Christmas Reflecting.

Feliz Navidad greets me on the radio as I sit down to write this. No joke.

This morning, an email newsletter from a nervous system healing group in which I belong greeted me as did another money manifesting newsletter in which I belong.

All of this sits in my mind and body, calling me to write about it.

The song. Who didn’t grow up hearing that song this time of year? A simple little tune, happy, upbeat. I used to sing along with it as I bopped around town in my little car. Visiting friends. Visiting family. Sucking on those 1″ thick candy canes from my youth.

The newsletter from the money manifesting started off by talking about the massive holiday preparations she was undertaking, getting ready to cozy on up with her spouse and children. Perhaps a getaway to the mountains to rent a nice cabin. (to which my teenage self muttered “well goodie for you”)

Today neither of these two above resonated with me. All they served was to trigger me, which is why I really appreciated the nervous system newsletter, which talked about the masks we wear during the holidays, especially at Christmas. Christmas brings up the best and saddest/most pained of what’s inside. All of those unhealed parts stored in our nervous systems, showing up in each of us, coming out in a myriad of ways we often don’t even notice. Checking our watch to see how much longer until we get to leave. Deep sighs coming from mom’s smiling face. Chugging down a glass of wine to “relax”.

Who hasn’t experienced this?

It seems this year in particular is hitting extra hard. The fatigue. Fog of war (is it any wonder there’s been an unusual amount OF fog this year – let alone the last few years?). The cost of E V E R Y T H I N G. The overspending. The fear TO spend. The pressure to put on a smile and “be grateful” when that’s the last thing your body needs much less wants TO do.

Can’t we all just remove our damn masks and let out how we REALLY feel?

This year I put up a tree. Hung lights. Put out more decorations than usual. Bought gifts. Sent out cards. What is it I am trying to hide FROM? Why do I cave to the pressure? Do I really even want to celebrate?

I do. I want to celebrate. But I also want to be left the hell alone until I want to reconnect again. I want sad memories gone. I want the happy memories gone because they only make me feel sad over a life that feels like it happened a million years ago in a different timeline and at that, it feels like it was an illusion. A lie. Like I was living in a cloud I didn’t even know existed. Today, I am a completely different person. Still me but HUGELY different.

Awakening has a dark side. It exposes all that is fake.

So then….

What FEELS real now?

What am I really connected to?

Pray to Jesus.

Jesus is the reason for the season.

Why do I feel NOTHING when I focus on those?

I LONG for what feels real but don’t know what that is much less what it even looks like. I can’t even frigging VISUALIZE my life now. I try and I try and I try and come up blank. Empty. Literally – like there’s nothing there inside left to offer up. I may get an idea but there’s just like no lasting feeling. Even though I have a new direction in this 3D matrix and an appointment early next year to get going on it, fresh road kill has more life to it than does this new direction.

It’s like my nervous system is telling me to just STOP.

And something deep within is saying the same.

JUST. STOP.

Stare at the damn sky even if it’s a mess with fog.

Look at pictures even if they don’t inspire me to feeeeeeeeel.

Play my piano even if I feel robotic doing so.

It’s like I’m digging SO DEEP now. A new layer that I haven’t touched but I still feel like it’s there. A distant far off memory. A remembrance.

Of what was before all of this matrix shit consumed my experience.

Of who I was IN it.

Whatever it is you are doing this week with whomever or even alone (remote cabin in the woods by a lake sounds quite appealing now doesn’t it?), know you aren’t alone if any of this resonates with you. There can be no lonelier feeling than to be alone and feel you need TO be with others just as there is no lonelier feeling than being WITH family/friends and feeling totally disconnected.

Maybe the best gift we can give ourselves is just to let ourselves sit with however it is we do feel inside. Let that part of us speak. It has a story. A story that deserves to be seen, allowed to exist and told instead of drowning it with a glass of wine, a forced smile or a glance at our watch.

💖

Victoria

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Reflecting: Finding kindness in the chaos. Our Awakening. Some finds and headlines. 12.22.25

I find my part in the Awakening as an inside and outside doing. The most important part, for me, is the inner Awakening.

Obviously.

What often begins on the outside – seeing the deception. The evil. The lies. All of it – everywhere inside of this place. What begins out there at some point returns home – Within. Because outside has lied TO us and inside voices of lies have deceived me as well.

And man is this happening to me.

YEARS and YEARS of keeping things to myself out of fear of being abandoned or attacked – it’s all coming out. That process really kicked on about two years ago when I got snapped awake by something my daughter said – something I NEEDED not only to hear but to hear her say – and it’s been a tidal wave of inner verbal volcanic Truths coming out, leading me to this point where I no longer care. I don’t fear NEARLY as I once did at being totally transparent with my life experience.

I let my own fear consume me and keep me small and afraid.

Now and then when I found the voice to defend myself, that has come out at times sounding as horrible as the original attacker.

