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And mama flat on the couch an hour after I awoke (as captured by my mate).  I believe the last words I was mumbling before I did the face plant was “the monkey has it”.

 

Last night as I went to bed, I requested some healing.  I asked to release anger and fear and to expand my heart chakra.  Hours later I recall a dream I had where I felt and saw a beam of energy that resembled a rope – and I felt it in my heart.  You know the movie Poltergeist when the mama is holding onto the rope, pulling her girl out of the other dimensional space?  That is what I saw.

At first I was angry and found it intrusive.  Upon awakening I said something like “oh hell no you don’t get to do that without asking” and set the intention to return to the dream and find the Being who did that. Instead, as I returned to sleep, I had a dream that can only be described as blissful.  I was around people I did not know and people I did and the feeling in my heart was palpable.  It was…beautiful.

(UPDATE:  This just popped up on my social media feed.  That is what I likely experienced.  A little stunned reading this ~ not giving into the fear ~ but also appreciative of the clarity of what I experienced, given my first impression was NO/intrusion: “Update:
As of 8am this morning , a Pleidean Reptilian Mother ship was taken down.
This was carrying some of the most staunch Heirchy Reptillian commander forces. The ones who chose to go down with the ship.
This also was the membrane like energy we were seeing over Atara Gaia. It was noticed that trentacles had made their way into the heart chakra. It was a tentacle like membrane that was locking itself into heart chakra.
A multitude of layers that were needed to be destroyed, again dealt with according to universal law.
Sky crew had alerted ground crew at 7am to the severity of its intention.
It’s full intention was a separation of Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within eternity symbol at the merging between loop. Ship was dealt with accordingly , from Omni Galactic Federation of Light. Sequestered , briefed on intent, then it was dealt with.
It was supposed to interfere in quad 3 SW QUAD, spiral which will merge this afternoon at 3pm est.
ALSO , now get this , full intent to disrupt Divine Consort Merge. It thought that it was that intelligent to undermine Creator/Father?? To scramble the codes of Divine True Blueprint Love ??
So tribes , if you had felt a rope like energy in heartspace when in love thought , romantic love thought , spiritual love thought , this is where it was anchoring into.
You might feel residual energies from that for the next days or so. It was placed into the collective, so the collective must heal. Clean light bodies however you are guided. But , make sure a higher Diamond Rose Gold liquid light is woven into your technique.
Galactic crews and Galactic Angels are securing borders and boundaries that there will be NO MORE disruption.”)

Well that is good to know as I resisted the experience as some sort of a other worldly intrusion by “them” (when it was), but that a healing took place immediately after to restore/return to Love (as what I experienced in the next dream).  My “feel” on this was an energy chord had been in my heart space, hence the clear visual of the rope, but that it was removed.  

Throughout the night I felt rumbling in my digestive tract.  More energy clearing/moving.  All accumulated this morning when I got out of bed and had a g.i. flush that seemed to never end.

Let’s leave it at that.

I noticed the Schumann had some intense spiking last night, which assisted in the clearing I received.

Other than all of that, I am feeling between two world’s.  Am I tired or just spaced out?  I have no real desire to ground either.   Just breath and most importantly ~ GO SLOW.  Move slow.  BE slow.  Tummy is not really wanting food.  I was able to go to the new earth realm, to the house that is, quite easily. Coincidentally my girl finalized her room ~ in quite the detail ~ on paper.

Something is about to happen ~ that feeling remains.  A new video by Allison Coe and Lisa Harrison give the date of March 18th ~ a date many of us (myself included) have felt since January.  I however am not holding on to a THING.  Not focused on a date, time, etc.  I am allowing at this point.

For now, my girl plays with a little friend, with whom there has been some issues in the past but as I said, always be open to reconciliation, to giving people another chance and to always forgive.  Watching the two of them play, so peacefully, totally being kids, helps keep the heart open and the love alive.

Love,

Victoria

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Remembering.  Awakening moment.  Sounds so much better, to me, than lesson.  I think of the term “lesson” and it leaves me with the inner feeling of judgment, being punished, something that is “good for me” ~ all terms void of Love.

Last night I was involved in a conversation.  The individual asked me a question, a useful and challenging question, to get further clarification on the topic we were discussing.  It was late and I really wasn’t sure I had the energy to engage back with a fully conscious response.  To be honest, I didn’t want to respond at that moment.  But I felt I “should” and pondered a response, feeling that inner “should” program.

While this was going on, I received a private message from another person, telling me how grateful they were for my messages, for how I share my truth, for how honest I am.  I paused for a moment and thought “that is so kind of you” and wrote back a quick thank you.

I did not allow myself to feel any of that beautiful message.  Not for any REAL moment where I could let it sink in and fully FEEL the experience.

Even though at the time I knew I was bypassing the emotional experience, the full awareness of this did not come online until I was in bed later on.

I really saw ~ I deeply felt ~ where I am still more hooked into old programming, how some of that programming has had me putting more focus on things I deem “obligation” and “responsibility” and even downright negative interactions (whereby I feel oooh I have to respond back to THAT!!) than I do on a person sending me love.

Did I become so used to the disappointment and pain and obligations/rules in life that when Love is presented to me, given to me, I see it without really “SEEING” it?

Yes I have.  Yes I did.

I have thought that over the years.  I have even had the knowing.  And felt it. But not all at once.  My experience was different this time.

Last night it lined up for me.

Thank Goddess!

I promised myself when I woke up this morning, I would re-read this beautiful message that was sent to me and let myself “feeeeeeeeeel” the words.

As promised, when I woke up I pulled up the message and noticed she had sent more Loving words.  A beautiful bonus!  I let myself feel the impact of the words.  I read them a few times.

