Tension so tight atm – very palpable. Child lamenting about how she wants new – new home new town new friends new ways of schooling. Mate lamenting how he wants the same and to stop hurting so much and having new symptoms show up (today I had to cut off most of his otherwise long hair – a lot of head pain now). I sit and try and listen – but I can’t absorb any of it now – zero zip nada – and it’s now automatic – I shut down. And as I type this – I am trying to get myself back to center again.
I’m seeing so many now talking about needing LOVE and FREEDOM. I’m seeing people express the desire for Love and feeling they don’t have enough. The perspective I hold in my heart – is that many of us are tapped dry – needing to be filled up – so relying on one anothers current level of empty – well we can’t help or support or simply Love in the way we once could. This war has kicked us inside out. And now? Trying to exist in this realm – in this frequency – is becoming far too much. I woke up thinking about this experience – for how many years those of us awake have been trying to tune in and feeeeeeeeeeeeel – sharing our intuits about what is happening and when – and we have honestly been wrong all along – at least off.
Not to say nothing is happening – it is – but just that our ability to tune in and get the truth that we ALL WANT (WHEN IS THIS SHEOT GOING TO SWITCH AND HOW IS IT GOING TO CONTINUE TO PLAY OUT) has been blocked. Is it because of the war? Is it for our own benefit? Maybe. I just know that – for me – the dreams I have had – and the feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels I have had about the timing factor – the season I see things switching – what resonates and stays with me – year after year I still wait for that IT to happen. And that IT and the need FOR it is not. leaving. my. body.
So while I suffer along – struggle most of the time now – putting on a happy face – distractions not doing what they once did – snapping at anything that is not what I need or outside the bounds of Love – it gives me a sense of comfort – in a strange way – to know I ain’t alone. Everything feels like we’re inside a giant lottery cage – each of us individual balls – being tossed around – waiting for the damn cage to stop and the door to open so we can all plop out.
Hey – that’s not too bad a metaphor. lol
UGH.
Did I say UGH?
Yeah.
U G H. F’ing U G H ENUFF to infinity and BEYOND already!
So…………..moving on………… here are a couple of interesting experiences. First one – spouse was at the bank – in line with a lot of others before this holiday weekend – suddenly entire system goes down – everyone is asked to leave. I check down detector – yep – the banking system is down with this particular (HUGE) bank. Even the lights went out – although there are no local power outages.
“Not to excite anyone prematurely but about 10 minutes ago 3:30 PM EST, I was outside doing some work on mechanical items and heard a sound coming from the east and knew from having spent alot time up along side carriers when I was in the navy ,that these planes coming weren’t the civilian jets I am used to seeing flying over often. Four of them came into view going a east-westernly direction at full throttle and in battle formation .They were gone within seconds. Remembering what one guy said about when you see military aircraft flying around,especially in places you often don’t see military aircraft,to shout out there goes another dark type out of the game. There are no ceremonies or airshows in the area I am aware of and the Indy 500 isn’t till the 29th,so no reason for military fighters to be flying full speed across the sky. They clearly were in a hurry. We have heard that the movie would be ending soon and things happening would be coming into view. Let’s hope so. “
Comments are pretty much the same – SOMETHING HAS TO GIVE NOW.
Military (w/transponders on) currently up – at 8:30pm EST (with most on the eastern seaboard btw) is about 150.
What is there left to say other than BRING IT and END IT and SET US FREE.
As far as the dryer issue – I am trying to avoid having to buy a new dryer. After doing a fair amount of research (which is what I do – and how I was/we were able to determine the issue we had recently w/our washing machine), I have a feeling as to what is going on – and from my research the parts are still available. My spouse and I are having a difference of opinion on how to deal with it (he doesn’t want to “put out anymore fires”). Not an unusual occurrence. We need a dryer – and obviously we can’t count on dry warm sunny days to dry the clothes for the long term. Anyone wishing to help me out, you know what to do. And thank you as always for helping me out at times when I need the extra assistance and for supporting my work.