Which then gives them reason to say “I” am the problem.

Psychologists mislabel the phrase as “reactive abuse”. When one has been pushed over and over again for a period of time, at some point you snap. It’s instinctive. And often when that happens, as I said, you sound like the one who has been abusing you. The difference is key: What is referred to as an argument leads to behavior change, ownership, the desire is to connect. The opposite seeks to CONTROL.

Control or connect.

I only choose connection – and I need to feel safe to do that.

Even though I know I learned TO overly control things as much as I could as it was the only thing that felt safe to me given my lack of connections with those I wanted most to connect with.

If that makes sense.

So I am highly selective now – probably for the first time in my life.

After a life long belief that I should allow anyone and everyone into my life, lost in a false pollyanna belief that the Universe would never let anything bad happen to me, that everyone was good and could be trusted (or I should give them many chances and/or stick around if they were kind at times even if the rest of the time they were treating me like crap) I woke up and saw this reality for what it is. It is not a place for blind trust. Discernment is key. Going SLOW is key. Taking my time to get to know others – utterly essential.

And I can’t do ANY of that effectively until I KNOW MYSELF.

The ME before the expectations and the pressures and the harm and the horror.

For most of my adult life I’ve had the fear that I am the problem. I am the reason why some have just seemed to gravitate towards me and work to break me down while not owning A N Y of their behavior.

But I don’t have that fear anymore and nor do I have the belief that I and I alone am the problem.

I do the inner work.

I go within.

I will own my b.s. when I feel I need to.

I talk with others.

I want to KNOW myself.

I want to heal.

I want to understand.

I want to create peace AND I want to understand my fears of it.

I want to hold safe space and to have safe space held for me as I seek to heal and understand all of my gunk and junk that has clogged up my beauty.

I want to connect and build.

That is what I’ve longed for my entire adult life.

I just didn’t have the courage to believe I could have it. The lack of trust in myself.

Well no more.

My days of being involved in ANY situation or relationship that does not focus on the actions of connecting and building are o v e r.

DONE.

As in put a f’ing fork in that part of me that is DONE.

I will not be silent.

I will be ME.

This is our Awakening. It’s messy for awhile. But in the end? It’s f’ing beautiful.

💥🎇💫

Victoria

Today’s scripts and movie scenes (don’t know about you but I feel more and more attached to this – as though something else is more important):

Every day there’s a bizarre plot twist:

The veil is gone. Illusion shattered. The truth of everyone everything is seen.

Ah but remember:

Dang, I forgot I put this together last night:

YEAR OF THE HORSE 2026

This happens every 12 years.

The last time was in 2014.

Dan Scavino, under his personal account at the time, was posting pictures of HORSES.

According to GROK: “Yes, Dan Scavino (primarily via his account

@DanScavino) has posted multiple images of horses over the years, mostly from around 2013–2015. These include: Photos of rescued horses from Lucky Orphans Horse Rescue (e.g., groups of riders on horses, individual horses grazing or in stables, and therapy-related images). Collages and photos related to famous racehorses like American Pharoah (Triple Crown winner) and California Chrome, often featuring the horses in races or victory poses.”

I also decided to do a GEMATRIA: YEAR OF THE HORSE Which is a 888

(Hebrew GEMATRIA) 888

Divine Plan

Presidents Day (which is Feb. 16, 2026 – ONE DAY before the official onset of THE YEAR OF THE HORSE)

Goodbye Deepstate

Enough Is Enough (from Q posts of which there are 7)

Trump and Qanon

Trump Putin

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12.9.25 ~ Checking in. Finds & Headlines

I had a whole plethora of things to say – kept gathering them in my mind all day – and now? Think I can remember any of it? Nope. I was engaged in phone calls and emails, starting from scratch you could say in the financial/job area, all of the intuitive stuff just got sort of swept away.

I would laugh – but I read something today – because this struggle has become very real and it’s been bothering me. I know it isn’t just the war or the energies – it’s my dysregulated nervous system with a compromised brain resulting from being in survival mode for so many damn years. Long term abuse and trauma are behind it all. Part of that trauma is indeed being in this pay to live compete to live system of survival. Billions of people with just the one system. That there is the definition of insanity.

This shit keeps our nervous systems – our brains – always on the lookout for danger of varying degrees. And if the experience here is intense enough and challenging/difficult enough, combine that with high sensitivities, the brain changes. The hippocampus shrinks. The amygdala takes over the logical portion of the brain, making relaxation in full next to impossible, certainly not for long duration’s of time, which then makes it impossible to concentrate in full. End result? Memory issues.

This is Neuroscience.

Healing is always possible of course. Being in an environment that is supportive. Loving. Where you can relax enough and begin to trust enough to let go and allow safety in – in a new way.

But that pay to live bullshit? Yeah that has to change for ALL of us to heal and return to Who We Really Are IN FULL.

