the tidbits are courtesy of a social media friend….the song, from one of you who sent it tonight. i needed to see/hear both. no more researching/posting for today or tonight. the “storm” or whatever it is going on out there and filtering into my life – too much for me. break time!
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How can I improve myself within a month?
20 ideas -:
1. Detoxify your speech. Reduce the use of negative words. Be polite.
2. Read everyday. Doesn’t matter what. Choose whatever interests you.
3. Promise yourself that you will never talk rudely to your parents. They never deserve it.
4. Observe people around you. Imbibe their virtues.
5. Spend some time with nature everyday.
6. Feed the stray animals. Yes, it feels good to feed the hungry.
7. No ego. No ego. No ego. Just learn, learn and learn.
8. Do not hesitate to clarify a doubt. “He who asks a question remains fool for 5 minutes. He who does not ask remains a fool forever”.
9. Whatever you do, do it with full involvement. That’s meditation.
10. Keep distance from people who give you negative vibes but never hold grudges.
11. Stop comparing yourself with others. If you won’t stop, you will never know your own potential.
12. “The biggest failure in life is the failure to try”. Always remember this.
13. “I cried as I had no shoes until I saw a man who had no feet”. Never complain.
14. Plan your day. It will take a few minutes but will save your days.
15. Everyday, for a few minutes, sit in silence. I mean sit with yourself. Just yourself. Magic will flow.
16. In a healthy body resides a healthy mind. Do not litter it with junk.
17. Keep your body hydrated at all times. Practice drinking 8–10 glasses of water.
18. Make a habit to eat at least one serving of raw vegetable salad on a daily basis.
19. Take care of your health. “He who has health has hope and he who has hope has everything”.
20. Life is short. Life is simple. Do not complicate it. Don’t forget to smile.
well after telling one of you today that my shower messages had run dry lately, i had another one today. i’ve been feeling into all of the crap that i have been experiencing the past 7-10 days, bringing up a couple of core issues – as in THE MAIN issues. i thought i had dealt with those as best as i could until today. i had read earlier of a way to clear trauma now – not anything magical or complicated – but sending the trauma into the love (light). kinda like a final touch i had not done.
so as i thought hey, that could actually work, i got this image again of the matrix. trauma is one of the programs of this matrix energy system. likely the main one. going further into this experience i saw how trauma affects us is based on our light. our awareness (when we enter this realm). yes we have our minds wiped, but we all know some people are far more awakened than others are. for myself my earliest memory is knowing how f’d up this realm is as well as knowing i wasn’t from here and i was here to be a part of something huge. in short – the matrix knows who we are. and it targets the most awakened, aware and determined of us. fuckers.
so…..depending upon how strong our light force is when we enter – according to what i received today – largely determines how much of an impact trauma will have on us which leads to “splintering” of our energy bodies. i felt it as a sick, horribly vile program. i also saw it as each of us being a car (having a soul) and yet each car being different- model, size, etc.
so perhaps it can be helpful to see these trauma’s i am facing now once again – and to send love to those parts of me that have been splintered as a result- even those parts of me that are pure program. release them to Be – either to unite back with myself or be free elsewhere. still processing this and i have not taken time yet to do that today.
i hope this makes sense of some sort. it is evening and it has been a long day after a very long night prior so my cognitive self isn’t functioning at its best capacity – and there’s that cold virus thing i have had (which is improving). t/y to sister deborah for the foot soak idea. i know to do this. i have the tub, the epson salts, the essential oil’s. i just plum forgot to incorporate this into my routine this past week. aye aye aye….
i also had a quiet thought that perhaps in order to get free from this system, it will take another program to do that. one that is beneficial of course. programs are benign – just like energy – until intention and action are applied. create or destroy. freedom or control. etc. etc.
one last little tidbit ~ something i have begun doing. last night “something” wished to communicate with me. i said “if you wish to do so, you must let me ask any question i want and you must also be supportive”. i heard nothing after that. as i tell myself – do not walk blindly into the world of all that is beyond this realm. i also realized that is why i typically don’t like channeling. quite often these experiences aren’t a conversation. it’s some being(s) sharing their information on our experience (while being free of this one – “higher” up – and saying the “almost there. gotta keep doing the work”). period. and i am not into that kind of conversing.
that is all for now. going to take a listen to the lisa harrison video now then slip into lala land.
