Going over the bills. Almost $30 of my water/utility bill are “fees” (aka illegal taxes – things put in by the city without citizen approval/vote).
These financial constraints I am under are too much. I am under no further illusion or delusion that I can pull myself out of my situation on my own. I am frustrated. I know exactly what I want and need. E X A C T L Y. For now – I am stuck in a situation that is not healthy nor beneficial all due to money – which I why I am literally screaming at the top of my lungs not caring who hears or how I sound or look:
When I see what this is doing to my girl – yeah – enough is enough.
Enough is absolutely enough.
Why?
Because I AM GOD IN FORM.
And because every part of me within and without and all around says so.
That’s all for now. I’ve kept so much within in recent weeks not wanting to really upset others or offend because I absolutely know I am not alone in how I feel – however I know my specific situation is something not all can understand or relate to. Money should N E V E R be used to deny someone their freedom ~ their health ~ their healing.
I don’t know if I will ever find forgiveness in how that whole system has been used – is used here – and the harm it has caused what is otherwise a trusting, innocent, peaceful Soul who has been turned into an alternate version of someone who feels overwhelmed, depleted, frustrated, unheard, misunderstood, not seen, isolated and alone. Not a pretty picture atm. So………
Do any of you have any real offers or leads on work I can do from home? I don’t share every detail of my life naturally, but I really need to increase my income – as quickly as possible – and this site just has not provided that for me.
I can share a resume.
I will also likely need a place to live too.
If any of you have anything to help please let me know. Privately I can share more details.
Ok, so I don’t really align w/that thought anymore even though overall it holds a lot of truth for me – but that image is a perfect one for how I feel now. In fact, several days ago I looked all over the place for this very image itself – couldn’t find it – finally let it go – and see it appear tonight. Thank you Universe and friend David. So here it is. And last night I aaaaaalmost went and got me a pack of cigs. I don’t smoke and really don’t drink and all we had was some whiskey and I thought hmmm whiskey or cigs which is it. I did yoga instead and banged a towel on the counter.
So…..Uh, yeah – today was another challenging one requiring the “wearing of the divine armour”. What made it shift – as always – is HEARTFELT HONEST AUTHENTIC talking and sharing. That is a big intention of mine – for every relationship I have. Here’s what I’m seeing. All I can say now is buckle up. We’re really on the cusp of showtime.
Love,
Victoria
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N E V E R tested whether it would stop the transmission of CV prior to release ~ N O…………
🚨 BREAKING:
In COVID hearing, #Pfizer director admits: #vaccine was never tested on preventing transmission.
"Get vaccinated for others" was always a lie.
The only purpose of the #COVID passport: forcing people to get vaccinated.
Remember last night ~ that bottle I shared ~ Burnt Hair…..he was promoting his tunnel boring company ~ I reflected it was WH comm’ing us about what happened to those hiding inside those tunnels……….
With a name like mine, getting into the fragrance business was inevitable – why did I even fight it for so long!?
Once in awhile, we need the help – sometimes a rescue – of our tribe…….
Inspiring indigenous wisdom! This horse was stuck in mud & had given up when the herdsman found him so they used the power of energy from the herd to give him back his strength! This resonates so much with oneness in spirit!! 😍😍😍 pic.twitter.com/RX62xfVfze
This pretty much depicts where I am atm. I have pushed and pushed myself – and focused and refocused – to be honest “pretended” to be someone different (“fake it until you make it”)- and yet I keep coming back to this inner me that feels disassociated. I feel like I can’t do much of anything really useful (not the way I used to that is) and I know I could be a far better human – friend – partner – mama. I don’t need more rest. I need real healing. I need so much love – real love right now – and I feel empty – I am thirsty to be “filled up”. I had a good healing session this week – and got attacked 10 minutes afterward. Coincidence? I think not. It’s f’ing continued.