Perhaps at the end of this day, this is all I really needed TO share.

🙏💖

Victoria

ZELLE: themamatrinity@gmail.com

CASHAPP: $VictoriaT1144

My girl’s Amazon Wish List

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This movie is confusing as hell to me now. Figuring out who is who. Ugh. It only satisfies my ego at times much like playing a game does and wondering who will win and who will lose.

Does it nourish my Soul?

Not one bit.

We have democrats ruining cities. Republicans saying how GREAT the economy is. “Look at all of those beautiful jobs!” we hear. “See how gas prices and food prices have come down?” they blather to our weary ears.

Dystopian reality is front and center. Central casting. AI. It’s all feeling so ungawdly horribly FAKE. I want to scream at how F A K E it all is.

As I keep reminding myself – I was NEVER – N E V E R adept in figuring out who was who inside of movies – it all felt and still feels so fake. Regardless of whatever purpose it may all be serving, I don’t trust ANY of them out on stage now. They are all possible suspects to be thrown under the bus and forgotten about at this point, for me.

He did a rally today. Doesn’t it seem – and feeeeeeel – different now? Quiet? Staging area far less filled up with MAGA.

AI pushing AI. What if the purpose of this is to wake us up to the fact that we are inside of a computer brain – inside of a simulated reality run on AI? And we’re all smaller here, more dumbed down, with just a Spark of our Truth remaining within. And what if this show and tell is helping all to see enough of this FAKE reality so that when the frequency hits us taking our Spark to full on BOOM – it is much easier for the mind to let go because we have all become so desperate for a new experience.

Even though we have local cattle farms around here, most of the beef simply doesn’t taste the way it should. It’s like it isn’t finished and prepped correctly. Too much blood remains. When butchered and finished properly, allowed to age, that beef can taste wonderful. The last time I had this experience was with a local farm that was doing it right for awhile then changed. Their beef began tasting like store bought. Shortly thereafter, they just sort of disappeared. I haven’t been able to find replacement since – this after trying over half a dozen area small family farms.

Personally I have no desire to live my life as a nomad on wheels.

There’s NK again…BTW – there are 17 Q posts containing NORTH KOREA

Exposed? Or implemented?

A good replacement – Simple Mills. Ingredients you can understand. I like their cinnamon honey crackers – sweetened with coconut sugar and honey. Put a dollop of organic cream cheese in between a couple and you have a healthy alternative to whatever *this* is….

Says the Alien himself…

Putting my meme skills to work:

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(I had to red0 this one – wp algo’s don’t like it when i add shiny objects in the subject line):

 

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Something is stirring beneath the surface — something old, something sacred. And this time, we’re not just remembering… we’re reclaiming.

I’ve partnered with AVA Codes to help share a set of energetic tools that are quite unique. These are coded sigils — living frequencies designed to activate memory, alignment, and soul-level healing. If you’ve felt the call to step into more of who you are – as I definitely have the past few months – this might be your sign.

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Let this be the moment you say yes to your own remembering.

💖

Victoria

PS- If you want to understand more about AVA, the TikTok channel has some good information on what these tools are useful for.

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✦ The Vault Is Opening

 

Something is stirring beneath the surface — something old, something sacred. And this time, we’re not just remembering… we’re reclaiming.

I’ve partnered with AVA Codes to help share a set of energetic tools that are quite unique. These are coded sigils — living frequencies designed to activate memory, alignment, and soul-level healing. If you’ve felt the call to step into more of who you are – as I definitely have the past few months – this might be your sign.

Right now, as part of a special Vault Giveaway, AVA is gifting up to 10 custom sigils — completely free — to those who feel the resonance.

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💖

Victoria

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From my NEUROTONED newsletter this morning.  Brilliant.  💖🙏

Why your body goes into shock every time you leave the house (even for good things)

Victoria,

Your nervous system experiences every transition as a potential threat.

Getting up from your chair. Walking from one room to another. Leaving your house to go somewhere you actually want to go. Getting in the car. Walking into a building.

Each transition triggers what researchers call “sensory recalibration”—your eight senses have to rapidly adjust to completely new environmental inputs and assess whether the new conditions are safe.

Most people’s nervous systems handle these micro-transitions seamlessly. But if you’re highly sensitive or your threat detection system runs on high alert, every single transition becomes a mini-crisis.

You know that feeling of needing to “gear up” to leave the house, even for pleasant activities? The way you feel inexplicably drained after running errands? The exhaustion that hits after social events, even ones you enjoyed?

That’s not social anxiety or introversion. That’s your nervous system working overtime to process dozens of sensory transitions throughout the day.

