so much energy is coming in now – and those speaking of it can’t pinpoint it. all i feel is it is coming from the outside.
i was thinking about our trauma’s – how i feel they are being really brought up right now for many of us (given what i am both seeing and sensing). that feeling i have had was confirmed by someone who is also in the awakening/home community. where i differ is this: i do not feel these are coming up for us to have to dive into and work on yet again. i feel we are being fed the old trauma programs so they can get some last minute “looshing” from us. and I AM NOT HAVING THAT.
now while i feel it is absolutely helpful to let things go that don’t feel in alignment with us – in a REAL Original Creation – if we experience something unpleasant – everything in me says i have the natural ability to release that instantly. quickly. easily. and it certainly doesn’t return again and again like some buzzing mosquito who refuses to leave you alone.
isn’t it possible that, given the theory we are in a simulation, a matrix, a computer like environment w/a myriad of programs – that trauma is just another one? and they have had the ability to keep sending us that same energetic experience we had that created the trauma? the metaphor and visual i had was that of pouring out a cup only to have something unseen/unknown fill it back up against your will/consent. they may fill it up less each time – but my god – what in the “f” is the purpose of having to revisit this crap yet again? who does that serve?
someone who gets off on watching others suffer.
NO THANK YOU. i will release when i feel the need but i am not going to go searching for any trauma. and given the energy work i have done – the shaman work – and the counseling and intending – going back almost 30 years – all of the energy of any trauma i have had should have been removed and STAYED REMOVED. that has not been my experience. yellow rose has stated – and i align as i have felt this myself – as we exit all trauma stays behind.
as it should.
life is to be joyful. easy. flowing. in all ways and always.
i leave this piece w/the schumann – kept on giving all day.
editor victoria’s comment ~ i can confirm the lack of sleep last night (and lately) is a collective. daughter’s yoga class the teacher and other students commented on how sleep has been a challenge – esp. last night. friend of mine also phoned and spoke of how he too struggled to sleep last night – felt anger when he suddenly woke up. a challenge today to speak, put a recipe together – and hold things. usually i eyeball stuff w/dinner. cooking is easy for me. tonight? ha. i about cried when i saw one of my meals i was to prepare that just had ingredients only. nooooooooooo i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to be told exactly how to put this together! lol ARGH!
https://oig.justice.gov/press/2019/2019-12-09.pdf📁
Worth remembering.
The day the public learned [4] FISAs?
Dec 9, 2019. [Anons: August 31, 2018]
The day the public learned illegal SURV (targeting) of Page (2)?
January 23, 2020. [-Cruz]
Important markers to remember.
Watch the news.
Q
When did the public first learn re: FISA warrants re: +3 [non Page]?
If FISA warrants deemed to be illegal [ALL SURV LEAPFROG HOPS] what happens to MUELLER’s case(s)?
How do you invalidate a claim?
Conspiracy to commit….
Rubber bullets sting but do not last.
Q
what an absolutely odd nights rest. up until almost 5am – a lot of anxiety. i went to bed early after doing a couple of meditations. took cbd oil. slept for maybe an hour and then was awake. i tossed. did deep breathing. self talk. nothing was working. so i let myself just be….in bed with anxiety and essentially feeling like crap. around 4:30am i got up, returned to bed and discovered my mate was awake and had been having the same experience. couldn’t sleep. anxiety.
as i just observed this otherwise unpleasant situation, i was able to fall asleep.
the grief is still coming in waves and all i honestly wish to do now is cocoon myself and rest. sleep. i have had a thought/feel for over 2 years that the closer we get to “it” – the more i will want to sleep. never thought perhaps that could be due to grieving the loss of someone. doesn’t matter what thoughts i create on this situation – the truth is we miss him. period.
speaking of our adopted grandpa, we are about done going through his stuff – well at least picking out anything we want to keep. that has been an emotional challenge. many emotions. we have laughed and remembered – and after that experience, we feel that heaviness kick in. just sadness.
