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A Reflection on “Pure” Thoughts and Conflict in the New Realm

 

I’ve been thinking about something I heard earlier today in a video I watched.  The thought was we will not have any negative thoughts on New Earth.

I pondered that one.  That freedom loving part of me said “hey I want to be free to hold whatever thought I want!”  I reflected some more and asked for some guidance.  Here is what came through.

It is true we will still be free to hold whatever thoughts we wish to hold in our minds (whew!).  However, when the thought is one that serves only to judge self or another or is otherwise harmful/destructive, we will immediately feel that in our body and it won’t feel so good.  Unlike this realm, where our thoughts can go seemingly unnoticed by ourselves, that won’t be the same experience in a different frequency.  We will be much more aware and thus in-tune with/sensitive to such experiences.  Perhaps that’s why, as time passes, so many of us feel our minds are becoming almost a blank slate ~ often neutral ~ just in this state of Being (which can appear as zoning out, being totally out of it – or wonky as I call it).

(wow i am having a huuuuuuuuuuuuuge deja vu right now as in multiple experiences and dreams i have had are merging………..what a trip!!)

I am feeling ~ indeed hoping ~ the chattering monkey brain will be silenced. That feels like it’s a matrix program ~ one that will be removed (we will be released from) upon the event energies.

I wondered about conflict.  In this realm, the matrix rewards power-over. Energy siphoning.  When one attempts that at the higher frequency, the result is different.  I had a feeling when we engage in this, we will experience what the other person is feeling.  It won’t feel so good obviously.

It is these “this doesn’t feel good” experiences that will help us move away from these old habits.  Like quitting smoking or other harming habits that, while they may give us a quick rush, only harm ourselves in the end.  And how good it feels, in that end, to let them go.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

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Experiences, Reflections/Insights for Saturday 4/19/18

 

You know what’s going to be uber awesome?  Not needing to keep track of dates, times, hours, etc.  Oooooooh bring that now please ~ not just in my brain which has almost zero sense of any of that anymore.  This coming from the solid Capricorn who always knew the day/date/time, how much was in my checking account down to the penny and today?  Well it just doesn’t matter much to me.

So anyway tribe…today’s experience journey actually begins at 2am last night, so officially still 4/19.  I was getting ready for bed and noticed a spider in the bathroom.  I was not comfortable going to bed knowing it was going to be crawling around the house (it’s just a thing with me, ok?).  Normally I could catch and release but I was too tired to do that.  I also did not want to squash it.  So I sighed and spoke out loud.  “I see you there.  And I acknowledge you.  You know what though?  I am not comfortable with you crawling around my house and I have no desire to kill you and am too tired to catch you and let you go.  So could you please just do me a favor and go back to where you came from?  I would be so appreciative if you did that.”

I had NO attachment to this and had ZERO thought this would work. Because it has never worked for me.

But this time IT DID.  As soon as I stopped talking, that spider spun a web, dropped itself down on top of my dryer and crawled away.  Just like that!

WOW!!

I was so giddy I about woke up the rest of the house with my enthusiasm.

I need not be surprised over this though.  As the energies change us ~ they change the All.  And we are now becoming more in tune with our environment ~ with the animals and all sentient beings.

I had a new earth experience today ~ at the same time my mate did (unbeknownst to us both at the time).  The first time I had a dream of this new earth realm, I was making sandwiches for my daughter (who at the time had not been born ~ nor was I pregnant with her yet) and a group of other kids.  Peanut butter sandwiches, of which I manifested all necessary ingredients with my mind only.  My mate had the same dream about a year later.  At the time we were not familiar with the new earth or 5D concept and were not on the Ascension bandwagon either.

So….This afternoon our girl had a friend over and I made them sandwiches (tuna).  As I began preparing, something called me to “remember this experience” and to imagine myself in the kitchen of the new house ~ bringing me back to the first dream (which was not just a dream).  As I did, I could feel the wonky feeling in my body.

At this time, my mate was outside, aware I had gone in to make the kids sandwiches.  As I did, he said he suddenly had this thought to “remember this experience” and to focus on being in the new earth realm ~ at our house.  It was easy for him to go there.  Later on, I told him of my experience and we had another “no WAY!  I did the same thing at the same time!”