Every time your environment changes, your eight senses must:

  • Vestibular system: Readjust to new spatial layouts, lighting levels, and visual movement patterns
  • Proprioceptive system: Recalibrate to different surfaces, seating, temperature, and spatial boundaries
  • Interoceptive system: Process how the new environment affects breathing, heart rate, and internal states
  • Visual system: Adapt to new lighting, colors, patterns, and visual complexity
  • Auditory system: Filter and categorize entirely new soundscapes
  • Tactile system: Adjust to different air quality, humidity, textures, and temperature
  • Olfactory system: Process and categorize new scents for safety assessment
  • Gustatory system: Detect changes in air quality that affect taste and comfort

For most people, this happens unconsciously and smoothly. For sensitive nervous systems, it’s like rebooting a computer 30 times a day.

The transition types that cause the most overwhelm:

Environmental Transitions (indoor to outdoor, quiet to loud, dim to bright): Your sensory systems struggle to adjust to dramatically different input levels

Social Transitions (alone to groups, familiar to unfamiliar people): Your nervous system has to process not just environmental changes but also social safety assessment

Activity Transitions (rest to movement, focused work to social interaction): Your nervous system has to shift entire physiological states while also managing environmental changes

Temporal Transitions (morning to afternoon, weekday to weekend): Your circadian rhythms and energy systems are changing while external demands shift

The compound effect that nobody talks about:

Each transition depletes your nervous system’s resources slightly. By the third or fourth transition of the day, you’re running on fumes.

This is why you can handle your morning routine fine, but by afternoon, simple tasks feel overwhelming. It’s not that you’re lazy or weak—you’ve spent your nervous system energy on constant environmental recalibration.

Instead of powering through transitions and depleting yourself, you can prepare your nervous system for shifts before they happen.

Before leaving any space:

  • Orient: Look around your current environment and identify three things that feel neutral or pleasant
  • Acknowledge: Take one slow breath and mentally note “I’m transitioning from [current space] to [new space]”
  • Ground: Press your feet firmly into the floor and your hands onto a surface, feeling the solid contact

Upon entering any new space:

  • Pause: Stop just inside the entrance for 10-15 seconds instead of immediately moving deeper into the space
  • Survey: Let your eyes trace the boundaries of the new environment—walls, exits, furniture arrangement
  • Settle: Place your hand on a wall, chair, or stable surface to help your proprioceptive system map the new space

The micro-transition technique for within spaces:

Even moving from your bedroom to kitchen requires sensory recalibration. For these smaller transitions:

  • Pause in the doorway for 3-5 seconds
  • Notice how the new space feels different—lighting, temperature, sounds, spatial layout
  • Breathe once while making contact with the doorframe or wall

Why this works when rushing doesn’t:

When you rush through transitions, your nervous system never gets to complete its safety assessment of the new environment. It remains in a low-level scanning mode, which depletes energy and maintains subtle activation.

When you give your nervous system 10-60 seconds to properly orient to new spaces, it can complete its assessment and settle into the new environment instead of remaining vigilant.

The advanced transition mastery:

Predictive Preparation: Before leaving home, spend 30 seconds visualizing the spaces you’ll move through. Picture the lighting, sounds, and spatial layout. This gives your nervous system advance information to work with.

Sensory Anchors: Carry small items that provide consistent sensory input across transitions—a smooth stone in your pocket, a scarf with a comforting texture, or essential oil on your wrist that smells familiar.

Transition Rituals: Develop tiny rituals that signal to your nervous system that you’re consciously managing the transition. Touch the doorframe when entering new spaces, take three breaths in your car before going into buildings, or briefly press your hands together when moving between activities.

When you start paying attention to how transitions affect you, you realize how much control you actually have over your daily nervous system experience.

You can choose to support your nervous system through changes instead of demanding that it keep up with your pace. You can plan your day with transition costs in mind instead of scheduling back-to-back activities that compound the overwhelm.

Most importantly, you can stop judging yourself for feeling drained by activities that seem “easy” to others.

Your nervous system isn’t being dramatic—it’s doing incredibly complex work that deserves acknowledgment and support.

Understanding transition shock is part of learning to work with your nervous system as a collaborative partner instead of something to override or ignore.

When you honor your system’s need for orientation time, it becomes more resilient and adaptable. When you rush through transitions repeatedly, you train your system to remain in protective mode throughout the day.

This is just one example of how small shifts in awareness can create profound changes in your daily experience of ease versus overwhelm.

Your nervous system has been trying to tell you what it needs. It’s time to start listening.

With care,
Beth from Neurotoned

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Today’s Finds, Sleuthing/Puzzle Piecing ~ 7.7 Quake in Russia (10km) – ISRAEL FOR LAST – The Shot Heard Around The World ~9.12.25

 

I was so sleepy today at times – but had energy to go on a good ride – tired again – then on the way to the store heard an 80’s tune and cranked it – I haven’t been able to do that in a quite a while – my system just hasn’t been able to take it in – I am learning not to judge my nervous system – some things feel safe, others don’t – this particular song has good memories attached to it including one i will N E V E R share with my daughter as it involves me, two girlfriends, no parents, drinking beer for the first time – dancing TO this particular song.  she has a serious disdain for anyone who drinks – past or present.  😄  atm i have chocolate kicking in.  referenced below – plus chocolate milk with a splash of salt.  we are finally at the end of this movie.