his children have been so wonderful in keeping us involved in all of this. as one said yesterday “you were his chosen family.” chosen families have that extra specialness. one of his daughter’s is making a box for us – a collection of all of the cards, pictures and drawing’s done by our child we had given to him over the years. he kept it all. the importance of that is not lost with any of us.
the weather seems to match the “mood” in my space. well – a collective of people here in town i should say. many seem to be really challenged ~ allison coe wrote of this as well in her recent video. i sure hope others will begin to question the notion of contracts – how we agree w/loved ones before coming here that one will die in order to awaken the other. etc. etc. that is of course part of their narrative. who would ever set forth to create intentional trauma (other than some entity who desires to see others suffer)? especially that of ones child. ugh. those who speak of “loss is an illusion” and “be thankful for the time you had” and other such heartless nonsense – well i wonder how they would respond if the grieving parent said back: “ok i cancel this contract then. YOU can have that with YOUR child instead. i want my child back!” would the other parent agree to such an agreement? of course not. seriously people need some red pilling right now on loss and grief. i am seeing this hugely right now and i am not remaining quiet when others say “don’t be angry” and coldness. for that is cold. detached. even before i was “awake” – i knew what grief was. never did get that part of the new age movement.
anyway – i left a comment gently stating i hope others who still align w/this narrative to at least consider maybe it isn’t Truth. at least not OUR truth.
song messages of the day – back to back – “and the sky opens” followed by “this all ends”.
what does bring in comfort is knowing our adopted grandpa watches over us. we are seeing this – feeling and experiencing it. our water bill jumped up to $170 (yes – $170) and i realized it was because we have had a running toilet that, as i have been pointing out, had recently increased in its running. too occupied w/latest life stuff to deal with it – kept saying yes we need to address that. anyway – so my mate was able to find the replacement valve kit in grandpa’s belongings. the man had 2-3 of just about everything. so we are thankful for that although don’t quite know how we’re going to swing that water bill next month. as always, donations are welcome and needed. or items i create/sell can be purchased which i usually link below my personal pieces.
all of this being said – while we are thankful for his protection – we would give back all of the “stuff” just to have him back again for another hug and conversation.
for now – we grieve. that has shown up for me as itching and a rash. it began days after we learned his diagnosis was terminal. i can see my energy vessel within is completely full and all it takes is one little challenge and i feel myself bursting inside. i know i have reached my zenith with life now. so i am focused on releasing what is stored within me via counseling and guided meditations/release. all i know to “do” is to care for myself as i would a child for that is how fragile and vulnerable i am right now. i ran on fumes long enough in an attempt to convince myself i could do this alone – i could carry all i was undertaking and having to deal with. it did become too much. this notion that life doesn’t bring you more than you can handle is nonsense.
but what i do know – is that Love does find a way through the muck of this lower energetic realm – and brings forth a gift of kindness. comfort. and for those moments, i remain deeply grateful.
love,
victoria
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DECLAS CoC
POTUS > Barr
Barr > Durham
[[F] classified intel provided [FVEY – Non FVEY] as needed]
Does Durham want to hold [freeze] ‘public’ declas due to criminal nature of the probe(s)?
Think GJ material.
When did the investigation begin?
When did the investigation really begin?
Nothing can stop what is coming.
Nothing.
Slow drip > Flood
Q
personal healing tools….it reminds me of something a friend once said about 10 years ago: “Be the Observer” – in everything. … i was particularly interested in his discussion at the end about movies and characters in them and how they grow/awaken through struggle….i see the truth in that – in our experience here – and like many of us though we don’t want – we don’t consent – to being “characters” in a movie. anyway – i found his metaphor interesting…
in the back of my mind i thought “we already heard of this ‘green light’/all is good to go before from her” so i searched on my site. what i found was some info she shared in february of 2019 whereby she stated that the “green light” had originally been given on september 17, 2018 but those headed “west” weren’t fully ready so there was a delay. i remain observant and following my feeling of “i will KNOW when i KNOW (see/experience”…
When a ship leaves port, there are a set of protocols it follows. Systems checks, passenger checks, ship checks, casting off lines…Now imagine the check list for a ship the size of a VAH. Protocol for green light, was met. 😉 Thats why it went off now.
i usually don’t post (or read) info from the website this originated from (dinar chronicles) – but i found this one interesting – esp. given the tweet i posted earlier by VK…some truth in this one? we will see….
