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Hello everyone.  I hope you’re all doing well, keeping it real and focusing on the end result.  I know many of us are struggling right now ~ a collective experience.  I wanted to share last night’s dreamtime experiences as I believe they touch on some Universal happenings.

So….I’ll dive right in.

First dream I walked into my home (not this one but another home ~ it was still ours though) and there was this entity in a human form ~ doing something perverse on the ground.  I sent my girl to her room, and as I called for my mate to bring the gun, I called out to my cell phone which flew through the air and into my hands.  I said he was to stay put, I was phoning the police and that I had no desire nor intention on harming him but if he made one move to harm my child, mate or me I would direct my mate to shoot him.  He complied.  I also informed dispatch of my choice.  The dream ended.  (those engaged in the depths of dark destructive behaviors continue to lose their power ~ i see this in my dream-state lately ~ we have the power and are remembering/reclaiming and while loving every piece of our own sides we would rather not see or share)

The next dream experience I was inside a large building with a lot of classrooms.  I explored the school and found nothing resonating with me so I decided to pursue one last hall.  I peeked inside door after door and when I arrived at the last one, I saw some people from my past, said “no, I am done with this” then quietly shut it.  I realized though….there was one last door.  I stepped inside and there was a long table with a council of people.

I walked over, sat down (more like plopped down), breathed out a long sigh and the feeling I had was “well it’s about time you show up!”  I told them I had all of my intel that I would present later and made it clear:  I was not going back.  My days of service in that realm were over.  They nodded and one male being began to ask me some questions and was a bit surprised at how deceitful/manipulative it was in this realm.  It was like he knew but did not know the extent of the density of the energies.  I started to say well maybe I am exaggerating but instead said “no, it really was a horror show”. He took notes and a female was copying what he wrote down.

Then another male being, wearing a french beret, asked how he could serve me.  I am here to serve, we all are, he said.  Finally, I thought!  Some REAL service for this weary being who has been requesting as such for some “time”.  I thanked him and said I left behind some belongings “back there” and wanted them to go get them for me.  No problem, I was told.  We can do that for you.  Anything else? I was asked.  My response was funny and I am still not sure what it means but I said I was very much in need of an orange I had brought with me and wanted it back.  It was the perfect orange, I was obviously quite fond of it, and I did not wish to leave it behind.  Again, I was told no problem.  I also communicated how there are many many many of us in need of such service and that in order for US to serve, we were in need of some healing and r and r.  I also said we need to talk about all of this because you all need to hear our stories.  This is an experience where ALL will be gaining new perceptions ~ not just those of us here on the ground. We. Are. All. Equal.

That dream then ended.

There is a collective of deep irritation today.  I’ve even had a couple of people who aren’t into this stuff ask me “why am I so irritable today?”  I also noticed some sort of a shift upon awakening.  I felt something go through my body and got dizzy for a second and just felt a shift.  It feeeels like to me, perhaps, that is it that 100th monkey effect where the awakened collective, enough of us, have said WE ARE DONE and Universal Consciousness has said “yes” and opened up a new road.  Well in truth WE opened it up.  The Universe just responded with its usual “yes”.  It feels like we have come to the end of a line with nothing else to “do”.  Messages aren’t resonating with me much.  They feel like they carry the same energy and some feel even without a purpose or point – based on me and my journey that is.  Maybe the energies and messages some of these pieces carry is for another timeline or another realm, another experience, another Soul/Soul Group’s creation.

This is, after all, OUR experience, belonging only to US as individual Soul Beings and no one else.  And how we wish and choose to CREATE that experience, fully and freely for ourselves, in so long as that is not causing another intentional or unnecessary harm, is our Universal Divine Right.  For of course we can have Unity Consciousness while still having an individual, beautiful, fun, kick ass, amazing experience ~ purely FREE TO BE.

