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my body is requesting i rest/stretch her so this will be another brief experience update…

i got my butt kicked last night.  lol  nothing else to say about that ~ i trembled throughout the night and as always i just let the experience be.

today i had a couple of intense and interesting experiences.  the first one happened as i was in the kitchen getting ready to leave the house.  i moved my hand to reach out for the keys and i swear it was like i was seeing my hand as liquid.  it was quick – the seeing of this – but it was enough for me to stop my movement and say “wow!  what was THAT about??!”

seeing my energy body perhaps?  the fluidity of it?  or another matrix disconnection taking place?

if so i may have had another one of those this evening as i tucked my little one in bed.  i suddenly had this very disorienting sensation as though i was being moved around at another level ~ also with the sensation of deja vu combined.  i had to ask myself “am i dreaming or awake” and i have to be utterly honest – i could not answer that one.  it continued on so i knew i needed to ground myself ~ ride it out for as long as “it” needed.  “give mama a hug,” i asked and given how much my girl loves to snuggle and hug, she quickly complied.  grounding through love and soothing.

it worked.

other than that, i felt more connected w/others around me today ~ those in my neighborhood that is.  i could feel the expansion taking place and found myself being totally me and not feeling awkward.  all of us are experiencing this whether consciously aware or not.  so much of this is taking place in higher realms ~ other versions of us ~ those multi-d aspects of our being/Being.  i see it like a beautiful tube of love energy filling each of us up, top to bottom, inside out, from our cells out to all aspects of our energy bodies.

how have the past 24 hours been for you?

much love,

victoria

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Something has come in and hit this vessel majorly.  I was feeling quite good overall ~ then I took a shower and heard “mission accomplished”.  I had entered the shower hungry and yet getting out I realized I was no longer needing food.  I decided to eat anyway.

Wow.  Wrong decision.  My body seems to be rejecting what I put into it.  I was then suddenly in pain all over ~ the achy “ascension flu” type experience ~ nothing new but it wasn’t too long ago I had this experience.

Putting heat on my body.  Portable massager on the muscles.  Letting myself release via chanting.  Some personal stuff that is “eating” at me ~ an old issue ~ and I know I am compromising myself in order to give to my daughter.  Just a temporary situation ~ as in an hour ~ but I know it is something I would so rather NOT do.  Not out of fear ~ just a knowing of not wanting to put myself in a particular situation.  It is not healthy for me.

Wow.

Being around anyone who doesn’t know me or support me in Who I Am brings up the experience of inner repulsion ~ especially when the individual has been abusive.  So yes, I am compromising myself.

Being a parent while awakening is a huge challenge at times.  Interacting with old 3D paradigms ~ just a challenge that at times leaves me just blank.

Time for a new approach which I am flushing out as it is simply something I cannot engage in without saying something ~ doing something different.

For now, I am nurturing myself.  Seeking inner wisdom to make a shift in this situation/issue.

Love thyself ~ always ~ the highest greatest wisdom of all.

Wishing you all well~

Victoria

 

Hello everyone.  I hope you’re all doing well, keeping it real and focusing on the end result.  I know many of us are struggling right now ~ a collective experience.  I wanted to share last night’s dreamtime experiences as I believe they touch on some Universal happenings.

So….I’ll dive right in.

First dream I walked into my home (not this one but another home ~ it was still ours though) and there was this entity in a human form ~ doing something perverse on the ground.  I sent my girl to her room, and as I called for my mate to bring the gun, I called out to my cell phone which flew through the air and into my hands.  I said he was to stay put, I was phoning the police and that I had no desire nor intention on harming him but if he made one move to harm my child, mate or me I would direct my mate to shoot him.  He complied.  I also informed dispatch of my choice.  The dream ended.  (those engaged in the depths of dark destructive behaviors continue to lose their power ~ i see this in my dream-state lately ~ we have the power and are remembering/reclaiming and while loving every piece of our own sides we would rather not see or share)

The next dream experience I was inside a large building with a lot of classrooms.  I explored the school and found nothing resonating with me so I decided to pursue one last hall.  I peeked inside door after door and when I arrived at the last one, I saw some people from my past, said “no, I am done with this” then quietly shut it.  I realized though….there was one last door.  I stepped inside and there was a long table with a council of people.

