WHO IS SHAKING THIS DAMN SNOW GLOBE??!!

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Now and then, I will go looking to see what the rest of humanity is feeling. Support boards. Community boards. Local talk. That sort of thing. And I have been a bit surprised, perhaps it’s relief, to see a new trend of talk: people not wanting to leave their homes. World is too scary and crazy.

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I’m reflecting on this, even as I type. I feel it too – growing. As one who is highly sensitive (which IMHO just indicates you have a knowing about the hidden things of this reality and as such isn’t really a “special” title), I have long dealt with this desire to just stay home or close to home. Some call it agoraphobia. Fear of being “out there”, trapped. We are often told fear = false evidence appearing real.

Today? I say bullshit to that. Just another new age feel-good philosophical narrative designed to make those of us who ARE sensitive to the hidden evil here feel with the knowing something ain’t right about this place feel even more isolated, alone, crazy for how our bodies feel. AND a knowing we are in some way trapped inside of this snow globe, surrounded by a consciousness energy that has no compassion, care or concern for us. YUG!

I see more and more people “becoming” (Awakening) to it all, hence they too are feeling the need to just be at home where it’s safe. Safer shall I say.

For now, humanity is feeling this entire Snowglobe being shaken. For some it’s subtle (that sense will grow), for others it’s strong, almost violent. When we were told to take the 40,000 view, there was a reason for that statement. While we are inside of this space together as a collective, we can still practice being the Observer.

I’m also wondering if this “stay home/close to home” is serving another purpose – to get humanity out of the way of outer happenings for when things really “hit the fan” – AND Shift. The Sky Event moment. The moment that captures the attention of every one of us. For now it is building up leading to moments of “*%@!! would someone just stop shaking the damn snow globe?”

I just want some Peace of Mind.

The lyrics of the song are powerful in their truth:

Now if you’re feelin’ kinda low ’bout the dues you’ve been paying
Things is coming much too slow
And you wanna run, but somehow you just keep on stayin’
Can’t decide on which way to go, yeah-yeah-yeah

I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind

If ever there were words and a time that coincide EXACTLY where I am now, this is it.

We fake it, don’t we?

We fake being ok with this compete and pay to live b.s.

Go along with it because hey, we have to eat, right and what other options are there, really, no matter how “off grid” we go?

I’ve never been one to fake it. Because, well, it is FAKE. A fake, unnatural state of being. Doesn’t align with the Soul.

Indecision too. How many of you are feeling that indecision? I sure am. As in BIG TIME.

That indecision is a result of this place and all of its rules. Can’t go THERE because of this damn “law” of “theirs”. Can’t afford to go THERE because hey “they” decided to have this little pay to live game where some places are intentionally created to keep out others of less $tatus. Can’t do THIS even though it’s what you’re good at and enjoy because either you lack the skills “they” say you must have, lack the $$ to get yourself into that position of being seen and let’s be honest simply not enough spots because it all operates on COMPETITION.

Thinking of another song lyrics: You can’t always get what you want. But if you try sometimes you get what you need.

I never did like it. WHO is to say what it is I or any of us truly need? I’ve come to see it differently though – considering it was played at those Trump rallies. The lines were also used in a GEORGE News Publication in one of John’s Editorial Letters. Evil wanted us eliminated. But they aren’t getting that. Instead they are getting what they need – removed, eliminated. Mirror.

That said, we’re still in it, still bound by “their” rules and competition.

For now, we survive in this ever-shaking snow globe. Doing the best we can. Faking it as best as we can. Deep breathing and 40,000 foot observing. Which sucks the more one is Awake and longing for something we can’t quite fully remember (or maybe some can – I can’t seem to get into that full remembering just yet). But just like we know, the more we have Awakened, that this reality is absolutely utterly NOT HOME to our Souls, we also know this experience is temporary, we will break out of here, we are getting help in doing just that.

For now, find peace in the suck.

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Victoria

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Shower portal time share, friends.

Some images I’ve seen in recent weeks have been staying with me.

Images of women, mostly white, having meltdowns. Public rages.

At the time I saw this, the comments were full of “crazy white liberal women”. And yet, I saw a bit of myself in these women.

It isn’t just the “crazy white liberal women”. It’s people of all ages, all ethnicities. Who isn’t feeling the intensity of the world? Of this Awakening?

I believe what we are feeling is, in par,t our own inner trauma coming to the surface. The words we did not share. The thoughts we kept to ourselves. The emotions.

And to add to that, we are literally unplugging from a reality that had our minds held captive, where we have been programmed from birth, fed lies and illusions by the system – the matrix computer – which wanted us to believe what we saw and were told was Truth. Unplugging the mind from all of that programming is tough as hell on its own. But add in the traumas that we all experience, some far less, some far more, and you just add in more emotional intensity during the deprogramming process.

This is an inside and outside experience. Seeing truth out there. Seeing truth in here (touching my heart).

Given I can only speak as a woman, I will share what I feel is happening with many of these “white liberal women”: A lifetime of neglect. A lifetime of abuse. James Brown, as much as I love his music, that dude was spot on when he sang, “This is a man’s world.” It has been. The energies of it slant heavily towards the masculine. Competition (for EVERY fucking thing). Pay to live, which forces us to hustle every day to DO DO DO. Slay the dragon. Get ‘er done. This is how this reality operates.

And as a woman – none of this aligns with me. It all feels so unnatural. Incomplete. While men may question the system as well, they are far more biologically designed to be a part of that system. Just ask any parent: “How do you feel when your boy goes out alone? How do you feel when your girl goes out alone?” We know the stats. We KNOW how it is and who is more vulnerable to assaults, attacks, abuse.

Women are the nurturers. The caregivers. We have innate abilities to resolve conflict peacefully. We seek to connect. It’s BIOLOGY.

NONE of these energies is included in the pay-to-live competitive system.

As women, we have had to fake it.

And given the time we’ve spent hiding and pretending, the time for fake is over. And now, all of those years, those decades of frustration we have hidden and faked it just to keep up is coming out.

Add in the years we spend raising our children, being told it is REAL work while we don’t get nearly the same respect for it as a worker out in the “real” world, we’re f’ing tired.

Remember when that video came out with Trump talking about a woman’s private area with that derogatory term? Remember the rage? I pretended not to feel any of my own. Even though I supported the man, when I heard that commentary, it brought up the numerous times my personal safety boundaries were violated, and all I heard was “that’s just how guys are”.

Yeah, NOT AN ANSWER.

This is just an example, of course, but I think we need to listen to these “liberal white women” just like we need to listen to ANYONE on stage now, protesting, lashing out. While I get that propaganda can indeed incite violence, quite often there is already something within that individual, an unresolved trauma, that has been triggered that needs to be seen.

Safety.

Space held.

To know, hey, it’s ok to feel this way.

Until we start doing this, until we can strengthen ourselves up enough, see our own inner triggers, and begin by holding a safe space for ourselves, as men and women, we will continue to judge those we see as behaving in a “crazy” manner.

When maybe they have a story to tell.

Something worth listening to.

And something to teach those of us who, for the moment, believe we have ourselves all under control.

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Victoria