Category: Daily Notes

Today’s Struggle/Reflections

 

Oh my gosh so many things in my heart and on my mind – just gonna let this one be pure stream of consciousness.

To begin with, my mate has had to go back into the medical establishment.  I don’t speak much of his health issues – but they are life altering – life limiting.  He has advanced lyme – the medical establishment doesn’t recognize that.  He has been on a variety of alternative therapies – including chinese medicine for the past 4 years.  It doesn’t really work – or has stopped doing its thing.  This fucking man-made (out of plum island new york) current bioweaponized version of “lyme” is an epidemic and his story is not unusual.  He’s been bullied and abused – lied to and deceived by the medical system.  He walked away from it all – we both did – several years ago after their dismissal turned to outright abuse.

However, he has had some worsening of symptoms and knows he needs some scans to see just how “bad” things are inside.  He also has a tumor behind his right eye that was supposed to be monitored yearly by MRI’s – as originally diagnosed and prescribed by his first neurologist, who we decided to stop seeing as the office staff was HORRIBLE.  So he found another neurologist who acknowledged the tumor but for reasons she would not share, refused to schedule another MRI to monitor the tumor – which was growing – slowly – hence the need to MONITOR it yearly (it’s also behind his eyeball and surgery is quite risky).  So he’s back at it with a new doctor in the hopes SHE will listen to him and actually work with him to help him – the way doctor’s are supposed to instead of answering to the pharma and medical system “suits”.

If we had the money we would try other alternative means – but we don’t.

Which brings it all back again in my face – in our face – those with money have a much better chance of healing and living/doing well.  Money equates to “more” freedom in this realm – no doubt about that.  I was awake most of the night over this.  I don’t know how to find peace in any of this.  I can’t lie to myself and say “all is well” when it isn’t.

I’ve stopped saying “support and help are here now” because this has not been the case.  If anything, the two of us have been abandoned more than ever.  Reality is a hard pill to swallow and most people we know do not want to see anything that is so difficult and painful.  And we have ample people we know who are in good health and are doing quite well $$.  It SICKENS me to know this.

LOVE WAVE NOW!

I was also online earlier and saw a social media’s friends post.  She has dealt with the same challenge as I have since young adulthood – agoraphobia. She is in a lot of distress right now – as are so many of us, right?  She’s struggling to get out of bed.  She longs for the New and change YESTERDAY (indeed NOW as she said).  And what were the responses?

Suffering is a choice.

You are here to learn lessons.

You agreed to this.

Humanity isn’t ready for the changes you want.

OMG.

I get HUGELY driven within to DO AND assist when I see ANYONE getting bullied that way.  Love does this?  Oooh, I think not!

I had to respond.  Rather than try and remember what I said, I’ll just share that below:

“you speak words that MANY in the lightworker communities refuse to acknowledge – fully – within their hearts. i have pulled back from a lot of my former sources of info FOR that very reason. many of these people claim suffering is in our minds or pain is necessary for lessons. nonsense. we were hijacked here – our FREEDOM to BE stolen. minds wiped. puppets (likely non-souled matrix creations) installed to power over us with the pay to live systems….. and while it is stated this is being returned, frig – the exhaustion and the I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE for it is not WHO I AM is huge right now among the groups of us who align w/the same thoughts and feels. Love Acts Now. it is said we have higher dimensional assistance from home – we need to see this NOW. i know my body and heart and both are beyond weary regardless of what i tell myself. and heal thyself? i have focused on doing just that for YEARS. it is all frequency – and we need – NEED – this frequency of LOVE (aka the event) to enter our experience once again. for this IS an inside and outside “job” (experience. many of my readers feel the same. and yet i also know the words i speak are very politically incorrect in many of these new age type groups. i listen to the words of lisa harrison, linea fairylight ginn and yellow rose for texas who all speak the same/similar words. this realm is a free will experience – which means ALL is allowed. love doesn’t operate like that. freedom is the energy of Love for it NEVER seeks to power over another. lessons karma forced reincarnation – NONE of this is pure source energy. we ARE Source Creator Being’s – whose SOLE/SOUL reason for Being IS to Create Freely. period. return what was removed/wiped/taken NOW.

