This morning I was feeling into this realm that many say is a simulation ~ a phrase I align with. The trapped feeling was quite strong and today I could see how this war being waged is nothing more than a game. It also brought up previous reincarnation cycles – forced reincarnation cycles – certainly not fully conscious cycles – in which I played a rather unconscious role in the game of war and division. Just another player.
All deception. Games are based on deception.
Deep within I felt and claimed I object to playing any role in any game.
Games are fake.
I do not do fake. No more.
I continue to unplug. I HAVE unplugged as much as I am capable of doing.
I also thought the reason why I like late night is because the unconscious players are knocked out and their energy is flat. Easier for me to BE in as good of a zone as I can create.
Do you feel it’s about over?
I do. It is a very quiet but unwavering/solid feel within.
Is this just another program?
This is more of a feeling than a desire.
I will leave this piece with the latest from Linea who says we are in the home stretch. YES WE ARE!
I called our local energy assistance office to inquire as to my application for electrical assistance. It has not arrived which is very perplexing. We did have a package disappear a couple of weeks back (had to get a refund for that) so I am concerned someone may have taken the filled out application. The office is unable to take further appointments until December 17th and they no longer prioritize (due to the state’s new rule) shut-off notices, which we are facing.
As I said – our income took a hit this month – rent increase, insurance premium increase plus a source of income dropped. We are doing the best we can and yes – I am very weary of trying to get ahead – keeping up has been the challenge. Normally we work for our neighbor next door raking his leaves but we were too sick this month so he took care of it on his own.
The bill is $275.50. ANY assistance would be wonderful. I have a paypal account for those new to the site or not knowing I have one. The link is below (thank you to one of you for letting me know I did not include this – I was a little stressed when I originally put this up and forgot). Thank you.
This morning, while in a state of meditative bliss and release, I remembered levitating and how natural this was for us ~ especially when we connect our energies via lovemaking. Now how AWESOME will that be again?!
I then had this knowing that there is a matrix source and of course REAL Source. The source w/in the matrix talks a lot. Uses a lot of words. Usually it doesn’t ask what you need. Doesn’t feel “service to you” oriented. Disregard that nonsense. LOVE SERVES. HELPS. P E R I O D.
Pure Source ~ the one that is not simulated, replicated, copied ~ is pure creation that NEVER seeks to power over, control or even question. It simply Shares and Offers. This knowing I received came as feelings within so putting such experiences into words is a challenge.
This still leaves me with questions. Why was this experience in this realm allowed? The Source that I am aware of in this state of consciousness within is in complete alignment with Freedom. And in the state of Freedom one simply doesn’t power over another.
And yet, as I received last night, it is possible that the Source in You is different than the Source in Me. We are one – but not the same.
Moving on to the thought of home, the feeling of home and experiencing this changing reality. My daughter and mate, who are more visionary than I am (I am the sensing/feeling type) ~ have been seeing other dimensions ~ straight on too and not out of the corner of their eye/in their peripheral vision. Things seen: cats, other being’s in a variety of garments, types of cars and crafts. My experience? The feeling of being in a trapped environment – trapped in a cage – is H U G E now. I had a brief conversation with a dear friend from my teenage years and he has been having the same experience for some time now as well.
This means something, I said. I then recalled the powerful dream experience I had over the summer where I saw myself on a table in a room surrounded by high tech gear – computers mostly. I was sleeping/unconscious. I was also younger, bigger and had a lot of curly hair (which has been a natural desire of mine for as long as I can recall – while also desiring the “I am supposed to be taller” experience. It’s difficult to explain other than to say these two desires have been life long and have left me feeling gypped as I hear “i was SUPPOSED to look like this”…).
I have been chanting within “remember” over and over while also sending the powerful message “WAKE UP!” There is a reason I am doing this.
What I saw in the dream – is that REAL me within the matrix? Is this vessel I am playing in now just another programmed avatar?
Asking myself those questions I suddenly got dizzy and had to take a slow deep breath.
ALL of these questions are leading me to Truth.
And as I have been throughout this cycle and likely ANY previous cycle in which Truth has been kept from me ~ I continue to command the Truth reveal itself to me.
How are all of you?