And so do I in spite of how I feel within. I’ll crawl across that f’ing finish line if I have to – but I am NOT STAYING IN THIS FUCHING FAKE PRISON with the rest of the zombified sheep nor do I intend to cross that line with them.
NO. NO. NO.
I’m kicking and screaming and swearing like a f’ing trucker. Spitting mad. One of the first outta here at “the” moment.
I see how this war has been playing out. I see how some get more of a pass than others. I see how those targeted are attacked in certain ways. And I see those who feel and seem to be pretty impervious somehow think others can be like them too and they want nothing to do with those who continue to be attacked. Fuch that sheot is all I have to say to that. My mind feels fractured because it is. Will I and can I be healed? Absolutely! But for now – this is how it is. Some of us have just had a harder time here. It’s been life long for me. And that is how it is. PERIOD. Anyone uncomfortable with that truth can exit stage right from my life. I’m f’ing done being someone I’m truly not in order to make anyone else more comfortable in their own skin. It takes a real warrior to truly sit with someone who is in that level of pain and show them nothing but Love.
So……… on I go.
Unity feels like illusion today. I don’t want to unite with everyone – especially those who chose to inject themselves with poison and have been used as a weapon against some of us (and remain vocally ignorant and in denial of this truth) who chose otherwise. At the end – they get their healing and won’t have a f’ing clue as to how they harmed people like myself? That doesn’t feel right.
None of this does now. My mind is worn. My body is worn. My spirit feels depleted. I don’t need a vacation. I don’t need more sleep. I don’t need more fancy guru fake light bullsheot mantra’s. I need a NEW LIFE and a NEW REALITY that SUITS/FITS/ALIGNS WITH ME.
And this ain’t it.
Preaching to the choir, I know. Just decided to return to brutal honest truth after trying to keep it all elevated for the past few weeks. I’m falling down at times now but I’m screaming as I go and creating the moments where I bounce the fuch back up.
So I may feel really f’ing low and challenged and just spent finished lately – but I remain focused on this:
Love,
V.
******
Hearts……….I still see them after I touch water or soap, sometimes dirt and food………..it’s strange and fascinating and today, painful as I know it is coming from within and someplace outside too – still me – but I would sure like to have nothing but such moments……
They did it again…..2023…….
Why would they make such an error… 2 days ahead of schedule? October 6 / October 8… 2022 / 2023 pic.twitter.com/LW1vBzruOG
Looks like the CIA, Pentagon & Nazi NATO got what they wanted…
A very angry Bear. Should have stopped at the pipeline.
The Crimea Bridge was a bridge too far.
All these MSM / US lies about Russia losing is a joke.
They went in to stop the 8 yr slaughter in the 4 regions,
disable all the Bio Labs & Child Trafficking hubs.
Russia was done & wanted Peace.
Now, the Cabal won’t get WW3…
they’ll get a pile of dust & God’s Wrath.
No coincidences that a certain Biden is in the headlines this weekend
Boom 💥
— Łitecoin Bull | The News Before The News! (@litecoin_bull) October 8, 2022
Well, we’ve seen this happen before – about 4 years ago or so – so nothing new – but my intention is practice run for the real thing later this month…….
Former US Congressman Larry McDonald's final interview where he explains the NWO agenda. Shortly after this interview his plane was shot down. pic.twitter.com/JEWOxtSQoy
This is hard to listen to – but feels very truthful – so many of us – animal and human alike – need to kinda surrender into such healing/love………
Pig_Farmer@Pig_Farmer
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Abused dog feels love for the first time
The only – ONLY – reason I am sharing this is because of the dream I had over 4 years ago where, at the time, John showed me the November calendar and insisted I focus on 22 (and the year at the time was 2018). Other than that, I don’t know what any of this indicates………lol
I’m a bit sleepy tonight but when I wake up I’m going death con 3 On JEWISH PEOPLE The funny thing is I actually can’t be Anti Semitic because black people are actually Jew also You guys have toyed with me and tried to black ball anyone whoever opposes your agenda pic.twitter.com/0xka0D5k50
U.S. D.O.D issued a contract for COVID-19 Research to a company in Ukraine, 3 months before COVID-19 was known to exist – The Expose
The world first started to hear about a novel coronavirus in early January 2020, with reports of an alleged new pneumonia-like illness spreading across Wuhan, China. However, the world did not actually know of Covid-19 until February 2020, because it was not until the 11th of that month that the Wor..