suffering is a choice?  suffering is a RESULT of this prison. would you say those words to a child of sex trafficking? would you say those words to someone who is being beaten and abused? to the person who got sick as a result of the poisons in this realm? we are here because we have been energetically CONFINED to the false reincarnation system installed here. this realm is a fake simulation. look around – research – and you will come to see what i and so many others have. and look within – does this realm FEEL “right” and in alignment with Who You Really Are?

you know what love does people? love ASKS xxxx what she needs. period. what do you need xxxx? i will do my best to assist (even though i’m in a very similar state – i do know in my heart what love does – and what i would want myself if expressing such words).”

On this day, I have no other words to offer.

Victoria

 

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Today’s Experience: It’s Friggin’ Crazy “Out There”

 

As I began to type this, I noticed a large flock of birds somewhere around here chirping loudly.  Large as in hundreds (given what I heard and recorded).  It also appeared to my middle age ears that there were a variety of birds involved.  It has since stopped.  Strange.

Earlier today my girl and I headed out to see if there was any bread to get at the local food bank/thrift store.  I’m really selective about going there and only visit when it’s a necessity.  There are some really sketchy people who visit there.  It’s been some time since I’ve had to leave.  Arriving today, there was a woman badgering one of the volunteer’s as to whether she had her flu shot yet.  The volunteer said “no” and the woman began laying into her verbally.  The volunteer stammered and said she hadn’t had time yet.  I was about ready to step up and intervene until the crazy person turned around and looked at me.  When I say “crazy” I am not exaggerating.  She had crazy energy oozing from her.  Her eyes were manic.  I took my girl and left.  Not worth the risk.

The years of vaccines and fluoride and programming is at an all time high now.  And I am convinced there really are people who are background people.  Not real.  Soul-less.  Did they start out that way?  Who knows.  My first thought when I saw the behavior of this woman was “the energies are pushing out her dark”.

What is MOST interesting to me is when I arrived home, I noticed this tidbit on my social media account:  “Whatever energy just started in the collective, about 30-60 min ago.. feels horrid..  It’s probably a wringing out, a collective purge, of some hell-energies..”  The time she was referring to was a little over 2 hours ago – the same time I had witnessed the above experience.

When I arrived home, I thought about the experience.  I stopped myself as I was halfway through it in my mind and said “no more stories”.  Really important to let these things go instead of keeping them going by talking about them.  Good lesson for me.

Well at that I’m signing off as I have a headache (very unusual for me). Sinus stuff and fatigue combined.  Reading the headlines didn’t help.  Yikes!

HOME NOW PLEASE.

Love,

Victoria

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Early Morning Experience ~ 10/24/18

 

Good afternoon everyone~

I want to share this experience I had early this morning.  Maybe it will give some hope to those of us who are feeling weary ~ the inner alarm clock having already gone off (as in “ok we are past the time of our exit/transition/end game”).

I don’t know the dream time experience I was having.  All I do remember is waking up quite early – the house quiet – and I felt the most amazing peace I have felt in a very very long “time”.  AND – it felt natural.  In fact, I would say it is THE feeling experience I can recall having when I had my first New Earth/Real Earth dream some 10-12 years ago.  That was the biggest message I took from that dream – the FEELING I had.  It was a natural state. I knew that.

Back to this morning.  “Something has shifted,” I heard/felt within.  I had this knowing that all really is going to transition as we feel and something shifted to add in a “push”.

I stayed with it – tuned in to make sure it wasn’t something artificial – superficial.  I went deep with this one (much easier for me to do when everyone else is sleeping!).  I wanted to make sure this was not another false hope harvest.  I AM SO DONE WITH SHEOT LIKE THAT!  That’s why most channeled messages that continue to have us follow the dangling carrot “trick” don’t cut it with me (you’re almost there – just go x y z or whatever “rule” someone with power over energy designates we gotta do)…

No.  That energy was not present.

There were no words with this one.  No stories.  Just something deep within that KNEW – there has been a shift.  Something old and dark left – faded – lost power.  Not sure – it is hard to put into these superficial words such a feeling experience.