Much love,
Victoria
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if you wish to read what came through to me early this morning during a dream and upon awakening, please go to the bottom. before i get to that i feel like doing a little personal sharing of 3d happenings in this matrix.
the electric company called me today to discuss my current bill and the warning of a shut off notice. i recorded the call. i reiterated my refusal to consent to their new non-standard fee of paying their employee to come out and read our analog meter. same service that has been occurring monthly for as long as i have paid for electric services without any fees. i asked the person why do we suddenly have to pay such a fee? (and it’s quite expensive – $34.) aside from agreeing with me as to the amount, she had no answer other than to say i consented to paying this fee when i opted out of the smart meter program. no, i said. consent means i give you verbal or written authorization and i have continuously stated and written “i do not consent to paying these fees”.
i realize this means nothing out in the corporate power-over system that has been in place. the judges. courts. they all side with the corporation. however i stand firm in WHO I AM. i no longer consent to being powered-over and bullied and i made that very clear today. this is not over, as i said ending the conversation.
my mate then received a letter from the urgent care center he had to visit last week over concerns he had a broken wrist. at the time the doctor said he saw no indication of a fracture – just a sprain. well today he was told there is a fracture that was discovered after he left the office. and so with that, he had to return to get a splint along with a referral to an orthopedic doctor for consultation and possible surgery. what’s most concerning is this break happened simply because he lifted 4 pieces of firewood.
that’s it. just 4 pieces.
he has had so many health conditions over the past 20 years – i had completely forgot 10 years ago he was told he had low bone density. completely forgot that. the doctor was concerned over how easy this fracture occurred as well. if it was low 10 years ago and now this happens – how brittle are his bones now? that’s what lyme does though. this bio-weaponized disease attacks every part of the body.
just like the victims of the DEW fires in CALI – how do you fight back against an enemy like that? other than sharing your story and commanding a different reality……and justice.
that is all i wish to discuss about all of that for now…..
so………without further ado……my dream…..i had a very interesting one this morning. i was looking at 3 coins – one of them was silver. i turned that one over and saw John Kennedy’s face. i then noticed the date – 1963. the year he was assassinated. also interesting is that year of coinage did produce 90% silver coins.
when i woke up i felt into this. here’s what came to me:
incoming energies are purifying certain collective trauma’s. we as a collective had a huge timeline alteration not to mention a massive blast of trauma energy the day John Kennedy was killed that came both via our innate response as well as “ick” energies likely outside of the realm. that’s what the creator’s of darkness thrive on as we all know. as we also know Kennedy had the desire and intent to take on the folks we call the cabal – to end the fed – to expose all of the evils and horrors of this realm (and the truth OF this realm and those who hijacked it). allegedly the same agenda as Trump.
then on 9/11 we had a very similar globally-impacted event. another timeline fuckery. more trauma injected. that created event was labeled as america’s new pearl harbor.
what i then felt was that on 11/22 (around that day/date) and again on or around december 7th (anniversary of pearl harbor) we will be having purging opportunities via incoming energies to heal and cleanse those experiences – experiences that completely violated every one of us and our inherent right to Freedom. i already cried over kennedy’s assassination earlier. even though i had not yet entered this realm, i could feel the trauma was still something energetically a part of me.
when i got out of bed i noticed Tom Price – the positive side of 2012 – had an interesting video claiming “we won – it is over” that in a way aligned w/what i felt this morning although he didn’t use these dates. then there was an e-mail terran cognito posted by heather ann tucci jarraf that spoke of alignments coming in last night – all in unity- and all experienced now by all. (i will post both here shortly).
so there you go………just putting this out there to ya’ll. my role in all of this hasn’t really been to ascertain energies so this was kind of surprising to me this morning. i hope it’s true. as i continue to say i have PURE intention to share NOTHING but the truth. the one thing i have disdain – or shall i say complete dis-alignment with – more than anything (aside from harming others – especially the children) is deceit.
in other tidbits i heard of today – more people are having experiences of being home at christmas – by christmas. we will see.
also having a different perspective on seeing these numbers – esp. the 11:11. feeling it’s just another program of distraction. the matrix reaches in – pokes at us – we then think “focus all of our energy and send it out”. i don’t know – just really becoming more into being in tune with Me and Me only. no more external focus. no more moments of “oooh lookie that pretty object” distractions. does that make sense? same for these mass meditations which never did feel “right” to me. they can be co-opted…hijacked far too easily especially when they are organized by big outlets and people we don’t know. now this is NOT to say our own focused energies are not powerful. they are. but i am feeling from here on out – any group type meditations, for me, will need to be by “ordinary” being’s with pure intention who have no contacts with outside being’s they channel during the meditation and send energy to them during the meditation and the like. ALL really does feel like a potential hijacked program here to me so….as i said….going within and feeling the Source of All there – and there only.
while still here….how all is….that is where i am.
much peace, clarity and love to you all ~
victoria
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Today began after a long night. Anyone having the experience that your attempts at working with the energies to create what you wish aren’t working so well (yet)? I put up the energy grid of protection for us all. Intended certain sleep-time experiences.