I walked over, sat down (more like plopped down), breathed out a long sigh and the feeling I had was “well it’s about time you show up!”  I told them I had all of my intel that I would present later and made it clear:  I was not going back.  My days of service in that realm were over.  They nodded and one male being began to ask me some questions and was a bit surprised at how deceitful/manipulative it was in this realm.  It was like he knew but did not know the extent of the density of the energies.  I started to say well maybe I am exaggerating but instead said “no, it really was a horror show”. He took notes and a female was copying what he wrote down.

Then another male being, wearing a french beret, asked how he could serve me.  I am here to serve, we all are, he said.  Finally, I thought!  Some REAL service for this weary being who has been requesting as such for some “time”.  I thanked him and said I left behind some belongings “back there” and wanted them to go get them for me.  No problem, I was told.  We can do that for you.  Anything else? I was asked.  My response was funny and I am still not sure what it means but I said I was very much in need of an orange I had brought with me and wanted it back.  It was the perfect orange, I was obviously quite fond of it, and I did not wish to leave it behind.  Again, I was told no problem.  I also communicated how there are many many many of us in need of such service and that in order for US to serve, we were in need of some healing and r and r.  I also said we need to talk about all of this because you all need to hear our stories.  This is an experience where ALL will be gaining new perceptions ~ not just those of us here on the ground. We. Are. All. Equal.

That dream then ended.

There is a collective of deep irritation today.  I’ve even had a couple of people who aren’t into this stuff ask me “why am I so irritable today?”  I also noticed some sort of a shift upon awakening.  I felt something go through my body and got dizzy for a second and just felt a shift.  It feeeels like to me, perhaps, that is it that 100th monkey effect where the awakened collective, enough of us, have said WE ARE DONE and Universal Consciousness has said “yes” and opened up a new road.  Well in truth WE opened it up.  The Universe just responded with its usual “yes”.  It feels like we have come to the end of a line with nothing else to “do”.  Messages aren’t resonating with me much.  They feel like they carry the same energy and some feel even without a purpose or point – based on me and my journey that is.  Maybe the energies and messages some of these pieces carry is for another timeline or another realm, another experience, another Soul/Soul Group’s creation.

This is, after all, OUR experience, belonging only to US as individual Soul Beings and no one else.  And how we wish and choose to CREATE that experience, fully and freely for ourselves, in so long as that is not causing another intentional or unnecessary harm, is our Universal Divine Right.  For of course we can have Unity Consciousness while still having an individual, beautiful, fun, kick ass, amazing experience ~ purely FREE TO BE.

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Love,

Victoria

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I have had one of those days where I feel I awoke to a different timeline ~ one I have no desire nor intention to see continue.  Most days I’m on course ~ in the flow ~ seeing all that I intend and focus on showing signs of happening/manifesting (along with hundreds of thousands if not millions of others).  Then there are days where I look at what comes my way via research, articles, etc. and I am left thinking “WTF???  Where am I?”

NOT.  MY.  REALITY.

Today for instance some of what I shared here didn’t resonate with me one bit.  I searched for more of what is in alignment with what I want/feel/see and couldn’t find “that” which I seek.  I had my “that’s IT ~ walking away from the computer” moment when I saw a message I had actually been waiting for ~ one of the channeling peeps with whom normally I align. Today?  Not one bit. When the talk turned to OLD MATRIX PROGRAMMING….speaking of prisoners, people in jail, including all those who are there under false charges ~ every one of them….yes, each and every one of them according to this “higher message” have made some agreement to undergo this experience.

Deep sigh.

Proof?

You KNOW each of these beings and their corresponding Soul Beings?

Hmmm…  I certainly would like that kind of power ~ the ability to speak for everyone.

Not buying it.  What kind of a Soul Being resonates with: “ok I will come to this realm into this body and undergo a life of horror – let me choose from this list of traumatizing experiences.  Let’s see I will choose war and oooh no I already did the public hanging thing ~ yeah that didn’t go so well but oooh I haven’t tried THIS one yet:  False Imprisonment!” because hey – that sounds like a BLAST!