💖🙏

Victoria

CASHAPP:  $VictoriaT1144

ZELLE:  themamatrinity@gmail.com

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Is ra el flag too…………He’s telling us.  Timestamp 10:01 – Q post 10:01.  Map of Little Saint James Island…………

Laura Aboli: MYSTERY surrounds inclusion of “SHLOMO PERL” at the bottom oF a TRUTH SOCIAL post featuring a photo of POTUS and KIRK while they front flags of the U.S. and ISRAEL

Shlomo Perl:

“Shlomo Perl” can refer to several different people, including Solomon Perel, a Holocaust survivor who famously disguised himself as a Hitler Youth member and whose story inspired the film Europa Europa

  • Disguise and survival:
    He survived the Holocaust by posing as an ethnic German, eventually becoming part of a Hitler Youth camp and serving in the German army as a translator.

    Living a DOUBLE LIFE:

Charlie was, for much of his career, a staunch defender of Israel. Yet in recent months he began to raise uncomfortable questions; even daring to suggest that October 7th might have been a stand-down operation. For Israel, that had become a problem.

And in any case, Charlie was above all America First, dedicating his entire adult life to defending and promoting such values. So why would Trump choose this image? Why not one with the American flag alone? What is he pointing at? 🧐

Then there’s the strange inscription at the bottom: “Shlomo Perl” 😳
• Shlomo is Hebrew for Solomon, rooted in shalom (peace, wholeness).
• Perl (or pearl) symbolizes purity, wisdom, and something precious formed under pressure.
• But it might also be a reference to Shlomo Perel, the Holocaust survivor whose life was portrayed in the film Europa Europa — a story about hiding one’s true identity, surviving by living a double life. A film, by the way, that Israel has tried to suppress at all costs because of the questions it raises about the official WWII narrative.

 

My friend/fellow Anon/sleuther D shared this one I hadn’t seen/put together yet:

 

 

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“loomer”………🙄

 

There you go:

 

The anon/truther in me is just as focused on “we have the watch”…….“FOLLOW THE WATCH”

What does Valhalla mean? Kash Patel’s special message for Charlie Kirk sparks questions | Hindustan Times

FBI Director Kash Patel said at the end of his portion at the briefing, “To my friend Charlie Kirk, rest now, brother. We have the watch, and I’ll see you in Valhalla,” per the outlet. …

The term refers to a warrior’s paradise in Norse mythology. As per History.com, the term means the war-god Odin’s mythical hall. Built with spear shafts and covered with shields instead of a roof, Valhalla was seen as the dwelling place of Odin’s chosen warriors in the afterlife.

 

 

and the shooter is this young man:

Mirror, anyone?

 

Ruby’s real name:  Jacob Leon Rubenstein – parents were Polish Jewish immigrants……….

 

and this – “33” hours later?

 

IS RA EL……….Powerful speech……..

 

Benjamin Netanyahu’s family has Polish roots and was known by the surname Mileikowsky before adopting the name Netanyahu. 

 

 

R I C O……..

 

 

10km

Very Strong Earthquake of Magnitude 7.7 Just Reported 120 km East of Petropavlovsk-Kamchatskiy, Russia

The earthquake hit around noon on Saturday, September 13th, 2025, at 1:37 pm local time at a shallow depth of 10. km.

 

 

 

Talk about a synchronicity – earlier today while at the kitchen sink washing dishes, I suddenly am tuned in to Trump’s speech in Ohio at the Whirlpool Factory – focused on what he said about we may not see him for a while.  I’m not convinced we’ve seen the original since then….

 

 

still blasting away……..

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The Art of Setting Boundaries for Highly Sensitive People

 

 

A scenic mountain valley with rolling green hills and distant peaks under a partly cloudy sky. A rustic wooden fence runs across a field filled with purple and yellow wildflowers. A winding dirt road stretches through the valley, flanked by scattered trees and small houses.

 

A rustic wooden cottage with a moss-covered roof, surrounded by vibrant pink and red flowers. The cottage has multiple windows and a small staircase leading to the entrance. A white picket fence with blooming roses lines the lush green lawn. Tall trees and misty mountains are visible in the background.

 

A stone path winding through a dense forest. Tall evergreen trees with dark green foliage line the trail. Green vegetation and moss cover the ground and rocks along the path. The scene is misty, with soft light filtering through the canopy.

 

I have tiramisu in the refrig…………😋😊

A square chocolate cake cut into nine equal pieces, each topped with a smaller square of chocolate. The cake has layers of dark chocolate, white cream, and a brownie base, with chocolate drizzle flowing down the sides. A white plate holds the cake, and a glass of iced coffee is visible in the background. A card labeled "HANDMADE Special Gift" is placed on a smaller plate beside the cake. An Instagram watermark is present.