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Love,

Victoria

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I have had one of those days where I feel I awoke to a different timeline ~ one I have no desire nor intention to see continue.  Most days I’m on course ~ in the flow ~ seeing all that I intend and focus on showing signs of happening/manifesting (along with hundreds of thousands if not millions of others).  Then there are days where I look at what comes my way via research, articles, etc. and I am left thinking “WTF???  Where am I?”

NOT.  MY.  REALITY.

Today for instance some of what I shared here didn’t resonate with me one bit.  I searched for more of what is in alignment with what I want/feel/see and couldn’t find “that” which I seek.  I had my “that’s IT ~ walking away from the computer” moment when I saw a message I had actually been waiting for ~ one of the channeling peeps with whom normally I align. Today?  Not one bit. When the talk turned to OLD MATRIX PROGRAMMING….speaking of prisoners, people in jail, including all those who are there under false charges ~ every one of them….yes, each and every one of them according to this “higher message” have made some agreement to undergo this experience.

Deep sigh.

Proof?

You KNOW each of these beings and their corresponding Soul Beings?

Hmmm…  I certainly would like that kind of power ~ the ability to speak for everyone.

Not buying it.  What kind of a Soul Being resonates with: “ok I will come to this realm into this body and undergo a life of horror – let me choose from this list of traumatizing experiences.  Let’s see I will choose war and oooh no I already did the public hanging thing ~ yeah that didn’t go so well but oooh I haven’t tried THIS one yet:  False Imprisonment!” because hey – that sounds like a BLAST!

My feel is that while this has been a horrible game of enslavement for goddess knows how long, most of us know to some degree what we’re about to get into ~ and we are frigging here to make sure NO ONE EVER has to partake of ANYTHING that robs us of our freedom ever again.  At least that is MY take for ME ~ my feel ~ and I saw/felt that during a past life experience (that I did not expect could come forth but it did and it altered my perception on Who I Am and why I Am here).

This realm and the corresponding systems don’t give us free choice.  Free will.  Freedom.  When your right to do/be/think/speak is limited by the power-over by others via rules, laws and my personal favorite “people in positions of authority and power” (over you), you cannot possibly create a life….an experience of ANY real truth according to how the Soul operates. How many of us have said felt “NO” in all that we are and stated that as “NO” to another, the system or anyone who operates in a power-over position and had that not respected, not heard?

Each one of us.

So how then can any supposed higher being claim every person in prison, even the innocent (you know – those who were falsely placed there to begin with by some freedom destroying unawakened fuckhead(s)) are there due to their own choice?  Doesn’t that require the full freedom to make that choice?

It is time to end this type of programming b.s.  I won’t have it in my space without speaking up about it.

As I read that piece and shared with my mate, I kinda laughed as I said “that’s why I stopped doing the channeling stuff a few years ago…I asked a lot of questions and called out a lie when I felt it.”  That and well, those types of Beings, even if well-intentioned, don’t speak with me anymore.

I do however feel a nice connection with this Being I continue to call Clair ~ who I feel is part of my Soul Group ~ so it’s like speaking with someone you know. She came to me again in the shower this evening ~ her voice almost loud in my left ear ~ telling me I needed to get out of my head NOW and into my heart but first ~ I needed to speak my truth ~ get out the gunk clogging my ability to do so.  I thought “but that feels so hard” and as I did, I shut my eyes and without even asking for love, I, again saw a beautiful pink energy in front of my body, at my heart level. She did this for me awhile back ~ only I asked for it.  Tonight, she just sent it to me.  Words began to flow again after they got rather clogged after today’s experiences as well as a personal thing that happened last night that I am still on the fence as to how to handle.

Words that flowed….that I shared above.  They may have come out rough around the edges.  I am so passionate about FREEDOM (at every level for every part of Who We Are) and this speak that those who have been victimized by this very system that robs us of that freedom are essentially wanting that experience because of lessons and karma and fill in the blank blah blah B L A H.  NONSENSE.  FALSE MATRIX SPEAK.  FALSE TRUTH.  FALSE RELIGION. FALSE PHILOSOPHY. FALSE LIGHT.  And THAT is a “NO” that WILL be listened to no matter how long I will speak/present it.