There are a few of them. When I woke up (gotta find a new phrase for that – something more like “when my eyes opened inside the matrix in this vessel”)…..I thought about a tweet I saw late Monday evening – but didn’t share it. There was something about it that said “truth pay attention”. This morning I wanted to see it again. Needed to see it. Then I thought about the beast is yet to come – what GEORGE News shared almost a year ago – how we would understand what that meant at a “later time”. Sometimes you have to SHOW the people. Also heard in my mind – 17 words – “you and your families are safe” – and thought of the the post from 1.13.2018 (a significant date) – [SCARE] Necessary Event. Scare being in brackets indicates it is a CONTROLLED event.
Anyway all of that went through my mind. Then I (and my mate) get online and see the following – first the Elon tweet shows up in my feed – shared by another truther….I remembered the 5’s stood out………
My thought – a growing desire I have had in recent weeks – I want to forget EVERY bit of trauma and suffering here – not the experience overall – just the horror for I have seen that trauma doesn’t strengthen but fractures and I am to expand through LOVE.
And then – there’s the moving coming out in June (16th) – Asteroid City – about a group of genius/brilliant children (of Light) who are taken hostage – locked up in quarantine – by an alien visitor. Can’t get anymore clear than that as to what happened to us.
Trying not to lose my mind today – but it’s happening anyway atm………Visit to the doc produced the usual “i dunno – here are some pharmaceuticals”……My opinion? You don’t give a proper diagnosis, you get no payment. She’s just one of so many who ain’t seeing – doing just fine and dandy – still following the agenda – charging ridiculous amounts of money for NOTHING – going home to their luxury homes in their Tesla’s and repeating the same. f’ing. thing. the. next. day – without question……No holding back in this one. I am officially burned the fuch out.
Interesting. Does any of this resonate with you? Gotta let this one marinate in my mind………..only thing I can say is VK felt familiar in a very ancient way – and I kept getting other worldly………….still do………He says 2.2 is coming soon…………..
Once upon a time, 17 billion years ago in a distant world known as Mars, humans were the dominant species. They were deeply spiritual beings who revered a divine entity they simply referred to as "G_d". Their society thrived on… pic.twitter.com/cKX1BmDaCX
Yes. Earth is a ship (vah). That’s what I have come to believe. Melania – remember – saying (according to The Gunner’s Wife) “they shouldn’t have chosen to sink with the ship” when referring to the lying media outlets and others – watching as T and Melania left the WH after the 2020 “election”……….
Good Morning VK. Thanks for the wonderful story. Home. Wonder how we get to Earth. Where does the Garden of Eden comes in place. I'm more and more convinced that the Earth is a giant Submarine or Starship.https://t.co/wQfbUv8Br9
BREAKING: Apparently a Nazi flag has been pulled from the cab of a U Haul truck that rammed the security barrier at Lafayette Square near White House pic.twitter.com/IMxBdloRVf
Ok……….. So she does it again with another judge – next year? I keep hearing “military is the only way – what we see in front and center is disclosure”. To which I then respond “i am still NOT OK with going through the sheot cr@p of my personal life much less what my girl has gone through as well in order for someone else to SEE” – then I hear “still flooding the tunnels – clearing it all out – finality here”. OPS still taking place. Like gotta make sure all of the i’s are dotted, t’s crossed in order to drop it all – then lift US up and drop them w/the ship.
Reminded me of a dream we all had in this house – about 5 years ago or so – where a box arrived – on a sunny day – and inside were these cool satellite-like phones – or transponders as I also called them at the time. Question is – why are these twats being given them?
