LMH ~ Deconstructing The Construct Ep #73

 

good update.  i have noticed the past few weeks those “merging” experiences – esp. the bone chilling moments – i feel are over.  for me.  and now – as lisa said – it’s this feeling of limbo.  for me it manifests as “ok NOW what?”  tonight on a walk i felt calm and focused and thought ok it is time to really be Me and start over again.  those words – “time to start over” – but anew – was solid in my Being.  totally alone – but not lonely.  i absolutely feel that.

i have had several times i woke up from dreams with songs and feeling – and it was as though someone was reaching out to me to say hello again.  i HAD thought it was perhaps another person at Home – but after what Lisa says – it may just be ourselves at Home/on the outside.

i am not experiencing the memory return….yet…

i said to a couple of you today – i am close to 100% being “in the moment” – in the now.  i do what i do and move on – in this flow – whether i enjoy the activity or not – i do and move on and let it go.  and i know some of you are right there in zero point.

interesting about restoring the relationships – here – at home.  tonight we called my dad – and i suddenly had this urge to talk about memories from my childhood.  it was REALLY important to me – felt very important – and much to my surprise – HE WENT ALONG with me – got into it – and began asking me if he remembered this moment and that one.  my dad RARELY if EVER gives me that kind of time.  it ended up being a 45 minute wonderful hpone call.  when i got off the phone i told my mate this happened for a reason.  i was reaching out to him – rejoining with him again – an authentic relationship because my dad has been the one person in my family i felt the most “connection” to – and i have seen him at Home on the outside several times in my dreams.  so it was a BEAUTIFUL wonderful awesome experience and felt like i “sealed the deal” with my dad.

antarctica…………..WOW!  the projector – the all seeing eye – is antarctica – just like heather ann tucci jarraf has said.  she (heather) has said once we hear about antarctica – we are at the end.  and OMG my mate went to get some supplies today and saw a sign that says “Antarctica Antifreeze”….LOL…then he comes home and sees things on youtube on Antarctica……..

we ARE at the end.

love,

victoria

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