I don’t feel any movement. Last night I reached this place of detachment from everything here. Felt my “mission” (whatever that really is) is complete. Or perhaps the better term is HOW I am doing things and WHAT I am doing is over. And I am left with nothing but an empty feeling. Body hurts. Discouraged. Mostly what I see is good people standing firm and getting physically attacked – with no one to step up and stop the physical assaults. I mean come on – people getting radiated and burned – but the focus remains on being peaceful?
When does evil ever comply with a request?
Where is this alleged “good” military?
I’m tired of it all.
Tired of sharing my heart and ideas in a search to build some sense of community.
Tired of the 30 plus years I’ve devoted to searching the truth and sharing it.
It hasn’t had that much of an impact.
It certainly hasn’t contributed to ENDING any of the evil and corruption.
Mostly what it’s done is created a lot of heartache and grief – and loneliness – and allowed me to connect with other “crazies” – pretty much feeling the same.
I don’t know where to go.
I don’t know how to make more money.
I don’t know what to do different.
It is truly the same show – same experience – different day.
And I am tapped out of answers to change my personal experience in the way I need and want. I’ve searched – asked for guidance from Higher Self and beyond – asked for human help – NOTHING.
It really is about this now – until something shifts and until I no longer have to:
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Now – just U G H.
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