Category: Daily Notes

The theme of the day comes in the form of a song (again):  “You spin me right round baby right round like a record player right round round round”.

Or however the lyrics of that 80’s tune goes.  DIZZY.  Feeling like I am suddenly falling over.  I got hit big time with this experience while in the store and thought for a moment I was going to fall over.  Magnetics are said to be intense crazy right now and this vessel is feeling it in a big way.

I am also hyper sensitive to sounds, noise, smells and all else outside of me…..as in “my goddess will I ever be able to go outside of this little bubble of mine ever again”.  My girl and I went to a clothing give away today.  This particular place holds it once a year.  We donate throughout the year and for years past, I felt good to engage in this practice.  Today, it didn’t.

It all felt like part of the old.  Just another program.  While I support recycling, reusing and the like, clothes, like all objects/items we have owned, (obviously) carry energy, and I know within we were NEVER created as Original Being’s to share clothing ~ especially in such a low frequency realm.  I have resisted this “feel” of mine for years and gone along w/the system program of “beggars can’t be choosers” and other such b.s.  I have known items we own carry energy for years so when I have picked up used items, I cleanse them, physically and energetically.  And today I was picking up on energies left and right ~ I became intensely overwhelmed.  It felt like I was thrown into a  overly crowded, small room and was picking up on everything around me.  And it was not a pleasant “everything”.  It was chaos.

As I searched through items, I knew this was the last time I would participate in such an event.  I either manifest new or create what I need with a replicator.  Period.  End of story.  I.  Was.  Done.

Grateful for what we found, but done nonetheless.

No longer will I be forced to get used items or items of lesser quality simply because some power over system of pay to live tells me such.

I.  Am.  Done.

I am not angry.  Not this time.  Simply I am energetically done.

The sensitivity to smells is also at a new level.  While driving home, my girl decided to put on her hand sanitizer.  I let her pick up some stuff from the dollar tree last year.  Normally I use organic/naturally based hand cleansing wipes.  Normally I can handle the smell of her hand cleaner she uses on the rare occasion (she knows I do not like it).

Normally.  lol  Not today.  I did not know she had put it on until after the fact.  The smell made me so dizzy (as if I wasn’t already wonked enough), I honestly thought I would pass out.  I told her to put her hands out the window as I struggled to breath and maintain focus on the road.  The smell continued and it wasn’t until I realized she had just put the bottle out the window that I had to again remind her to put her hands out the window ~ to close the bottle and keep THAT inside the car.

It was quite the scene.  (the bottle has since been tossed in the garbage)

We also made a stop at the local church (catholic ~ yuck!) to drop off some more “stuff” from the trunk.  As I entered the thrift store (the place I donate to), I was asked if I could bring my items to donate inside the church as the normal room for dropping off items was too packed.

“You mean inside THE church?” I asked.  I am so repulsed with churches, especially the c. church and the last time I went inside was earlier this year just to show my daughter where her mom was baptized and well the experience was unpleasant and made us both feel sick inside.  Dark, heavily oppressive, sticky energy.  We left quickly.  The thrift store we visit at times, I am ok w/that.  For a short time that is.  The church?  Whole other experience.

The woman gives me a strange look as in “uh yes how odd of a question is that” and says “yes”.  So I said ok and took the bag of stuff, literally held my breath (I am laughing now as I type this), put up my bubble, told my girl to hold the door open, and ran down the hallway, put the bag on the table and ran back outside, letting out my breath.

And yes ~ the energy was thick and heavy and oppressive.

I am feeling all of these experiences today as my inner Me awakening, speaking, communicating (quite loudly now) “saying” I no longer resonate with, well, anything of this realm that is part of the old control system.  Not one bit of it.

I am a complete, utter, totally, fully, wonderfully disconnected/out of tune/out of frequency complete mismatch.

That sings to me, in the midst of my “you spin me right round baby”, beautiful, loving energies pulling me Home.

So it is.