Had a completely different experience that was not of my conscious choosing.
Woke up early to get necessary documents for a phone interview with a local agency for assistance paying the electric bill for the winter. Phone call came in and immediately the eligibility clerk is telling me we don’t meet the criteria for a phone interview. What? I did 2 weeks ago and wasn’t this the phone interview? It took me almost 10 days just to get through to make the appointment. I tell her this IS the phone interview. When did things suddenly change? She then had to speak with her supervisor and get back to me.
A couple of minutes later she phones and relays information that is NOT factual and I again reiterate my position – remind her it was she herself I originally spoke to and made the phone interview. Yes, she remembered. She said she was putting me on hold to go speak with her Supervisor again.
When my phone remained silent for too long, I looked down and see she had hung up. And she did not phone back.
So I called the agency – left 2 separate voice mail messages including one in her voice mail box.
Then interestingly enough, the latest power bill arrives that includes the threat of a shut-off notice.
You see, early this year our state decided to approve the installation of those smart meter’s (think CALI fires and DEW weapons). In three different phone calls with the utility company I opted out while also refusing to consent to paying for someone to come out and read the meter (never had to do that before – total power over tactic). In each conversation I was told I could be held liable for collection fees. Not ONCE was I told I could face a shut-off notice for failing to pay the non-standard (as they call it) meter reading fee.
So each monthsince August I have sent hand-written a letter to the utility company, telling them the reasons for the amount I am paying and again, reiterating my refusal to consent to paying the non-standard meter reading fee.
They think they can threaten us to shut off our electricity when I HAVE BEEN PAYING for our electrical use AND typical standard fees all along?
So we will now have to check into this from a legal perspective. We do have options and I am not letting myself freak out about this. But I am pissed off nonetheless. This isn’t right. Righteous anger is what I am experiencing. Threatening to shut off our power because I have refused to pay for their employee to come out and read our meter even though these same people have been performing the same activity for decades without charging us for it?
And now we have the local agency – after arranging for a phone interview to seek some $$ relief from winter hearing bills – telling me we don’t qualify for such an interview at this time? After originally telling me we do (and I have done this the last 3 years as well with them)….
This month has been hit after hit – simply put. First having to submit to the home owner in order to get a refrigerator by agreeing to a rent increase (in spite of that move by her being illegal and in violation of local and state rental law) – because she holds it over our head how generous she’s been by letting us live here this long….then to learn my mate’s health insurance premium jumps up while another source of income is going down. My mate had to go to urgent care last Friday – sprained wrist. Who knows how much that will cost. And he is beginning with a new doctor for what will likely be a year of specialist visits, scans and likely a surgery or two. This lingering cold virus – this manufactured (so obvious to me by now) virus that seems to have been sprayed throughout the nation as we are seeing the same symptoms throughout the country. And then there was having 2 officials from the school district show up on my front step asking me if we have a home-schooled child here. Someone around here reported me even though homeschooling is legal here – and in fact we have the most lenient of all home-schooled laws in the country. Concern she wasn’t registered. WTF?! I know the law. Nanny state combined with an over zealous, nosy bot who doesn’t care about this family. If he/she did, they would have walked over and asked “hey what do you need?” Instead they crossed a huge personal boundary and stuck their damn nose where it doesn’t belong.
Can’t we be KIND to one another? Supportive? Accepting of differing views and choices? Seriously – can’t we just be KIND to one another?
Any power over behavior is such an illusion in that it pulls us out of who we are – making us forget our Oneness.
NONE of us is above another. Not a damn one of us.
ALL are equally deserving of the most awesome beautiful creation here.
And yet the systems of enslavement keep on grinding away.
Doorway out, please.
Deep breath……….
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I don’t want to have to handle these situations – but I do. And I continue to focus on the reality OF MY CHOOSING. Where ALL I experience and ONLY all that I experience is Love. Freedom. Kindness. Understanding. And generosity. That is who I attempt to be and become again each day.