Report: Russian Helicopter Detected US Submarine On The North Pole, After Emergency Exit To The Ice Surface. A surveillance helicopter of Russia has detected and identified a US Submarine, The Russian helicopter flew over the submarine; it showed no signs of life. pic.twitter.com/vdOp6ObE5L
So many still hiding behind anonymous Twitter user accounts speaking their hate, it’s truly fascinating how far along we all are & still so many trapped #OR are just botts —wait til you see what George Magazine show next …
It’s nothing but love for 1 “Nobody” so many hate on.
Discrimination at the very least – supporter of evil and crimes on humanity at the top……Mate has breathing issues and has been denied medical care because of the mask issue……….These sell outs owe us B I G…………
Interesting as I was suddenly awake around 6AM this morning and was nudged me to get online. I didn’t follow the nudge – opting to stay snuggled under the covers. Saw reports anywhere from 8km-13km. Something underground…………….
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz droooooooooooooling tried to play tennis pulled it off for about 30 minutes and girl said she was tired ditto that let’s leave but first let’s rest – again and zzzzzz and droooool s’more then let’s drive home and I will put on the right turn signal when I was turning left and just now papa bear enters the room and trips on the couch oh the joy of whatever all of this that is happening love, v.
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“handlers”………..little dittie………..w.h. likely went and asked a bunch of insiders hey wanna work with us – the role of a lifetime and some said yes and some said no. he said “yes”………..
Actor giving prompts to this 17 drop? “REMEMBER HOW TO PLAY”……….I discussed that one a few months ago………..theorizing how we’re on the outside locked into this virtual game inside of a controlled simulation…………but we can take control OF it by remembering………..hmmm…………
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Feb 05, 2018 12:18:44 PM EST
AnonymousID: afc5d0No. 275574
ThinkProgress Verified account
@thinkprogress 6m6 minutes ago More Internal FBI documents show White House lied about Comey firing https:// thinkprogress.org/internal-fbi-documents-show-white-house-lied-about-comey-firing-610c0c780dda/ … why is msm allowed to lie
>>275574 Imagine THIS. Raw intel collection. Narrative FEEDER. Narrative COLLECTORS. Narrative DISTRIBUTORS. LEAKS. CLASSIFIED. PAYMENTS. FOREIGN ACCOUNTS. CASH. SPOOK FILES. HOTELS. BLACKMAIL. How do you retain ‘Freedom of the Press’ if those in front of the camera [trusted by select viewers] are extensions of the ARM?
Freedom of the Press is VITAL to retain.
TRUST THE PLAN.
THERE ARE A LOT MORE GOOD THAN BAD.
You, THE PEOPLE, need to remember how TO PLAY.
You, THE PEOPLE, have the POWER.
We STRIKE every SINGLE DAY.
We WIN every SINGLE DAY.
EVERY SINGLE DAY THEY ARE BEING DESTROYED – LITERALLY.
STAY STRONG.
HAVE FAITH.
THIS IS BIGGER THAN ANYONE CAN IMAGINE.
Q
Back and forth the optics go and scenes go………..
Twitter is refusing to accept Elon Musk’s renewed bid of $44 billion for the social media company, according to a report citing Elon Musk’s attorneys. https://t.co/bEgkUwxi8m by @JohnnaCrider1
I then think “17 drop”…………..Just one, btw (Calm B4 the Storm statement was shared on 10.5.2017)………...17 went “live” on 10.28.2017………….we got some dates on the calendar – that is one of them……………
I think we all understand the characters and conflict at this point.