Join in with me with your words and energy.

FREEDOM NOW.  For every one of us.

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considering it took me 3 times to get the word “brief” correct…

i am today too tired to type…

too spacey to spell…

too wonked to write…

too loopy to look (things up)…

too pooped to post.

Today’s goals as of 5:52pm:

1. eat dinner
2. sleep
3. sleep some more
4. repeat 2 and 3 as necessary

How ya’ll doing???

 

 

Hello everyone…

How are you all doing today?  In this now moment?

I went strong today until around 5pm PST then I was suddenly not altogether here.  Couldn’t hold a train of thought.  Literally, losing it in the moment.  I was putting together dinner or was I washing dishes?  I don’t know I don’t remember.  Anyway I began telling my mate something I had wanted to share ~ and as soon as I began to speak of it, I forgot.  Completely. Still have not been able to “catch” it.

And now my house has turned into the neighborhood hub for the children.  I am telling myself we must be close as the first dream I saw of us on new earth (where I was HEALTHY and RESTORED and sooooo at peace with abilities coming back nicely)….our house was the hub for the local kiddos.

This HAS to be a sign, right?  It just started the past week.  And there is a new child in the group and she seems very thoughtful and easy going.  I don’t know…it’s just kinda weird that suddenly this new group of children forms and our house is a main hub.

I continue on occasion to speak what can only be labeled as “light language”.  Last night while putting the wet clothes into the dryer, what started as english ended in the other worldly.  My mate has begun doing the same although I have yet to hear him.  He just informed me this morning he has also begun doing the same.

I awoke this morning processing some gunk from last night where I read old words of pain being absolutely necessary for our growth.  Do we ever read where LOVE is what is necessary??  Freedom?  We read we aren’t supposed to neeeeeeeeeeeed a thing but we gotta have pain.  Those words stick to me like icky unwanted gunk ~ which is how matrix programs feel. Sticky. Heavy.  Uninspiring.  NO  THANK  YOU.  If it doesn’t raise me up and me me feel good, I reject it.  We expand through consciously, lovingly creating freely.  

It is as simple as that.

Whenever I run across an old program, the response in my body is immediate and visceral.  One of the final programs to burn ~ cease having a reaction and instead simply observe when I come in contact with such programs.  Yes.

I was also awake at 4am feeling agitated.  I got out of bed, went into the kitchen and quietly grabbed a bite to eat and some iced peppermint tea.  I looked out the window and could see the light of the moon.  It’s just another fake construct with man and who knows what other entities created bases, etc.  (if you wish to see real footage that is quite amazing, check out the Bruce Sees All youtube channel ~ he has great equipment and has captured a lot of “stuff” on the moon)  Anyway, the energy coming from it was not suiting my body and for the first time, I could feel the energy – really feel it – and all I could think of was “you are not my friend moon”.  I used to follow the moon phases and honor it, giving it my power.  And for what reason? Has it benefited me?  No. Nothing that has been created in this realm has been to our benefit.  It is time I own that ~ so I can be “ok” with it and stop the struggle and the “yeah but’s…”   That being said it is my wish that all that has been created with the agenda of control and lies, manipulation and enslavement be re-created and/or restored to full neutrality so that it MAY be used for the purpose of pure divine creation for All.

So yeah, the thought for the day – for life – for all eternity is we expand through consciously, lovingly creating freely.

And that, I believe, is all I have for today.

Much love,

Victoria

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Not much of a “thinking/doing” day although I gave it my best shot.  This was by far one of the most challenging days I have had throughout this “upgrading/transition” process.  Kinda had one of those “everything applies” days ~ which was completely unexpected.

I had intense purging, went deep within to those dark corners, saw them and sent those pieces of me love and sparkly rainbow light rays.