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More Support For Our Nervous System

 

 

My latest healing help from Neurotoned.  I appreciate this information as it puts a body-perspective on our healing.  Often in this awakening process/spiritually focused piece, we forget that we still have these physical bodies.  I see it far too often.  While once we leave this reality our bodies do not come with us, I believe energetic imprints FROM our bodies do go with us, at least inside this place, which is why we can carry trauma from past experiences.  I see regulating/healing the Nervous System as a necessary, essential part of our Awakening.  And you can tell your nervous system all of the loving thoughts you want – which is important of course – until it feels safe – it will continue to communicate otherwise.  (BTW anyone have a recommendation for a weighted blanket?  Affordable?  I am in need of one (or two).)

💖🙏

Victoria

“Here’s how to become a sensory detective in your own life:

The Environmental Audit Technique:

Pick one space where you spend significant time but don’t feel quite right. Now assess it through your eight senses:

Vestibular Assessment: Does the space feel spatially confusing? Are there visual elements that create movement or disorientation? Ceiling fans, busy patterns, or flickering screens can all disrupt your inner ear’s balance system.

Proprioceptive Assessment: Can you clearly sense your body boundaries in this space? Spaces without clear edges, defined seating, or adequate pressure contact can leave you feeling ungrounded and floating.

Interoceptive Assessment: Does the space make it easy or hard to notice your internal signals? Temperature extremes, air quality issues, or chronic low-level stress can disconnect you from hunger, thirst, and emotional awareness.

Visual Assessment: Where do your eyes want to rest? Spaces without visual “landing spots”—calm, neutral areas where your gaze can settle—keep your nervous system in scanning mode.

Auditory Assessment: What’s the acoustic landscape? Even seemingly quiet spaces often have hidden noise pollution: HVAC systems, electrical hums, traffic sounds that create subconscious stress.

Tactile Assessment: How does the space feel against your skin? Air quality, humidity, temperature, and even the texture of furniture all send signals to your nervous system about safety or threat.

Olfactory Assessment: What does the space smell like? Synthetic fragrances, cleaning products, or poor ventilation can trigger stress responses you might not consciously notice.

Gustatory Assessment: Does the space affect how things taste? Poor air quality or stress responses can actually alter taste perception and appetite.

 

The Grocery Store Protocol (that works everywhere):

Before entering any potentially overwhelming environment:

Step 1: Sensory Preparation – Spend 30 seconds in your car doing the Orient-Pressure-Exhale sequence we talked about before. This gives your nervous system a baseline of safety to return to.

Step 2: Intentional Entry – As you enter, consciously scan for three things that feel neutral or pleasant. This helps your vestibular system orient to the space as “navigable” rather than “chaotic.”

Step 3: Body Check-ins – Every few minutes, press your feet firmly into the ground and notice your breathing. This maintains proprioceptive awareness and prevents complete sensory hijacking.

 

During sensory overwhelm:

The Bathroom Reset – Find the bathroom (usually the quietest, most contained space available). Place your hands on the counter, press your feet into the floor, and do three slow exhales. This interrupts the overwhelm cascade and resets your nervous system.

The Phone Fake – Pretend to check your phone while actually doing the Orient-Pressure-Exhale sequence. This gives you a socially acceptable way to regulate in public without drawing attention.

The Strategic Exit – If overwhelm becomes too much, step outside or to your car for 60 seconds. The change in environment often provides immediate relief and perspective.

 

Advanced Environmental Optimization:

Once you understand how your nervous system responds to different environments, you can start making strategic changes:

Lighting Modifications: Add lamps with warm bulbs to counteract fluorescent lighting. Use task lighting instead of overhead lights when possible.

Sound Masking: Use consistent white noise, nature sounds, or instrumental music to mask chaotic environmental sounds.

Visual Anchors: Create calm spaces for your eyes to land—blank walls, plants, or simple artwork that doesn’t compete for attention.

Pressure Points: Add weighted blankets, firm cushions, or other proprioceptive tools to spaces where you spend significant time.

Air Quality: Use air purifiers, plants, or essential oil diffusers to improve the olfactory environment.

Temperature Regulation: Create microclimates with fans, space heaters, or layered clothing options.”

 

🎀𝓘 𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓬𝓲𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓼𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓼 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓿𝓮. 𝓣𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓼𝓾𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓿𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓭𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰🎀
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Supportive, Loving Help For Our Nervous System ~ And those 3am jolts

 

 

How many of you wake up around 3am – in a state of panic – or worried – mind racing?  I’ve experienced this for most of my life and probably many if not most of you have as well.  Today I read something that explains the reason behind this and what we can do to help change this pattern.  And it all comes down to our Nervous System.