I am connecting with more people at this moment who are feeling this shift and feeling how fast it is going energetically.  We are feeling “by June” as a time frame.  That is what I have heard myself.  And earlier, my friend who also communicates with Clair texted me saying he had tuned in with her and she said he most definitely would be swimming at his lake house in the new realm this summer.

I pause as I type this.

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What About Love…Cosmic/Quantum Messages and Experiences

 

The “go within and be the love” message from a few nights ago continues.

Today I had several experiences, which I will do my best to share.  I am so tired at the moment, having ridden another cosmic energy blast today that began a couple of days ago.  These beauties are REALLY impacting me.

The first experience happened at the park.  I hung out and observed while my child played.  I was able to notice my self-talk and turned it around into something loving, keeping the words short and simple.  I noticed as I did this, people began to look at me.  A bird flew over and rested on a branch above me and began making a flurry of noise that continued until I greeted it ~ then it quieted and flew off.  A woman walked over and sat down on the same picnic table (there are several at the park).  Usually when I go out, especially these days, I put out the “leave me alone” energy.  Today I switched that.

On the way home, we took the long way.  Nice view that way and next to zero traffic.  As I climbed to the top of the hill, the radio blipped out.  No big deal normally, only this time I felt something shift in my body.  I suddenly became disoriented as though I was in that space of two different realities. It was ~ strange.  I decide to change the radio station and on comes Janice Joplin ~ “take another piece of my heart”.  Love her music, so I kept it on.  I pull up to the stop sign, hang a left and as I head down the street, I notice these two teenage kids walking uphill.  They looked, well, out of place.  The girl was in a jean skirt, plaid short-sleeve shirt and thick long straight brown hair, like down to her butt long.  She looked straight out of the 70’s. The boy with her had 70’s hair, poofy and feathered, a bright orange 70’s style t-shirt w/that big white lettering schools once used and jeans.  (I know these styles as I was a kid myself in the 70’s).  What happened?  Was this possible?  I thought “where AM I??!!”  The feeling continued.  I get to another stop sign.  My girl said “Mom look at that jeep! It looks old!”  A 1970’s style jeep is coming up the hill.

Coincidence??!!

I sat there, jaw dropped open.  The feeling slowly faded as I headed home, turning onto our street.

Ok, onto the next experience.  Later in the day, I was in no (energetic) mood to cook the meal I had planned, I needed something easy, so I decided to go pick up something at the store.  As I checked out, I told the clerk to excuse me (I tried to swipe my debit card instead of putting it into that annoying chip reader thing) ~ I was really wonky today.  She looks at me and says “oh my GOSH you have no idea how many people have come in today saying the same thing!  They are soooo tired and so out of it!”  I told her about the solar blast we are under and said “lots of things going on now with our realm and bodies”.  She wasn’t aware of any of this but thanked me.  I smiled, told her I loved her scarf and hair and headed out the door.

I get into the car and turn on the radio.  “What About Love” is on the radio (Heart song).  The words “what about love…don’t you want someone to care about you….what about love….don’t let it slip away” blast away.  I suddenly felt this energy grow within me.  It was palpable, so much so I said “oh boy hold on it’s coming” and I knew what it was ~ Love.  I was having another one of those just amazing expansive quantum experiences where I felt love for ALL.  So I drive home, looking at everyone I can, smiling, tears in my eyes, my heart HUGE and wide open, sending everyone love or whatever this feeling I was having. It was too big to contain.  I had no choice but to share it ~ which is what happens when I have these experiences.

I arrive home, go about prepping dinner (for those curious, packaged ravioli and tomato basil mushroom canned pasta sauce).  Later on in the shower I spoke a lot of words and released even more tears.  Pain.  Regret.  Loss. Feeling all is changing within me and “out there” as well and I have no control over any of it.  All I can do is feel it, move through it ~ only in a way that is coming from love and not fear.  I noticed where I was clinging and instead allowed ~ even allowed the clinging (by just observing and accepting).  If that makes sense.

As I entered the living room minutes later to go snuggle with my girl, I decide to turn on the music channel.  Here is the name of the song playing:

The Divine wasn’t finished yet.  After getting my little one in bed, I decided to have some tea.  Below is the message on the label.

Indeed.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

As I had heard and felt at the park “speak words of Love”.