This week has been really fucking difficult. Several things either broke or stopped working around here. As I mentioned earlier in the week, I got sick and I could be recovering quicker if I could get a decent night sleep. This virus packs a punch with a cough. Oregano oil, elderberry extract, vit c and d3, fulvic – nothing has been able to kick this crap out of me yet. Even eating the entire orange – rind and all. I already take many of these things normally so at this point I don’t know what else to do. There is nothing else to do. When I have been forced awake to the nagging cough, I sit there and send myself love and healing. I gave up doing any of the “seek help from guides, the universe” because that doesn’t seem to work any longer. In fact when I say help me universe, all I receive is silence.
Now why is that?
I felt into that last night and know the full energies of Home – the REAL Universe – aren’t here. I thought back to what a psychologist once told me when we discussed the concept of “thoughts create”. She said out of every 100 focused thoughts you send out, 5-10 manifest.
5-10% manifestation.
Sounds about right doesn’t it?
We know Home doesn’t operate this way.
We KNOW we are used to having our heart based energies manifest.
When people claim when life is kicking you around, that’s the Universe sending you a lesson.
Nonsense.
THE REAL UNIVERSE DOES NOT OPERATE LIKE THIS.
The matrix and all of this fake programming?
Oh you betcha that’s how it operates.
And it’s sick.
And I want out.
My mate this morning said apparently the only way out is death.
I don’t align with that even though that may be it given that’s how it HAS been for who knows how many forced reincarnation cycles we’ve been under. I have felt for so long now that this time around, it is TRULY the exit.
That could be just another sick, hope-harvesting program. How am I to know for sure?
I like to look at things simply. And if it isn’t LOVE – if isn’t SUPPORTIVE – if it isn’t aligned with FREEDOM – it’s the matrix. PERIOD.
The matrix. The illusion. The lie. All mean the same thing.
So the “embrace the inner Trump” title.
He speaks truth without putting on the politically correct title. If someone is mean, he says so. If someone is unkind or behaving stupidly, he says so.
That’s what truth does. It says SPEAK NOW.
This past week as you know I was bullied into submission by someone who has the ability to dictate whether I am with a home or without. That lowered me down so much.
What I want to say to this individual is you are a bully. You are unkind. You think your money gives you power over me. It does. And that is a SICK TWISTED program that I fucking COMMAND ends.
Earlier this week I noticed a social media friend speak of his fear of being homeless soon unless he finds work. I read through every comment and not ONCE did someone say “hey can I give you some money”. This was his issue – money – to keep himself in a home. Nope. The new ager’s shared little mantra’s and meme’s and spoke of “i will send you energy”. NOT ONE PERSON SAID “hey I can send you a dollar or two”.
Now if every one of these people had said that – allowed themselves to see his REALITY fully – they would have.
So I took it upon myself to say hey has anyone offered him what he is TRULY NEEDING NOW? Money?
You don’t put out a fire by standing there and wishing it well. Not in this reality that is. YOU GET WATER.
Perhaps if enough of us get into that “inner trump” space – we can end this shit. We can call out those who chant the “lessons and karma and you create your own reality”. Well meaning but still not seeing the full picture because it would disrupt their comfy little narrative.
We often face the full picture when we are FORCED by the very systems itself to SEE IT for what it is.
Hey, if I had a comfy cozy life where I didn’t have to pay rent (how many new age types live with their parents? it’s quite a lot)…..or if I had a very successful ascension or other divinely inspired business, I might very well still be into all of the lesson/karma/create your own reality speak.
But that is not where I am or WHO I AM.
Funny thing. I just happened to read a Dalai Lama quote about how money cannot solve problems. Only the human heart can.
Says the man who has servants and wears expensive watches and is shuttled around all over the world and people pay hundreds of dollars to see “his holiness”.
PUKE.
SERIOUSLY PUKE.
Puke on HIM.
Does the intentions of a pure heart cure disease? Pay for necessary treatment?
Put food on the table?
Pay the rent?
Keep the house warm?
etc. etc. etc.?
He’s a blathering idiot who was put into this position of power and people still worship him just as they worship people like deepak chopra and others who have made millions off of false spirituality. I KNEW neal donald walsch was either full of shit or channeling a misguided entity when he spoke of the amazing work of Bill Clinton and the need for a one world government.
