’re just beings and entities who slumber along unable or unwilling to see their role.

and at this point if they ain’t willing to step aside and embrace Freedom – that new AND original experience – they can be removed and terminated.

returning to buzz – he is a good example of awakening to the program.  he woke up – then got clear on who he really is – as he says – for the first time in his experience he thinks clearer than ever.  why?  another was not in control over his thoughts.

like buzz – while he awakened to the reality of himself and his experience – he rose up again and exposed injustice – fought for freedom, friends and family.

love,

victoria

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