got no shares today as i ain’t caring about a thing playing out.
aside from my tribe here and a few in which i comm w/regularly (who feel the same): humanity by and large disgusts me now.
i see so many who think they’re awake but they talk about god and resurrection and lessons and are enjoying all of this.
my family and i are suffering here. BIG TIME.
we have NO connections.
no friends.
we lost all of that – slow drip – over the past few years.
those god believing types can answer me this: isn’t god supposed to open a window when a door (or doors) are shut?
hmmm??
we are alone.
completely and utterly alone.
and anyone saying “you’re never alone” don’t and won’t understand that physical isolation is painful and no amount of prayers or blah blah help.
provides NO comfort for me in the way i need.
other than for one damn brief moment.
but then the convo is over or exchange is over and i’m back to the same damn space: trapped in my home having to navigate life much differently now because vaxxed assholes are being allowed to roam wherever they want shedding their toxic “field” all over the place.
What About US?!
seriously – what about us? is my family not important? what about my child? this is about the children? like fuch it is. my child lost her friends due to this bullshit that is STILL BEING PUSHED. (oooh but people are waking up. riiiiiight. and i got a chunk of lush land in siberia to sell ya). she lost her favorite activity for the same damn reason.
what is it i need?
FRIENDS FOR MY GIRL.
FRIENDS FOR MYSELF.
FRIENDS FOR MY MATE.
FREEDOM.
A NEW HOME.
A MORE RURAL COMMUNITY WITH LIKE MINDED UNJABBED PEOPLE.
AND THE MONEY TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.
i intend this DAILY.
NIGHTLY.
IN THE MORNING.
ALL THROUGHOUT THE DAY.
i try and connect w/others who want/need the same.
NOTHING HAPPENS.
NOTHING MOVES.
i let it go – then start it back up again.
i feel forgotten.
i see my family and feeeeeeeeeel they too have been forgotten.
we are nobody here in the area in which i live.
so why do we have to stick around and be forced to be a part of this damn “movie” or whatever it actually is – i have no explanation for it.
and WHY OUR DESIRED EXPERIENCE HAS NOT YET BEEN SHOWN –
no. explanation.
where the fuch is this god and jesus person? hmm?? anyone??
anyone who tells me to be patient these days – i let them know they can share that “unwanted advice” (which is thoughtless and fatuous) with my child. look her in the eye and tell her that and see how it works out for ya. she’s quite adept at telling us and others “how it is”.
as is her mama.