i had some synchs today – kinda forgot them though………..matrix 3d kept sucking me in from the dryer issue to a fire a few blocks from here that blew a lot of smoke our way (which was put out quickly by neighbors – a group of people including myself ran in the direction of the smoke)…..traumatizing bringing back the memories of 2020……….and then the usual challenges we each face here now……doc wrote back – expressed his concern said nothing about the program treatment plan – flying solo w/it which in his own words requires a lot of monitoring……WHO IS REAL HERE?!…it’s like i’ve reached a place where mentally i absolutely authentically cannot take in anymore………i go into what is called dorsal vegal shutdown – and i have no one around me to help guide me out – which is what my healer said i absolutely need to create………..i kinda laugh at that concept – in a rather sarcastic tone…..my once social circle around here went poof…..and my mate? yeah – he wouldn’t know what to do – he isn’t good with handling the anxieties of others – esp. now…….and we know how men are – want to fix things……well meaning – but still – fixers…..and i don’t need fixing – just soothed/guided back to center………..anyway as i told my healer – i’ve always just done this sort of work alone……….she looked at me and got tears in her eyes – and i mean serious tears – put her hand on her heart the whole deal – which touched me deeply but also surprised and confused the part of me that is simply used to dealing with panic/anxiety alone…….i don’t know – for me it’s just normal – for my experience here………which is probably why at times i am over-the-top in trying to help my girl with her own struggles……dealing with panic situations alone is quite the lonely feeling – ok – it’s awful. it’s just awful.
let’s see – the synchs – i know i had them…….think think THINK girl….
oh yes – a song – grateful dead – touch of gray played for me today. i was alone – sang it and danced – went inside to start dinner and that’s when we noticed large billows of smoke filling the street. shortly after that – the dryer. so yeah – get in a nice space and the matrix sometimes finds a way to nail you. i’ll move past this – always do but now? yeah now – i’m numb – temporarily waving a white flag. jesus, i need a reprieve from sheot.
here are a few finds. still feeling a lull…….love, v.
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For some people the war is fought on the outside, through family, friends, events, Ex’s, work, society, everything outside of you constantly attacking who you are, the mirror hates you just as much as you hate what you see in it. And you fight so many battles too afraid to… https://t.co/yvktu9V2EPpic.twitter.com/yUWTUSH6fV
— 🌷LIZZIE🌷 (re/formed) (@farmingandJesus) May 21, 2023
5’s are all. over. me. today…………
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SAN TAROT………….ok now i am remembering one of the synchs from today – when i got out of bed today i thought of these two parts of myself – the lion/warrior and the innocent child – felt the innocent child coming in to merge – a return of Me Space you could say………….brought grateful tears and calm energy………..for awhile……….then stuff happened………kindred spirit – so needed………..prefer in person Universe. t/y!
Now it’s our dryer. It’s too old to fix. I washed up a load of clothes and took them down to the laundry mat – which has a policy of “wash AND dry only”. So now we need a dryer. Please help if you can. Thank you! Deeeeeeeeep breath.
Feeeeeeeeeeeeeels quiet and lighter today…………even the plants look more vibrant……..of course it is May – but there is an energy around – higher vibe – that feeeeeeeeeeeeels nice. Here’s what I’m seeing. Please remember to share and donate what you can (below). Thank you! Love, V.
On the National Mall again this afternoon — highlighting the central role that P. KEVIN MORRIS is playing for the compromised U.S. first family. https://t.co/ncEHfsGI94
I’m still feeeeeeeeeeeeeling (as I have been for a few weeks) that 5:5 is 5 year 5 month delta from January 2018 which puts us to this month/this year………..
💥💥💥KABQQQQQM💥💥💥 💥💥DELTA Dan Crumbs!💥💥 Dropping MAGA At 1:06PM On 05/20/23
San Tarot ~ Liking the title – and the time stamp 22:11 (1122)…………protective energy………..trying to stop from bringing in a situation (difficult that is being avoided) into the future……..longing to escape current reality…..just want to run away – feeling stuck/trapped…….something that should have been finished up a long time ago – now in the “cleaning up” stage……….interesting……….how many of us have talked about being few left here – clean-up/skeleton crew left……….things shift quickly…………beautiful moment – heart opens………..healing and understanding of resentment…..a de-armoring moment – which is what we want that comes w/this transition……this is (another) beautiful read by San. sky writing card comes up too.