But then people like me who SEE all sides of life – the inner AND the outer – we aren’t much respected. We don’t have the luxuries of life. The following crowds of the desperate masses. I mean my goddess – I continue to have people withdraw their financial support on my patreon page because they learn I am not aluna ash (and I never ONCE have advertised myself as her – my site clearly states my name is Victoria).
Wow.
I have just as much insight to share and offer. Perhaps more because I align with freedom.
And that means we ALL get to FULLY CHOOSE our experience.
ALL are free from power over games of ANY KIND.
Now I tell you – WHO has the kind of courage, guts and ability to speak THOSE words?
I sit here ~ battling a cold virus. There’s never an acceptable time to be sick obviously. But wow, this was NOT part of my plan for this week. The weather is great – sunny. I had plans of walks, bike rides, trips to the park. Instead I’m stuck on the couch, surrounded in a sea of kleenex. And wondering…when is it going to be my time to have the life I want.
I know what my body and heart tells me ~ I cannot wait any longer. Something has to break ~ something awesome and loving has to break wide open. HAS TO. If I have to bust open a door with an ax, so be it. This “wait and allow” doesn’t work.
I seek guidance within and hear “wait” and “be patient”. I cut those cords. Nonsense speak.
I need to be healed from this battle with panic and claustrophobia. I know I can do it with assistance, effective means and love and patience.
I cannot keep living in a community that doesn’t support me. My child. My family.
I need the RIGHT educational experience for my child. This HAS to exist.
I need the RIGHT means of income generating for myself. I would align with being part of a new tech business that frees us up – provides healing or free energy.
It’s a god damn paradox I am in. I need change NOW and when I look out into the world as it is now, nothing really aligns with me ~ certainly not in the area in which I reside. So that means I go along and find something that is at least close to who I am. One step closer is better than remaining one step behind.
We’ve been having some discussions with our girl lately about the power of our mind, namely our thoughts. Whenever she has a scary thought or something that otherwise takes away her power, her dad and I have been saying “You would not speak to yourself that way. Choose a thought that feels like Love.” We had such a conversation tonight.
Then about 20 minutes later, having a conversation with an online friend, I read their words ~ I have been told I will not ascend unless I give up eating meat.
Nonsense.
I thought about this in my portal space (the shower) ~ felt it all out and had a new concept come to me: ALL power over behavior and speak is nothing more than a child abuser.
We are the children. This entire realm of controllers ~ the abusers. (and yes we have all behaved like them at times now and then – that is part of the awakening experience)
Would WE tell ourselves we have to jump through a variety of hoops to get out of here?
Would WE tell ourselves we (essentially) have to go through hell to get to heaven?
Here ~ in this space where we have had our DNA hijacked, truth withheld, minds wiped. I mean seriously – how can ANY authentic seeker of Truth possibly still fall for these narratives?
I asked myself – why does this trigger me? Me ~ who tries to be neutral and observe as much as I am able (ha – I am quite intense if you have not yet noticed ~ but my intensity has pure intention). So why does this trigger me?
Asking myself this seeking an honest answer I heard it quite simply ~ because I am listening to more abusive speak. And I cannot have that. I just can’t. I won’t. I won’t have it.
Would I ~ the human me ~ the ego included ~ ever tell myself I have to PROVE my worth by taking on a choice/behavior in order to get out of prison? Out of a deceptive experience?
NO.
Would the Heart Me tell myself such speak?
NO.
Would the Source of Me speak the same?
NO.
It is time to END the abusive speak of the child abusers. Which, for me, includes sharing this truth I hold whenever I feel drawn to ~ even if it means creating discomfort in other fellow new earth/truth seekers.
Earlier today I experienced such speak. We are in need a necessary item for our home which is the responsibility of the owner. So, I contacted the owner of our home and had to undergo the experience of being bullied with words by one who has a lot of money and that gives her power in this realm. Yes, local laws were violated and yes we could pursue that. Hire an attorney. Go to court. My mate and I have done that 3 times since being renter’s in our area and it is a stress ~ a hell ~ we have agreed to never take on again. Not in this corrupt system. So instead I chose to play a game by engaging in a combination of kissing ass, relenting (today it was taking on an increase in rent) in order to keep a roof over our heads.
And YES I am upset about this. Crazy upset. But as I said – the stress of the only other option as allowed by this corrupt abusive system is simply something my family will not undertake.
