today has been one of if not the most challenging, difficult, uncomfortable day throughout this entire awakening/transition. panic, anxiety was the most intense i have experienced – and it came over me like a huge wave – an unexpected wave. i literally went from calm/centered to WTH AUUUGGGHH!!!???
i went home and took a nap until dinner. that helped. also experiencing a lot of nausea throughout the day…and this new type of woozy – or perhaps just more of it. a few times today – including once on a walk and once at the store – i felt that pull from the left. i had to literally move my body back to center as the pull was actually drawing my body off to the left. i also felt myself outside of myself – and could see/feel i am really in a dream. this entire experience – is really a dream. that was powerful. very brief/momentary – but powerful. i have had that ponder – and have read others share the same. is it Truth? who knows. i’m just sharing what i experienced today and as you can see – it was a lot. the cats had a good one today. i’m not much up for linking stuff tonight so i’ll just pass along the link. pretty much aligns w/my own experiences energetically….
i have also been drawn to play the piano – in particular Queen. brother rick has said for months at times when he has dream experiences of being at Home i am playing the piano – Queen. i asked him a few days ago, as i was feeling guided to begin playing Queen and practice, what songs he hears me playing. Somebody to Love me and the classic Bohemian Rhapsody. ok then i can do that. i went online to get the sheet music for B. Rhapsody. i already play most of it but it is a complex song including scale changes so i have yet to master it. now i want to. usually when i look for sheet music it is a challenge to find it for free. this time? second search option was an entire PDF file of B. Rhapsody – all 9 pages – full size too (often free sheet music is small). wow! score! (pun not intended – ha!) i was then told today, by my mate, that there was a movie out last year – docu/drama – on queen. NO WAY (i am so out of the loop when it comes to movies, music – anything really from the entertainment industry)…. so i look it up – found a trailer – and wow. i was overcome with emotion. everything in me said i needed to watch this movie. tonight on my walk the people i stopped and spoke with knew of the movie – said it was wonderful – nomination for best picture. then i see where terran cognito has a picture of the queen’s head overlaid on Freddy Mercury’s body – a social media meme. so yeah – Universe/Me are guiding me here to practice up on the Queen. follow the Flow. what else is there to do at this point in all of this?
and now i sit here – mate and i both – feeling nausea, craving white bread – so he’s off to do a late night run to snag a loaf of basic white bread. funny – sometimes i wonder if he and i share the same space on the outside as we often have the same cravings or experiences. i have had images of us side by side in our pods, holding hands. weird.
now i hear this in my mind: is this the real life. is this just fantasy.
i will end this piece by sharing that most amazing song. once i have it mastered on the piano i will record it and share here. and as always, i like hearing your experiences.
Published on Aug 1, 2008
love,
victoria
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