Ok ~ today started out feeling quite lovely – as in neutral – which is a gift these days. But as the day went on, I felt drained of everything. I tried a bike ride but my body screamed WHAT R U DOING?! I pushed – then decided to listen and returned home. I feel heavy – and overwhelmed – numb with the responsibilities at the current time. And flat out done with waiting and having to partake in what simply doesn’t align. Knock knock – anyone answering the door outta here yet?
So………..speaking of………….I tuned into the event – to get a clearer feel on it. I’ve likely had it before – just don’t remember (memory? what’s that??!!) – but today it felt like it lined up for me. It’s simply a frequency of God/Universe/whatever it is that we once were a part of before “they” disconnected us from it – and it gets returned to us. What happens after that – who knows. Each of us will experience it differently. I like what Pattie B said in last nights video I shared – each of us decide what kind of a body we want. Current one upgraded or a new one. Considering we used to be amazingly powerful creators who could participate in creating planets and realms – creating a new body in whatever way works for each person will be quite easy.
Going within – alone – UNINTERRUPTED – is what works best to get through this. For me. I would comment on last night’s sleep – if I could remember. I had a thought – if something is coming in powering up these bodies, I will need to sleep like a baby. I cannot seem to get enough of that z-time – in a quality way. And I am also quite aware of “them” trying to poke and loosh. I won’t talk about those experiences – not worth my time or energy.
Interesting – saw something earlier today about “the tree of life” – it may have been in a book – lol i don’t remember………..(he’s referencing the image in the above video):
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Looks like the start of the roots of the Tree of Life at the East Gate
Michelle Walling from last month:
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#EEKS our conversations, our understanding does accelerate our speed to exit. It is our conscience light that dissolves dark matter….
Michell Walling http://Howtoexitthematrix.com
politics still doesn’t align with me anymore……….spoke with Sister D today and we talked about how were both soooo into the plan and T – at least the political part of it and now – nothing…….
still wondering if this is even a distraction……..a “light knock” to reach the sleepers subconscious to let them know and feel SOMETHING is off about this reality….when i seeeeeeee and feeeeeeeeeeeeeel it all – you know, come on – what’s bigger? calling out the human twats (which most have been dealt with) or realizing we’re inside an energetic prison by invisible enemies and we’re going to be set free? yeah….
Our Ozone Layer is being removed. UVC radiation is ground level????!
UVC radiation is a detoxifier, a germ killer and a mutating wavelength!
Someone commented that her mother cares for agriculture and has noticing plants are burning.
Here is our personal experience and we’ve noticed it – slowly – over the last few years. But now – whatever is happening is happening in the winter and early spring. We have a tropical palm tree that typically loves the sun. But now – many of the leaves that get the most sun are burned. We also have some cedar trees and the 2-3 that receive the most sun are, and I am not exagerrating, 2/3 burned.
So something’s up. Is it changing these vessels? Is it a benevolent or otherwise agenda? Why are some plants being fried in some areas and say down the street or next door – nothing weird is happening.
As I say pretty much most of the time these days: I don’t know.
As I’ve said I don’t like having to come up with titles for what I share here. I remember writing stories in school and saving the title for last. One piece I remember was for a creative writing class and we would share our pieces with the class. Anyway what I wrote was quite intense and received a lot of positive interest (except for a few of the women in the class who didn’t like intense scenes) – but the title was, in my opinion, weak and ridiculous. I never was able to come up with something so I left it blank in the end.
So………….I did what I could to move this unwanted energy. Bike ride. Gardening. A long good cry. Still feeling the same “stuff” – just less of it. I’m just gonna say it as I keep denying it in some way: they have us hooked up just like Neo and each of us receives “programs” – pushed on us – to weaken us. Maybe not all of us have this here – which would make sense if you want to create division. What I keep seeing – we’re each experiencing this different – some more alike than others (which is why we resonate more with some than we do the rest) – and as such each of our individual experiences is unique and very valid. And I will also say this just as strongly: This has taken far. too. long.
Moving on……….