Yes Victoria, I CAN have a positive impact on others.  :::pause:::  Feel that…

I matter.  :::pause:::  Feel that…

I make a difference.  :::pause:::  Feel that too…

And I deserve to see the results, read the results and feel the results.

Love In Action.

Yes, I am quite a tough nut to crack sometimes, but I am grateful I keep chipping away at my shell to get to the good stuff inside.  Because you know, there really is some good stuff inside of me.  ME.

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Victoria

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I typed vatican backwards (nacitav) ~ googled it ~ and this was the first entry.  Yeah, no surprise there.  These bastards are so deceptive with their systems.  I return these letters to Divine Light.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dark_Lord

 

Excuse me while I kiss the sky…

WOW!

Do.  I.  Feel.  AMAZING.

Something happened last night.  After I faced a couple of deep old fears yesterday, whereby I actually placed the parts of me afraid in front of me and had a loving but also firm conversation, which lead to tears and releasing, I felt a calmness overcome me.

Then….  late last night around 11:30pm I felt something go through me.  It landed (for lack of a better term) in my cranial area.  I then felt woozy/dizzy, stopped what I was doing and just let it be.

“Wow,” I said to my mate, who was in the next room.  “Something just went through me and I am feeling like a Jimmy Hendrix song.”  (Purple Haze to be exact)

“Me too,” he said back.

“No way, really?  Are you just trying to assuage me or did you just feel something pulse through you?” I asked.

He insisted he had the same experience – the energy sensation then the sudden dizzy sensation.

Ok then.

So I head to my social media page and share the experience, where upon I received confirmation publicly and privately that we weren’t alone.  In fact, the experience was global.

Last night as I lay in bed, I went into my quiet/meditative state.  I was in one of those very nice spaces where literally no thoughts were running through my mind.  The monkey chatter was silent.  Suddenly I felt energy move within my heart and my goddess I felt my heart chakra expand HUGELY.  I smiled and relished the bliss and love I was feeling.

It has, more or less, remained there.

My brain is now fully accepting something really is happening to me as she keeps saying those words.

Something really is happening.

I am transitioning.

Returning to the Wholeness of ME.

Part of it is happening on its own ~ often after I consciously process and release what doesn’t align with me or as I now say ~ what did not come with me.

Is it Original Me?  Does it benefit Me?  No?

Then it must be energetically detached from the old system program, blessed and released.

Physically, I have more energy today.  My appetite is RAVENOUS ~ after days of wanting little to eat.

Thirst is off the charts.  I chugged the water out of my water bottle while at the store like I was in late stage pregnancy.  I let out a large sigh and wish I had brought more.  I actually absentmindedly looked around the car for more, thinking I could just manifest more ~ a part of me deep within frustrated that program is not online.

Yet.

Onwards we go.

An hour ago or so, I checked my social media feed and the first to pop up was another awesome message from Amanda Lorence who described, once again, exactly what I am experiencing.  The HUGE upgrades last night for WayShowers.  The intense thirst.  The heart expansions.  I was going to share her post instead of mind, but then I remembered ~ we are ALL our own experts and teachers in this experience.  It is ok if I share my own experiences.  They are every bit as valid.  And teachable.

Yes, the confidence grows ~ from within.

Today I am celebrating the growing trust within that I Can Trust Myself….and I can Trust Love.

I have had several experiences where I felt Love for All that date back 11 years, last year having the most.

I do not need to fear the experience.

I do not need to hide from it.

I have spent a life time (likely plural) doing that.

I can Trust.

My heart let me know that last night as she expanded to let more of “that” in.

Yeah.  That.

I will take more of That.

Much love to you all~

Victoria

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This morning at breakfast, we noticed a Blue Bird out front, collecting bugs. She was really going at it and it was amusing us all.  We watched it climb the tree as a last attempt at getting some food, much to the amazement of my girl.  It then hopped over to the window, looking up at us.

My girl looked at it, smiling, and spoke in a gentle voice “Hello bird.  How are you?  Please don’t fly away.  I want to be your friend.”  A few moments later the bird flew off, to which prompted my girl to ask me if we can hold the animals on New Earth.

Her innocence was so pure ~ it brought me to tears.  “I have a feeling, yes, that we will have a much closer connection with the animals,” I said.

That prompted me to reflect more on the animals.

Rightfully, they don’t trust us.  It is in their DNA at this point to fear us given how easily we have killed them.  I’m not judging ~ just making an observation.  Extending my awareness.  I eat them.  I’ve caught fish, ended their life and ate them.

Having these thoughts, I looked down at the bacon I absentmindedly picked up and threw it back down.  I scowled at my eggs.

Anger arose.  Anger at the bastards who altered our DNA, turning me into a meat-eating creature.

I have made a few attempts over the past 15 years or so to stop eating meat. My body suffers when I do that.  And yet I have this strong knowing that as we transition, as we get the return of our Original DNA, and as we have access to food replicator’s, we will not be eating meat any longer.  We will not be killing animals to sustain us.

As I pondered this, I felt the bigness of this fear of one another.  I cried as I felt the understandable fear the animals have of us.

And the tears also included feeling the bigness of the innocence of my girl, who reminds me to remember I still have it within.  It’s always been there.

After these experiences, I walked away from the table and sent out a strong “I am sorry” to the animals.  I deeply was seeking forgiveness from the animals.  Well….As I did that my mate says “The bird is back.”

I walk over to the same window it had just minutes before sat watching us through, and there she was ~ looking up at me.  I smiled.  A message was sent and received ~ telepathic ~ I felt it in my body.

The human in me said “ah, just a coincidence” but the innocence from the heart knew different.

A connection was made.

One of forgiveness and understanding.

Here’s to our new home.

Our new experiences.

Our return to Innocence.

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Victoria

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