Time for the PLOT TWIST?
Declas, FINALLY?
>>4134817
The President of the United States initiated and confirmed the order when he stated “The Calm Before the Storm.”
When was the statement made?
When did “Q” go active?
Watch the News.
Watch the FBI.
Watch the DOJ.
Q
Gematria: PLOT TWIST
For The Show Bro
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Its About Time
Home Sweet Home
Sharing – because there’s a synch in there (and the HOME thing too) – that song by the Spin Doctors “Two Princes” has been around me for awhile – I heard it on the radio today coming home “marry him or marry me……….”………….After that Van Halen “JUMP” came on. (update: mate tells me he heard Two Princes as well – just a few minutes ago – different station)…………….
I wonder if these actors are getting paid or have union benefits or sumthin like dat…….
To eliminate the possibility of a Russian nuclear strike, Zelensky asks NATO to carry out "preemptive strikes" against Russia. pic.twitter.com/L54UgSXxKu
SAN TAROT….(yay!)….Talisman – on the move or about to be on the move…..suddenly finding themselves on the road – new journey……….all she has is what she has w/her at the moment…….someone “grabbing at your tools at the moment you need them” (the enemy grabbing as us as we exit – total miss)…..Gathering of community…….gathering those you love and going to the new adventure……….
A very nice song and rendition to listen to as you read………..
Anyone here able to really observe without absorbing? Kinda like walking out in the rain and not getting wet – still gotta come back inside and “dry off”.
The crazy continues.
I continue to know it ends – I continue to trust myself, what I have seen and how I have been guided. It really has all come down to trusting myself. The frustration comes busting in when I command MY POWER and see how limited it (still) is here. As I said – anyone able to manifest financial abundance to build the experience you want? Able to instantly heal? It’s coming – and that waiting doesn’t jive or align with me. Frustration also pushes at me when I share a personal experience and someone shrugs it off because “they” haven’t had the same experience as they don’t focus on the negative. Spiritual gaslighting. Happening a lot atm. This is a simulated experience which means ANYTHING can be inserted – directly targeting people as a whole or an individual to make certain situations appear crazy or impossible and as such easy to dismiss. Shining some openness and Love on those situations goes far more towards unity than the latter.
A couple of things in terms of “outside”/getting out/exit ~ Brother Rick said he heard from Clair and she said something about the party and celebration has begun then she faded away before she could further clarify. For myself, the synch w/that was hearing Wang Chung “Everybody Have Fun Tonight” – off and on all day in my mind. Second was seeing alleged message from the Alliance that we’re green to go.
Other than all of that, here in “3D world” of “reality”, is what I’m seeing. Love, V.
BREAKING 🚨 Multiple people killed in an attack in city of San Miguel Totolapan in Mexico. Reports say the mayor of the city has been assassinated in the incident
This was a hugely “triggering” day and I have been doing all I can to stay out of it and channel that horrid energy that comes w/a trigger. Turns out it seems to be collective. I don’t know much these days now………….other than how I feel about this place. I often use a food analogy. Dragonfruit. YUCK! I tried it – once. That was enough. Trying to convince myself I love it much less like it – not happening. Same for this place. However – any physical space always holds potential and with potential comes the truth for improvement. You could say it’s a paradox within me – not a fan of how it is but always – ALWAYS – calling in new/better.
Here is what I’m seeing.
Love,
V.
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ALERT : CREDIT SUISSE & DEUTSCHE BANK RUMORED TO BE IN THE PROCESS OF COLLAPSE
— Łitecoin Bull | The News Before The News! (@litecoin_bull) October 3, 2022
Well they do sell faux ice cream so why not water?