The ability to use my body was a challenge.  From picking up a utensil to talking…

I could not focus or concentrate without a struggle.

Tonight, I feel nauseous and my body aches pretty much all over.

Then there is the fatigue ~ a new level.  I have had 2 naps today and this was after I went to bed about 2 hours earlier than normal.  Sleeping was a challenge (again!).  You know those places you get when you are so tired, you struggle to do the most basic task and end up in tears?  My first nap I was out seconds after my head lay on the pillow.

Finally there is the body trembles.  I feel like I am shaking out trauma energies.  I have no proof to offer other than just a “knowing”.

The schumann frequencies were engaged in those sharp, sudden spikes throughout the day.  Those can be a challenge at times.  My body seems to prefer the spiking that lasts for a few hours instead of these “on again/off again” spikes ~ which is what I have been noticing occurs a lot at night here in the Pacific Time Zone region lately ~ which likely explains the interrupted sleep that has been the norm off and on the past few weeks.  It feels like being tossed between two realities ~ one that is flat and jagged, the other blissful and floaty.  Make up your mind already, right?  Such spiking….A little too jarring on my already highly sensitive body.  

So now that I have shared, I am going to take a long steaming hot shower and place this vessel of mine on some heated buddies (freshly made) and my massager.  Sip on some tea and just stare at the flame coming from the fireplace.  (our stretch of sun and warmth was short-lived)

How are you all doing?  (had another thought post-shower i wanted to share and see if any of you are having the same:  an issue with speaking language.  the english language.  the words are feeling harsh and challenging to speak.  i feel the need to just telepathically send my thoughts as well as speak in tones and i guess it would be light language.  easier on the body/mouth/throat.)

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I was in the shower earlier, pondering the term Service.  It comes up a lot in these channels.  Service to self.  Service to others.  … as though we have to pick.  I have written on this topic before and have come to the feeeeeeeeeeling conclusion that all we can do ~ and are created to do ~ is Serve ~ from the heart ~ for that is when it is Authentic Service.  That’s it. No “service to self” is better or “service to others” is better.

I felt this all out and words that I have read went through my mind ~ how so many of us, indeed myself included, have judged others for being service to self.  We have judged ourselves for being service to self.  We have judged the unawakened masses for being self-serving.  Only concerned with his or herself.

And yet ~ when I felt this out ~ I could “see” how we as a whole, awakening, awakened and the unawakened, have done nothing but serve others/another ~ in such a way that it is damaging and therefore not truly service but I have no other word to use so I will stick with the term as is. The entire system was created to ensure we serve the master/mistress.  We serve the boss to make the money to ensure our physical survival needs are met. We serve our children, our mates/partners. How many of us have the ongoing desire of “I wish I could do more for myself!”  Truly desiring to have more of our heart’s desires met.

I think it’s quite amazing there has not been a huge revolt against our service to the system just to survive.  Aren’t we just DONE with it all?

The awakened?  The unawakened?  Left?  Right?  Black, white and in between?

Aren’t we all just DONE with serving THEM so they can live as they please as a service-to-self entity?  What about us and our needs?  They are every bit as valuable.  We are every bit as worthy.

I feel anyone speaking of how we need to become Service to Others (in this current paradigm) needs to stop and rethink and refeel their words.  Service needs to be redefined and felt out again and part of doing that MUST come from putting an end to ALL forms of pay-to-live and enslavement and power-over so we CAN be in the pure space to know again what Service truly is.  For even when one does become purely and authentically a true Service-oriented Being (to self and others), they are still having to pay-to-live, still part of this realm/system.

Freedom is more than just a state of mind and feeling.  For freedom to be fully authentic and legitimate, it also must include an end to all systems that violate its very principles.

It also must include an awareness, an understanding, in how each of us entrapped by this system, is doing the best we can.  The very systems that exhaust us, at least many of us, make it difficult to serve others outside of the slave masters.