The example I share ~ how is such power-over game any different than one who says “you won’t ascend if you eat meat”. Or “you have to fully heal yourself in order to get out of here”. Or “you have to master money” or “you have to remember who you are” or the one that gets me the quickest and most intense: You aren’t going anywhere. You made this mess. You clean it up.
Yeah, try that with a child. Child has a large group of friends who, without the child’s knowledge or consent, comes into the home, destroys it, beats the child, traumatizes the child, poisons it, lies and deceives then says “see ya. You want out? That’s up to you to remember. To heal yourself. To clean up this mess. AND you have to prove to US your worth before you do.”
What parent would EVER speak to a child in such a manner?
And yet Source speaks to us this way?
NONSENSE.
FUCKING NONSENSE.
Nowhere is Source speak in there.
Nowhere is Love speak in there.
Nowhere is Freedom speak in there.
I won’t allow any such conversation in my presence any longer…. for to allow such dialogue only continues to give the abusers more power.
And I feel – I KNOW – we can all agree they have had that title long enough.
That is all for now.
Love,
Victoria
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Hey everyone ~ as I mentioned above our rent is going up. We had already been hit with a new expense plus the realization our income is going to take a hit beginning in December. So please if you can find a few dollars to contribute when you can, I would DEEPLY appreciate it. One day soon this pay to live game will be OVER and we can CELEBRATE. Aaaaaand……. I will not have to grovel for money. [wp-svg-icons icon=”confused” wrap=”i”][wp-svg-icons icon=”smiley” wrap=”i”]
I am having one of these experiences today where I see the POTENTIAL as well as the REALity. It’s a mad world – that energy becoming more palpable – for me.
Such madness arises when Truth is bubbling up from within and we refuse to acknowledge it. It creates madness for the individual and for the collective.
Today I awoke actually saying I DO NOT CONSENT TO THIS.
No power over.
No games. And by NO GAMES I mean NO MORE DECEPTION of ANY kind which includes GUESSING and hearing endless speculations that use the words “soon” and “almost there”. You all already know my feels on being told “you aren’t ready yet” which is just another power over program/game.
HOW does one “get ready” anyway? By seeing the full TRUTH.
It was so strong within me that for me to wake up saying these words outloud means one thing: I. Am. Done. Truly truly DONE.
Silent no more. Neutral, no more. Even playing the Observer feels like a game. Doesn’t that lead to us allowing what we inherently know is NOT OK to continue? Is it OK to just observe when someone is being abused or harmed? Oh just observe. Don’t get involved.
Not in my inner world.
The madness.
The messages being given ~ these elusive messages that so often seem to produce nothing concrete. Tangible.
Gold to be returned by October 31st (yesterday) or else…
The banksters are bankrupt. Access to what was hidden for all is coming….Get ready….
The ongoing dangling of the carrot.
I don’t consent to that. Love doesn’t dangle the carrot. LOVE GIVES IT TO YOU.
This ongoing promise of abundance….I don’t know about you and your experience, but our expenses have jumped and now next month our income is actually going down. I don’t know what to do about that – we’re budgeted down to pennies and I am worn to the bone by trying to budget and seek ways to expand on the income.
I feel as though the inner balloon – and the balloon out there – has been blown up as far as it can go – no more room for air. If systems out there keep on adding unwanted air, the balloon is going to burst.
That is the collective feel I am now feeling…..not just my own inner experience.
(I have a lot of feels and words going on right now so please excuse the rambling…)
Last night as we know was halloween here in the states. The concept felt completely foreign to me last night. This day used to be one of my favorite holiday’s. Slowly that dissipated over the last few years and last night it was painful for me to engage. I had to force myself to take my child out on the candy collection.
But I did. We had a few gathering’s in which we were invited to attend. The first one – I simply suddenly could not be there. The decorations were amazing but to see so much celebration of what’s dark and scary – including the adult costumes and some of the kid costumes – I couldn’t be there.
At another gathering, a highly programmed democrat suddenly showed her rage over Kavanaugh. I took a slow, deep breath and it took all within me not to say “not all hold your view. Please consider that as you are not the only one in the room.” It came about suddenly and unexpectedly. I was relieved to learn she had to leave.