I was looking at some of “their” nasa stuff – and I couldn’t get into it. So I checked on the KP – that’s slowly going up:
But who really knows. What I DO know is something has been up for many of us in recent days/weeks – while we sleep. So what we say is sleep when you need to and eat when you need to and let everything else go. Easier to say it than DO it at times of course – but something is up. Battles that I don’t remember – dreams I don’t want – waking up shaking and tense from top to bottom. But not every night – just most nights lately – and increasing – which says something to me about where we are but not quite sure – and not really wanting to share an insight into that for personal reasons.
I can share though that I feel more pulled away from the whole T/Plan experience. Can’t explain it – but it’s happening within me. Others I see are having the same. Again – my feel on this is we are each experiencing this ending however we need/want to. Whatever aligns. And less and less here does – for me.
In the area of the Odessa port “Yuzhny”, the special services of Ukraine are planning a provocation with the use of toxic chemicals to accuse Russian troops of allegedly striking civilian infrastructure facilities.
▫️The most likely scenario of the staging may be an imitation of a missile strike by the Russian Armed Forces on the western naval base of the Ukrainian Navy, as a result of which the port’s cooling plant, located 500 meters from the military facility, will be blown up. To implement this scenario, a tank with ammonia (10 tons) was delivered from Odessa to the territory of the enterprise on April 18, 2022, and personal protective equipment was issued to law enforcement and special services in the Odessa region.
Sharing given what we heard recently – would not surprise me at all if some of the local schools around here have this crap:
Humor….and to be fair – some of us experience similar or the same emotional response when we’re told “trust the plan” or given that dreaded dayem word “soon”……………
So we seem to have not only two different timelines (really trying to be and feel into the one I WANT but being denied the right to sleep for whatever outside reason is interfering) – also seeing people having totally different realities inside these timelines. Seems to be a matter of luck. maybe? I’m quite honestly DONE hearing from/reading others who have no children – are single – and/or live alone who are meditating and have all of this private quiet time to tune in and feel and are in the flow and then turn around and tell people like me what to do – and/or don’t want to listen to what I am struggling with – and right now – it’s a lot. It’s really a lot.
Someone came at me in recent weeks about “choices”. “You made your choices.”
Choices?
CHOICES?
WHAT CHOICES?
If you are talking about controlled choices in a system of constriction and control that LIMITS your choices and ignores every word you state that clearly indicates what it is I need while the voices of the system say “you cannot have that” – then yes.
But that’s not what was presented to me.
I am so tired of all of these programs that aren’t mine – playing out in my mind and in my life – and I reject them – I say “NOT MINE” and focus on what I want – REPEATEDLY I do this – and yet they come back in anyway.
Today I feel defeated. I felt up and motivated yesterday and asserted myself in what I want – did the whole intention thing (WHICH I STILL HOLD in my heart) but then something came in last night and kicked my ass down – HARD.
Where’s my help?
Where’s my protection?
I honestly don’t know how much longer I can do this. My mind at least. If this war is real – where is my protection? Where is that protection of mine in the dimensional spaces? I need some proof it’s there and that I’m not just going this alone. My ability to hold this all together now – just ain’t happening.
T having a rally today. Big deal. Nonsense at this point. These things do nothing for me. Nothing for any of us. Who the hell is this plan really for? You know? Anyone else not feeling aaaaaaaaaaaaaaany resonating energy with it – when you’re really honest with yourself? (it’s just a distraction – one of many that are rapidly ending in their ability TO distract)
One last question: Anyone else waking up with your hands in tightly clenched fist? Every one in this house is. Last week when I woke up I literally had to use my left hand to unclench my right. Kinda scared me at first. The term that just came to me: We’re being throttled now.
I woke up this morning and thought ‘today is a 2-day’ – then shrugged and said, to no one in particular, ‘who cares’ then went about my day. It began as a long night until I finally got up at 3:30am – had a bowl of cereal with cashew milk and sat there – alone – in the dark – and really reflected. Clarity came after I asked myself some very honest questions – dismissing all of the “yeah but this is how the world and system is” and instead came from that state of pure knowing of what I want. So I have a couple of things to focus on – mate is in alignment – and we will see.
Internet’s been weird – very slow – including my site. Stagnant and sketchy. I checked on downdetector – quite a few issues but none with wordpress.
I haven’t gone “out there” yet to see what crazy is being pushed and what “our side” is accomplishing – I seem to do that later and later now. I did see earlier today that someone was trying to fire up CERN – then saw further confirmation in the comment section from one of ya’s.
