Today’s Reflections…..they keep coming….

 

I had some validation experiences listening to Lisa Harrison’s latest last night.  I am going to give it another listen or two – I have a knowing I will receive more “stuff” by doing so.  The validations so far….Not just the physical stuff (loss of appetite or ravenous, dehydration, strange sleeping patterns)….but the connection to Home piece.  When she mentioned the Dragon’s, Lion Being’s and a 3rd yet-to-be-named/given race of beings breaking through the dome/grid and are now in this 3d frequency….I got chills.  A few days ago, my family decided to color one evening.  My mate brought out a picture of a dragon our girl had picked up at a local store (she had already colored one).  She wanted to color a house and I suddenly wanted to color that dragon.  Not just wanted – I felt I had to.

It took me almost an hour.  I was so precise in my color choices.  I felt like I was coloring – creating – something real.  I was REMEMBERING.  It was so peaceful and familiar.  I’ve included the finished piece below.

I cried over their reaction upon seeing us so clearly – not having the barrier of that frosted-type glass to view us.  I cried when Lisa said the feeling from them was sadness, shock AND awe – awe as in how they couldn’t believe how much light we still carry.

Yes – confirmation of how truly horrible it is here.  THIS IS NOT HOME.  And if you come here FROM home with even just a bit of awareness, you feel this same experience.  If your awareness grows, the knowing grows with it.  I thought back to my childhood and how often I would watch the skies and wonder when my real family was going to come for me.  I would stop and question myself – why would I have such a thought?  I had a home.  Parents who loved me (the best they could).  And yet – I felt a huge hole.  The connection just was not there.  It wasn’t me.  It wasn’t them.  It just WAS.

Amazing to me some 40 plus years later this was not just a child fantasy but Truth.

I awoke this morning and felt, again, how it must be like to actually break inside and see – family – friends – what they have been living in.  The living conditions.  Rather like visiting someone who has been in the hospital for months and is not doing so well.  The shock – over seeing one you care for – feel connected with – in such a state…

So….it was no coincidence to hear the Dragon Beings now have entered this realm and my sudden connection w/them this week to color – and remember.  I first had a connection to Lion Being’s early this year in the shower – suddenly seeing an image of a Lion Being – male – smiling at me. He felt familiar – very protective.  The image of him was gone within seconds.

So….I feel this pull to be connected and at Home….and a pull to be out in the world.  I gave that a try today – and while I didn’t have anxiety per say – I could not  be around people.  Today it feels my focus needs to be on being within my own space only.  And I could also sleep a lot now – as in all day – the past few days.  WOW on that one.  I did get a very strong knowing and feel in mid 2017 that the closer we get to whatever it is we want to call it – THE event…transition…THE thing….lol….the more I would need to sleep.  

The skies….Mars continues to be as big and bright as it was in July.  It is supposed to recede fully by the end of this month.

As I often say – nothing is as it seems here.

That is all for now…

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Today’s Insights/Messages

 

i don’t know where to begin – got a lot of little things to share.  so i will dive right in w/what is most present in my mind.

our abilities.  for me that is telepathy at the moment.  i have tried this with a few people in my life – and it’s working.  there have been a couple of people i have not spoken with in months – people with whom i feel that ancient/soul-based connection.  i put out a “hello get in touch with me” message to one last week.  24 hours later i received a message from this person.

so i thought to give it a try again.  person number 2.  or shall i say beautiful soul friend because these are what these connections are to me – people i deeply feel connected with and have an instinctive/need-to-protect sense. anyway i put out the message of hello – haven’t heard from you – get in touch if you feel the desire.  this time in just a few hours – i received a response.  today i tried it again – and within minutes received a response.

distance plays no part, of course, in any of this.  i was talking about this with brother rick tonight and as i did, i received a visual.  that barrier – that heavy barrier – the veil if you will – is so thin it now has holes and gaps, making REAL communication instant and clear – regardless of the distance.

and speaking of communication, brother rick also shared he had received some intel/info from Clair.  he asked her how much longer and she said 1122. i reminded him of my recent dream i had of JRK Junior – where he showed me a calendar – and gave me the very strong impression/feel that thanksgiving was hugely important to him – and that ALL had to be wrapped up by then – would be.

i have felt into this more and it is my feel that he – or whoever these people/being’s are engaging in this Universal Cleaning Up – have the ability to traverse the dimensions – have the ability to see past/present/future – which is WHY this clean up is really going smoothly.  at least there’s a pattern and a DEFINITE flow to it when we feeeeel into that.  the chaos is there serving its own purpose – to those resisting the flow.  it is a strong pull, a strong force on its own – i can feel it and it HAS indeed knocked me on my doubting ass from time to time…..but when i tune into that ALL WITHIN of FEELING – i can FEEL FULLY that all is going as planned: this creation is NOT GETTING HIJACKED ANY MORE.