Change the within.  Change the without.  Both are necessary to reclaim our authentic knowing and state of Being that wishes to truly Serve.

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Now is the time ~ of all time’s ~ at least for me ~ where telling the truth and nothing but is imperative.  The energy of those repressed words is demanding to be released.  I noticed that switch yesterday when I was asked my opinion about another.  My social mask voice said to be positive, be kind, etc. etc.  But real me kicked in, stopped my programmed speak and said “No, I don’t like that person.  I do not resonate with them.”

I think many of us get confused that as we transition and bring forth more love within us, we believe (baaaaad word) we should (another baaaaaaaaad word) also fall in love with everyone around us.

Not gonna happen.  There will be some people for whom we just don’t vibe. And that’s ok.  Perhaps the truth can be found in knowing the difference in being in love with all and holding love for all.  ???  I have had several such moments where I have felt love for all ~ and it was amazing.  However I also know that while I am still here in zombie world, others can and will take advantage of that state.  It’s too scary to be around for it is foreign in this realm.  And until ALL are in the same state, it is an experience to share with a whole lot of discernment and nothing to be given blindly.  Those rose colored glasses need to have the right prescription strength.  Until one is strong enough to be able to handle any potential blow-backs.  And I am not yet there.

I had a dream last night ~ a reoccurring theme.  It lasted for quite some time.  Throughout there was someone I wanted to talk with ~ and they tried talking with me.  However I had this gum-like substance that began coming out of my mouth ~ this time it was attached to my tongue.  It’s so gross ~ but I have had the experience before and I KNOW it represents repressed emotions and words.  Frustration.

That is what I feel now.  Frustration.  Frustrated.

I LOOOONG for connection ~ real connection.  No more of this fake social crap I engage in on a daily damn basis with the people around me.  The parents of other kids.  And wow have the kids been just showing up at this house for days on end now.  Just showing up.  Public school kids, vaccinated, bringing with them their drama and system allowed behaviors and just simply behavior I don’t want around my child.  I speak out about it.  I stop it when I see it.  I talk with my girl about it.  Endlessly it seems now.

It’s like knowing what you desire ~ dark chocolate cake ~ but being handed a rusty nail instead.

Well I am tossing back that damn rusty nail.  I know what I deserve.  I know what my girl deserves.  My girl deserves friends who are thoughtful. Whose parents are awakening and who are highly conscious.

Being one of the awakened ones – young or old – just fucking SUCKS here. When you are such a Being, sensitive to all that is 3D low vibe ~ when you speak about this you get the rolled eyes, the name calling, the dismissal, the “oh you’re one of THOSE types”.   Even finding a real connection in the whole ascension community has been difficult because some are so far up in the clouds in la la land they refuse to see real pain and suffering.  It’s as though their little castle of illusion is so sparkly clean and shiny, if you bring along any emotional energy that isn’t high vibe, they fear their own castle may tarnish.  And I get that.  I really do.  But it isn’t helpful to be in denial.

We want the TRUTH.  Now.  The full truth and nothing but the truth.

That is what the energies are calling forth now.  For every one of us.

And my truth, aside from what I have shared above is this:

I want the new realm.  I NEED it.  NEEEEEEEEEEEEEED.  Yes, I am saying that for anyone who thinks I “should” let go of the word.  But it is there.  A longing.  Deep within.  I am fucking tired of feeling stuck.  I focus on daily what I want.  What I desire.  D A I L Y.  In the morning.  In the evening.

My tribe.

Healing assistance.

The right educational experience for my child.

I KNOW this exists.  I see it.  I feel it.  I call it forth every stinking day.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I. AM. DONE. WITH. GROUNDHOG DAY.

How many times do I have to say that?  How many times do I have to put my hand up and claim “NO” to that which doesn’t resonate??

WHEN are those things in which I call forth going to manifest??

Do we really all have to “wait” for this event energy?