And that is when I began to just know – from here on out – our Truths must be FELT.  We don’t “need” words to get the knowing’s.  We can use words to help define but even at that – it all comes down to just a KNOWING feeling. We also don’t need words to communicate.  Well, for “now” at least – use less words.

This would explain why too many words shared with me now overwhelm me. I MUCH prefer fewer words.  And at that – many words are now too harsh for me.  If a word is presented to me that has ANY power over energy – I energetically toss it right back to the sender.  It’s often not even conscious for me – just automatic.  Or say if it comes from my child I talk with her about it and speak of making a “different choice”.  I use that term quite regularly now.

So again – what DID happen this morning?  Something.  Something I would label “positive” for the amazing sense of peace I felt.  It wasn’t blissful.  I wasn’t even ecstatic.  Just peaceful and it went through every aspect of WHO I AM and who i am.  “Something” shifted – for the better.

That is all for now.

Love,

Victoria

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Today’s Reflection ~ Weary!

 

the ongoing feeling the last few days – THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE OVER BY NOW!  the charade.  the simulation.  the manipulation.  everything that i know that makes me a feeling being is expressing this.  emotional vomiting.

others are feeling this as well.  i’ve spoken with a few of you and with others in one of my social media groups – and the feeling is the same.  weary.  for some of us – an unbearable weariness.

there doesn’t feel as though there is any purpose to this experience of weariness.  i know to the core of Who I Am – that this game, this experience has been bastardized and slowed down from ending.

i look at my event tree up the street.  the leaves are changing.  THIS WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN.  not given what i saw.

the 20 year anniversary is tomorrow.  THIS WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN.  not given what i saw.

and indeed NOT given what i intended daily ALL YEAR.

i’m without words anymore in expressing myself.  sharing my feeling experience which is overwhelmingly tired of wondering WHO IS IN CONTROL here?

on one hand we’re told “we and we alone are responsible for all facets of our life”….but then the same  new age speak will then say “you don’t control sheot”.

so which is it?

how do you take responsibility if you have no control?

i realize there is a FLOW to thing.  but that FLOW has been plugged up for so long – i can FEEL it HUGELY wanting to BURST OPEN and FLOW again.

i need to be and deserve to be in an environment – a realm – whatever you wish to call it – in an experience where i CAN take full ownership of My Experience because I AM THE ONE DOING THE CREATING and experiencing the desired outcome.  NO intrusion.  just assistance when/if asked for.

i get that is not allowed in this realm.  i get this realm is one of free will which has allowed for the power-over game to exist.

anyone else desperately deeply need to know WHEN WILL THIS END?

and what can I DO TO HELP?!

i ask these questions lately.  often.

anyone else not hearing anything when going within?  OR going “without”?

the mailman delivered the mail as i was leaving in the car.  i rolled down the window and said he could just give it to me in the car.  it was a bill and i said “oh crap when will this end??”  he laughed.  i opened it up.  my bill went up another $5.

WTF?!

i had some wonderful new subscribers on my Patreon site – paying people – who left.  apparently some of them were under the impression i am Aluna Ash – even though on my first page i clearly state my name and give link back to this site.  that is why i have begun capitalizing certain links so people will know – this is not my material.  if i could i would insert flashing neon signs.

it’s painful – this feeling of i am not well known enough.  not good enough. and these days – not young enough.  i know these are my issues to deal with – but damn.  living in this realm makes it a huge challenge to fully overcome them – especially when they keep cropping up.

inside i have been crying over this – having dreams of me attempting to reach out and connect and i remain unseen.

i wish people would give the “little guy/gal” a break – some support.

so what if someone doesn’t have half a million followers.  does that mean they have less to offer?

of course not!  and some of us “old timers” have much to share.

so my message to those who focus on the big channels – give the little one’s a chance!  we’re all in this one together – attempting to figure out this puzzle.  attempting to assist in ending this game.

and in fact i am going to be so bold to say that not only is this awakening and transition/ending an inside job it is also an outside job.

yes – i DO NEED the outside to change in order to feel better.

i NEED the lies to end.

i NEED the system of pay to live and power over to END.

i NEED all of the repressed tech RELEASED so that i CAN HEAL myself and LIVE in the way I KNOW I NEED.

