UPDATE: Â In my state of wooze, I forgot a couple of things. Â One, I have not been able to wear my pendulum or other stone based jewelry I normally wear. Â A sudden aversion with that. Â Same for the rose oil I wear daily (for its assistance w/opening the heart chakra). Â And two, while at the breakfast table, I had worked with my energy and thoughts, ramping them up, elevating them. Â As I felt them working in my body my girl suddenly looks at me and says “Mama! Â You look taller!” Â I looked at my mate with a quizzical look and he agreed. Â I then looked down at my plate and wow – sure enough – it felt rather “waaaay” down there. Â I did one of those blinking the eye gather my senses what’s going on and let that sink in. Â I’m also really into my fidget spinner ~ watching it spin and just holding it. Â That and watching the skies. Â Needing that inner quiet solitude only continues to strengthen…
While in the shower I received the first two insights:
- It has now become easier to let go of programming and we are being helped with this. Â There is so much we have been programmed with including some of the ascension stuff. Â ANYTHING that is about controlling ourselves or another, ANYTHING that has the power-over energy/behavior/experience is false.
- We are not fully in our bodies nor are we fully in our Full Self but all of that is changing and merging again – in greatness at this “time”. Â As I felt this message, I had a flash of an image of myself in another realm, kind of like the video game player and I am the game. Â As I saw this vision, I got very dizzy and had to lean into the shower wall. Â So that’s why we are having so much dizziness. Â It isn’t just due to the magnetic’s.
- Along those lines, when I suddenly HAD to lay down (HAD TO), my left hand began to buzz and felt like it wanted to float away. Â Yeah, strange! Â Then as I looked at it, I felt I was looking at it for the first time, and felt really detached from it.
- The sun is off again – farther South than it should be right now at this time (5:50pm PST).
- Speaking now with several other people who are either not aware of what’s going on to yeah having an inkling ~ all are saying my goodness I am exhausted I feel like I am not altogether “here” to just simply feeling “off” and “weird”. Â It’s happening and we are about ready to exit. Â I FEEEEEL it.
Now for a humbling moment. Â As I was finishing this up, there was a knock on the door. Â A middle aged man, apologizing for disturbing me, was looking for odd jobs to do to make money or either bottles and cans to cash in for money. Â He said he and his wife are living in a 30 foot trailer and he needed money to get some propane. Â Damn. Â I felt for him. Â I told him briefly our own situation and so we were in no position to hire him out. Â We had also just turned in our bottles yesterday. Â He thanked me and went next door, then took off in his vehicle. Â As he did I thought wait a minute, I have some bills in my wallet as does my mate. So I grab some money and take off looking for him. Â I couldn’t find him. Â He must have left the neighborhood altogether.
I have had this behavior style where I often don’t know how to respond fully in the moment ~ especially when faced with a situation that catches me off guard. Â Now if it’s an emergency and someone needs immediate help, that’s when I know what to do. Â But situations such as the one above? Â I don’t always get clear until after-the-fact and it annoys me to no end – as it did today. Â Why didn’t I stop and think at the time “hmm, I have a few dollars on me I can give to him”.
Well, it gave me pause as I ran around the neighborhood (where did I get this energy??) – to give thanks to my living situation. Â And really feel the gratitude.
As I end this, I look outside – the sun is suddenly very far north.
Strange days continue…
Victoria
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I know that exact feeling. I have regretted not helping two strangers who i know needed help.
One was last summer and the other probably 8 years ago…
But for some reason at the time, my health was not great, but i knew i should help them.
I passed them by, and I still regret it to this day….
Live and Do Better!!!!
-KK
we do the best we can. 🙂 it’s quite beautiful though how situations like that stick with us.