NOT on my watch or yours or yours or yours.  the clean up crew is in full force – no going back.

so back to the 1122 – which is the calendar date of thanksgiving over here in the states – which is also the 55th anniversary of Kennedy Senior’s assassination.  so me receiving that – and Clair saying 1122 to brother Rick – was just a confirmation.  i tuned in and felt Clair say the same – she was just confirming the info i had received.

as rick is feeling as well – the energy is WOW now.  he is also seeing 1122 all over the place.  me?  i’m just seeing numbers.  mostly double’s.  here’s an interesting number combo that came up on my receipt at the store today.

the first balance showed $17.66 which i found intriguing – then when the cashier typed in some of my info the final balance showed $16.77. upon seeing the numbers “1766” i felt a shift inside….something told me the year 1766 was a highly significant year in terms of what is now being cleaned up, particularly here in the states.  so i did a little googling and here’s what i found:

“The Declaratory Act

AN ACT for the better securing the dependency of his Majesty’s dominions in America upon the crown and parliament of Great Britain….

Colonial legislatures organized what is now known as the Stamp Act Congress in response to the Stamp Act of 1765 which called into question the right of a distant power to tax them without proper representation. 

By one Act they have suspended the powers of one American legislature, & by another have declared they may legislate for us themselves in all cases whatsoever. These two acts alone form a basis broad enough whereon to erect a despotism of unlimited extent.”— Thomas Jefferson

what this is showing is how we have been under British Control (law of the sea) since that time…highly significant to the revealing of the all and the cleaning up….

i am also hearing the journey song “stone in love” like MAD lately.  i awoke hearing it after a dream.  heard it in the car today on the way to the store.  as i began this piece i knew i needed to tune out all in my household and listen to music as i wrote this piece so that i would get into the flow (music always does that – gets me into that flow – as clair keeps saying all year “music will set you free” –  now i get it)….anyway so i go to youtube and pull up an reo speedwagon song – 3 songs later – guess which one is playing right now? yeah – stone in love, journey.

“there are no coincidences.”

another topic in all of this – aging.  are any of you beginning to feel you may be getting younger?  i am having moments of this.  some days i will feel my calendar age (which will never be given although anyone with a keen eye for detail will have been able to figure that one out by now given the info i have shared) – other days – 18.  22.  (the age i am aiming for and have been for months.)  so today my body was behaving in a way that i have not experienced since i was in my early 20’s.  coincidence? i thought.  so later on this evening i go on a walk and run into a neighbor down the way.  we begin talking.  she’s in her late 60’s and tells me she’s begun having hotflashes – like she used to when she was in her 40’s.  i got one of those “a ha!” feelings, looked at her and said “perhaps you may be getting younger?” she laughed and said maybe.  “energies,” I said – “they’re new and intense right now – doing all sorts of things to us.”

change.

that word – change – i had an impression/message in the shower the other day.  you know how so MANY of us have said we are overly FRIGGING #%$@@*!!!! tired of groundhog day, right?  of course we are.  we are AWAKENING – enough to KNOW that CHANGE IS who we are.  pure creation energies are ALWAYS changing….moving….expanding….doing this doing that….

we were NEVER meant to spend so much time inside of offices and houses doing the same damn things every day being confined to chores or tending to health issues – sheot – none of that is supposed to take the “time” and “tending to” as it has in this realm.  and because we have awakened to all of this inner and outer sheot game/story – we are READY TO END it – break free – walk away and BE that creative Force of Source again.

let’s see what else is going through my mind….oh the colors in the skies. aluna ash linked a video showing purple misty skies at 11pm.  i will link that in a bit.  it was captured last night – 10/6.  what’s a bit interesting to me is last night we attended a potluck and at sunset i noticed this AMAZING glow in the west.  yes, it wasn’t at 11pm at night – but the sky just looked – different.  a couple of us noticed it, commented on it…. and walked to a spot where we could get a better visual.  i took a couple of pictures – handed off the camera to my mate who went to capture more.  he then brought it back to me and i headed off in a different direction (“yeah bye gotta leave the party for a bit to take pictures cause that’s what i do”)….and took some shots which i am including below.  there was – at first – this pinkish/purplish type of mist around the glow – and it was a dry evening (today – rainy).