And none of this is to say these aren’t otherwise wonderful people. I like these people. It is their clinging to their old programs that create discomfort for me – and sadness, loneliness. What I WANT is to have a real connection where we can SEE beyond our societal programming. Where such connections can come about without the inevitable disgust thrown our way when we say we support Trump – or at least the overall picture of his doing’s leading to exposure – to truth – in ALL OF US. It is intense now – around here. Literally every person I know around my area takes a jab at the president now – assuming I am part of that narrative because, you know – IF you have a deeper understanding much less any support of him, you’re a nut. A nazi. A bigot. And that thought process comes up immediately. I’ve seen it.
And HIS behavior is triggering every one of us who do not SEEK TRUTH. Who hide behind programming and societal politeness and politically correct speak. HE is the catalyst for triggering these unseen things within us all that is causing the over-the-top madness we are seeing.
I feel it has amped up.
I feel this is because we are at the exit doors and we are being called to pick a door. Make a choice. Expand or stay in the old programs.
I feel All Of Our pieces of our Consciousness are lining up and saying “ARE YOU SURE?” Poke, poke, poke….look within….acknowledge the trigger….see the inner story for the Truth instead of the one in the programmed mind.
I have no proof of this other than my feelings and given I am in a place where I need to SEE PROOF before I allow it to fully engulf me as the “real deal” – I leave this piece saying all I have now is hope and faith…
….while doing my best to be a humanoid in this very Mad World. Below is my rendition of this beautiful, haunting song.
Much love,
Victoria
https://soundcloud.com/themamatrinity/mad-world
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Yesterday was one of the heaviest, most energetically brutal days I have experienced. It made me feel physically nauseous at times as well as dizzy and winded. By the time early evening came, I was a mess. This deep, heavy energy was consuming me and I finally lashed out by breaking something I value. That lead me to this deep feeling of regret and a huge well of thoughts of self-loathing. (stick with me – this improves!)
Before going to bed, I let myself just feel these energies and have these thoughts. I reached a point where I knew I could not go on one more second having this experience. My initial choice was to simply say I give up. But then like Neo in Matrix, that inner Eternal Light, in all of it’s quiet and NEVER ENDING Force pushed up and out of me and guided me to “surrender and KEEP GOING”.
So I did. I went to bed feeling more solid and empowered. Still in a lot of distress, but my narrative and thus energy had shifted.
Then I had an interesting dream. I saw HRC’s spouse (am not saying their names or spelling them out) and he was trying to give me a gift to give to my daughter. I was in some large warehouse – as an employee. At first the gift seemed innocent but I immediately knew better. I looked at it and commanded to see the Truth of what it really was – and yep – it morphed into something twisted, sick and demented. “No thank you,” I announced, went and got my girl and left.
Next scene we’re home, my girl outside playing and I was out front. I “felt” them coming – again. Shit, I thought. They’re just not going away. I felt no fear though. The feeling was something like a rain shower was passing over or some mosquitos – annoying pains but that’s about it. So I told my girl to listen to me now and get inside immediately. She listened. I went inside and quickly but calmly shut the windows, locked the doors and as I did I thought I should have just hopped in the car and drove away. The dream ended.
So several things to say now. 1) The power and influence of all that is resisting Love is weakening – quickly. But just like the deep state, they still have ammo and they’re pulling out their last bag of tricks before they are forced to surrender or be consumed by the energies of Love (Truth, Freedom, Accountability/Justice). Yes I know the Cats say pick – justice or source. To me it’s one in the same. So I will just leave that at that. Love sees ALL and when ALL is seen ALL is owned. If that isn’t Justice I don’t know what is.
2) Just as I have felt and been saying for almost 2 years now – all that is not Love (doesn’t that sound better than dark?) – all that is not love in action – will continue to resist until the last moment. Still feeling that. Likely why I keep surrendering – that energy is strong and front and center now – when faced with something I wish to resist – hide from. It is as it is and I am as I am.
When I awoke this morning, I saw a message on facebook on what has been transpiring and will share that in another message. I also had a text message from brother Rick who said Clair came through and said something huge was lifted last night and now things are moving swiftly (I would add “again”).
NO KIDDING!
Tuning into this – feeling into that in my personal portal (the shower) – I felt what was lifted ~ the program of self loathing.
All who made the choice to hijack this realm run on self-loathing. That’s what happens – that is the result – when you choose to power over someone. You essentially hold the experience of hating thyself. And while it’s really an illusion in that this is a temporary experience, it still does damage to self and others. Free will has allowed for this.
Freedom however does not. Total misalignment of energies.