I.  NEED.  MY.  FREEDOM.

i am finished listening to, supporting and ALLOWING the energy of “nothing out there can affect you unless you allow it”.

just more programming.

and i have had enough of the programming.

and taking that further i have had enough of the bots.  i haven’t spoken of this term for awhile as i have been focused on being kind and loving.  less judgmental.

but today – the past few days – OVERWHELM!  tuned out.  clued out.  say a new thought and get the blank look.  say the unpopular, politically incorrect thing and get the look of discomfort.

i can’t do fake.  period.  bottom line.  line in the sand.

i can’t keep that fakeness within.  i have to be me.

intense.  loving.  deeply caring.  and who has no desire to be around any one not wishing to SEE BEYOND THE VEIL OF ILLUSIONS WE ARE SOLD EVERY DAY.

today i haven’t the energy to participate in this game when all of me needs it to END.

as i saw an ANON say late last week:  LET’S FINISH THIS SHIT.

i concur.

love,

victoria

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Today’s Reflection ~ Separation. Invisible. Unity.

 

before i begin, i want to point out an observation that feels unusual to me – the crickets are singing.  and it’s only 3:30pm.  sunny.  warm.  how odd.  they don’t come alive with their songs until dusk/twilight.  i noticed it after i finished playing the piano.  the neighborhood is very quiet today – and so given the windows were open i could hear them clearly.

then i wondered if this is a matrix glitch.  maybe the sounds we hear here are “fake” too – part of the simulation.  goddess i hope not but NOTHING would surprise me about this makings of this construct at this point.

so….out and about beautiful people have a variety of signs in their yard – many of them about uniting families.  ending the separation.  oh if only they knew this IS the overall plan unlike past administrations.

if only they knew how many of these immigrants who were allowed to come here and remain were gangs.  criminals traffickers of humans/children, drugs, weapons.  if only they would read Trump’s executive order’s on this.  if only they would LISTEN to the speeches he gives (which seem to never make it to the mainstream media outlets) on this issue.

if only they would see what his daughter Ivanka is doing to combat the issue of trafficking.  First Lady Melania as well.

if only they would see how many of these gangs have used orphaned children – trafficked children – kidnapped children – to get into this country claiming the children as theirs only to sell them off to the highest deep state proxy bidder.

if only they could SEE with open mind, eyes and heart the clean-up that is being undertaken to end this practice.  YES it means some families are unfortunately separated for awhile.  how else can this be done?

this is why the administration, under Sessions, put into plans DNA testing so we can make this process go faster of uniting the families.

and oh if only they would see the plans of previous administrations, under both democrat and republican leadership, to destroy this nation.  gut it.  turn us into a gang-infested nation where anything goes.  where sharia law is the norm.  where the constitution is no longer.

that plan was well in place.  and WE ALL KNOW IT.  it doesn’t take an internet researcher to see this.  look around.  SEE the failing infrastructure. SEE the millions of jobs that were allowed to leave.  SEE the huge uptick in crimes in inner cities in the heart of this nation.  SEE the poverty.

bottom line is THIS COUNTRY WAS NOT SOLVING ITS PROBLEMS for the past 3-4 decades.

THIS COUNTRY WAS BEING DESTROYED.  PERIOD.

and now she is being put back together again.  and like any such undertaking – it takes time.  and there will be resistance from those wanting to keep the same destruction going.  and as that resistance loses power, it will increase its strength and violence.

NONE of this is invisible to our seeing eyes and open minds.

while i don’t like this focus on VOTE RED VOTE RED – as at the surface it creates division – i see the purpose of this.

the deep state lost a lot of power in its republican base.  the majority of the power remains in the democratic side.  getting mccain outta there freed up some people who were going along to get along/remain alive – freed them up to come to the side of Freedom.  and Truth.  we see it happening.

again – NONE of this puzzle is invisible if one choose to SEE beyond the words presented and GRASP the concept that there is a much bigger picture being created.

the picture of FREEDOM.