Love,

Victoria

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whew, well i am feeling between two world’s/realms once again.  i got the feel tonight in the shower that another piece of fractal me has left the building.  is it possible that the “we” here in this realm is being slowly integrated into the “WE” in the new realm?

i was feeling more or less “normal” (which of course is a whole new “norm” than it was in years past) until around dinner time when i felt a freight train ran through my head.  wonky weirdness.  as i sat down to eat i thought i just was not hungry, but then proceeded to scarf down a huge amount of food ~ and oddly enough not feeling full.  satisfied, yes but full?  nope.

i seemed to “recover” so headed out on a bike ride with my girl.  while at the park, i announced it was time to ride again when suddenly my vision got really crazy ~ blurry but not in a normal way ~ this felt like it was coming outside of me.  i can’t describe it.  then my body felt very wobbly and for a moment i thought this vessel was not going to allow me to bike ride home.

i regained myself – or should i say my self – then headed home.  after being home for a few, i began to feel i was being pulled into another realm again.

i am also sensing i am forgetting each day’s event quicker.  like say for dinner last night – i cannot recall what i ate.  when did i last go to the store? was it today?  I DO NOT KNOW!  lol

i also felt the beginning of the overall body pain and itching i have experienced when new “stuff” is happening to the vessel.  so far today/tonight that has been a here and there thing and not constant.

so speaking of food i am suddenly hungry again.  and quite thirsty as well.  i have begun juicing grapes.  that has had a purifying affect on my body.  it just feels good ~ like i am super charging my cells.  table grapes grow all over this part of the state so finding mass quantities right now is easy.

i had a wonderful conversation with a woman in my neighborhood who runs a produce stand – all food coming from her own amazing yard.  she takes payment via paypal.  when i told her how i use it for this site for donations and payments, she informed me i could do as she does – set it up to take payments from friends and family and that way i get 100% of the funds. wow!  i did not know that.  may as well be me keeping all of the money instead of some big corporate outlet taking 10%.  as long as it doesn’t mess with how i have it set up here….as i have said, computer tech is not a language in which i am well versed.

aside from that ~ the current song running through my mind the past 2 days ~ a new one ~ “love is like a rock”  “you can’t depend on your preacher…..you can’t depend on your teacher…..you can’t depend on politicians…….you can’t depend on your doctor…………you can’t rely on your lawyer………love can rock you….never stop you…..love is like a rock”  a jamming little tune from my era.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

how are you all doing?

much love,

victoria

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I had a very interesting dream experience last night.  I was working in an office environment, which to me feels like a prison.  Been there, done that. Many times.  I walked in late ~ interestingly enough at 1pm (don’t know if there is significance in that).  As I did a woman named “Mary” said she needed to talk to me and said I had to come to her office.  I knew she was terminating me and so I reflected ~ do I go see her and listen to her criticize me?  Power over me?  I knew my answer ~ absolutely not.

So I went to my desk, packed up my stuff and said to all of the other staff around me I had an announcement to make.  I said “I know most of you don’t like me or resonate with me and I also know you all know I am being fired from this place.  So you can tell Mary for me I don’t need to see her. I’m leaving.”

So I walk out and thoughts began entering my mind.  Should I have given notice?  Nope to that thought.  Should I call my husband (I was suddenly concerned what he would say)?  I had to tune in and ask “who is my husband in this dream?”  lol  Anyway, nope to that thought.

Then I had thoughts of money.  Would I get unemployment and what would happen for me financially after unemployment ran out.  Nope, no need to take on that thought either.

With each thought, I could feel myself getting lighter.  I could feel myself detaching energetically as I walked further and further away from the illusion of b.s. and control I had been experiencing.

By this point I am outside and all I see is traffic, major congestion and saw the road to travel back to wherever I was living at the time.

Nope.  Not needing nor having that experience either.

So I then said I want rural.  Quiet.  Peaceful.  And wala ~ the road immediately changes scenery to a country road.  No cars.  Lots of trees and lots of openness.  (and don’t you just KNOW we have this ability to do this? we are REALM CREATOR’S!  all of this “your memories are wiped so you focus on the task at hand here” is more matrix b.s.  nonsense!  if we are creator being’s then we have ALL of our “parts” available to do just that! if not we are just half-assed creator’s and we KNOW Source of ALL and Source of US does not resonate with that nonsense.  seriously this is no different than if the system says “you must build this car” but then the system says “you cannot be given the tools you need nor the help nor the money nor the support you are on your own – oh and you have no memory of how to build this car – we took this from you as well – oh and you gotta get approval and you gotta compete along the way – good luck!” while the new age and religious community chants “you signed up for this.  this is for your own good.  you need to learn lessons.  you have karma to clear.”  see how insane this all is??)