……….as much as my mind is allowing me to that is atm. I’m kind of – numb. Ya’ll know my mate’s medical issues as well as knowing his recent doctor essentially cut him off in the middle of a very complex course of treatment – leaving him not knowing what to do next (and I have nothing new or different to offer either). Frig……….. Anyway the past 24 hours he’s discovered 2 painful lumps on the back of his head – close together. First he found the one last night and today, another has appeared. He’s had fatty lipomas’ appear on his body over the years – all benign – which I’m pretty sure this is what this is given how it feels – but it’s causing him pain – and he already had head pain to begin with. And atm, he can’t wear his hat he wears daily. I don’t know what to do. He doesn’t know what to do.
Then around the time he’s showing me this new one, our wonderful egg lady dropped off our eggs and shared the news her husband has terminal cancer – just diagnosed a few weeks ago. She was numb herself – understandably so. They’re having to sell their farm. I told her about Rick Simpson Oil – her son is into that field so she is going to look into it. I forgot to mention the anti-parasitic treatments.
Nothing much making sense now. It’s all a bad dream – really feeling that the past day or two. Weird things are happening and LH and I have begun a convo about the tv series LOST – she has better memories of it than I do even though I and my mate watched every episode for all 6 seasons. But I feel like that character – little short blonde english guy (as I said – memory on the specifics are not so good) – who says “Guys, where are we?” Was that show truth? Yeah – I think it is. And are we waiting for everyone to wake up – like they did at the end – Jack being the last one to awaken (and wasn’t it his “dream” to begin with?) and realize they had died in a plane crash and the entire experience on the island had been a long, bad dream (sound familiar?). When they woke up – outside – it was Heaven. Celebration. All of them gathered together – happy.
HAPPY.
I get chills in my numbness typing those words.
I don’t know…………..much now.
But I do know this has to end. WE HAVE TO WAKE UP AND GET OUT.
And people are getting hit – hard – now. I see the sheot everywhere. Clowns. Weird bugs that we’ve never seen before – showing up. Other more “normal” bugs landing on us. Spiders appearing in the damn toilet – something that happened to me weeks ago – biting me on the leg (just didn’t share it here). And dreams – last night they were just one dream all night – poking – child had the same experience. My mate would likely have had similar as well if he slept long enough to dream.
When are we going to have our escape? When are we going to have our HELP and RESCUE – at least see it instead of this ongoing feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels experience?
Rescue ourselves I can hear some saying – fuch that sheot. Mind telling me HOW exactly? Seriously – I want to know exactly HOW those who follow that narrative plan on doing that. And I want to see them create that then help those of us who have tried every damn thing TO wake up – in full that is – and KNOW it all again – and GET OUT of this prison – whether it’s literal or just for the mind- anyone thinking they’re in paradise is delusional (and probably not coming here much so I’m probably talking to empty space – I have a tween – I’m used to that lol). How can you have paradise and parasites in the same. experience? Yeah – YOU CAN’T. And don’t get me started on some peeps sharing we create our own misery and suffering here. FUCH THAT UGLY speak. No heart. No soul in that talk.
NOT. MY. TRIBE.
It shrinks….Changes…..But I’m ok with that.
Anyway – it’s been “another” day and I sit here numb – my mate crying in the other room. Nothing is working to bring anyone in this house exactly what we each need. Not a damn thing. So all I have left to ask for is prayers – loving energy – whatever ya got – which I know many of us don’t have much to give now – I get that. I’m the same way overall – definitely at this time I am.
I think things are happening today. Hopefully a sign we are sooooooooooooooooo f’ing close to THE moment.
With love, gratitude and exhaustion and a numb mind atm (and just now my mate comes in and shows me he’s found more lumps………!!!!!!) Ok……so….. I am distracting myself by doing the mental stuff and sharing some finds.
before i forget ~ doing some research last night for my own brain ~ i saw that John Kennedy Jr. met with Tyson when he was in prison………..we know what happens when he met w/people in the past……they become part of the plan…….