LOVE.

UNITY.

as i once put to song over 10 years ago – a divinely highest self guided self – very appropriately titled “INVISIBLE”:

when i appear invisible to you…
you really are invisible to yourself.
for we’re all a part of the same Life.
look inside.

before i begin, i want to point out an observation that feels unusual to me – the crickets are singing.  and it’s only 3:30pm.  sunny.  warm.  how odd.  they don’t come alive with their songs until dusk/twilight.  i noticed it after i finished playing the piano.  the neighborhood is very quiet today – and so given the windows were open i could hear them clearly.

then i wondered if this is a matrix glitch.  maybe the sounds we hear here are “fake” too – part of the simulation.  goddess i hope not but NOTHING would surprise me about this makings of this construct at this point.

so….out and about beautiful people have a variety of signs in their yard – many of them about uniting families.  ending the separation.  oh if only they knew this IS the overall plan unlike past administrations.

if only they knew how many of these immigrants who were allowed to come here and remain were gangs.  criminals traffickers of humans/children, drugs, weapons.  if only they would read Trump’s executive order’s on this.  if only they would LISTEN to the speeches he gives (which seem to never make it to the mainstream media outlets) on this issue.

if only they would see what his daughter Ivanka is doing to combat the issue of trafficking.  First Lady Melania as well.

if only they would see how many of these gangs have used orphaned children – trafficked children – kidnapped children – to get into this country claiming the children as theirs only to sell them off to the highest deep state proxy bidder.

if only they could SEE with open mind, eyes and heart the clean-up that is being undertaken to end this practice.  YES it means some families are unfortunately separated for awhile.  how else can this be done?

this is why the administration, under Sessions, put into plans DNA testing so we can make this process go faster of uniting the families.

and oh if only they would see the plans of previous administrations, under both democrat and republican leadership, to destroy this nation.  gut it.  turn us into a gang-infested nation where anything goes.  there sharia law is the norm.  where the constitution is no longer.

that plan was well in place.  and WE ALL KNOW IT.  it doesn’t take an internet researcher to see this.  look around.  SEE the failing infrastructure. SEE the millions of jobs that were allowed to leave.  SEE the huge uptick in crimes in inner cities in the heart of this nation.  SEE the poverty.

bottom line is THIS COUNTRY WAS NOT SOLVING ITS PROBLEMS for the past 3-4 decades.

THIS COUNTRY WAS BEING DESTROYED.  PERIOD.

and now she is being put back together again.  and like any such undertaking – it takes time.  and there will be resistance from those wanting to keep the same destruction going.  and as that resistance loses power, it will increase its strength and violence.

NONE of this is invisible to our seeing eyes and open minds.

while i don’t like this focus on VOTE RED VOTE RED – as at the surface it creates division – i see the purpose of this.

the deep state lost a lot of power in its republican base.  the majority of the power remains in the democratic side.  getting mccain outta there freed up some people who were going along to get along/remain alive – freed them up to come to the side of Freedom.  and Truth.  we see it happening.

again – NONE of this puzzle is invisible if one choose to SEE beyond the words presented and GRASP the concept that there is a much bigger picture being created.

the picture of FREEDOM.

LOVE.

UNITY.

as i once put to song over 10 years ago – a divinely highest self guided self – very appropriately titled “INVISIBLE”:

when i appear invisible to you…
you really are invisible to yourself.
for we’re all a part of the same Life.
look inside.
you know it’s true.
reach out to me
and take my hand
and we can walk together into Eternity.  (Unity)

that is MY WISH for every one of us.

that is all for now.

love,

victoria

you know it’s true.
reach out to me
and take my hand
and we can walk together into Eternity.  (Unity)

that is MY WISH for every one of us.

that is all for now.

love,

victoria

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Energy Update: 10/19/18

 

me and this journey

 

well considering i had to pause for a bit to determine the date, i would say the energies are doing their thing to cause my brain to discombobulate.

appetite continues fluctuate from non-existent to food NOW!  although the food NOW state is lessening.  my child is even having the “not really hungry, mama” issue.