tonight at dinner, i was looking out the window – facing west – and noticed a slight pink to the otherwise gray cloudy rainy sky.  i asked my mate – hey does the sky (and i mean the entire sky) have this pink hue to it?  i asked our girl – she has the purest eyesight.  she noticed it too.  i looked to the south and wow – it was really noticeable in that direction.  by this time it was almost 7pm – getting quite dark – and i took pictures but they just did not show the color.  most showed just black skies.

i’m just staying neutral on this.  now if – when – that mist begins to show up around me in my house – THEN i will go nuts with excitement.

until then, i remain as i said – neutral – observing – but i gotta tell you the growing feeling of huge change and endings and especially CELEBRATION and REUNION is really present within me now.  feels like something that was once visible and palpable to me but still sooooo far away – and now – so close.  reunions.  oh i cannot wait!  as the song that just happened to begin playing next on the youtube – boston – is singing to me: “it’s been such a long time”.

YES.  IT.  HAS.

love,

victoria

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Schrodinger’s Other Cat ~ Flying Blind/CME Incoming [UPDATE4] (and some of LoveInActionNow reflections for the day)

 

editor’s note:  the two staircase image ~ i feel this is a representation – a metaphor – for what people will experience after this event experience.  all are getting “out” (my feel – cause that’s what Love does – and gives you the freedom to choose after the assistance) – yellow rose speaks of this using the terms “east” and “west”.  i’ve seen where i go – where i’m at – so i trust all of Me which today i am in this feeling state of thinking the me typing is just another simulation within this simulation – i am the dreamer – and the Awakened Me is already “home” – and the event is the voice that i finally hear that says “WAKE UP”…..well other than that i am seriously tired today….last night in the minutes prior to falling asleep i began trembling and shivering all over….today – body having a time – dropping things OH MY dropping things as if what i am holding is not really there…..fatigue?  merging?  both?  i don’t know what to “think” today so not pushing the brain to try which is why i have been rather quiet today.  ssshhh…....

one last comment ~ i hesitate posting this as ya’ll know the last thing i ever want to do is spread disinfo….so i will just say this – i saw on a friend’s social media page there may be some intense times coming up after tomorrow – the presidential alert allegedly creating some sort of an activation with the arrests to follow and well you can imagine – the advice is to stay out of cities, the usual – and stock up and water and food….well we have done that so often throughout the last 10 plus years i rather don’t give that kinda stuff much attention these days – HOWEVER – today as i put some groceries away into the refrig (this was before i saw the message on social media) a voice within me said i may wish to consider getting some extra water to have on hand.  so just putting this out there….

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Ah. This latest from Lisa Gawlas explains why we can’t see anything right now… well, can see less:

I could see two earths both in eclipse of each other, passing each other in opposite directions. It was stated that the “old” earth and the “new” earth are eclipsing each other. creating a black out of sorts. In another preview to a reading (no one got a reading, not even the ET connections.) It was explained and shown this tremendous energy being exchanged between the two realities during this passage. It was also explained by one of my lady’s ETs this energy is why the connection could not happen. Way too much distortion to work thru. To much finalizing the upcoming blueprints (if you will) of the next phase of earth and of each living thing on earth. With this new set of blueprints, we are all going thru a changing of the guard, of guides/teachers and such. As we step into this last quarter of 2018, we will also start to draw down to us, at least those using their divine will, the energies of the first quarter of 2019.

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Time to choose.

Well, we weren’t entirely blind. We could see a little.

Yesterday, we saw a huge pillar with two spiraling staircases — one for the JUSTICE Timeline, the other for the SOURCE Timeline — but BOTH go to the same place.

Both have The Event at the top. What’s the advantage to either one? We’re trying to figure that one out. We aren’t allowed to know that much, it seems, but we do know that the JUSTICE Timeline is ROCKIER. The SOURCE Timeline is more like SOURCE: quiet, with superior coffee, tea and scones. Both culminate in The Event. So… non-stop excitement or peace & quiet? We know what we’re choosing.

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Last Night’s Dream ~ JFK Jr…..

