
Wow! Â Wowser!
And yet in spite of the enthusiasm of those words, I am sitting here like a cute little sloth. Â As KP puts it “energetically flatlined”.
I hesitated sharing any of this as the last thing I want to do is mislead, share information that proves to be false or disappoint ANYONE ~ myself included! Â And to be honest using words is just a huge challenge for me lately ~ both in having conversations and in explaining things. Â I wish others could just look into my brain and see the pictures and/or look into my heart and see what I am feeling/experiencing there. Â That is not manifested, so here in words is what I experienced today…
My day began when I woke up at 7:00am and looked outside. Â Looking to the east, I saw a bright star. Â I sighed as I thought “when am I going to know the truth of where exactly I am and just what exactly are YOU glowing light that we call a star?” Â Some mornings I wake up and feel heavy and wonder “this system is still running. Â WHY ARE WE STILL HERE?”!
This morning was one of them.
I returned to sleep for awhile and when I woke up, I heard that voice of mine that speaks to me off to the left, at and slightly above my head. Â I call it my “sweet spot”. Â I heard “in 6 more days you will no longer be here.”
Ok. Â I know not to take these things literally, even if at times I want to ~ and do. Â What I found interesting was the reference to 6 days. Â That puts us within 24 hours of the 12/12 gateway.
My first inclination was to research this upcoming gateway and felt inner me say “No. Â Go within and see what it means to you.” Â Thank you oh higher teacher for reminding me to stop looking to others for my answers.
So I took some time later in the day, went within and heard just one word: Time. Â It’s a gateway related to “time”. Â Linear time?
Interesting.
But yet this word “time” also explained the experience I had as I walked to the dryer and do what I do every day after my child has a bath (well unless I am washing it after bath)Â ~ place her towel into the dryer. Â As I did that today though, every part of my body inside truly felt/believed that I had JUST done this same “chore” moments before. Â Not 24 earthly hours before. Somewhere within Me, I had literally just done this.
Well now that is interesting, I thought again.
6 days eh?
Here’s something else to add to that. Â Last week neighbors of ours, who have a little girl our daughter’s age, invited us all to their house for a children’s holiday party on the 16th. Â I knew the date and day and knew there was nothing on the calendar, and yet something within me hesitated. I wondered if we would even be here, I felt, which at the time I found odd. Â “Of course we will be here,” I answered back in my brain.
But still that little pause within my body was there. Â And it would not leave even as I slowly said “yes we should be here”. Â Should. Â Not ‘will’. Â It’s like I couldn’t say the word. Â Which again was strange to me.
I went searching for some validation as I put this all together and found some. Â Well at last I found others who in the last 24 hours have had some similar experiences. Â One woman was sharing how all year she has felt she would not “be here” for Christmas and currently, while a part of her wants to shop for gifts, she says something keeps telling her it is not necessary as she will not be here. Â Others spoke of huge shifts experienced in the past 1-2 days. Â Jumps. Â Are we jumping hugely now? Â Is that what this “won’t be here” references? Â Is this more breaking down of the matrix ~ or more breaking away from it?
I really don’t know. Â I honestly do not know. Â I did read this today though on one of the ascension folks social media page: Â “As a result of the rapid rise in planetary vibration, a “jump” may occur shortly, rather than a mere Shift or leap into Higher Timelines.”
I had two sudden moments of crying today where I was mourning the loss of all of “this”. Â The entire experience ~ the beautiful and the horrors. Â This is an experience I have had recently – the kind accompanied by tears. Â It began 2 years ago almost to the day. Â It was late November and as I walked around my house one last evening, I suddenly was moved to feel and say aloud: “I will miss this all when I leave”. Â There were no emotions at the time. Â Since then when I have had this thought I have experienced anger or frustration, impatience. Â Lately though, tears of mourning have been the experience. Â My mate is having the same experience. Â
One last experience then I will conclude this piece. Â Tonight as I was in the bathroom and I stepped out of the shower, I was able to see through the bathroom door – which was closed. Â For about 2-3 seconds, there was no door. Â It “melted”, for lack of a better word. Â Became watery and disappeared. Â It was a fuzzy image but I was able to see into the hallway through an otherwise closed door. Â Want to know what I have been reading the past couple of days? Â Current energies for December are revealing more of who we really are and more of what really is “out there”. Â The final veils coming down.
Seeing through the illusion of this simulation is indeed a part of that.
Letting go. Â Being in allowance for whatever comes out of me. Â Walking in the now.
Stuff transforms and transmutes. Â Things are remembered.
And magic happens.
Much woo woo love~
Victoria
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You always thought you wouldn’t be here for holidays!
i know – we will see. that is my intention. been working on my “i don’t know” dialogue – when i DO know – at least i DO know what it is i want for myself. 🙂