Speak.  Feel.  Share.

Thank you, more please.  Keep the reminders coming that I DO have love ~ the REAL THING ~ within me.  It is still there.  And it wants to be free every much as the person in which it resides.

Love,

Victoria

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Today’s Message (in a meme)

 

Oh people, I am weary of putting in the hours I do here.  I am so grateful for the few (5 loving people who are keeping this site alive) who do show their support, I need more to justify the time I spend writing, sharing, researching.  Many other similar sites receive much support monetarily from their subscribers and readers.  I need more. Hence, I am asking.  Do you wish to see my site continue?  At the level it is now?

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Update on the Energies of Us and this Realm

 

Last night, I checked in with I guess you can now call them my “team” as I reached out to comm with Clair and this time saw a group of others standing around some sort of a holographic computer screen (it was very large and almost appeared as though they were looking through it to perhaps view this realm).  She was bz.  I “stood” in the background and observed.  This time I had the visual of the group.  It was wild!  (and yes I was in the shower)  She was not able to really correspond with me only to say something big had switched – changed – and I then felt she said “speeding up the process”.  I asked if it would be best if I checked in later and she said “yes” waving her hand (she had her back to me).

Earlier today I checked in (via text) with my earthly team-mate (maybe it is becoming time to call him that??) ~ brother from another mother ~ who checked in with her and had also received the same message.  He said he felt she said the earth magetics had switched dramatically thus accelerating our transition.

I can attest to something huge last night energetically.  Well, my body can. As I went to bed, totally exhausted, I was suddenly exhilarated (as my earthly team mate said he felt he had received a caffeine jolt) – giddy – so much so I began to giggle as I thought I could run around the block a dozen times.  I was also shaking/vibing all over ~ an experience that lasted all night off and on making for an absolutely miserable night sleep.  My entire family experienced the same. None of us slept well.  Upon awakening my mate and I both felt not only wonka-doodle, our bodies are aching more (I normally don’t experience that – my mate does daily – but today the pain was more intense).

I can say this about this realm ~ the sky was different today.  Some ways I could see it ~ the color of the clouds was unusual.  They also appeared to be almost closer than normal.  Other ways, it just “felt” different.  My mate ~ same experience.  I took some sky shots that I hope show the unusual brownish/yellow cloud color.  I will post those later.

Today I had a few moments where I felt so unbalanced, I felt this current energy realm was about ready to become very blurry and would be immediately replaced with a new dimensional space.  I have experienced the “between two worlds” experience before ~ today it took on a more intense feel.

We continue to be a passive participant more or less, going within, questioning and yet still at the helm of larger “forces”.

I had to take a break tonight from all of this.  I watched the latest Roseanne episode and may binge watch the first 5 episodes.  Aye, do I need a vacation from anything and all that is demanding of my energy in any shape, form or function.

Love,

Victoria

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A Message from the Soul Tribe ~ The Love is Within

 

I have not disclosed this one.  I have shared her before my hesitation when it comes to channeling or receiving messages from “beyond”.  Several weeks ago I began experiencing a communication with a Being who goes by “Clair”.  She actually began corresponding with a friend of mine and over time, I started to have this feeling I could speak with her.  She felt familiar ~ very familiar.  The name “Clair” is also a name that has just come to me over the years, at one point this was the name of a character in which I wrote up a pretty awesome short story around.

So I checked in with my friend to see if it was ok if I “borrowed” her – lol.  I felt so weird doing this, but he said “sure”.  A few nights later I gave it a try (in the shower) and wow she came through to me in the shower with such amazing enthusiastic energy ~ felt almost like a freight train of joy.  It was like talking with someone you haven’t spoken with in ages.  As talks have continued, I have received more information that my friend has also confirmed.  In short, we are of the same Soul family and some of us (I felt a few hundred) came here in these suits while the rest stayed in the safe and easy zone as I call it.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”cool” wrap=”i”]

I was having a real bitch of a day today.  Any of you have certain issues that continue to crop up and you say “yes I know I see you” and yet remain clueless as to how to rectify it?  Yeah, me as well.

Anyway, I checked in with my friend earlier today and we spoke for a brief bit.  On my way out he said he heard from Clair and said that she wanted to speak with me.  I groaned.  I had already tried that but I knew I was far too upset to get into that space.