I have seen that until we take our Nervous Systems along with us on our healing journey, we will be missing a necessary part of our healing.  It’s much like trying to drive a car with a faulty electrical system.  There are still going to be issues no matter how mechanically sound the car is.

This morning, I was greeted to this gem below in my e-mail box.  I love this company.  They are very well-versed in the nervous system, trauma and healing, their approach aligning with decades of research as well as with the woman I see each week.  Their approach is compassionate and gentle. They also have support groups, a one-time 30 day nervous system program (that you have access to forever so no pressure to do it all in 30 days) and other paid programs/courses.

So give this practice a try the next time you wake up at 3am in a panic.  (And speaking of our Nervous System – today Trump called out the truth on vaccines:  They are all poison.  Thimerosal.  One of the areas in which this toxin damages our bodies is the Nervous System.  I will share that info later today in my daily finds.)

🙏💖

Victoria

 

Your nervous system may have been lying to you about why you can’t stay asleep.

It’s not your bladder. It’s not your age. It’s not even anxiety, exactly.

It’s something most sleep experts never mention because they don’t understand how your nervous system actually works during the night shift.

Between 2-4 AM, your body goes through what researchers call the “vulnerability window”—the time when your nervous system is most likely to misinterpret normal body signals as threats.

 

Your autonomic nervous system runs a sophisticated security scan every 90 minutes throughout the night.

 

Like a guard doing rounds, it checks all systems: breathing, heart rate, temperature, blood sugar, muscle tension.

Most people’s nervous systems complete these checks and return to sleep mode seamlessly.

But if your threat detection system is running on high alert from chronic stress, sensory overwhelm, or unresolved activation—which describes most sensitive, trauma-informed women—those 3 AM security scans trigger a false alarm.

Your body interprets normal sleep processes as danger signals.

The slight drop in blood sugar? Threat.

The natural shift in breathing patterns? Threat.

The way your nervous system processes the day’s sensory input? Threat.

Instead of staying in restorative sleep, your system jolts you awake with a surge of cortisol and adrenaline, leaving you lying there with your mind racing about tomorrow’s to-do list.

The conventional advice completely misses the point.

Sleep hygiene protocols tell you to avoid screens, keep your room cool, try melatonin, practice “good sleep habits.”

But none of that addresses the root issue: your nervous system doesn’t feel safe enough to stay asleep.

And here’s the part that will change how you think about sleep forever…

Your nervous system’s threat detection doesn’t shut off when you close your eyes.

It continues monitoring through eight distinct sensory channels all night long. The three hidden senses we talked about before—vestibular, proprioception, and interoception—are actually MORE active during sleep because your conscious mind isn’t there to override their signals.

Vestibular disruption during sleep can happen from something as simple as your pillow height throwing off your inner ear’s spatial orientation. Your brain interprets this as “falling” and triggers a wake response.

Proprioceptive confusion occurs when your body can’t clearly sense its boundaries in bed. Without adequate pressure and contact points, your nervous system can’t confirm that you’re safe and contained.

Interoceptive overwhelm happens when your internal monitoring systems detect changes in heartbeat, breathing, or temperature and can’t determine if they’re normal sleep fluctuations or signs of danger.

The 3 AM wake-up isn’t random—it’s your nervous system asking for help.

What if instead of fighting those middle-of-the-night wake-ups, you could teach your nervous system to feel safe enough to stay asleep?

Here’s what most people don’t know about the sleep-wake cycle:

There are specific sensory inputs you can give your nervous system BEFORE sleep that communicate “it’s safe to stay down for the night.”

And there are specific sensory interventions you can use at 3 AM that help your nervous system settle back into sleep instead of spiraling into full activation.

The Pre-Sleep Sensory Safety Protocol:

Step 1: Weighted Contact – Before getting into bed, spend 60 seconds applying firm, steady pressure to your body. Press your palms into your thighs, hug yourself with sustained pressure, or place a heavy pillow across your torso. This gives your proprioceptive system clear information about your body’s edges and boundaries.

Step 2: Spatial Orientation – While lying down, slowly turn your head left and right 3-5 times, then gently trace the edges of your pillow with your fingertips. This helps your vestibular system map your sleeping space and reduces the likelihood of spatial confusion during sleep transitions.

Step 3: Internal Regulation – Place one hand on your chest, one on your belly, and take 5 breaths where your exhale is twice as long as your inhale. This activates your parasympathetic nervous system and gives your interoceptive awareness a calm baseline to monitor throughout the night.

The 3 AM Reset Protocol:

If you do wake up, resist the urge to check your phone or start problem-solving. Instead:

Ground First – Before your mind can spiral, press your feet firmly into the mattress and your palms into the bed. Hold this pressure for 30 seconds while breathing slowly. This interrupts the activation cascade and reminds your proprioceptive system that you’re safe and contained.

