OK, I know I recently said I would not be having any more psychic/intuitive readings.  I feel perhaps Source/Higher Selves said “let’s bring her one that will be Truth”.  This came about by a recent connection and she reached out to me and said she felt guided to give me a reading, free of charge, if I was open.  So I felt it out and thought (with a skeptical eye) let’s do it.

I communicated with Higher Self (who I am feeling more lately is really Me – just in a more solid, expansive version) and said “you have my permission to speak with her.”  I also informed the young woman that she was not to speak to any Being other than my Higher Self as I had fired my guides this past year and was only relying on All Of Me in which to tune in and receive All.

She sent the results to me and they were insightful and felt, overall, pure. She’s good and really captured my authentic way of Being.

She saw me coming from a sun planet outside of this Universe.  I am keeping the name and other details private.  She stated that I am very commanding with very very strong energy (yes, two “very’s” lol).  My struggle is how to utilize this energy.  Do I let it come from my solar plexus/heart?  Is it in haste and/or anger?

She shared how I have a very difficult time in close relationships, partnerships and friends alike.  Being human is a struggle (duh).  I have a strong disdain for drama and overly-sensitive beings (even though I fall into those traps myself).  I feel very at peace and at home with my tribe and have a hard time with outsiders.

More than once it was mentioned how powerful my energy is ~ the best way for me to use it, in this physical life cycle, is through communications and the arts.  Writing.  Speaking.  Sharing all of the wisdom I have learned from the origins of my home realm.  She gave me some tips on remembering that.

Confidence and trust in myself is key to sharing.  Knowing and Being who I am.

This sharing of who i am has been a struggle for me.  I know I have a very strong energy and oooh it has been painful and draining for me to keep it low around others lest I offend them or scare them away.  Today on my walk, I was thinking about all of this, drawing up my energy from my center, moving it around and I swear ~ I scared a cat.  I looked at it and greeted it – said I was sorry if I frightened her.  But it still had this look of fear in its eyes and bolted away from me.

I have had that happen with humans too.  Not so dramatically but I have had others say “you scare me”.  Of course they were very asleep to their own Being.  That was more in my younger years when I was more comfortable with my, um, Prowess.

I see where learning how to blend in has served me at times.  Although that has been an extreme I have gone to, it has given me the tools to reign in my energy.  Control it.  Problem is I became more focused on that energy restriction being in the best interest others but in truth, it was also about the best interest for me in that I feared the responses of others.  It has been a challenge to know how to handle adversity in my face.  To be challenged, questioned ~ especially from one who is as commanding as I am.

A life long challenge.

All out of fear of embracing who I am – strengths and vulnerabilities.

I know that already.

But validation is always good.  A good tool to use as a reminder ~ that is no longer who I am for it does not serve me.

Tools are good as are reminders.

Especially during this period of transformation and transition.  I know we all will be called upon as our Full Selves come “online”.  I have thought perhaps the gifts I have now will disappear as we transition.  I now see – not so.  They will grow in power.  Morph into new creations.

For each of us.

As she said “things are about to get exciting”.  (i feel that implies for us all)

(I had a follow-up conversation with her.  She thanked me, hoped it was helpful and again mentioned again how very strong my energy is.  It is time to tap deeper into that reservoir and share.)

(let me begin by saying it is no coincidence that the piece i reference below was put out at this time)

We have an alternative, left-leaning magazine in our area, put out by a neighboring city.  Like many right-leaning publications, it contains a lot of bias, rarely taking an issue and fully examining both sides.  It is as though these types of publications consider it a disease to think perhaps the other side has some valid points to offer to the topic.  Label-wearing is the real disease.

Ridiculous and why I really have no one news source in any form I follow regularly.  Bias is everywhere.

In the above referenced magazine, there was an article put out by a woman who was once married to a man who, according to her words, became a Nazi.  I felt for her experience for if what she shared is true (and I have no reason to doubt her), her husband was more than a Nazi ~ he was an arrogant self-entitled narcissist who believed whites (his version) are superior.

If she had left it at that, I would have nothing to say here.

However, she didn’t.

She spoke of “red-pilling” as though this was some sort of a gas-lighting technique.  Gas-lighting is a psychological term when one attempts to manipulate another person to question their reality, way of thinking and/or sanity.  (And interestingly enough the only definition of red-pilling offered up in the article was stated as a term derived from the cult hit The Matrix [yes, “cult” – a passive-aggressive attempt, a form of gas-lighting, ironically enough, to insult anyone who uses the movie to awaken others] for “manning” up to reality and swallowing truth with a capital “T”.

A little short-sighted and yet just added fuel to her “my ex husband was a monster” argument.  What about “womaning” up too?  Aren’t both genders involved in this current red-pilling phenomena?  Maybe I need to take a looksie in the mirror to make sure I still have my women parts.

But I digress…

Gas-lighting others to get them to see things from our perspective.  Yes, I can see where some do this regularly,  knowingly or unknowingly.  Most of us probably have at one point or another.  But not all of us and not all the time.  This gave me pause to consider and conclude this magazine was attempting to discredit those of us who use the term “red pilling” by lumping all into one neat little category.  You share your truth, especially when it sounds bizarre and “conspiratorial”, you’re a gas-lighting white supremist nazi (hereby referred to as WSN).

Spin, spin, spin the narrative.

Another form of gas-lighting, I would say.

The woman also went on and said her husband was following all sorts of sites, in his “conspiratorial rage” (another passive-aggressive use of words) including 4chan and 8chan, implying these sites too are full of WSN’s.  Those of us who follow “Q” on the 8chan site know that you cannot lump together the masses who visit and post there into this one category of WSN’s.  Yes, there are some who hold these views just like there are those who say they can’t wait for America to become a Christian nation once again.

I scroll right on past, even as I cringe.

But many who not only post there but who also follow this site are much like myself and like you as well~ honest, open minded, spiritual people who simply want the Truth, who know there has been a “government” behind our government.  Who know the system is rigged.  Who know our government, for decades, has not worked for you and I.  We want the wars to end.  The corruption.  The trafficking.  The human right’s violations through their variety of practices.

In short, in very simple terms, we want peace and freedom for ALL of us, male, female, black, white, brown, conservative, progressive ~ even the WSN’s.

I feel for what this woman went through.  I really do.  And yet she is so blinded by her pain, she totally throws out the entire bathwater along with all of the bath toys (I do not like the traditional term so you will have to settle for this one).

And that serves no purpose and only keeps the division going, which is what those of us wishing peace and freedom want so much to end, and we KNOW it is when articles like this one above to are allowed to be published, especially during these times, the very Deep State itself laughs as it knows it still has one more “victim” doing their bidding.

In spite of all of that, we continue to do our work as we do in whatever capacity to create something new where all we see and feel when we look at one another is ONE LIFE.  

And if by sharing our version of truth in order to assist in creating a world of freedom and peace for EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US we offend some people with our “red-pilling” intentions, in so long as they come FROM that heart-centered space of ALL ARE ONE/ALL ARE WORTHY OF FREEDOM, then so be it.

For I know all of the judgments and attacks and ridicule will be worth it in the end.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

Victoria