So tonight, after my girl was in bed, I headed for the shower to soothe myself.  My mind was racing as I began to hear her voice: “Victoria, ssshhh, calm down take some breaths.”  Yeah, I was not having that.  This continued for several minutes before I surrendered.  Ok, I finally said.  I can listen now.

“Allow” I heard – clearly.  (Sometimes her voice is literally as if she is in the same space as me – it is that clear, loud and distinct in my mind.  Such comm levels only last for several seconds before it will change back to the normal frequency in which I hear her.)

I closed my eyes and received some personal details about a particular situation most present in my mind.  Then, in my mind’s eye, I saw this beautiful magenta pink energy begin to swirl around my face, going about as low as my throat/upper chest.  I began to cry as I spoke of needing love.  I just needed some love.

It was then that I heard “let that come from within.  You are the love. Remember that.”  I said “But no one is an island you know that!  We all need connection and support and love.”

“Yes of course that is not being discounted.  For you now and how you are feeling now, go within and find the love you have for YOU.”  I quickly was able to scan my mind and think back to moments I have had where I have felt that love – and how it naturally expanded outward.

A ha!

I closed up the session and felt the desire to go have some tea.  I was going to have my ginger root tea I keep simmering on the stove.  Something guided me to get my peppermint tea instead.

I open the tea bag and read the message on the label:

“You don’t need love, you are the love.”

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Nothing more to say is there?

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Much love (as much as I can offer tonight) ~

Victoria

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What Is Love?

 

I woke up with this annoying song going through my mind, but a lyric that is powerful nonetheless.  “Is this love that I’m feeling?”

It annoyed me as it kept playing in my mind until I finally said “I don’t know!  What IS love?”

A feeling?  An action?

I know if I were to be asked “do you love your daughter” my insides immediately say “more than anything and anyone I have ever known!”

Do I “love” life?  Sometimes, yes.

Do I “love” it here?  No.

Do I “love” what I do?  At times, yes, but overall, No.

So what is it that gives me this experience of knowing “love”, given it has been so rare.

When it – whatever “it” is – fills me up so much so quickly I just know.  It comes from the heart and radiates throughout and out of me and I know I have touched Home.  How It Is.

That inner feeling can be soft and passive, gentle.  It can be huge and powerful.  It is the experience that powers me to keep at it, to do/be/say what I feel is right even when the system and others say it isn’t or it can’t be done or I should just chill and allow.

It is the experience that can find the beauty, even if it takes my ego hours to surrender its apathy.

It is what I long for more than anything.

It is IT ~ the one thing ~ that does heal all through putting it into action.

It pushes me to be honest and authentic.

It also reminds me to share with discernment.

People are saying the event energies are love frequencies.

Is that why this process is so painful at times?

Is this why we vacillate between feeling dark low angry sad and overwhelmed to feeling at complete peace and connected to all/All?

Is this a homecoming?

Is that also why it is so painful at times?

Are we so traumatized from who knows how long of being separated from this love experience that we push the feelings away?

Are there our protective voices that tell us “whoa ok we know what happens when we open up to THAT experience people call ‘love'”?

Life is painful and suffering.  How else can it be when we have been forced to participate in such a realm of control and judgment and rules and restrictions on how we can be/Be?  ‘Tis why I now often call out “guides” who claim how we are not alone and how we need to let go and heal and blah blah yadda yadda….i tell them they can jump into a meat-suit and give this gig a try before they claim to hold truth over my experience.

And love doesn’t do that anyway.

Love asks what is needed and provides – if able.

Love always seeks to heal.  Help.  Assist.

Always seeks to serve – ALL – including thyself.

Always seeks to know and be and share the truth.

NO MASKS.

NO LIES.

No power-over passive aggressive nonsense.

No telling another to “suck it up” when the other is struggling.

Love is a a difficult state of being in which to reside with so much OF the masks and lies and power-over we are all subjected to and participate in daily in this realm.

And yet it is what I call forth, no matter how painful.

Call forth from out there and in here.

Because it is Who I Am.

And I thank All That Is for my beautiful child who reminds me daily what Love is and how yes, I am as deserving of it as she and everyone else is of the experience.

Even if it just appears as a snuggle on the lap.