Orient Gently – Without moving your head much, let your eyes trace the familiar outlines of your room. This gives your vestibular system updated spatial information and helps distinguish “safe sleep space” from “unknown threat environment.”

Breathe with Awareness – Place one hand on your heart and breathe at the pace of your heartbeat. This synchronizes your interoceptive monitoring systems and often naturally leads back into sleep.

The science behind why this works:

When you give your nervous system clear, consistent sensory information that communicates safety, it can complete its security rounds without triggering false alarms.

Instead of your brain receiving mixed signals that require conscious interpretation, it gets three simultaneous “all clear” messages:

“I am securely positioned in a familiar space” (vestibular + proprioception) “My body is calm and my internal systems are stable” (interoception) “This is a known safe environment” (visual + spatial orientation)

 

Your nervous system stops treating normal sleep processes as potential threats.

Here’s what changed for Sarah, one of our community members:

“I’d been waking up at 3AM almost every night for two years. I tried everything—sleep studies, melatonin, meditation apps, even sleeping pills. Nothing worked consistently.

When I learned about the sensory safety approach, I was skeptical. But I started doing the pre-sleep pressure and orientation routine.

The first night, I still woke up at 3 AM, but instead of lying there for two hours with my mind racing, I used the grounding protocol. I was back asleep in 15 minutes.

Within two weeks, I was sleeping through the night most nights. When I do wake up, I know exactly how to help my nervous system settle back down.

The difference is I finally understand what my body was trying to tell me. It wasn’t broken—it was just asking for the right kind of safety information.”

This isn’t about fixing your sleep schedule.

It’s about creating a relationship with your nervous system based on understanding rather than fighting.

Your 3 AM wake-ups aren’t a sleep disorder—they’re your nervous system doing exactly what it’s designed to do when it doesn’t feel safe enough to stay vulnerable.

The real transformation happens when you start working WITH your nervous system’s protective instincts instead of against them.

That hypervigilant, sensitive awareness that keeps you awake? It’s not your enemy.

It’s a sophisticated early warning system that just needs better information about what’s actually safe.

When you know how to speak to your nervous system in the language it understands—sensory input, spatial awareness, and internal regulation—sleep becomes collaborative instead of combative.

Your nervous system has been trying to keep you safe all along.

It’s time to help it understand that sleep is the safest place of all.

With care,
Beth from Neurotoned

P.S. The next time you wake up at 3 AM, try the grounding protocol before reaching for your phone. Press your palms and feet firmly into the bed, trace the edges of your pillow with your fingertips, and breathe at the pace of your heartbeat. Your nervous system might just surprise you with how quickly it can settle when it feels truly held.

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7.28.25 ~ Some Finds

 

 

This is interesting………..

 

 

 

 

 

 

I giggle when he calls “them” nasty………

 

 

 

 

 

The Trump effect:

 

 

THIS:

 

JUST IN: Bondi Files Formal Complaint Against Judge Boasberg For Shocking Public Comments Admitting Bias Against Trump Administration | The Gateway Pundit | by Cristina Laila

 

Islamist Terror Strikes Congo Church: Dozens of Catholics Slain in Brutal Nighttime Assault | The Gateway Pundit | by Robert Semonsen

 

BREAKING: ICE Arrests Illegal Alien Employed as a POLICE OFFICER in Maine | The Gateway Pundit | by Cristina Laila

 

Secret Service Launches Investigation After SS Agent Tries to Smuggle Wife on Plane Accompanying Trump’s Visit to Scotland | The Gateway Pundit | by Cristina Laila

 

Updates: Israel told to ‘end barbarity’ in Gaza as more starve to death | Israel-Palestine conflict News | Al Jazeera

 

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Antarctica news:

Glacier in Antarctica that could drown cities is breaking apart – Earth.com

 

Russian and Chinese plans for Antarctic expansion spark alarm – ABC News

Experts warn Russia and China’s plans to expand their presence in Antarctica may be linked to mining or military ambitions that are at odds with the nature reserve’s peaceful governing principles.

Australia was among 58 signatories to the Antarctic Treaty, which covers activity in the region, which met behind closed doors in Milan in June and July.

Earlier this year, China announced plans to build a sixth permanent research station in Antarctica, while Russia is reopening and upgrading stations, as well as building a new runway for long-haul aircraft.

 

Who’s driving this thing?

Interstellar object 3I/ATLAS fuels alien threat debate as it hurtles toward Earth at 200,000 km/h – BusinessToday

 

 

Johnny Cash is in my vibe today.  First I heard Folsom Prison Blues on the radio this morning, then tonight, I see this on X:

 

 

A lot of KAPOW’s lately:

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someone’s keeping it from that $40 mark………

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Photography by Nikolina Mickovska

 

Switzerland 🇨🇭 photographer Samuel Svec

 

Image via Nady Murr

 

Keeping Johnny in the vibe:

 

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