Hunter laptop and other credible evidence show Joe Biden is ethically compromised by Russia and China. Is there any doubt that this corruption has invited dangerous adventurism by these two "strategic competitors"? https://t.co/Qucpn1qom6
Verrrry interesting words here……………I had a similar thought today while out and about – seeing certain people making certain choices and thinking how much “easier” it would be just to conform so you – so I – don’t feel so isolated or lonely. But I immediately dismissed that b.s. – said nope – and went on my way. And yet at that – even if you don’t go along w/the freakshow – it still affects you. Impossible not to, imho.
Reminds me of my dream of the postal service collapse which was indicative of “the end”. Today we did not receive mail. No one in our block did. Some of us had outgoing mail. I saw our usual delivery guy about 4 hours ago just a block away. (UPDATE: Just learned mail delivery happened on our street – but they didn’t come here even though we had mail on our box AND had the porch light on. Why it took the dude over 4 hours to go from just one block down the street to our street – I haven’t a clue…………)
Thought all of my Polish peeps would like this one……….
The world’s done gone crazy. Local stores are going full on corporate – seeing far fewer local products (at stores that focus on that) and more corporate crap – along with empty stores shelves again – as in half empty. Employee turnover is off the charts now. I have no interest in watching all of this insanity and collapsing.
In the store today mate had a convo with a fellow patriot who said this country has gone to sheot and she’s screaming for freedom and safety. A miracle – a Light in a sea of face diapers.
Who is ready – TRULY HONESTLY ready – to pool resources and find a place of our own? There’s an amazing ranch for sale – ala Heartland – a few hours from my locale along a river – over 300 acres complete with several houses. It’s a lot of benjies, but with enough people maybe we could pull it off. Let me know.
The truth of everyone is coming out – the good and the ugly. Evil has no place to hide. Question is – when is it gonna get smashed into oblivion? Any of you have a weapon to remove it? If so – again – let me know. “Trusting the plan” feels a bit naive to me at this point – at least not enough.
I keep stating I see LIGHT I see PURE and I ain’t stopping.
I began to pray to God and Jesus today and said nope – been there done that. I’m just creating it all from ME now.
’tis all I have atm. Headlines are – not on the table for me atm. No circuses for me.
Sooooooooooooo freaking zzzzzz today. Last night when we went to bed my mate and I both suddenly felt wired so sleep didn’t come for awhile. Woke up hearing a new song (lyric too): “So glad we made. I’m so glad we made it.” Ya’ll know the song. Checking in w/a social media account, another anon said he had heard the song just 2 days ago after not hearing it for years. It’s in the vibe. And we’re all feeling BIG now. How it plays out – I have my desire – but not in the mood to speculate atm. I’ve done that quite enough lately. As I and others I am hearing from – we ready to retire from this 3d/matrix/prison. P E R I O D. Here are some finds – many of them just sweet and pure. Love, V.
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Asking for continued prayers for Photon/Annie. Thank you!
Thanks to Sister D for sharing this one. Many of us felt something “ended” the day after the storm in FL………..I had a vision – near identical to what D had……….
Look at this horse exchanging love and his focus on her spine he knows intuitively where the problem is! Horses know how to release energy blockages and heal they have massive bodies. Sweet 😍😍😍 pic.twitter.com/vtPbAC2Lo0
— Łitecoin Bull | The News Before The News! (@litecoin_bull) October 2, 2022
Effective immediately, the Vatican has transferred all liquid capital assets from around the world to the IOR Vatican Bank. According to official reports, the process was completed on 09/30/22. pic.twitter.com/u7Ncobcmy7
India: Court Date Set for Bill Gates to Answer to Victims’ Family for Daughter’s Murder by Vaccine – The Expose
In November 2021, the World’s first Covid injection murder case against Bill Gates was filed in India. It was the case of a 23-year-old who had died after taking a Covishield “vaccine” because the railways mandated it as a condition to travel. The two named defendants were Bill Gates and Adar ..