 

hey ya’ll~

yeah, so i had another “dream”.  again, didn’t ask for it ~ it just happened.

i was in a mall and it was quite crowded.  i get called to look in a certain direction and there he is ~ John Kennedy Jr.  this time he is young, at least young looking.  i walk over to him and he takes my hand.  i don’t recall talking at that point – we just walked around.  i felt he was guiding me.  i then see my biological family (parents and sibling).  i asked him if we could go talk to them so they would “see” – see the truth – see that what i say has meaning and purpose and truth.  (my family, overall, thinks i’m nuts – and if not that, wasting my time at all of this.)

“sure,” he says.

so we walk up to my family – i introduce them.  one parent is staring off into space, not paying attention.  my sibling – in the background waiting to likely see what my parents do.  and my other parent is at least listening and showing some interest.  very fitting for who they are, btw.

at that point john jr and i leave.  we make a quick stop in a shop and i see carolyn – i had really wanted to see her.  she was, you could say, just being a normal american woman.  talking with some people.  she ran some sort of a business – i could sense what.  anyway – she is very confident when she is in her element, sharing her gifts.

we then walk out and are back in the mall.  he then gives me the feeling it is time to go.  as we head towards the doors to leave, he said he wants to give me a date as he knows that is what i am seeking.  i see a calendar flash in front of me, some pages being flipped forward, and i see the month of november and hear, from him “18” – so maybe november 18th?  or just november of 2018?  i was trying to figure it out in the dream and obviously got it wrong as i then heard him say “the week before thanksgiving.  that’s when we want to do this.”  the feeling i received from him was “they” really wanted to do this by thanksgiving.  by “this” i strongly feel he meant show the world Team Q ~ of which he is connected to.  does he post drops?  i’m not sure – but he did give me the impression he is connected with them and KNOWS.  (and is he connected with them in THIS realm if he is alive?  or outside the realm if he really did pass in 1999?  again – i do not know for SURE – but i feeeeel it is the first take.)

we were still at the door – and as we walk outside suddenly the skies are dark and there is a storm brewing.  a massive storm.  rain, wind.  a squall, i hear and see and feel.  he immediately says “i have to go now – they know i’m here” and takes off.  “wait!”, i call.  “what about me?!”  he calls back “you’ll be fine.  just lay down.  they don’t know you.  they really are stupid, you know.”  and then he hops in this little black sports car – two-seater- and takes off quickly.

i look around and decide to lay down where i am as i see a group of men – ordinary looking men btw – looking around for someone.  they don’t see me and seem confused as to where this person they are searching for went to. as the dream i ended i recall thinking “wow they really are that stupid.”

the overall impression that i received of the dream is his energy.  i have never had a dream of someone and felt that kind of energy.  it is solid. powerful and protective yet very gentle.  a very nice combination.  and there are just some things he knows – and when he does he wants you to trust him.  no discussion.

it’s interesting i had this dream last night too as, overall, i got off of the “is he alive or not?” train.  my feel has been he is and so i felt no need to explore it further.  last night i kept seeing videos pop up about him and simply chose not to watch.  i didn’t need any further info, or so i thought.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”smiley” wrap=”i”]

we are in good hands.  there is soooooooo much going on that we cannot see, in this realm and outside of this realm…. and we can tune into it by going within and calling for the experience.  we can feeeeeeeeeeeel.  get visions.  have dreams.

and just sometimes, those experiences happen when we least expect them.

much love to you all~

victoria

p.s. ~ one last experience i want to share.  on my facebook page for this site, i noticed someone had recommended my site.  this person also shared why they come here each day.  my heart did a huuuuuuge expansion.  i got tears in my eyes and touched my heart.  that feeling of gratitude…..  i told my mate about it and said THIS – THIS is the REAL “reward” for doing this site. if i could pay my bills using that energy – this energy in here right now – i would be one of the richest Being’s on the planet.  for those of you who have shared not just your money donations, but your words with me, THANK YOU!!  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

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Today’s Experiences and that da** word purge

 

I awoke this morning with such an overwhelming and I mean overwhelming need for purpose and connection.  It is a survival thing ~ an energetic soul survival thing.  Without either, my Soul suffers.  And overall, I have had the bucket not nearly to the level I need with both.

I’m pretty sure many of you can relate.

So I did a deep release ~ from the gut.  Wept.  One of those intensely messy cries where I was crying out PLEASE let me have a sense of PURPOSE and CONNECTION.  I NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED this!  After this release, I had a vision of a piano and thought “hmmm I wonder if the piano’s are around town now”.  Once a year my community places piano’s throughout the city in honor of a local festival.  I then was reminded how, weeks and weeks back, I was told “your music will set you free” which only triggered me as I have shared my music over the years mostly for free and felt I have done all I can do with it.  I still noticed the vision and follow up thought and felt “synchronicity” was in the air.