my vision?  wow.  i literally had a moment in the car where this whiteness appeared in front of my eyes and i thought i was going to go blind.  it’s a difficult thing to explain.  it was more of an energy experience than a physical experience.  something outside of myself.  or perhaps the ability to SEE/DO here was challenged – perhaps pulling me away in preparation of REAL.  Real realm.  Real experiences.

my ability to talk – same struggle.  difficulty finding words only continues so i end up speaking some other language – kinda chanting combined w/pointing.  i know what i mean.  the english language – most languages i would say here in this realm are harsh and often just don’t do the “job” of clearly stating our needs/wishes/wants.  and hearing it from other’s is quite jarring to me.

my ability to be around others – even the quietest of environment’s – places i normally go – a huge challenge.  sensitivities are off the chart’s today.  and this week.  fatigue and lack of sleep only amplify of course so i know some of this is due to my own personal “stuff” and not all due to “it’s the energies!”

that’s it – fading away.  that is the feeling i am having most of all.  fading away.  that just came to me.  a real struggle fitting in.  growing desire TO withdraw.

letting go of connections and attachments.  just in this holding pattern – ongoing – really wanting NEW.

7777 now please.

love,

Victoria

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A Lyrian Being & 7777: Today’s Experiences & Reflections ~ 10/19/18

 

Hello Everyone~

I awoke this morning with a residual image in my mind.  I was seeing a very tall (as in 8-9 foot) female lyrian-human type being in my front yard.  I could draw her but decided to check online for a similar image.  I found the image below.  Take away the ears and have the hair cut chin length (eyes more narrow too – not so large) and that’s more or less what I saw.  She was also very thin – long arms, legs and torso.  I didn’t get anything other than an appearance – an “I’m here”.  No real sense of familiarity on my part.

A visit perhaps?  I am quite focused when I find the time on Remembering WHO I AM.  Remembering HOME.  Who I am outside of this realm.  Not getting much.  As the people who put together Schrodinger’s Other Cat’s site – the feeling is peanut butter in the ears and brain.  Not much coming through but fuzzy blankness when awake.  (I will link that in a bit.)  Dreamstate seems to be where the clarity is coming through.

That is until the number’s appear.  I had just written one of you about the number’s I have been seeing lately.  I hesitated as I typed something along the lines of normally seeing the 7’s but recently I had not.  HA!  You will see the images below I took about an hour later heading out to do some errands.  BAM!  It wasn’t just 77 or 777 but quadruple 7.  7777.  I have NEVER seen quadruple 7’s.  And twice??!!

7777 on the odometer.

Then headed away from a store about 20 minutes later, I see a car with the license place I7777.  !!!  I stopped the car suddenly and set up my phone to take a pic.  I had to pull into a parking space though as I was blocking traffic.  I was able to take a pic.  It’s rather fuzzy so you will just have to go with what I said.

So I decided to look up the meaning of the quad 7.  Here is the first thing that popped up (and out at me):  “The number 7777 is one of the most powerful spiritual numbers. Seeing this number sequence signifies that great progress is being made by your self for the new beginning you have always desired.”

Those who have followed me for awhile know I am often longing – combined with some days of pure WHINING – for NEW.  New Reality.  New Realm.  New Earth.  New Experiences.  New People.  New ways of Being/Living/Doing.  NEW NEW NEW.  It overwhelms me many days.  Today though I was at a place of either surrender or resignation.  Perhaps a bit of both.  At first I thought the 7 sequence was the Cosmos laughing at me for saying “oh I don’t see the 7’s much anymore”.

Perhaps though it was the Love of ALL giving me the message that All I Have Envisioned – dreamed of – been called continuously to have the faith in – going back 20 some years – all of it – is about to make itself known to me.  No longer just a desire but MANIFESTING all around me.

Heart – expanded.

Mind.  Blown.

Well as much as it can be blown today.  In spite of this gift…. I am dragging like a slug today – all day.  Another night of interrupted sleep.  Child (establishing new sleeping parameter’s and it is taking much longer than I would like it to.  She also had a nightmare and needed my comfort.  Then mate had a nightmare and woke up distressed so I soothed him.

