My dream began where I was standing at an entrance, watching mass amounts of people running with Wolves. I was so intrigued and wanted to join in but felt hesitant. Suddenly I heard over my left shoulder “you can go now” and I immediately thought “I can’t keep up with these people and their wolves.” But I walked into the entrance and began to run.
And found it easy. Surprisingly easy. And liberating. Next thing I know I am running faster than everyone, the wolves running along with me. The joy and liberation I felt was huge, powerful, palpable.
As I rounded a curve, I saw where I would be exiting this experience. I was ready for it, or so I thought. Suddenly a lone White Wolf ran up to me, growling. As this happened a large, beautiful Native American man with long shiny black hair appeared off to my right. He felt very much like a Guardian/Protector. His warrior energy was palpable. As he put his hand on my back I said “Oh you are going to help me” and he said “No, you are doing this yourself. You are ready.”
You are ready.
Upon hearing those words, and upon feeling his hand on my back, I suddenly grew massive white wings and flew up and away from the danger I thought I was encountering. I looked at the growling white wolf as this happened and felt no fear. It had tried to catch hold of my left hand, which suddenly had a glove on it. It caught hold of a small piece of thread and I was easily able to release the wolf from its grips. Something though told me there was a message from White Wolf.
I flew away and made a peaceful, easy exit. I was left with a new feeling within of pure liberation and freedom ~ more solid and real and just absolutely awesome than any other time I have experienced in this human form.
After that experience, I went on to have a series of short dream experiences where I would enter a scene, see people from my past, observe what they were doing, bless them then move on.
It was then that I awoke, the beautiful feeling of pure freedom within. I felt light. Pure. I felt like ME. How I want to feel ALL THE FRIGGING TIME!
I believe the white wolf that approached me at the end of this journey was the part of me I am still afraid to show. My assertiveness. It’s easy in written words (most of the time). But when encountering others, in person, I tend to “hold my tongue” and keep it in.
That could explain the nausea I have been experiencing lately. And other life-long physical issues. No surprise for me in this message.
Life and Higher Wisdom brought me 2 encounters today to put this assertiveness in practice. The first one I wanted to simply say “none of your fucking business”. Yes, that is the first thing that comes to my mind. The nosiness of people at times in this realm appalls me. The question asked was one of my child’s home schooling for the day. Seriously ~ it is none of your fucking business. Are you paying for her material? Are you supporting this family or me in any way? Then stfu already.
I know, rude, right? There are ways to handle such situations without the rudeness. But that is a part of me within that has wanted to say those words to others countless times over the years: None of your fucking business.
Today, instead, I interrupted her as she was quizzing my child and said “We follow the model they hold in Finland, which has the best educational model, where curriculum is not introduced until the age of 8 which studies show overwhelmingly is the best age to begin such learning. Early childhood is for playing.” I smiled as her eyes widened and she said “oh, ok, well that’s great!”
The second encounter occurred with a dog owner and her dog that had run out of an open door, into the parking lot, scaring me and sending my child running to get into the car. We have had about half a dozen dog incidences this year with dogs, big and small, running after us, barking.
Not. Fucking. Cool.
So I was much more assertive this time, likely because I was feeling the anger and trauma of the previous experiences. I realized last night those dog encounters this year have left me with some trauma as last night on a walk, my girl and I heard a dog barking aggressively inside a house we walked by. Immediately my heart began to pound and my instinct was to run. A first. Dogs have NEVER freaked me out and this has me pretty upset, wanting to contact the owners of these dogs and tell them to pay up for some trauma release treatments. I already know my daughter has trauma around these episodes but I wasn’t aware I did as well. More shamanic work for both of us will be in order.
Anyway, so this time I turned to the owner and said “my daughter and I have issues with dogs that come charging after us, small or big. You see my girl? See how she has run inside the car? She’s afraid. Now I need you to pick up your dog and hold her so my child can get back out as we are not done shopping here.” The owner apologized, held her dog and my daughter and I ended up petting the dog, who as it turns out was friendly.
As I pointed out to the owner, WE don’t know your barking dog is friendly. You might but we don’t. Please consider that next time you let her just run loose.
Difficult for me to grasp some people are that stupid. Dog runs out barking, child runs and hides, owner just continues along their journey not noticing a damn thing. Yes, another part of Authentic Me coming out ~ which I can no longer deny.
The masses of humanity ~ just fucking S T U P I D.
Being a Spirit Being does not mean I am always carrying sparkles in my eyes and the “all is perfect” in a constant state. Not in this realm. Not at all. I have learned Pureness (White Wolf) also carries the energy of protection (Growling White Wolf) which can be soft and gentle or fierce depending upon the situation. Be real. Be Authentic! She was trying to communicate that message with me last night ~ and I have heard her wisdom.
As my dream experience and beautiful Guide (who could very well have been a version of Me) showed me: I have the Power Within. I am Grander than I own ~ than I left myself FEEL. And even though I much prefer not to, I can and will chew you a new one if you violate my boundaries. It is now time to walk that Pureness of Strength in my body, my mind and spoken word ~ and not just in the hands that type these words.
Also of interest (adding this in after the fact): yesterday, prior to having this dream, as I vacuumed, I suddenly had the thought “I wonder if I can grow wings out of my back” and had the image and feeling in my body of doing just that. Not taking it literally but given the dream experience I had, this confirms my knowing that I do have that ability to fly. Levitate.
That is all for now.
Much Love and Power~
merci pour votre don belle ame
(i figure if i am asking for support via a donation i may as well educate at the same time)