Well ok, early for me.  ha!

I was thinking about some of my findings I linked yesterday – and my thoughts relating TO them – which I kept to myself.  After one of you sent me your experience with certain groups, I decided to share what I had kept to myself – as your experiences/feel are very similar to mine.

First though I want to say I get the idea of clinging to a narrative that makes you feel good.  We all want our Freedom.  We want the Truth.  We want Love.  And we want to KNOW and REMEMBER exactly who we are and what happened.  For whatever reason(s) – that search is filled with blocks and time delays.  And it distresses me deeply.  This whole “patience is a virtue” is, overall, just another narrative here (although it is helpful here in this prison).

The thing is – I don’t think any of us on the inside have that total truth.  Yet.  We are still being blocked.  It filters in (only because OF those blocks).

So in search for truth, some channel.  Some use tools.

I used to do a lot of that – then just stopped.  I realized that some of what I received was Truth – and some – deception – no matter what I did to protect my space.

Until we are out of this reality, EVERYTHING we use can be manipulated.  And unless others at least see this, any info received be organic or compromised.

That is why – for me – the only thing I know what to do is go within – not to my emotions but that Sensing place.  It tells me what feels “right” and what doesn’t.

I feel many channels are well meaning but compromised.  Some are just outright “working for the enemy” – knowingly.

This next one bothers me the most.  I see cult-like mentality around those who follow certain channels – and the people who run these channels stay silent on this.  Why is that?  Cult-like mentality leads to division and we need more unity.  Not saying we will all hold the same opinions – but at least let’s all see the deception, the evil , the game here that has played every one of us.  That’s a good place to start – at keep as a “home base”.  Like my friend who shared, I too have been blocked by some people who engage in their cult-like following – all because I asked a question.  I was seeking answers.  Once I was blocked because I stood up for someone who was getting verbally attacked.

Whatever.

Thankfully I have seen no cult-like behavior here.  Agreeing with me is one thing – but putting me (or anyone) up on some pedestal is not helpful – kinda scary actually.  As I recently told someone, who I sensed believed themselves to be a guru – “You aren’t a guru.  No one is.  You are a human with wisdom.”  (I have had to tame that inner ego of mine – love it – when it has wanted a big following and worship for it believes that will provide that piece of me that feels empty and thus, seeks love.  I know this is false.  I am still not sure exactly what permanently heals that wound though.)

Some have more wisdom than others – not inherently – but given programming not all are able to HEAR their own wisdom – or trust in it when it is heard/felt.  (and need I say – I still feel not all are human here or have Source within – but even THAT can be a false narrative)

Now – onto these NASA cams being used.  They’re fake – deceptive at least – and no one knows exactly what we are seeing.  I have seen the same images appear over the years (as the friend I mentioned above who sent some to me) – and they are being shown to be new now – which is not true.  That was one of the issues I wanted to speak of last night but refrained.  And the cubes – I still feel that is a pixilation.  However, I do feel my cube dream did show me where we are – certainly reinforced the “trapped” feeling I have carried through my life.  Beyond that, who knows.  Until we “escape the matrix” – we’re all flying pretty blind here.  Let’s at least admit that.

One last comment – on these “groupie” types.  The private groups who keep experiences to themselves when sharing that info could be helpful to ALL.  I understand keeping certain info private for security and timing reasons – or when it’s just a private conversation – but when it’s just to keep it within the group when sharing it would be helpful to all – especially when it relates to breaking Free from this place – well that just doesn’t jive with me.

Trust thyself.  Question everything.  And anyone who has a feel on how to break down this enslavement system/matrix, please share.  I am going within feeling into how to do just that.

Love,

Victoria

Here is what has been happening to my family.  Computer crashed.  DVD player fritzing out.  Mate’s phone carrier shut off his phone (even though he still has almost 100 minutes of air time left – they won’t allow him to use it until he puts more air time on it).  Sleep – what’s that?

Gas has gone up over .60 cents a gallon.  Food prices are becoming close to unreal (and there are limited supplies on certain items).

And the electric bill that arrived today is showing we had the same usage last month but their price to us jumped $30.

And we are supposed to be patient and trust the plan.

This. Plan. STINKS.

It is traumatizing.

It is harmful.

It is divisive.

It makes NO sense to me at this point and I am two moments from tossing it into the pan of evil along with the rest of this sheot reality.

Who isn’t suffering – a lot – atm?  And for what purpose?

We had our wonderful friend over today.  He can hardly get out of bed now.  His pain is at levels he cannot tolerate.

Seems like the rest of us – the more we have awakened and said “NO” to what doesn’t align – the more we are attacked.

WHERE THE F IS OUR PROTECTION?

I have been calling out to Love….to Creator….Source….and receive NOTHING.

N O T H I N G.

It is as though I have been totally cut off.  Everything I do to create peace in the house – to create peace in our sleep – is not working.

The financial pressure is getting to me again – after having some bit of a reprieve.  It’s getting to my mate and when it gets to him it finds a way to me.  I am a bit stunned to see the price of living going up as quickly as it is now.

The last few days I am at a loss as to what to do.  Aside from this crazy idea I have to unite with others – pick a place that is remote and affordable and peaceful with good weather which no one seems to be interested in and for the life of me I cannot figure out why making me feel my attempt to really find a tribe has been a waste of time – aside from THAT – I don’t know what else to do – other than go it alone with my own family and just disappear off the radar.  For it seems that all I have felt in my heart is turning out to be a giant lie.  How I am to continue to raise our child in this realm of evil – as peacefully as I can – I no longer know.  Feeling – just – lost.

If I knew things would end like this, I would have sold out a bit for awhile – stopped the researching.  At least I would have been able to give my child a better life – the $ ability to do more things and go more places – and when the time is right – like now – quit it all and go remote.  Seclusion – with no attention given to whatever it is that feels like is playing every one of us.  As we say in this house:  Love shares and gives.  Evil deceives and uses.

Trying to stay afloat….

Love,

V.

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I have been bringing up my concern with the vaccine for a couple of days now – and wow – this has lead me to wonder how many people I engage with are actually human.  Androids perhaps.  ?

There is this rather creepy detachment as to the dangers of these vaccines – which have been covered very well by several health professionals.  My two favorites atm are Dr. Tenpenny and Dr. Eric Nepute.  They show the real science behind these “vaccines”.

Some speak of “free will” – wtf is that about?  You can’t have true “free will” if you don’t have the full truth in which to MAKE that free will choice.  And some essentially saying give the people what they want – even if it kills them.  It’s what they want.  If people command a vaccine – give them a placebo or something benign.  DUH

Yes, I see people don’t want to know or learn.  Obviously – I gripe about them enough and mentioned them again today in an earlier piece.  But this isn’t like someone is saying “I don’t want to know about trafficking.  I don’t want to know about the evil.”  This is a vaccine that will permanently damage one’s DNA.  It is a depopulation tool – the one they likely wanted to push.  And here it is – being pushed.  WHY?  For the love of God someone tell me WHY?

The more this plays out – the less attached I feel to this insanity – the more I feel I DEFINITELY do not belong here – nor with the majority of these whatever it is that walk around.  

I have a heart that feels deeply – even when I am angry and apathetic and frustrated.  I still have immediate disdain for suffering and deception.  So yes, while the masses clamoring for these vaccines are deeply programmed idiots, they still do not deserve to be permanently damaged or die due to the poison being pushed on them.

I have cried for Freedom long enough.  At this point – a remote location in a far off destination is sounding like a very plausible option.  My hands are up to this entire nonsense……

Love,

V.