Author: Victoria1111

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How often we give our power away.

Lifetime after lifetime.

We give it away when we react to a situation instead of being the observer and responding.

We give it away when we pray and ask for something.

We give it away when we worship.

We give it away when we call upon arch-angels and other entities and when we channel.

We give it away when we look to another to rescue or save us.

We even give it away when we go see a counselor or healer and say “help me!”

I’ve done all of the above and more.

I continue to do it – in spite of myself at times.

Not that any of this is “bad”.  I’m not trying to cast judgment.  Certainly if I were drowning or trapped under a pile of debris I would welcome help. Or if I have experienced a tragedy and am unable to handle the emotional consequences, of course I will see someone to speak with.

I’m talking more of this overall behavior of seeking help outside of self as a way of living.  We have all been operating this vessel (our bodies) while pretty much driving blindly.

Let’s give ourselves a pat on the back for doing such a damn fine job given our very very limited perception of Who We Really Are.

A growing rumble within is making itself known…

I want to remember Who I Am.  Not just these beliefs I have and my memories but truly – WHO I AM in my Sovereign Form.

And in doing that, ultimately I must listen to ME and ME only.  No other voice.

I give attention TO something outside of myself for truth and answers, I give my power away.

I give my attention TO something outside of myself expecting love or attention or x y z, I give my power away.

I am beginning to hear and feel within that each moment I doubt myself and turn away from Self….I do myself a disservice.

Each time I engage in the behaviors above, I pull myself further away from ME.

I see it as this ball of yarn and I have untangled myself away from it by doing the above for so long, my “ball” seems very far away.

Perhaps that may be why when I hear or allow myself to read something that does not resonate with me, I cringe within and at times, scream without.

I feel weary ~ like I am so close to this finish line of being fully ME and knowing fully ME – I want to rest for a time.

I want to wrap my arms around myself and sit in a quiet room, alone, for as long as it takes, until every bit of energy I have given away for each physical lifetime experience is returned to ME.

This is more than just wanting the memories restored.

This is more than just wanting my super powers restored.

More than my cells to be healed.

More than my DNA to be turned on.

I want it all back.

I want ALL OF ME back.

NO exceptions.

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This week I have attempted to listen to a couple of videos, one regarding past life regression and another with general information on ascension.  I had to stop though after the talk turned to our karmic and soul contracts we made before incarnating on this Earth.  The past life regressionist guided the listener to actually give thanks to the person(s) who caused you trauma, regardless of the trauma and regardless of your age, for we made an agreement w/this individual to experience this pain so that we could learn and grow.  I immediately stopped that video.

To begin with, the idea of contracts has never set well with me, in as much as I have tried to be open this way of thinking.  I have had far too many questions and not nearly enough answers.  Last year I came to the conclusion that, given the archon invasion and alteration of our species, it was THEY who created the system of mandatory reincarnation and contracts and this system was energetically imprinted into us.  My Higher Self tells me clearly Source would never put such stipulations on us.  We are here to experience and create and BE and while we each come here with our own sense of purpose, there are no rules attached to us.  Zero. Zip.  Nada.

I believe it is imperative, if this idea resonates, that we cancel out these agreements.  I have spoken of this previously.  I have spent some time this year releasing myself of these contracts.  This morning, I came up with some new things to add and changed it up a bit in how I expressed myself. I thought I would share what I said and how I said it.

To begin with, I centered myself and used some of my tools to ground myself and feel my Power.  Then I started down my bullet list of contracts I was canceling.

“In this now Moment, I now cancel and permanently destroy all contracts I made about a life of lack.

I now cancel and destroy all contracts I made about being a victim.

I now cancel and destroy all contracts I made about living in poverty.

About being raped and molested.

About being controlled and dominated by any and all people, beings and life situations.

About living with any sort of health issue.

About being used and lied to and manipulated.

About being abandoned and forgotten.

About living with agoraphobia and panic and anxiety and depression and claustrophobia.

On and on I went.

Then I closed it up with stating:  “I am a Sovereign Being.  I am owned by NO person, no entity, no being, no corporation, no government.  I own ME.  I am FREE.  I am Source.  These contracts have now been terminated and destroyed and this is noted in my Akashic records, which belong to ONLY Me and my Higher Self.  NO Being has access to them BUT me.”

And so it is.

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It is time to talk about Ascension and sex.

What are the first things that come to your mind when you think about sex?

