wow talk about an emotional roller coaster. Â yesterday with its beautiful moments of gratitude, surprise acts of kindness to today learning our adopted grandpa has just days left and is in the first stages of dying. Â we had not been visiting the last 2 weeks due to a cold virus we had been passing around to each other and now that all are well, we were going to go visit later this weekend. Â however after i spoke with his daughter in law today and hearing the urgency of where he is now – which knocked us for a pretty good loop – we knew it was time go see him today.
the visit was beautiful and difficult. Â he was very peaceful – in and out of sleep and for the first time since we have had the honor of knowing him, we had to carry the conversation. Â he has the true meaning of “the gift of gab” and it is in such a way as to lift you up if you are feeling down.
we held his hand. Â stroked his forehead. Â i sang to him and when he was alert, joked with him about dancing with beautiful ladies and going sailing with them. Â he’s an east coaster by birth and he has been “visiting” the cape cod region recently as his Soul is likely coming and going. Â who knows what wonderful adventures he is having. Â a few weeks ago we had purchased a card and my mate and i each wrote him a letter. Â we read them today. Â he was in and out, eyes would open and close, but i know somewhere he got the messages we were conveying – between a lot of tears.
this just sucks. Â there’s no other way to put it. Â i’m grateful he isn’t in pain or showing signs of struggle. Â it’s just hard on everyone else watching this beautiful Soul transition up and out to Home. Â but i see that’s where he is headed – where he wants to go. Â about 2 years ago he and my mate bought compasses they wore on their wrists. Â today my mate placed his on grandpa’s chest and said use it to find your way Home.
wishing him a gentle transition and a continuation of many adventures.
love,
victoria