Just like I always used to want to know in my youth WHO was operating the keg and WHO was rolling the joints, I want to know WTH is wanting to turn this thing on again.
Aye aye aye………….
We heard word from a family we know – proof of the grooming the schools are engaged in (in this case – elementary). My mate had already passed on some info we had all seen. They received a call inquiring about their “son” – when they have a daughter. Not according to the school. They now refer to their daughter as a boy – and she even has a new boy name. How nice of them to tell mom and dad, right? That was it for them. They’ve seen – it’s hit home now – and they’re doing something about it. Mate let them know we support them completely and are here for them – as always.
That’s how we wake up – and how we get through this: TOGETHER.
Speaking of, I want to say this: It humbles the ever-lovin’ socks off of me to know that even just one person reads my words/work and gets something positive/helpful/supportive out of it. Seriously – it still surprises me at times when I hear from one of you – either in a comment or personal e-mail. I will never lose that sense of humble – and is something I focus on regularly in maintaining – especially when my ego wants to fly in with my heart and say LOOKIE ME LOOKIE ME LOOKIE MEEEEEEEEEEE!! Those of you that I know – have connected with – YOU ARE AMAZING! You inspire me. You are a gift to me, the misfit, and I hold a lot of gratitude for those connections.
So – I’m about to dive in and share what I’m seeing. I have a sense I may need one of those hazmat suits.
Feels like a marker…
The painting “Washington Crossing the Delaware” is going up for action next month.
Maybe after 4 years and 6 months Durham is done?
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No ‘green screen’ here folks, this looks real.
Here Russia’s V group is in action in Mariupol, firing at Ukrainian snipers and anti-tank teams in apartment buildings.
This is apparently the last residential neighbourhood controlled by Ukrainian Azov battalion.
My old stomping grounds……….they done turned RED…..lol
Barbarians are at the Gate (noting the caps of Gate):
“The expression “barbarians at the gate” is often used in contemporary English within a sarcastic, or ironic context, when speaking about a perceived threat from a rival group of people, often deemed to be less capable, or somehow “primitive”.’
(i am in no way saying i don’t see what the -mostly men – are doing – behind the scenes – the rescuing, the battle underground, above and up above……and i appreciate that…..just saying there was a crucial element left out and as a woman, i see it clearly now. far too many of us have had too much suffering – too much trauma, anxiety and struggle – when NONE of it was necessary – nor helpful. i am not interested nor will i participate in the male vs. female subject nor am i interested in nor will allow on my platform the “be patient”/”tell you what i think you need to do” crap. i’ve had it and i intend to do something about it but i cannot go it alone. if you are with me in my idea and can/will help – let me know.)
So…. let’s talk about this Plan.
As a woman – in my 50’s – if I had been involved in this plan
I would have ensured a big platform or two that was designed, behind-the-scenes, to create financial fundraising to HELP OUT THOSE who have experienced suffering/harm due TO this plan and how it is playing out.
See – that’s how women think.
Most of these BIG platforms are men – who only toot their own horn without ever asking WHAT THEY CAN DO FOR OTHERS.
They go to events and share info we ALL KNOW already.
But I don’t see them responding to people crying out for help on here or other platforms. How many of you think we need to change this?
Today is a good day to find an abandoned cabin and get away from all of the drama – as far into nature as is feasible. Today turned into a day where I am left feeling the overwhelming need to run away to save my mind that feels like it’s cracking. Many of us are feeling this. I have moments where I fantasize about the RV life – selling/tossing most of my belongings and living that life. But then I think an even tinier space – with my girl – and my tall/large/loud spouse – and I know/feel:
I have no answers. Got nothing. No one knows what’s up – no one has the full truth – except for the very few who do and they ain’t sharing w/the rest of us who want to know. Seems to me we’re all stuck together – waiting on the world to change/shift – on some outside event – that frequency event that changes everything. All I honestly feel I can do is wait – because doing/thinking/focusing different never ever ever E V E R changes what I feel within. And from what I have seen here – if the inner doesn’t align w/the physical, you’re doing this when attempting to change your experience:
Perhaps I will feeeeeeeeeeeeel different tomorrow. For now – I am exhausted – my body is achy and sore all over – which indicates incoming energies doing something needing to be released. A good massage is in order. The KP is not showing anything – which is strange – the Schumann however is giving us an indication of whassa happenin’….I have a hunch something is afoot that we don’t know about (in terms of these “solar” happenings)……..It’s not coming from that object in the sky………..whatever is happening that we are feeling is coming from outside and beyond………or perhaps from within too…….