My feel is that while this has been a horrible game of enslavement for goddess knows how long, most of us know to some degree what we’re about to get into ~ and we are frigging here to make sure NO ONE EVER has to partake of ANYTHING that robs us of our freedom ever again.  At least that is MY take for ME ~ my feel ~ and I saw/felt that during a past life experience (that I did not expect could come forth but it did and it altered my perception on Who I Am and why I Am here).

This realm and the corresponding systems don’t give us free choice.  Free will.  Freedom.  When your right to do/be/think/speak is limited by the power-over by others via rules, laws and my personal favorite “people in positions of authority and power” (over you), you cannot possibly create a life….an experience of ANY real truth according to how the Soul operates. How many of us have said felt “NO” in all that we are and stated that as “NO” to another, the system or anyone who operates in a power-over position and had that not respected, not heard?

Each one of us.

So how then can any supposed higher being claim every person in prison, even the innocent (you know – those who were falsely placed there to begin with by some freedom destroying unawakened fuckhead(s)) are there due to their own choice?  Doesn’t that require the full freedom to make that choice?

It is time to end this type of programming b.s.  I won’t have it in my space without speaking up about it.

As I read that piece and shared with my mate, I kinda laughed as I said “that’s why I stopped doing the channeling stuff a few years ago…I asked a lot of questions and called out a lie when I felt it.”  That and well, those types of Beings, even if well-intentioned, don’t speak with me anymore.

I do however feel a nice connection with this Being I continue to call Clair ~ who I feel is part of my Soul Group ~ so it’s like speaking with someone you know. She came to me again in the shower this evening ~ her voice almost loud in my left ear ~ telling me I needed to get out of my head NOW and into my heart but first ~ I needed to speak my truth ~ get out the gunk clogging my ability to do so.  I thought “but that feels so hard” and as I did, I shut my eyes and without even asking for love, I, again saw a beautiful pink energy in front of my body, at my heart level. She did this for me awhile back ~ only I asked for it.  Tonight, she just sent it to me.  Words began to flow again after they got rather clogged after today’s experiences as well as a personal thing that happened last night that I am still on the fence as to how to handle.

Words that flowed….that I shared above.  They may have come out rough around the edges.  I am so passionate about FREEDOM (at every level for every part of Who We Are) and this speak that those who have been victimized by this very system that robs us of that freedom are essentially wanting that experience because of lessons and karma and fill in the blank blah blah B L A H.  NONSENSE.  FALSE MATRIX SPEAK.  FALSE TRUTH.  FALSE RELIGION. FALSE PHILOSOPHY. FALSE LIGHT.  And THAT is a “NO” that WILL be listened to no matter how long I will speak/present it.

Join in with me with your words and energy.

FREEDOM NOW.  For every one of us.

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considering it took me 3 times to get the word “brief” correct…

i am today too tired to type…

too spacey to spell…

too wonked to write…

too loopy to look (things up)…

too pooped to post.

Today’s goals as of 5:52pm:

1. eat dinner
2. sleep
3. sleep some more
4. repeat 2 and 3 as necessary

How ya’ll doing???

 

 

Hello everyone…

How are you all doing today?  In this now moment?

I went strong today until around 5pm PST then I was suddenly not altogether here.  Couldn’t hold a train of thought.  Literally, losing it in the moment.  I was putting together dinner or was I washing dishes?  I don’t know I don’t remember.  Anyway I began telling my mate something I had wanted to share ~ and as soon as I began to speak of it, I forgot.  Completely. Still have not been able to “catch” it.

And now my house has turned into the neighborhood hub for the children.  I am telling myself we must be close as the first dream I saw of us on new earth (where I was HEALTHY and RESTORED and sooooo at peace with abilities coming back nicely)….our house was the hub for the local kiddos.

This HAS to be a sign, right?  It just started the past week.  And there is a new child in the group and she seems very thoughtful and easy going.  I don’t know…it’s just kinda weird that suddenly this new group of children forms and our house is a main hub.