I leave you with a couple of “look here” moments – songs playing on the Soundscape channel. Such moments are also what keep me going.
mate and i are having quite the conversation. he is back on the Q/Trump team. i should have recorded it and shared but i will share something briefly about what i just received: this plan playing out – the exposing of the swamp, the dark, the revealing of jfk jr – was planned outside of this realm. i hope – i feel – we are nearing the end.
and btw i just ordered that 20 year anniversary special and if it arrives before junior reveals himself, i will be sharing all sorts of tidbits i find in it – a thanks to my partner for buying it for me – a light holiday gift.
For the past week or so I have noticed a new inner “churning” which bring forth the following questions: Is this real? Am I doing this? (which then then leads to the thought and knowing “I am NOT supposed to be doing this”)…
Examples:
Recently at the store while getting some items in the bulk section, I suddenly felt a huge sense of frustration within as I knew – and said out loud – I am not supposed to be doing this! I am NOT supposed to be living this way!
Cleaning the bathroom I stopped and felt and thought – Who is doing this? What part of me is doing this? (i sensed a part of me was somewhere else – having a good time – lol – at least living the way I am SUPPOSED to be living which then leads me to say ok what is this “supposed” way? I don’t know for sure – just a feeling based on how I WANT to be living how I KNOW I have been living).
I am under no further illusion that I am not FULLY ME. I know many are having this experience.
I also know many are having this recent experience of feeling like a trapped animal in a cage on the verge of something HUGE – knowing you need to do SOMETHING but not knowing what to do nor how to change the feeling. A long time friend of mine who is one of the most practical people I know is having this experience and it sort of surprised me to hear him having it – and then again, not all so surprised because behind his earthly practical logical side is a Huge Beautiful Light (which is why we are such good friends).
The sky is also very strange tonight. I was outside earlier putting the towel on the battery – 2 1/2 hours after sunset – and the sky was like twilight. I didn’t need a light to see the battery. It was also unusually warm ~ sweats and a tank top were all I needed. I took some pictures which I am linking below. I kneeled on the ground below our tree and aimed straight up into what I was seeing as a pink sky (facing south). My camera first showed pink but each time I took a picture, all that showed up was brightness.
So I feel “something in the air”.
My mate senses time suddenly sped up tonight. (I am just releasing this “brief” reflection is not really brief). I feel like I am on a roller coaster right now ~ the deeply programmed lashing out (unaware) – trying to grab – poke – and I keep riding on by.
Destination Home. Which still feels unknown.
Destination Unknown.
But I am (having to be) ok with that.
Love,
Victoria
UPDATE: Speaking of “something in the air” and “time speeding up” – just 6 minutes ago we had cloud cover and quite warm temps. Now? A sudden wind from the east pushed the clouds away and it is VERY cold. The moon also looks rather tilted. In the back of my mind I keep hearing “this is just a simulation”. I want to now know: WHO IS IN CHARGE.
a good song sharing how i am feeling now….
that bright area – is pink. (as i have said i have a basic little canon digital camera so you will just have to take my word)
5 minutes after the above picture was captured – this is how the sky now looks.
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I had been thinking of moving – now it is time to leave the state altogether. Time to raise funds.
Blue state/sanctuary city where we only take care of/show authentic concern for Immigrants, LGBT. The homeless? Forget it. Veterans? Forget it. Those who support Trump or the Constitution? Forget it.
How I choose to live my life is MY business.
Live and let live.
That is my basic philosophy. Basic boundaries. Such boundaries that many here have yet to learn.
This violation cuts to the core of Who I Am and I am livid within at what happened. This was an attack on myself and my family. And I am not taking this lightly or quietly.
People so deeply programmed and who have no understanding of the Constitution ~ Personal Liberties and Freedom of Choice (well unless it comes to a woman and her right to choose her reproductive choices then they are hugely vocal about that). And beyond the Constitution ~ this is a basic HUMAN RIGHT – the right to choose HOW to live my life.
the past couple of days i have had the insight appear that we don’t really select our parents. not in the way that is a Fully Conscious/Fully Free choice. we are more or less given a few options and told to pick one.
i have spent the past 2 decades coming to peace with my own parents. seeing them for who they am. and trying to feel “ok” about the concept that i picked them for a reason. they taught me x y z.
nonsense.
listening to my heart ~ would i select them again today?