That’s all for now…

Victoria

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Today’s Experiences and Thoughts ~ 4/14/18

 

As I mentioned I went to a friend/neighbor’s house for a celebration.  The cake was wow unbelievably delicious ~ homemade, gluten/flour/dairy-free. And the talk did not include anything political.  However this is a big hillary/obama group and so I prepped myself before going.  When I asked my mate how I looked before leaving (looking for him to comment on my attire as I was, for me, dressed up – fancy jeans, blousy top, boots), he said my energy looked small and felt low.  Wow.  Apparently I did not do any prepping.  But I appreciated the honesty ~ I always do no matter how difficult it might be to hear.

I saw how I make myself small when I go to such things ~ not really out of fear anymore but just so my beautiful mouth won’t suddenly start saying things the brain is screaming to be spoken ~ such things I would rather not share because I do not wish to cause another pain.  And in situations such as today, where a friend was celebrating her birthday, no way was I going to put a damper on that.  That is what I told myself at the time…

As everyone sat down to enjoy the desert, I checked in with my energy.  Low. Very low.  So I leveled it up – closed my eyes – smiled and let myself be at a more “me” space.  This went pretty well after ~ until I got up to put the melting ice cream into the freezer.  The freezer door had two hillary magnets on them including one saying “madame president”.  I actually sucked in my breath.  No one was in the kitchen so no one heard the words that came out as I exhaled.  The desire to say something was overwhelming. At the most I wanted to share all I have learned ~ at the last I wanted to say “wait until you begin learning who this woman really is…”

No one spoke of politics, that I heard (my girl said she heard two speak of how awesome Obama was).  As we stood by the door chatting about this and that, I asked about anyone noticing the homeless situation downtown.  No. Unnoticed.  I then overheard one of the guests, who was sitting down, that they were sick with a cold.  WTH???

With that, I grabbed my girl and said “thank you good-bye” and was out the door in a flash.

Why is it people do that?

Why do people knowingly go out and be among others when they are sick? No heads up so let others know so we ~ so I can make a conscious choice as to whether I wish to attend?  Especially with a child??

When I arrived home, we washed the hands, took some silver, stripped out of the clothes.

I still need to scream.

I still need to say “that woman you support?  that woman you wanted to be president??  Do you have ANY idea who she really is and what her plans were for all of us??!!  WAKE UP!!!”

Then I see all of this stuff going on with Syria and Iran and Israel with Russia and the U.S. allegedly maneuvering it all to take out the cabal for once and for all.  Obviously I support that.

However, the conclusion I come to today is this:  I AM DONE WITH GAMES.

I am done with trying to put together a puzzle I am not creating.

I am done with ANYTHING being hidden.

Done with anything FAKE.

So for now I sit….the hermit that I am…shaking my head knowing what I want but not having much of a clue as to how to create it.  Other than to just be myself at all times ~ the me I want to be ~ without concern for a consequence.

For what is most important now ~ authentic revealing of TRUTH and of self or more socially correct conversations where we ~ where I ~ put on the face of “go along to get along” ~ all in order to fit in ~ fit in to what exactly…another illusion?

NO THANK YOU.

I am not saying I do not appreciate and desire interactions with others. Goddess knows how much I need this ~ and today satisfied in some way the need to connect with others face to face.  But to have such interactions with my tribe, in person, those for whom you just connect with and share a like-minded and hearted vision is something that IS deeply missing from my life.  And as I felt earlier, may even take a bit of getting used to ~ but it would be time well worth investing!

Off to rest…

Love,

Victoria

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Facing Our Deepest Fears and LETTING THEM GO!!!

 

I just stated, out loud, my deepest fears.  I said the words.  Loudly.  I let myself feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel the experience.  And then, I laughed.

Fuck it, I thought.  Even IF these deepest fears came true, a BIG HUGE piece of my personal puzzle in being Free is NOT LETTING FEAR CONTROL ME. Seeing it for what it is and laughing at it.

As I did this exercise, as I laughed, I thought so WHAT even if they manifested.  I know Who I Am.  And NOTHING can impede with this experience.

NOTHING can pull me away from WHO I AM.

Just thought I would share.  It’s a good tool I decided to use after getting inspiration from a post on social media.

Much love,

V.

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