Back to my dream.  Each decision ~ I felt lighter and I awoke saying “Nova Gaia” over and over, the feeling in my heart was equally powerful in longing and peace.

No more of this longing stuff.  The time is NOW for all to come into Physical Reality.  No more will I just allow for this “energy only” stuff.  The energy I am creating within MUST now produce a Physical Result of MY FULLY CONSCIOUS CREATION.

It is NOW time to sing my own song.

I do this by commanding my freedom NOW.

I command the return of my memories NOW.

I command the return of my abilities NOW.

All that was taken in this virus is returned NOW.

Divine is NOW all restored within.

Now what was interesting was after I had this dream and wrote down the above upon awakening, I check my e-mail and one of you beautiful Souls had sent me the following:

“…We are seeing what we couldn’t see before. We are feeling what we couldn’t feel. We are remembering what we once knew.  There’s no stopping this momentum now. It’s no longer happening on just an energy level. It’s landed in mainstream Main Street physical reality. Old powers don’t like it but c’est la vie. It’s our turn to take the wheel…”

YES to that.  YES YES and YES.

Love,

Victoria

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so i am trying to play with this creator thing the past two days.  are the incoming energies allowing for this to become easier (the way it’s supposed to be)?  as i shared with my mate tonight, it is my absolute knowing that creating is inherently a natural experience for us.  these things called “blocks” are often lower energies/frequencies even programs saying “not allowed”, “this is supposed to be difficult”, etc.  in the ALL there are NO blocks.  as long as we are creating from love ~ not seeking to harm another ~ creating is fluid and easy.  that is what we are returning to ~ back in full alignment with the Supportive Universe.  or so i feeeeeeeeeeeel.

so having had quite easy success of this yesterday, i decided to try it again today.  as i got into the car, i noticed the clock ~ 2:22.  heading out i was pondering how to travel to my destination.  i wanted quiet and ease.  i thought “i am a creator being and i can create my own reality”.  as i had that thought i was guided to look at the odometer:  44:4.  that fired me up.  “ok then,” i said, smiling.  “let’s play with this.”

as i drove, i would see a car up front.  “go,” i would say, waving my hand to guide it in the direction i wanted it to go.  yeah ~ it worked.

ok then.  i tried it 2 more times.  same result.  i then knew i was coming to 2 of the more major roads.  i had no desire to wait for a line of traffic.  i had a quick vision of clear roads and said this would be easy to travel through.

it was.

as i grew closer to my destination, i was guided to look at several license plates.  each one, i kid you not, had the “44” somewhere on the plate.  by this point i was feeling so giddy and light, i thought i may just take this vehicle and morph it into a flying craft.  as i do not know where the nearest interstellar library is, i opted for ground travel.

the way home i tried it out and again, had the same experience.

as far as personal experiences/symptoms, both my mate and i have been ravishingly thirsty.  where this water is going, we have no idea but some part of us is obviously needing it.  cellular upgrading?  purging?  (i would say more of the purge given my body purging experiences).  and last night we both had to use the bathroom frequently (unusual for me).

the feeling of being in a holding pattern ~ feeling as though i am on stage playing a role and the REAL ME is getting prepared to reveal herself.  oooh that is a good description ~ just came to me.

i am having more moments of bliss recently which is quite nice.  feeling more of a deeper connection now.  perhaps this is partly due to me just allowing myself to feel whatever thought and accompanying emotion i have.  no judgment.  i just go with it and let it be there.

so yeah….stomach issues getting better.  i made coconut oil, maple syrup brownies (also used greek yogurt) tonight that WOW ~ really moist and delicious.  so….i am able to eat more without the belching and distress i was having early in the month…that interestingly enough began on july 31st. something indeed HUGE did happen on that date and i tuned in last night to get a better feel for this.  and i received a vision with a quick description and thought “get up and record this before you forget” and in my sleepy state i said “i’ll remember” and of course i didn’t or else i would share it.  so instead i will say confirmation came that this date DID mark the ending and beginning of change ~ liberation is the word i am getting now so i will use that and leave it at that.

below is a picture i took before sitting down to write this piece.  the song felt good to my heart and body and i was guided to look at the title.  yes. innerpeace444.  perfect.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

let me know how you’re all doing.

love,

victoria

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