i wanted to drop this one here awhile i’m in between doing’s for the day.
while out and about earlier, i reflected on a message Vincent Kennedy (twitter – below) shared….given what i have read and heard from others, publicly and privately, the struggle that really kicked in last week continues. i want to know what is behind this energy/experience that is impacting so many of us – including those who don’t feel or aren’t in tune w/the idea of a spiritual and universal war. that alone is what convinced me today this isn’t just my personal stuff i am feeling. it goes beyond that.
so here is what came to me. the Big Us on the outside is awake now – at least awake enough so that we are feeling the expansive nature of what this Universal Clean-up is about. the more we fully awaken here AND there the more we feeeeeeeeeeeel what’s going on.
it is my feel we are all tuned in together – like one giant radio – and we are feeling E V E R Y T H I N G – far easier than ever – the experience itself (the ability) expanding.
i was asked for advice today. ha! i didn’t and still don’t have any suggestions much less some useful answer as to how to ease the suffering/struggle so many are currently feeling and experiencing. so i created a vision of comfort and support enveloping this person.
perhaps that’s all we can do for one another right now when any other ability to assist isn’t doable.
i am reminded of a song i wrote almost 20 years ago – one line in particular. “reach out to me and i’ll reach to you. take my hand and hold on. just hold on…and it will be alright.”
love,
victoria
i forgot to include an ongoing experience of being bone-chilled cold. last night we had the fire roaring – the heat was on in the bedroom and i was underneath flannel sheets, blanket and comforter and could not stop shaking. i was also hit with a wave of nausea – which is a very unusual “symptom” for me. cbd oil didn’t help nor did heat so i just went with it and after about an hour or so, fell asleep. today the temp is in the low 60’s and sun and yet i continue to be very cold. yesterday the sun was out as well and i had on a sweater, winter coat, leg warmers as i went on a walk. this is not like me! lol
here is what’s going through my mind the past week or two – just haven’t shared it.
we have odd things showing up on nasa cams, etc. ok, and??
trump is doing this and that to MEGA (make everything great again). ok, and??
disclosure is ongoing including the “wow look we have found a cure for cancer and all diseases!” ok, and??
UR is done. ok, and??
venus was imploded. allegedly. ok, and??
the schumann does oddball stuff. ok, and??
messages from home (allegedly) come in with good news. ok, and??
WE. ARE. STILL. HERE.
S T R U G G L I N G.
i am tapped out in my ability to do something new. i can’t FIND or FEEL anything N E W.
i end this piece with a heart-felt “THANK YOU!!” to those of you who truly in the deepest sense of the meaning support my vision and my work – not just in word but in action – helping me provide $$ for my family. you are the reason i have continued w/this work. it is my ongoing intention and hope that i see this circle expand. THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING IN ME AND FOR BELIEVING I HAVE AN POSITIVE IMPACT IN THIS AWAKENING!
a much needed read/message. i hope it helps those who need to hear such a message – like it helped me – reconfigure/reboot and return back to heart/center. love, victoria
I witnessed something fascinating the other night. I do some ride share driving to supplement the income, depending on what comes in via the blog. I was driving on Congress Avenue in Austin, attempting to pick up a passenger. Austin developers, like in many gentrifying cities, is removing 15-20 residential homes at a time to build 4-5 story apartment blocks. Austin’s developers are showing my sense of design than what I saw in Seattle but often these apartments are a tight fit on existing streets. And in Austin they have one entrance/exit out, and its to a parking garage. These entrances/exits are very poorly designed. This is also where ride share drivers pick up their rides which creates some issues with getting turned around without going into the parking garage which is often gated. Pasadena California has similar apartment complexes.
As I was doing a 5 point turn, I spotted this skinny man on an electric scooter swinging his skinnny butt back and forth as he went bee-bopping back and forth down the street in serpentine fashion and blocking traffic behind him. He seemed to be itching for a confrontation and he knew he was slowing down traffic. I said to the couple in the car “this guy has a death wish”…
You could say this gentlemen was what those in Austin like to call a “protected class” And as I watched him approaching I slowed my exit, hell I was going to wait until was past me! But behind him was this magnificent black woman (another protected class) who was having none of this guy’s nonsense behavior blocking traffic and keeping her from entering her apartment complex! She jumps out of her Hyundai like she’s going to kick his ass and starts giving him a much deserved scolding. But that move was not well thought out either.