I sit here now – wanting someone to comfort this tired body of mine.  I am in deep need of a therapeutic massage to release the pinched stuff going on and the muscles that are in knots in my upper shoulder’s and neck.  Some days it’s just too much for me – alone – in this body – with this mind – and longing heart.

So I will hold close the gift of the 7777.

Thank you for reading.

Love,

Victoria

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Another Trump Dream

 

i forgot i had another Trump dream last night.  it was brief and quick.  he brought me together with a woman who, like myself,  was a local trump supporter and like myself, has felt isolated in her views in this area.  she and i shared how we had felt afraid to speak up and share our truth with the anti-trump crowd.  the looks we had received.  the “oh my gosh you aren’t a trump supporter are you?!” question…. it was then that DJT thanked us both for our support and said something like safety first – protect ourselves and families first.  and he then said just by us holding the positive energy of support this in and of itself was effective and powerful in helping keep this movement going, ensuring success.

the experience ended.

we are all part of this awakening process.  and we are all a part of this movement to end the controlling matrix system.  holding the thought of support as i was shown IS enough.

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victoria

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Today’s Reflections…..they keep coming….

 

I had some validation experiences listening to Lisa Harrison’s latest last night.  I am going to give it another listen or two – I have a knowing I will receive more “stuff” by doing so.  The validations so far….Not just the physical stuff (loss of appetite or ravenous, dehydration, strange sleeping patterns)….but the connection to Home piece.  When she mentioned the Dragon’s, Lion Being’s and a 3rd yet-to-be-named/given race of beings breaking through the dome/grid and are now in this 3d frequency….I got chills.  A few days ago, my family decided to color one evening.  My mate brought out a picture of a dragon our girl had picked up at a local store (she had already colored one).  She wanted to color a house and I suddenly wanted to color that dragon.  Not just wanted – I felt I had to.

It took me almost an hour.  I was so precise in my color choices.  I felt like I was coloring – creating – something real.  I was REMEMBERING.  It was so peaceful and familiar.  I’ve included the finished piece below.

I cried over their reaction upon seeing us so clearly – not having the barrier of that frosted-type glass to view us.  I cried when Lisa said the feeling from them was sadness, shock AND awe – awe as in how they couldn’t believe how much light we still carry.

Yes – confirmation of how truly horrible it is here.  THIS IS NOT HOME.  And if you come here FROM home with even just a bit of awareness, you feel this same experience.  If your awareness grows, the knowing grows with it.  I thought back to my childhood and how often I would watch the skies and wonder when my real family was going to come for me.  I would stop and question myself – why would I have such a thought?  I had a home.  Parents who loved me (the best they could).  And yet – I felt a huge hole.  The connection just was not there.  It wasn’t me.  It wasn’t them.  It just WAS.

Amazing to me some 40 plus years later this was not just a child fantasy but Truth.

I awoke this morning and felt, again, how it must be like to actually break inside and see – family – friends – what they have been living in.  The living conditions.  Rather like visiting someone who has been in the hospital for months and is not doing so well.  The shock – over seeing one you care for – feel connected with – in such a state…

So….it was no coincidence to hear the Dragon Beings now have entered this realm and my sudden connection w/them this week to color – and remember.  I first had a connection to Lion Being’s early this year in the shower – suddenly seeing an image of a Lion Being – male – smiling at me. He felt familiar – very protective.  The image of him was gone within seconds.

So….I feel this pull to be connected and at Home….and a pull to be out in the world.  I gave that a try today – and while I didn’t have anxiety per say – I could not  be around people.  Today it feels my focus needs to be on being within my own space only.  And I could also sleep a lot now – as in all day – the past few days.  WOW on that one.  I did get a very strong knowing and feel in mid 2017 that the closer we get to whatever it is we want to call it – THE event…transition…THE thing….lol….the more I would need to sleep.  

The skies….Mars continues to be as big and bright as it was in July.  It is supposed to recede fully by the end of this month.

As I often say – nothing is as it seems here.

That is all for now…

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Victoria

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