They inserted that program of self loathing into each of us. And given, for me that is, it is one of my biggest issues if not the core issue – the one emotion/experience that comes up when I go deep within my pain – I feel I have been helping to transmute that energy which means I have been not only carrying my own experience but also feeling it from them and the collective. Yeah, ok, my brain thinks – my mind resisting this one – but it is the first feel I had about it. Or what could be more of a possibility is because it is the program that was lifted from the matrix grid, I felt that resistance all yesterday and had such a powerful experience in diving into my own self loathing last night and into this morning.
I WOULD NOT EVER LOATHE MYSELF WITH FULL AWARENESS.
I WOULD NOT DO THAT TO MYSELF.
I told myself these words – as I looked at myself in the mirror – weeping – ok, bawling – (it is 4:44 as i type these words). I smiled at myself – reminding myself of Who I Am. Just – ME.
About 30 minutes later I headed to the store. As I got out of the car, I heard “some of your family has inserted themselves. here in xxxxx…yes here in xxxxx (as when i first heard that i thought here in xxxxx? this place is so insignificant!). you will see some of them in the store.”
WTFig? I thought. I laughed it off but it felt like a very real communication.
Well wow. Once inside the store I began seeing people – all women interestingly enough – smiling at me. But this smile was different. It felt eternal. It felt like the connection we all REALLY have. Authentic greeting. It felt like it will at Home and once this thing called The Event enters. It was – amazing. Beautiful. And it happened several times. I noticed that the clerk’s – who have been really subdued and low in energy the past few weeks – were up and enthusiastic and smiling in a brighter way.
That’s it – that’s the word – BRIGHT. I noticed a BRIGHTNESS in all I greeted. In whom greeted ME. Usually I am the one to smile first – not today.
Wow did this leave me feeling light. REALLY LIGHT. Floatie almost. I kept feeling “Home”.
As we arrived at this home, I reflected on the experience and at the beauty of it. As I did I was guided to look up at the skies and saw the most beautiful rainbow I had seen. The colors – there were more than the usual 7. There was like a second row of just magenta pink/purple on the bottom. I ran inside, grabbed my camera and took some pictures – but it began fading so quickly. Below is what I was able to capture.
Happy Rainbow Days. I hope you will all be able to tune in and feel a shift today. Others I have spoken with who have been feeling that UGH I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE the past 1-3 weeks have also notice things feeling “better” today.
That is all….for now.
Love,
Victoria

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Oh my gosh so many things in my heart and on my mind – just gonna let this one be pure stream of consciousness.
To begin with, my mate has had to go back into the medical establishment. I don’t speak much of his health issues – but they are life altering – life limiting. He has advanced lyme – the medical establishment doesn’t recognize that. He has been on a variety of alternative therapies – including chinese medicine for the past 4 years. It doesn’t really work – or has stopped doing its thing. This fucking man-made (out of plum island new york) current bioweaponized version of “lyme” is an epidemic and his story is not unusual. He’s been bullied and abused – lied to and deceived by the medical system. He walked away from it all – we both did – several years ago after their dismissal turned to outright abuse.
However, he has had some worsening of symptoms and knows he needs some scans to see just how “bad” things are inside. He also has a tumor behind his right eye that was supposed to be monitored yearly by MRI’s – as originally diagnosed and prescribed by his first neurologist, who we decided to stop seeing as the office staff was HORRIBLE. So he found another neurologist who acknowledged the tumor but for reasons she would not share, refused to schedule another MRI to monitor the tumor – which was growing – slowly – hence the need to MONITOR it yearly (it’s also behind his eyeball and surgery is quite risky). So he’s back at it with a new doctor in the hopes SHE will listen to him and actually work with him to help him – the way doctor’s are supposed to instead of answering to the pharma and medical system “suits”.
If we had the money we would try other alternative means – but we don’t.
Which brings it all back again in my face – in our face – those with money have a much better chance of healing and living/doing well. Money equates to “more” freedom in this realm – no doubt about that. I was awake most of the night over this. I don’t know how to find peace in any of this. I can’t lie to myself and say “all is well” when it isn’t.
I’ve stopped saying “support and help are here now” because this has not been the case. If anything, the two of us have been abandoned more than ever. Reality is a hard pill to swallow and most people we know do not want to see anything that is so difficult and painful. And we have ample people we know who are in good health and are doing quite well $$. It SICKENS me to know this.
LOVE WAVE NOW!
