Today has been weird. In most of my interactions I feel as though I am speaking with someone who is on auto-pilot. For example, I’ve been having a communication with a company about a tank top. I want a measurement (length) before purchasing. I have asked now 3 separate times for a measurement and what has come back to me is “what size do you normally wear” and then when I again asked for a length measurement I was told “they are longer than your typical tank top” so I have asked one last time. If they want my business they will answer this very basic question (they are custom made, btw, so they have the items in stock so my request is very simple).
I was then speaking with a neighbor about an issue with a tree. I did this to warn her – the top is leaning and if it falls it will go into her yard. The first thing she says if the woman who used to live in that house w/the tree used to say if it falls it’s an act of God. Yes, that was then – this is now. That woman died years ago and another family member now owns the place.
One of those “ok stay with me ok”. All sorts of things followed – they had seen the tree – they had talked about the tree with others. Has anyone actually knocked on the door of the current property owner and say that thing is a liability and needs to get taken care of. ?
NO.
Then there is another tree up the street with a massive branch hanging closer and closer to the ground – right over a basketball hoop – right over where kids play. And it is still hanging there. My mate heard it snap last week and it is definitely closer to the ground than it had been (it’s still a good 15 feet off the ground but if it falls it would crush a car).
HELLO….. SAFETY WARNING.
Is there anyone home??
I swear – there are these physical beings walking around and something could light up the sky in a display of amazement and some would just look up – say “uh huh” and keep right on going with whatever program they are running.
It is so sad to me – but mostly now it is just frustrating. I don’t fit in here – especially now with this covid crap and the mask wearing nazi agenda. I am used to exchanging smiles with people – but now I get frowns because I don’t have half my face covered. People now will frown and step away from me. It is very challenging now for me to feel so out of place. Very lonely to be surrounded by many people yet feel like there is no space or room for you.
For me.
I had several crying episodes today – all but one in private. The normal comfort wasn’t there. I made the comment it was a healthier choice to cry than to grump and growl all day.
Seems we’re all in our own little bubbles right now.
Where this is going – I’m not really sure. I know where I want this to go – but honestly – which one of us here is driving the experience out there? If those like you and I were, no way would we be creating the chaos playing out. I just don’t “get” the need to allow for the creation of further violence and destruction. This movie has become a rotten tomato and I want my damn money back when I am able to exit. lol
Not really funny but in a way it is and I don’t have anything else to add to this other than some frustration wrapped up in (an attempt at) humor.
It’s been awhile since I have asked (in a written piece) about donations ~ mostly because I know so many are struggling right now. My donations have really fallen off so if you cannot afford a few dollars at this moment, I understand. But if you can, I would sure appreciate the generosity and support.
Love,
Victoria
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Thank you for your support!
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