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Compiled by Judy Byington, MSW, LCSW, Therapist ret, Journalist, Author, “Twenty Two Faces: inside the extraordinary life of Jenny Hill and her twenty two multiple personalities.”
From infancy to age six Jenny Hill was repeatedly raped and tortured by members of a Satanic Coven, the trauma forcing her young developing brain to split into multiple thinking patterns. Her sophisticated Nazi-inspired Mind Control was overseen by a CIA agent believed to be working under direction of the international monetary system’s Ninth Circle Child Sacrifice Cult – the very Satanic organization that the World Court, BRICS Alliance, President Trump and the White Hats were taking down with the Global Currency Reset.
Judy Note: What was it with Q and the number 21? On Sun. Q came back from a 21 day hiatus that repeated a Jan. 21 2018 post saying that this would be a Week to Remember – a week that appeared to start today Tues. 21 Jan.
Tues. 21 Jan. was said to be Value Day for the Global Currency Reset. It was also the start of Trump’s impeachment trial, where the Deep State was expected to be exposed and the first day of IMF meetings where world leaders were mulling about what to do with US Inc’s pending bankruptcy in a few days on 31 Jan, along with the resultant market crash expected for Feb.
High-positioned contacts have verified that the below information was valid:
1. It appeared that on Sat. 18 Jan. the Sovereign Committee “Team of Twenty” returned home after funding 27 mega Paymaster accounts and establishing a Value Day that had liquidity on Tues. 21 Jan.
2. On Sun. 19 Jan. Q came back from a 21 day hiatus with post #3776 that repeated a Jan. 21 2018 Q post saying, “The Great Awakening: the Shot Heard Round the World – a Week to Remember.”
3. Welcome to that Week to Remember:Tues. 21 Jan. 2020 was said to be Value Day and the start of Trump’s Impeachment Trial, which was expected to not only expose the Deep State, but mark the beginnings of our new Cabal-free world.
4. On that Value Day of Tues. 21 Jan. President Trump would be out of town attending International Monetary Fund meetings in Davos, Switzerland. His two Gold-Standard Advocates Judy Shelton and Chris Waller would be by his side. Why not? Trump had just appointed them to the Federal Reserve Board. The IMF meetings would likely discuss the US Inc. Bankruptcy on 31 Jan. and a resulting Market Crash expected in Feb.
5. Last week IMF Manager Christine Legarde warned financial managers not to go public with “what they were about to do” at Davos. Could that “what they were about to do” be a return to the Gold Standard – the only valid solution to the fiat US Dollar in order to keep Markets from imploding? Legarde has previously discussed the need for the global monetary system to go to a gold/asset-backed system.
6. Mike Cottrell claimed his signature was on the Gold Certificate and with the go-ahead from the Chinese Elders, would be the one to push the button for liquidity in the Global Currency Reset.
7. Mon. 20 Jan. evening saw Paymasters and Redemption Staff being placed on High Alert and expecting to work 7 am to 11 pm.
8. It was expected that sometime Mon. 20 Jan. to Tues. 21 Jan. 400,000 emails with instructions on how to exchange and redeem would be sent to currency and bond holders by Wells Fargo and HSBC.
9. Not coincidentally, on that same Value Day of Tues. 21 Jan. President Trump’s Senate Impeachment Trial would begin. Those testifying were expected to exonerate Trump, while verifying the need for Treason and other serious charges to be filed against major Democrat players including Joe Biden and Nancy Pelosi.
11. On Mon. 20 Jan. Vice President Mike Pence declared that “the American people have a right to know” about the wide-scale corruption of his predecessor, and Biden’s family members.