I continue on occasion to speak what can only be labeled as “light language”.  Last night while putting the wet clothes into the dryer, what started as english ended in the other worldly.  My mate has begun doing the same although I have yet to hear him.  He just informed me this morning he has also begun doing the same.

I awoke this morning processing some gunk from last night where I read old words of pain being absolutely necessary for our growth.  Do we ever read where LOVE is what is necessary??  Freedom?  We read we aren’t supposed to neeeeeeeeeeeed a thing but we gotta have pain.  Those words stick to me like icky unwanted gunk ~ which is how matrix programs feel. Sticky. Heavy.  Uninspiring.  NO  THANK  YOU.  If it doesn’t raise me up and me me feel good, I reject it.  We expand through consciously, lovingly creating freely.  

It is as simple as that.

Whenever I run across an old program, the response in my body is immediate and visceral.  One of the final programs to burn ~ cease having a reaction and instead simply observe when I come in contact with such programs.  Yes.

I was also awake at 4am feeling agitated.  I got out of bed, went into the kitchen and quietly grabbed a bite to eat and some iced peppermint tea.  I looked out the window and could see the light of the moon.  It’s just another fake construct with man and who knows what other entities created bases, etc.  (if you wish to see real footage that is quite amazing, check out the Bruce Sees All youtube channel ~ he has great equipment and has captured a lot of “stuff” on the moon)  Anyway, the energy coming from it was not suiting my body and for the first time, I could feel the energy – really feel it – and all I could think of was “you are not my friend moon”.  I used to follow the moon phases and honor it, giving it my power.  And for what reason? Has it benefited me?  No. Nothing that has been created in this realm has been to our benefit.  It is time I own that ~ so I can be “ok” with it and stop the struggle and the “yeah but’s…”   That being said it is my wish that all that has been created with the agenda of control and lies, manipulation and enslavement be re-created and/or restored to full neutrality so that it MAY be used for the purpose of pure divine creation for All.

So yeah, the thought for the day – for life – for all eternity is we expand through consciously, lovingly creating freely.

And that, I believe, is all I have for today.

Much love,

Victoria

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Not much of a “thinking/doing” day although I gave it my best shot.  This was by far one of the most challenging days I have had throughout this “upgrading/transition” process.  Kinda had one of those “everything applies” days ~ which was completely unexpected.

I had intense purging, went deep within to those dark corners, saw them and sent those pieces of me love and sparkly rainbow light rays.

The ability to use my body was a challenge.  From picking up a utensil to talking…

I could not focus or concentrate without a struggle.

Tonight, I feel nauseous and my body aches pretty much all over.

Then there is the fatigue ~ a new level.  I have had 2 naps today and this was after I went to bed about 2 hours earlier than normal.  Sleeping was a challenge (again!).  You know those places you get when you are so tired, you struggle to do the most basic task and end up in tears?  My first nap I was out seconds after my head lay on the pillow.

Finally there is the body trembles.  I feel like I am shaking out trauma energies.  I have no proof to offer other than just a “knowing”.

The schumann frequencies were engaged in those sharp, sudden spikes throughout the day.  Those can be a challenge at times.  My body seems to prefer the spiking that lasts for a few hours instead of these “on again/off again” spikes ~ which is what I have been noticing occurs a lot at night here in the Pacific Time Zone region lately ~ which likely explains the interrupted sleep that has been the norm off and on the past few weeks.  It feels like being tossed between two realities ~ one that is flat and jagged, the other blissful and floaty.  Make up your mind already, right?  Such spiking….A little too jarring on my already highly sensitive body.  

So now that I have shared, I am going to take a long steaming hot shower and place this vessel of mine on some heated buddies (freshly made) and my massager.  Sip on some tea and just stare at the flame coming from the fireplace.  (our stretch of sun and warmth was short-lived)

How are you all doing?  (had another thought post-shower i wanted to share and see if any of you are having the same:  an issue with speaking language.  the english language.  the words are feeling harsh and challenging to speak.  i feel the need to just telepathically send my thoughts as well as speak in tones and i guess it would be light language.  easier on the body/mouth/throat.)

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Victoria

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