It was kind of funny, but then every comedy has its roots in tragedy. Its the tragedy part I didn’t want to witness. I began to feel like I was I was on the edge of an energy whirlpool not of my making, and lots of impatient drivers were making impulsive Friday night moves and none of the situation looked good as the scooter rider got into an argument with the black woman (who’s car wasn’t fully out of the street yet). If an accident happens its going to hit my car too.
A UPS truck momentarily blocked traffic and those guys are great drivers, I gunned my car and got out of there. The couple in the back said “Thank you for that!” as they were feeling it too. It all felt messed up. I got the couple safely to their Mexican Restaurant.
It got me thinking about the scooter rider, itching for a confrontation, and the magnificent black woman who showed up to give him just that! And this quite funny argument that ensued in a very dangerous moment. All of it created by the imagination of the scooter rider. And none of it felt good. That was what was noticeable to me was the energy of it all, It was feng shui slamming into fucked up.
Imagination benders
Journalism: We all know that since Obama signed the law that official allowed US intelligence agencies to utilize the domestic press as a propaganda outlet. They always did, but it was very subtle in the past. And it appears, that large portions of the faces people see on the News are also on agency payrolls. That has a curious side effect. Since someone with a national security oath, can’t talk about classified things without getting hauled into court, it means news readers can’t talk about things like chemtrails, secret space programs, or any of the hundreds of things many of you regularly self educate yourself about. They also can’t name whistleblowers who are agency payrolls, which is why they got particular bent out of shape when various sources on the internet revealed the name of a “whistleblower” but the New York Times did not. They can reference “public domain” sources like the New York Times or Washington post (but are barred by agency policy from reading Wikileaks). This is why stuff is leaked to these newspapers and then echoed in the electronic media.
What are the two largest expenditures for companies and government (aside from defense)?
For companies its advertising. Google, Facebook, and Amazon depending on that ad income, although Google and Amazon also make a good chunk of change hosting 2/3 or the internet servers on their cloud services (we can talk about the danger of having your business golden eggs in two baskets another time). Amazon’s advertising is internal to its platform, outside vendors are required to pay advertising now if they want any decent placement on Amazon’s platform.
For Government Intel agencies are a huge expenditure. Often completely beyond the control of whomever was elected to be the nations leader. Ostensibly they are for a country to gather intel on other countries and in particular, it’s enemies. But the Deep State has its roots in the ancient families that have ruled this planet since the fall of Atlantis. From what we’ve seen since 2016, they do their bidding, not the President’s.
But all that advertising and deep state propaganda is really trying to do is shape public IMAGINATION.
There’s so many crazy stories circulating about what is purportedly going on in China which was always opaque to the west. And nothing scares the bejeezus out of people like impending death from a bug they can’t see. Add to that mysterious HOTSPOTS like Iran and a Korean cult, it all looks a bit strange doesn’t it? If something doesn’t add up, if the jigsaw pieces don’t fit, if a virus defies epidemiological mathematics, someones lying. Someones trying to cause YOU to IMAGINE the UNIMAGINABLE… because there are limits on what they can do to you, but they can try to cause you to CREATE what they cannot. Imagination of human beings is the real value on this planet. The creativity of human beings is phenomenal.
IMAGINE THE BEAUTIFUL. SEE IT ALL PEACEFUL AND A NEW BEAUTIFUL WORLD OF JOY. Abandon imaginings of dystopia. Abandon the distrust they want you to have of each other. Reject the fear that they have traditional used to herd human beings towards one cage or another.
editor victoria’s comment ~ he does indeed say Mike Spence. here’s a link to the original video. go to the 21:00 mark to hear him clearly refer to VP Pence as “Spence”. i also listened to most of the video (as i wanted to find exactly where the interviewer refers to Pence as Spence) and i have to say – Pence looked uncomfortable. stiff. his right leg moved and twitched a lot. he does not look nor sound like the same man from the previous campaign of 2016. he looks almost like a, dare i say it, clone..?
“The bravest thing I ever did was continue my life when I wanted to die, and nobody really knows.”
I don’t know what is more powerful and requires the most strength: Having that experience or hearing someone you care for share those words AND just sitting there w/them and hold space to allow them to have such deep, intense emotions.
Today, as I wrote earlier, was difficult ~ on a new level. I felt a depression all day I could not shake ~ and I am still feeling it. I thought it was just me having a depressive episode, and yet I felt it was something else – something deeper. Perhaps part of it due to the KB ceremony today as I mentioned- but even after I wrote that, I couldn’t align w/that one fully. It was something else.