NO.
not to be cruel or unloving – but i would never put myself into a family in which i did not align.
if i had had the full freedom to not only choose to come here – but also in choosing my parents – i would have selected two people with whom i aligned with energetically. spiritually. mentally. emotionally. i would have selected people who truly gave me the feeling of “home”. and indeed i would have selected parents who would have been supportive of Who I Am.
i am not into pain or suffering or struggle.
i AM “into” freedom. creating. connecting. all in a truly supportive environment.
and i do not know what that experience is like – certainly not from the perspective of this life. i know i have had it – i KNOW it – and i LONG for it as i do most if not all of you do as well.
so yet another cookie crumb i munched on. and it feels like a match (meaning truth).
in the meantime….my thoughts have been on california and the attacks going on there. this is full on war. it is horrifying. these people are being killed – driven from their homes. lots of theories as to why – but the how – is not open for debate. ample evidence shows DEW weapons being used.
which then leads me to wonder – where is the good military to stop this? i have tried to have some conversation over this – many tell me to trust the plan. in a nutshell – shut up with your questioning and get in line with the rest of the cult followers.
it isn’t that i don’t have any faith in such a plan – team q – the alliance – i do. but that doesn’t mean i BLINDLY FOLLOW. and being this is also MY experience – i get to question those who are claimed to be doing the work for us all.
more red pills needing to be taken by these “DO NOT QUESTION THE PLAN” folks.
then i have the thought that i want to walk away from it all. go in hiding somewhere. away from all of this shit show drama. live in peace. clean air. next to the ocean. small community – cheap(er) living. ignorance? maybe. but given my awakening has been 25 years plus in the making and i am weary and quite lonely and patience is becoming more the norm than the exception – i am ready for something new and better. if it must happen here – so be it. i welcome a new creation – a wonderful new experience.
yes. that is a good place to end this peace. (i meant to type “piece” but i typed it that way so i am leaving it as such)
I have read your material off and on the past 2-3 years. Like most other material I read, there have been occasions where I resonate and occasions in which I don’t. I offer up my appreciation for the work you do and your search for Truth – and sharing thereof.
Today is the first time I feel the need to address something you said in your recent post.
You state that we (humanity) have to do 80% of the work in order for the Light Alliance to help us.
I have had to take numerous deep breaths to deal with the triggers that set off. I am as centered as I can be right now and as such, wish to address this statement.
You know (and you have stated repeatedly) this realm we call earth has been under quarantine. We have been a slave race. We have had our minds wiped. We have had our DNA altered. In a nutshell – the Source Original of ALL that We Are has been seriously compromised. I feel confident you would more or less align with these statements.
That being said ~ how is it Source Love (that the Alliance is allegedly in alignment with) to tell one who has been put into the conditions outlined above that he/she must do the majority of the work and then Love steps in and assists with the “rest”?
Nowhere within me does this resonate. I go within my heart, not aligning.
I go within to that small quiet voice within my tummy area – not aligning.
I go to my All Knowing space (as much as I can access that, for after all, it has been compromised) – and again, not aligning.
Love helps.
Love assists.
WITHOUT CONDITION.
And what you are sharing is assistance with conditions.
This feels like more of the matrix programming. More of the archon/parasitic program.
I know this much to be absolutely true for me: I WOULD NOT TRUST ANY BEING WHO HAD THE ABILITY TO ASSIST ME AND YET TOLD ME I MUST DO ALL OF THIS WORK BEFORE HELP ARRIVED. Especially when I wasn’t clear on what this “work” entailed.
#1) It’s part of the power over program that has infected this realm. “You do as I say/request before I assist…”
#2) What work? And how on EARTH can I do that LEVEL of inner work (80%) when WHO I AM has been so compromised?
Cobra, I have been intending for my Source Original Coding to come back online.
I have been intending my Healing.
I have been intending that I remember.
I have been on this journey of awakening for over 25 years.
Hundreds of thousands – millions of us- have been doing this.
If we had the full ability to DO THIS HERE while still in these frequencies – WE WOULD ALL BE HEALING AND FLYING by now. We would ALL have our FULL coding turned back on.
And need I add the entire pay to live system keeps us in a state of constant stress of varying levels.
I will tell you what I KNOW Love does. And this is me from my still limited perspective of ALL:
It sees suffering and asks if it can assist and how. It provides that assistance if it can. If it cannot, it seeks out other avenues in which to GET said assistance to the person in need. And it does not say you have to do the majority of the work to get yourself out of the trap…. even though you have limited awareness and I, full awareness. That says “you have to figure out the puzzle with limited awareness”.
This is not Love.
it certainly doesn’t make me feel good inside. It brings up thoughts of “am I doing enough?” It brings up feelings of inferiority.
This is not Love.
Love UPLIFTS.
SUPPORTS.
Without condition.
Let’s listen ONLY to guidance and words that contain these concepts.