So….after breakfast, I decided to go to one of the large craft stores ~ took my girl so she could get some doll supplies and me some beading supplies.  I put on my “cosmic condom” as I call it (protection bubble) and headed out.  After the craft store visit, I decided to visit the store that has had the piano display in years past.  Sure enough, there saw a beautiful little spinnet, just waiting for someone to play it.  After getting my food, I decided to sit down and play.  Within moments I had a small group of people, giving me requests.  Little children were dancing.  It was….amazing!  People were taking pictures, videos.  After one of my songs a man walked over to me, complimented my music and asked if I ever hire out for gigs.

Wow.

So we talked, exchanged business cards.

When I finished playing, a couple of the little children came over and thanked me for playing.  Oh it was so touching.  They weren’t older than 4/5.

If anything, this gave me that sense of purpose.  A little spark.  And I also had a few really nice connections with some of you today that meant a lot.

Are we this needy?  Is it because we are living such artificial/superficial lives ~ contrary to what we really and i mean REALLY desire and who we are?

I feel this, yes.

Emotional/spiritual/mental deprivation of any kind for long term brings out that huuuuuuuuuuuuuuge empty state inside and loooooooooooooongs to be filled.

That, my friends, is why we long for the transformation.  The return to Who We Are.  Connections.  Purpose.  Freedom.  Just typing those words brings out a deep sigh.

Here is to that return.

Love,

Victoria

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Q Posts for 8/11/18

editor’s note:  oooh there are some awesome crumbs being shared today!  so to begin with, the owner if this airline company whose plane was “hijacked” and claimed to have crashed last night in the seattle area, is tom steyer, who is a major donator of the democrats.  some anon’s are speculating this plane was set to crash in an area that could have killed people and thus, given the “Q” symbol, team Q would have been blamed for the crash.  one anon said whidbey island has the remote control (plane) tech.  so what we may have is a remotely controlled plane by the DS to send a message.  in reference to this, the next post is 4 booms set for next week.

iron eagle ~ it was a movie years ago.  the premise according to wikipedia: “The basis of the fictional story in the film relates to real life attacks by the United States against Libya over the Gulf of Sidra, in particular the 1981 Gulf of Sidra incident.”  and yet one anon said HRC is the iron eagle.

and i truly appreciate how Q addresses the mass buy out of media, consolidating all of our info into just a small handful of companies.  Q says alludes to this violating anti-trust laws and this move was done under the democratic party.  then we have obama’s campaign phrase “change we can believe in” inside the brackets, which anons have said means the kill box.  (i hate typing that term – but there it is).

Q then asks if it is possible a new telecommunications act is forthcoming.  i would say yes.  restore true freedom of the press and true competition.  not that i’m a capitalist ~ but this prison market needs to be ended.

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Q !!mG7VJxZNCI ID: a92e3a No.2556980📁
How do you prevent the public release of incriminating acts that would forever strip their power away?
How do you BIND the hands of POTUS?
Two-Pronged SITU.
>>Test strength of midterms through private analysis (win/loss ratio)
>>Analysis below key metric w/o chance for recovery – START A WAR.
Think missile(s) accidentally fired.
Against WHO?
Relationships are VERY IMPORTANT.
The SHARING of INFORMATION IS VERY IMPORTANT.
Q
1844

Q !!mG7VJxZNCI No.141📁
Q !!mG7VJxZNCI No.138📁

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FAKE NEWS consolidation [propaganda arm of the D party].
Define Antitrust Law(s).
https://www.ftc.gov/tips-advice/competition-guidance/guide-antitrust-laws/antitrust-laws📁
The Sherman Act outlaws “every contract, combination, or conspiracy in restraint of trade,” and any “monopolization, attempted monopolization, or conspiracy or combination to monopolize.”
https://www.ftc.gov/tips-advice/competition-guidance/guide-antitrust-laws📁
“The FTC’s competition mission is to enforce the rules of the competitive marketplace — the antitrust laws. These laws promote vigorous competition and protect consumers from anticompetitive mergers and business practices.”
Reconcile.
+GOOG
+FB
+TWITTER
[CHANGE WE CAN BELIEVE IN]
Q
>>138
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Telecommunications_Act_of_1996📁
https://www.fcc.gov/general/telecommunications-act-1996📁
[BC set the stage]
[Plan]
Could a new Telecommunications Act be on the way?
Q
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Q !!mG7VJxZNCI No.138📁