I was also online earlier and saw a social media’s friends post. She has dealt with the same challenge as I have since young adulthood – agoraphobia. She is in a lot of distress right now – as are so many of us, right? She’s struggling to get out of bed. She longs for the New and change YESTERDAY (indeed NOW as she said). And what were the responses?
Suffering is a choice.
You are here to learn lessons.
You agreed to this.
Humanity isn’t ready for the changes you want.
OMG.
I get HUGELY driven within to DO AND assist when I see ANYONE getting bullied that way. Love does this? Oooh, I think not!
I had to respond. Rather than try and remember what I said, I’ll just share that below:
“you speak words that MANY in the lightworker communities refuse to acknowledge – fully – within their hearts. i have pulled back from a lot of my former sources of info FOR that very reason. many of these people claim suffering is in our minds or pain is necessary for lessons. nonsense. we were hijacked here – our FREEDOM to BE stolen. minds wiped. puppets (likely non-souled matrix creations) installed to power over us with the pay to live systems….. and while it is stated this is being returned, frig – the exhaustion and the I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE for it is not WHO I AM is huge right now among the groups of us who align w/the same thoughts and feels. Love Acts Now. it is said we have higher dimensional assistance from home – we need to see this NOW. i know my body and heart and both are beyond weary regardless of what i tell myself. and heal thyself? i have focused on doing just that for YEARS. it is all frequency – and we need – NEED – this frequency of LOVE (aka the event) to enter our experience once again. for this IS an inside and outside “job” (experience. many of my readers feel the same. and yet i also know the words i speak are very politically incorrect in many of these new age type groups. i listen to the words of lisa harrison, linea fairylight ginn and yellow rose for texas who all speak the same/similar words. this realm is a free will experience – which means ALL is allowed. love doesn’t operate like that. freedom is the energy of Love for it NEVER seeks to power over another. lessons karma forced reincarnation – NONE of this is pure source energy. we ARE Source Creator Being’s – whose SOLE/SOUL reason for Being IS to Create Freely. period. return what was removed/wiped/taken NOW.
suffering is a choice? suffering is a RESULT of this prison. would you say those words to a child of sex trafficking? would you say those words to someone who is being beaten and abused? to the person who got sick as a result of the poisons in this realm? we are here because we have been energetically CONFINED to the false reincarnation system installed here. this realm is a fake simulation. look around – research – and you will come to see what i and so many others have. and look within – does this realm FEEL “right” and in alignment with Who You Really Are?
you know what love does people? love ASKS xxxx what she needs. period. what do you need xxxx? i will do my best to assist (even though i’m in a very similar state – i do know in my heart what love does – and what i would want myself if expressing such words).”
As I began to type this, I noticed a large flock of birds somewhere around here chirping loudly. Large as in hundreds (given what I heard and recorded). It also appeared to my middle age ears that there were a variety of birds involved. It has since stopped. Strange.
Earlier today my girl and I headed out to see if there was any bread to get at the local food bank/thrift store. I’m really selective about going there and only visit when it’s a necessity. There are some really sketchy people who visit there. It’s been some time since I’ve had to leave. Arriving today, there was a woman badgering one of the volunteer’s as to whether she had her flu shot yet. The volunteer said “no” and the woman began laying into her verbally. The volunteer stammered and said she hadn’t had time yet. I was about ready to step up and intervene until the crazy person turned around and looked at me. When I say “crazy” I am not exaggerating. She had crazy energy oozing from her. Her eyes were manic. I took my girl and left. Not worth the risk.
The years of vaccines and fluoride and programming is at an all time high now. And I am convinced there really are people who are background people. Not real. Soul-less. Did they start out that way? Who knows. My first thought when I saw the behavior of this woman was “the energies are pushing out her dark”.
What is MOST interesting to me is when I arrived home, I noticed this tidbit on my social media account: “Whatever energy just started in the collective, about 30-60 min ago.. feels horrid.. It’s probably a wringing out, a collective purge, of some hell-energies..” The time she was referring to was a little over 2 hours ago – the same time I had witnessed the above experience.
When I arrived home, I thought about the experience. I stopped myself as I was halfway through it in my mind and said “no more stories”. Really important to let these things go instead of keeping them going by talking about them. Good lesson for me.
Well at that I’m signing off as I have a headache (very unusual for me). Sinus stuff and fatigue combined. Reading the headlines didn’t help. Yikes!
