Today is heavy – more than most heavy days.  Depleted energetically.  What else is there to say at this point?  I feel many of us are there – what else is there to say or do?

I “got” some things late last night as I was getting ready for bed.  We know the narrative – the story – we are POW’s.  Hijacked experience.  We’re at war to end all of that.  If that is true (which I feel and continue to feel it is but hey what do I really know for sure – in some moment I WILL but for now it’s all about feeling and speculating to create our own version of this matrix movie puzzle)….IF that is true – then it is possible we have family/friends on the outside perhaps doing some bargaining for us.

As within so without.

Just like when someone has family who is kidnapped – they do what they can to get their family member back.

Now imagine it is your family member along with millions if not billions of other people/being’s who have been kidnapped.  That’s a lot of logistics to deal with.  And just like here inside this place, if you are the one trying to work to get your family member out, your priority is going to be on that one (or more) family member/member’s.  Make sense?

If a member of my family were taken with a group of others – my focus would be on my family member first and foremost.  I imagine this is the same intent/focus for ANY being.

Where was I going with this one – it came in a long stream of feels in an instant my brain tried to form into words – but it is possible that this is far more complex than we realize.  Prison break with a lot of layers and nuisances and a LOT of varying ideas on how to make it work for all with the least amount of loss.

So that being said – if this is true – at least a possibility – it would explain why sometimes I feel up and other times I feel down – or like today and in recent days – totally disconnected from anything on the outside.  I am wondering if I even have anyone left on the outside.  It’s possible the place I have seen living with my mate and child is the “island of misfit toys” – or in this case the place where the orphans go live together and heal and pick up where we left off.  We are totally free and restored but otherwise no family – other than each other.  It is also possible that craft/orb I saw in the sky in the summer of 2009 was US from the future – returning to let me know to hang on – I will get out.  I did have that thought at the time (that I was seeing humans from the future).

Who knows…..just some thoughts and feels coming to me the last 24 hours….

The outside world now?  That experience continues to feel weird and wonky and bizarre.  People are acting odd and disconnected.  Even the squirrel in our neighboring tree was going bat sheot coo coo today – engaged in moves we had never seen before – so spastic it caused our girl to call her dad to see what was wrong with the little creature.

Zombie apocalypse. Could be brought out by the v ax – could be brought about by getting unplugged.  But hey the C D C has our backs here in the states with their little (I kid you not) article on Zombie Preparedness.  Now some say “eh it’s tongue ‘n cheek like the website says” – and the site claims they are using this for emergency preparedness – and yet when do we see the C D C engaged in such weird humor much less humor at all?  And why use that phrase? There are no coincidences….not in THIS game evil has played on us….

The whole v a x thing – some are 1)simply refusing to give it energy – some are 2)saying it’s nothing but “fear porn” – while others are 3) really concerned – trying to dish out as much intel/info as they can and I am seeing some alleged “home” types criticizing them for that (most of these people are who I call the cult follower and I find their behavior quite appalling).  I tend to be more in #3 but for my sanity am having to also be in #1 as to not become too sad and/or afraid.  I am human.  I care about humanity – awake or otherwise.

I am going within so deep I don’t know where else to “go”.  Today all I am getting is BE THE LION and RISE UP.  Not necessarily physically all the time – because you can crawl on the floor and still RISE UP.  It’s about keeping going.  Not giving up.

Here’s a good song that I am hearing in my mind.  Always been a favorite since I first heard it in the 80’s – watching Rocky III where I and my girlfriend were the only ones in the theatre who stood up cheering and crying when Rocky gives one last BOOM to Lang, knocking him out for good.

ROAR.  Tired ROAR but still a ROAR.

Love,

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