White Swan Event:
High certainty
3 principal characteristics:
Certainty
Impact easily estimated
After the fact
explanation shifts the
focus to errors in
judgment or some other
human form of
causation.
General Mills. Well some say that’s to wipe out the crappy food so we can have incoming NEW and GOOD/Healthy food. That’s a nice thought. But is it true? (General Mills also owns the Annie’s Organic line). Most good food now – those organic brands – have been bought up by the Big Dudes over the years. So to me – the way to bring in new is just to BRING IN NEW without having to destroy the food supply that’s already in place, right? Not like this. Trauma ~ fear ~ is not necessary to roll out this plan. You know, what about Love to inspire and motivate and assist? Hmmm? But hey, that’s just me and I’m female and it seems to me it is the masculine (need to blow up) that is behind this plan and that’s starting to piss me off some. lol
Speaking of Elon, he’s promoting this sheot on his twatter page…….
The Boring Company just raised $675M at a $5.675B valuation from A-list investors. Purpose is to recruit amazing people, scale up boring machine production & build thousands of miles of tunnels.https://t.co/BpSE9syuGs
I went here with a pleading energy of PLEASSSSSE BP give me something gooooooooooood…….As he says – nothing more most of us can do now. We already know – perhaps too much (in terms of keeping ourselves mentally well)……….The whole snake venom – showing how there are compounds of it in the human body (well this designed model that is) SCREAAAAAMS to me and any one of us who is really awake – how “they” f’d with our DNA and inserted their DNA into our vessels.
They can keep that sheot. I plan on jumping into my REAL body – untouched by them – asap. We are HUMAN – MAN/WOMANKIND – not parasitic reptiles. (and uh – so much for those “freedom” phones – i’m waiting for everything to change b4 getting any of these sparkly goodies they keep pushing at us – their website claims they are “completely uncensored” – they sure aren’t if what BP claims he experienced is true – see his experience in the link below)
Seems to me – T drew out everybody on both sides leaving us with uh how many in the public eye we can actually trust? These big accounts who claim to know so much? I like spacious homes with big yards – and small channels who own errors and can say “I don’t know”.
STRONG EARTH-DIRECTED SOLAR FLARE: If you round up, it was an X-flare. On April 21st at 0157 UT, Earth-orbiting satellites detected a strong M9.6-class solar flare. The source was sunspot complex AR2993-94, which is almost directly facing Earth.
Radiation from the flare caused a shortwave radio blackout over southeast Asia and Australia: blackout map. Remarkably, this is the second day in a row the same region of Earth has experienced a radio blackout. It happened yesterday, too, in response to an even stronger X2.2 flare.
Shortly after the flare, the US Air Force reported a Type II solar radio burst–a natural form of radio noise produced by shock waves in the leading edge of a CME. This means we can expect a CME to emerge from the blast site. Stay tuned for updates. Solar flare alerts:SMS Text
I saw this intel yesterday – couldn’t source it/verify so I decided not to share. Then I see it has some “sauce”. Accidentally, they say…………I’ve wondered if such an invasion would be more silent – not like what is happening between Russia and Ukraine……….
Taiwan’s government-funded Chinese Television System (CTS) accidentally broadcast a running news ticker on Wednesday morning falsely declaring Chinese forces had launched a military invasion of New Taipei City, the Taipei Times reported on Thursday.
The Taiwanese public broadcaster CTS allowed mock alerts intended for an upcoming disaster drill in New Taipei City to enter its text feed for a running news ticker at the bottom of its 7:00 a.m. news bulletin on April 20. The text included alarming messages, such as, “Communist forces strike New Taipei City with guided missiles.”
OUR TIME HAS COME!! 
LET’S MAKE THE MAGIC HAPPEN & BURN THIS CLOWN SHOW TO THE GROUND! 