Does this mean something? I’m desperate today – I admit – I am desperate for something positive. I decided to gematria BLACK MOON:
GOING HOME
BLACK SWAN
GAME OVER
That’s all I need to see. This has to be it. Can’t take another second – mentally. (as I am putting this together – mate was outside listening to the same station as I was – when suddenly the station faded out and into a different frequency – all on its own – the song? IT’S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN. WE’RE LEAVING TOGETHER.) This is either really. happening. or it’s the biggest joke on us. I’m opting for the REALLY HAPPENING.
People like this – all of us who have shared the truth however we can – and have suffered for it here – we got a HERO’S WELCOME coming at Home! At the very least – a long vacation here and an AMAZING “home of our choice” here.
so much of “their” filth being shown at the above site – don’t want to share it here – but sharing to lament again CHEESE WIPES ARE PEOPLE SEEING NOW IF NOT WHY AND HOW CAN THEY NOT??!!!
This went across the banner today on RSBN Rumble live feed for the Kari Lake Court appearance at 3:37 EST.
Marco Polo – wonder if this is another John role……..Using the pen name of the Italian writer………..Remember he did visit Italy (on APRIL 20th – AHEM see the above House Resolution 420 – can you hear John saying “payback’s a beotch JB”?) – Valentino Headquarters in Rome to, in his own words, “see the codex”………….Leonardo da Vinci’s scripts….
I really need to take time for me to tune in and get a feeeeeeel for what’s going on out there. Doing too much 3d stuff. Oh the things I need for myself…………….person can only go so long without those needs being met before they bust outta the rut – with OR without a plan.
Are we about to see the first (public) arrest? I was able to feel into that – briefly – and felt once this begins in a public format it is going to have to continue on as that flood – bam bam bam bam bam – in order to keep the awakening programming going because if it’s just ok here’s one arrest and then nothing for weeks etc. – with the media still spinning the opposite – the programming will remain – UNLESS the person has the desire to KNOW the truth at a consciousness level. Hard to find people like that other than those of ya’ll that I know.
Oh yes – I remember another thing I felt – FRYDAY was on my mind when I woke up. A first.
Here is what I am seeing. Please remember to Share and Donate. Much love!
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Coming around 360…………Remind us of anything – anyone? There’s something to this one……………
BREAKING: Prince Harry, his wife Meghan and her mother have been involved in a "near catastrophic" car chase involving paparazzihttps://t.co/IVHXQr05s4
Oh wow – I am just seeing this one. A synch for my “FRYDAY” I heard waking up this morning………..He does such cool comms, btw…………We’re ALL ready for the manifestation part now.
Those are the words – and the song – going through my mind today. Just let it all be. Let it happen. Because it is happening. At least something is happening. Many things I should say. I share that below.
Other reflections – this coming June is T’s 77th b-day. And in 2018 17 shared “2018 WILL BE GLORIOUS”. Could be a 5 year and 5 month (5:5) delta….taking us into June. We’ll see. For now – just lettin’ it Be – as resistance seems – feeeeeeeeeeeeeels – absolutely futile atm. Please remember to share and donate what you can. Thank you!
Today feels completely off. I’m not sure how to put it into words, it’s a feeling. Like something big is changing, everywhere. Idk, I feel something inside, like time is dragging and I am just here, suspended in the middle of it. Not upset, not mad, just down right weird. Everything is so okay. But off……anyone else?
Lyft says CFO Paul to step down, appoints replacement | Reuters
Lyft Inc said on Tuesday Erin Brewer will replace chief financial officer Elaine Paul, who is leaving the ride hailing company months after a new CEO was appointed.
SEC to Coinbase: No need for new crypto regulation, enforcement actions will continue | Kitco News
(Kitco News) – The U.S. Securities Exchange Commission (SEC) has responded to Coinbase’s petition for mandamus, saying new regulation is unnecessary and asking the court to reject the petition.
The head of Ukraine’s Supreme Court has been apprehended by Ukrainian prosecutors over allegations of bribery, following the recent revelation of widespread corruption within the court.
The official’s identity has not been disclosed by prosecutors, who stated that they have yet to receive a formal “notice of suspicion.”
-Breaking911
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