Why did those images and/or thoughts enter?  How were they created?

Really think on that one.

Depending upon your conditioning and upbringing, sex is one of the most complicated, confusing, hush-hush of all topics.  And yet as we all know, it’s in our face constantly.  On one hand, we are told by the church not to talk about it until we’re married and on the other hand we have the rest of society pushing porn and eroticism and images of air-brushed lies in our face.  We then have the hollywood low vibes who give us their version (limited) view of sex.

If we’re lucky, we know deep within there is something more to this act.

Someone like, say, me!  lol

I say lucky because I do consider myself one of the rare ones who, at a young age (19), began thinking about the top of sex and how there was so much more to it.  I saw a scene from the movie Cocoon that showed one of the “alien” female beings share the lovemaking ways of her species with the human male character.  It was a mutual exchange of energy.

While it was limited in scope, it intrigued me.  I knew deep within that THIS was the real way to engage in sex.  THIS was what it once was and is supposed to be about.  I mentioned it here and there over the years, but never had any interest given back to me in exploring it.  So I chalked it up to another “I don’t belong here” moment.

Given the memories I have had about how life once was on Earth, during the time when we were truly Sovereign and Free, I have come to some conclusions about this sex topic.

*Much of what we see in society today about sex is dark, and at the very least, limited.  Porn.  Advice column’s on the topic.  Church doctrine on the topic.  Sex education in schools.  And humanity’s practice of it.

*Our thoughts on sex are also dark and limited.  Whenever we look at another and lust after them, that is a low vibe.  (Hang in there with me on this one.)  We objectify.  We expect.  We control and dominate.

This was not how we once were.  This darkness was bred into us by the smelly beings who conquered us and altered us.

I have had knowings come to me and have experienced flashbacks of what these beings did to us sexually.  They took the sexual act that we participated in at the time and gave us their way, through mind conditioning and genetic alteration.  They taught the men that females were to be dominated, including sexually.  They taught the men that women were objects, especially when it came to sex.  These dark beings used women for their breeding projects.  I recently had a flashback during a past life regression session of being an unwilling participant in that one. More later on that in another piece.

What’s interesting to me is that NONE of this has come as a surprise to me as I have known, since I “awoke” at 19, that we had it all wrong when it came to sex.  I am very sensitive to people’s energies and have been in tune with the men I have been with over the years and I have to say that in each case, I have sensed in all of them that they viewed me as an object, they expected me to participate in sex w/them and they felt they had that right.  I am not saying any of these men said those very words (well, one or two did), but it was there in their behaviors towards me when it came to sexual relating.  Sometimes subtle, sometimes not.

And then there is what we women have done.  We have continued the pattern by going along with these behaviors.  We tease.  We flirt.  We knowingly flaunt ourselves, parade ourselves, all for men’s “attention”.

In short, we – each of us – LIMIT our connection by playing these games of control and manipulation with our passive-aggressive behavior.

I deeply feel and believe that as we continue our awakening and ascension process, we MUST (and likely, hopefully, will naturally) take a different approach to sex.  We need to go within and remember, if we can, how things once were.  If remembering is not an option, we must be willing to explore sex in a new way.

From my memories and those deep cellular feelings within my body, I have come to believe that the sexual act was one of pure energy exchange. One of the visions I repeatedly have is of the two beings standing or lying together, their third eye chakra’s in alignment.  They bring up that energy within their bodies and share it with one another, controlling and guiding the energy, allowing it to go into the other in ways that are beautiful, sacred, and very mutually agreed upon.  Oh and of course very satisfying! Sometimes the sharing was exchanged between both individuals. Sometimes the energy was shared from one to another.

We once viewed sex as a very sacred act.  Period.  There were no expectations or demands.  We had deep reverence for the act as well as ourselves and one another.  We have lost that.  But I believe that all that was “lost” continues to awaken in each of us.

And it is my wish and intention for myself and others that we awaken to the wonders of sacred sex.  How it was – and how it can be again.

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(My dear readers ~ I would like to make an appeal to you. I would like you to consider making a donation to show you support my work, by clicking on the donate link at the top of this piece.  I do this to share my passion of writing, sharing my truth while being a voice in the Ascension and Awakening Process as well as a means of making an income to support my family. You can also help by purchasing my book, Live To Impress Yourself ~ An Interactive Journal available by clicking here.   Please visit me on facebook too!  I sincerely thank you for your support!)
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