media-consolidation.png⬇

FAKE NEWS consolidation [propaganda arm of the D party].
Define Antitrust Law(s).
https://www.ftc.gov/tips-advice/competition-guidance/guide-antitrust-laws/antitrust-laws📁
The Sherman Act outlaws “every contract, combination, or conspiracy in restraint of trade,” and any “monopolization, attempted monopolization, or conspiracy or combination to monopolize.”
https://www.ftc.gov/tips-advice/competition-guidance/guide-antitrust-laws📁
“The FTC’s competition mission is to enforce the rules of the competitive marketplace — the antitrust laws. These laws promote vigorous competition and protect consumers from anticompetitive mergers and business practices.”
Reconcile.
+GOOG
+FB
+TWITTER
[CHANGE WE CAN BELIEVE IN]
Q
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Today ~ Where are we? Why is “out there” still the same? And Why am I SO BORED??!!

 

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boredom has been a theme for awhile now.  i noticed it about a year and a half ago ~ around the time i opened up this site for public viewing.  it has waxed and waned and now is full on boredom for me.  everything new i do feels like a distraction from the life i really want.  it can make one feel rather nutso ~ knowing you are a creative being.  knowing who you are (or at least having a growing awareness ~ enough of an inner “feel” to KNOW that all of this “out there” doesn’t work for who the inner ME is) creates that experience.  a total, completely out-of-alignment feel.  i don’t know what to do about it.  making plans for the upcoming local event ~ making bracelets, practicing music to play and getting some supplies together to promote my book and other self-creations doesn’t inspire me the way it would have years ago.  it’s this feeling like “been down this road ~ this think/be/do outside of the box” for SO MANY YEARS that i fully know:

I NEED A NEW SAND BOX TO PLAY IN.

P E R I O D.

i have known this for years.  yearSSSSSS.

with each creation i create in this realm, i come back to this knowing.

i thought about the local musicians ~ just in my neighborhood.  how often i have attempted to join in with them and jam.  when we HAVE ~ well they seem to enjoy themselves and comment “wow you are really good”.  i am, yes.  it is a gift i have.  and yet follow-ups to connect and “play” ~ nothing happens.  my efforts – my actions – leading to no results.  1 + 1 is SUPPOSED to equal 2, not 0.

this is no longer a game i am interested in playing or in figuring out. 

let it go to let it flow, right?

in an environment of Pure Divine and Freedom, yes.

but here?  this is not been my experience.  perhaps in a once in awhile situation but overall?  no.  so sorry to burst the bubble in these law of attraction and similar books.  those theories simply have not worked for this goddess.  not in this reality.

the stress in the household is at an all-time high.  mate is stressed out ~ his computer crashed or at least it is doing some funky things.  after mine zonked out yesterday i thought “ok well we have his good computer and the turtle computer” (the laptop that is very slow and has a wonky built-in mouse).  i am ultra sensitive to intense energies and inner me says SHUSH IT to all that does not align with my desired inner experience.

i need calm.

i need quiet.

i need peace.

i need love.  support.

so i now sit and breathe deeply ~ tap away feelings that do not serve me and state

I AM CALM

I AM QUIET

I AM PEACE

I AM LOVE

and as the piece of paper states below my water, “GO HOME NOW DIVINE NEW EARTH THANK YOU”.

i have seen it.  i have been there.  i KNOW it is “real”.

if for some twisted reason this is not to happen in this cycle, then i will put the pedal to the medal and seek to join together and create this community here in this realm.  raise the funds.  buy the land.  how much longer are we willing to wait?  i’m at the end of that rope called patience.  it isn’t because i lack this trait.  it is because i am tired of soothing the inner me that wants it. desires it.  calls it forth.  she is no longer sooth~able.  no more placating.

love does in the now.  i could sure use a lot more of that.

other than that, the g.i. stuff continues although i did figure out part of the cause of my lower back muscle pain ~ riding my bike.  well it isn’t so much riding my bike as it is riding on these failing streets.  we have potholes and cracks all over the place and i am not exaggerating.  it makes for a very bumpy ride.  our roads alone resemble a crumbling, 3rd world nation and yet i live in one of the most exclusive, wealthiest communities in the state. no joke.  it is as though all of the wealth was sucked outta the communities and placed into the pockets of the controllers.  imagine that.  (sarcasm)

that is all for now~

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victoria

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