Browsing around I saw a post on an Event board in which I belong and someone asked the following:
“Did anyone feel a massive wave of sadness and physical depression today?”
oooh oooh me me me, I immediately thought – relief setting in.
I wasn’t alone! lol
Over 400 likes and over 300 responses thus far tells me this was collective.
Something is guiding me to help purge that one ongoing persistent feeling I have carried w/me this entire experience – going back to even childhood: WHAT AM I DOING HERE? and WHY AM I EVEN HERE? I DON’T BELONG HERE!
I read of many longing for Home at that deep level today. The deepest of the deepest.
Even though this experience feels like it “snuck up” on me – I have a quiet suspicion w/in that this experience merely built up all last week and hit a peak level high today.
So I am going to do what I can to release this sadness. All else, at least today, has been just a distraction for the real focus that calls me.
Anyone else having the same experience?
Love,
Victoria
a few of the lyrics in this song were going through my mind today and tonight – quite strongly so i thought to share it….
https://2009-2017.state.gov/documents/organization/119629.pdf📁
“Insurgency is the organized use of subversion and violence to seize, nullify or challenge political control of a region.”
The presidency of Barack Hussein Obama began at noon EST on January 20, 2009, when Barack Obama was inaugurated as the 44th President of the United States.
What Country was the true intended target?
Q
https://twitter.com/cain_nate/status/1231066589996318720📁
Listen carefully.
Think: re: why [no] arrests (justice) yet?
What if (almost) every critical position [sr] within the US GOV apparatus was infiltrated?
WHAT MUST BE DONE FIRST?
THE SWAMP RUNS DEEP.
+Sleepers
Backgrounds are important.
Muslim Brotherhood
List of ‘in the news now [names]‘ w/ known ties to Islam?
THIS IS NOT ANOTHER 4-YEAR ELECTION.
[assumptions correct – package well rec [known]]
Q
first a brief check-in/reflection: energetically there was a sense of irritation in the air. i tend to feel this whenever “they” are having a looshing type event. then i remembered K Bryant’s “funeral” was today – in all places Corona Del Mar, CALI. ugh…
The eccentric founder of WikiLeaks, Julian Assange, is a figure that awakens as many phobias as philias. It is complex everything that involves the man who rose to fame in 2010, after revealing, through the online portal, hundreds of thousands of secret documents that shook the presidential offices on both sides of the Atlantic. Therefore, there is great expectation this Monday before the start of the trial on his extradition to the United States, where he is claimed to have conspired for allegedly intercepting computers from the Pentagon and then publishing more than 700,000 classified reports, including reports of the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan.
The current WikiLeaks director, Kristin Hrafnsson, warns that, with this process, not only the fate of his colleague is at stake, but “the future of journalism” and freedom of expression. “The United States has decided that it can persecute journalists wherever they reside in the world, which has universal jurisdiction, as now, that tries to extradite an Australian from the United Kingdom to the United States for a publication that happened outside the US borders, ”he said. “This is very serious and a serious concern for all journalists,” he added.
During Monday and Tuesday there will be two views and then the process will continue from May. The sentence is not expected until maybe November. In any case, the defense has already announced that if it loses it will appeal, so it could be a judicial battle that will last several years.
Capping one of the most dramatic falls from power in Hollywood history, Harvey Weinstein was convicted Monday on one rape and one criminal sex act count, guilty verdicts that could put him in prison for up to 29 years.
The shamed former movie producer, 67, was found guilty of criminal sexual act in the first degree for forcibly performing oral sex on former “Project Runway” production assistant Miriam “Mimi” Haleyi and rape in the third degree for an attack on hairstylist Jessica Mann.
But the verdict wasn’t a total victory for prosecutors. The seven-man, five-woman jury found Weinstein not guilty of the top charges of predatory sexual assault, which carried a life sentence, and rape in the first degree involving Mann.
We know President John Kennedy is said to have spoke of splintering the CIA into 1000 pieces and scattering it to the wind – which is why Bush Sr (who was the one to pull the trigger) poked back in his demented way when he spoke of 1000 points of light.
So the past day or two there has been talk of the movie “Gone With The Wind”. Here is what I saw tonight:
O M G ~ and just 5 minutes ago my mate just happened to watch a video that said Gone With The Wind is the biggest $$ grossing movie of all time. "there are no coincidences" (in this movie) https://t.co/FnVthdrvvW
Now it that isn’t interesting enough. As I shared this intel w/my mate he informed me that he had watched a youtube video earlier this evening about the top grossing films of all time. Gone With The Wind was #1 he learned.