For the escape pod to be launched and opened?

Am I waiting for NOTHING here?  Are we??

I want to know!

I want the god damn truth!

Come on Source.

Come on Divine.

Come on Higher Self.

SHOW ME THE TRUTH.

Deep breath, deep breath I hear.  Let go.  Let go of any story that dictates control and of how things should be.

Ooooh, that is my struggle.  When to DO (control) and when to BE (allow). Why not both?  Is the higher frequency really about just allowing??

I feel as though I am falling apart.  Coming undone.  Unraveling.  I don’t know who to Be.  What to think.  I don’t know who I am becoming.  Which way is up, which way is down.  Feeling my truth deep within my heart ~ is that good enough?  How do I share my truth?  How much do I put into what I have right now and how much do I put into what I really desire and what I have seen for so many years?  It’s a real challenge sometimes ~ when you have seen a new realm, seen yourself there, seen your family there, met others who have seen the same damn realm ~ and to still.  be.  here.

Argh……….

With as much love and gratitude I can muster~

Victoria

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With ^^ this thing affecting the human vessel, this is one of those days to say “‘scuse me i am having a schumann moment'”.  (and yes i do say that.) I did manage to get the avatar onto my mountain bike and took a ride. Finding quiet streets is easy in this section of town (as compared to the rest of this ginormous city I ~ we ~ will be happy to exit from).  My body feels heavy and slow today but I pushed the ride.  Another quick run to the store to get something pre-made for dinner.  Just not up for that most days ~ it really has become a challenge.  Where is my food replicator??

So as I said earlier, I had this flying dream last night.  It was more of an experience.  It started off with myself walking along the side of this shopping center.  It was dusk ~ the parking lot was empty.  I saw this woman and walked up to her.  She looked familiar and I said “oh, I know you from high school”.  However, as we made eye contact she turned into one of those creatures from the movie They Live.  I looked at her and said “holy sheot you really are real!” and walked away.

At this time some old little pick up truck came racing into the parking lot.  I knew the entity in it was looking for people like me.  I was able to successfully hide behind a post I manifested for a bit but I must have given off some energy they (matrix scum) picked up on for I knew the post wasn’t going to be enough.  It was time to pull out my skills, I thought.

As the person got out of the vehicle, I walked out from behind the post.  I felt no fear but I was very cautious.  He walked towards me with a purpose.  I could sense it was nothing but a program, however it was still something for me to avoid.  As he got up to me I said “I’m not who you think I am ~ I am going to fly now” and wow fly I did.  It was amazing.  I felt the buzz/pressure in my lower spine and I literally flew straight up – and fast too.  I went up at least 300 feet before I thought “Ok, I need to work on that. I didn’t need to go that high” so I began to slowly float down back towards the ground.

Then I see another program bot also looking for beings like myself.  He came running over to me and I was able to stop myself and hover – just out of his reach.  I was still practicing and had to concentrate but it couldn’t touch me and I said “I am leaving now” and zoom – I was off again.  Then I awoke.  Wide Awake.  Wanting to do that again!  [wp-svg-icons icon=”cool” wrap=”i”]

For over a year I have intended a flying machine for myself.  Perhaps that will just be a back-up toy.  My body will be my main “machine” used for such purposes.

I did think about the dream and can feel it was more than just a dream.  I was able to see that there indeed are “fake” entities within this realm ~ possibly truly indeed fake and/or (unknowingly) victimized people who are being used by the controllers of this realm via their technologies.  That shit is breaking down more and more.  Their abilities weakening.

The awakened ones strengthening.

Let us be good to ourselves and hold onto one another in whatever way we can as we ride out this final hill…perhaps it is the final curve.

For now I am going to end this one for I just realized I paused and stared at the screen for a longer period of “time” than is normal.  lol  Going to do some stretching…..and it is time to feed the bodies too.

Love,

Victoria Zoooooooooooooooooooooooooom

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