Questions and thoughts galore today…
Lately I have been asking myself “is this real?”
Am I “real”?
Is there more to ME than this? (pretty sure there is)
Am I dreaming?
Awake?
How “awake”?
Is my body just a simulation?
IS THERE ANYTHING IN THIS REALM THAT IS ORGANIC? AUTHENTIC? “REAL”??
What part of ME jumped into this realm? Certainly not my human self. She is just along for the ride so it annoys me when new ager’s proclaim “you chose to come here”. Yeah? What part? Human me didn’t get that choice. Higher Self (or whatever we call this part of us that seems to be elusive most of the time) made that choice. And even at that I say – prove it. Not a one of us knows for sure. We are simply feeling and theorizing.
Speculating.
Until the blinders are fully off, not one of us knows a damn thing really.
Until freedom is returned, same thing.
I was also thinking about being the Observer.
There is a purpose in that. And yet to just remain in the Observation energy (certainly in this realm where “anything goes”) is feeling like it is, in a way, part of the programming. To just observe can cause one to detach from emotions and it is our emotions that have driven us to awaken ~ that inner drive that says “this isn’t ok!” Same for “allowing”. While it has a purpose, being in this state of “Allowing” can also continue to “allow” for others with nefarious desires/behaviors to continue unabated.
Very little is resonating with me. Much of what I share even on here, unless I say otherwise, is not doing much for me.
I feel as though I am on a crowded bus, having been on a very very long journey, seen enough, done enough and now I am waiting for my stop so I can FINALLY get off and “go home”. Do what I really desire to do instead of what is expected of me. Live fully free. If others want to stay on the bus, so be it. That is their right to do so.
Me?
I want off the fucking bus! I want a NEW transportation method ~ one I choose.
I was having a private chat with someone who has a youtube channel. He was saying how “horrible” it is to be aware of the enslavement and to want out of it and to exist in each day – knowing what is “here now” and knowing all that has been withheld – just a breath away. It can feel maddening at times indeed.
Some people I have stopped listening/watching/reading. The moment I feel that pinge inside that says “does not resonate” I have to stop engaging. As I said above, finding stuff to post here is becoming a bit of a challenge. Even Q ~ which I see the purpose in ~ but this waiting game doesn’t feel like an option I wish to feed. After watching the awesome video I shared last night, I began cheering and chanting “bring down the matrix grid!” Let us SEE the Truth – let’s fully see where we are – NOW. Come on wave that holds the frequency to do this ~ let’s get this done already!
Speaking of “where are we what’s out there beyond this prison”, I have been noticing that on again, off-again glow to the WSW. There are no cities in that direction ~ just mostly forest/woods. It was so bright last night (1am pacific). I took a bunch of pictures and one video but it doesn’t show up ~ I don’t have the right camera/video for nighttime recording. My mate saw it as well as my daugher (who woke up after hearing her dad and I in our excitement).
I want to know what is causing this. I want to know what is there. We are still trapped here in this anything goes environment which includes the allowance for power-over. I will KNOW we are truly back in Freedom when I seek an answer and it is provided. Seek and ye shall find. That is a natural experience – one we all know of within. Here in this realm it is seek and ye shall find….maybe….some day….year…..century….well, maybe in the next life. Often told “you just weren’t ready”.
When I hear anyone say “the people aren’t ready” for the truth, I again think “programming alert!” And how can anyone honestly know that? I cannot proclaim to know what is “right” for another so it is obviously just one of the programs fed into us (that can be over-written). Freedom provides the truth for ALL who choose and desire it. For those who don’t wish to know, so be it. Freedom says “ok” and respects the choice NOT to explore/know/do.
Love is Freedom. Freedom is Love. As I like to say, “John Lennon got it”.
This fellow musician is ready to stop speaking these words and begin authentically Living/Doing/Being them.
Much love,
Victoria
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