I keep waking up.

I continue to feel my Sole/Soul purpose – all along – has been to Wake Up.

And as I – as We – awaken – we naturally raise our vibe so that it acts like a virus to the matrix program(s).

That’s all we can do.  It’s natural and organic.

Source God Creator = totally natural.

What runs contrary to that are the matrix programs which operate and are behind all of the systems within the game.  Religion.  Education.  Government.  etc. etc.  All of those “institutions”.  Hence you wake up – and feel push back from everything.  Nothing feels natural or “right” as you wake up.  In fact – it becomes more uncomfortable to exist within the confines and rules and energies OF this place (and which is why it is so liberating to meet and connect with others who are waking up).

There has been a commercial – perfume I think – where the female looks into the camera at the end and says, loudly, WAKE UP.  Then there’s a movie – put out in August of this year – Free Guy.  The protagonist is your typical NPC inside the matrix – but he wakes up – realizes where he is – and seeks to awaken everyone else.

Sound familiar?  My sense: WH Ops to get all to see – to hear that “wake up” – to spark that inner signal – even if at the subconscious level.

WAKE UP.

I was reflecting on the whole east/west narrative.  I’m feeling that is also part deception.  Where we go one we go all tells me – we all get out.  The same exit point (except for evil).  Where we all go and what we all DO after that point – is up to the Individual.  That – is freedom.

I was also reflecting on the whole idea that this upcoming division is going to be done different this time.

“This time.”

What does that bring up in you?  What do those words tell you?  They don’t sit right with me – never have.  My sense within tells me this is just another matrix narrative – this one being the reset.  We’ve had that happen before – who knows how many times.  There’s historical evidence of that all over the place for those who choose to dig/search.  Jon Levi is an excellent source (good starting point indeed).  So yeah – that whole thing – we’re doing it different THIS TIME – is the enemy speaking of wanting to put us through another reset.  Same as when we have been told we eventually go back under the veil again.  When asked why – we are told “that’s just the law”.

Nonsense.

The Original Creator doesn’t have any laws – other than the law of freedom – which isn’t really a law per say but more of a “live and let live”.  Create.  Live and be and do as you choose – and allow others the same.

I’m also thinking of the first Matrix movie – the ending – where Neo tells the matrix “where we go from there is a choice I leave to you”.  Perhaps why he never got out (in any of the movies including the current one) is because he gave the power away to the matrix – as The One – with that one decision.  You NEVER EVER tell the enemy where we all go as one is up to them.  I’m also thinking that the matrix AI itself – doesn’t like feeling our energy – ESPECIALLY as we awaken.  Polar opposite energies – opposing one another.

I was also feeling into this experience that I put out intention – pull it up from within – the flow finds a way to bring me something and then the program throws in a wall to block.  We really are in a battle here for our freedom to create and be fully connected with the Universal Consciousness.

That’s all I have for now.

Love,

V.

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Yesterday was – weird.  It did not feel like christmas – didn’t feel that holiday energy.  There was a void – although I was focused on baking for the meal we’re having tonight.  But when I would pause – I could feel this void – an empty space – waiting to be filled.  Very early evening I was hit hard with this nostalgia feeling and thought I am longing for something I don’t have in the way I need/want but the only thing I have to go by is the experiences and memories I have here – and what that longing is/was is for FAMILY CONNECTION.  So my mind was working quickly – scanning memories from previous christmas’ – picking out those that made me feel comforted and a sense of belonging.

I went to bed a little earlier than normal – mate stayed up until 4am.  He said he was suddenly feeling very wired – happy – celebratory mood.  I wasn’t feeling that at the time. However, shortly after getting into bed, I too was suddenly (and annoyingly to me) wired.  I wanted to get up and dance.  Party.  Celebrate.  WTH, I thought – I just need to SLEEP.  I let the energy be as it was and finally – after what felt like at least an hour or more – I fell asleep.

Today – I drag myself around.  lol

I had another John Kennedy Jr dream last night – which annoyed me at the time.  He kept wanting to show me something – although he wasn’t pushing me to take a look.  It was a piece of notebook paper with writing on it.  I don’t remember exactly what it had on it – but he handed it to me after I gave him a sideways glance and said “I don’t know what to think about you at this point…”  It had mathematical equations on it – other things too that again, I can’t recall.  He then left the room (my mate was there in the background as was Caroline) and suddenly, through an open patio door, dogs (each of them their own breed) began to enter – all of them coming over to me.  I interacted with them and as I did I thought “these dogs have significance – this is NOT a coincidence”.  Then I woke up.

And then see these things trending on anon up:

And then this….  Isn’t the deck always supposed to be clear as someone takes off from the ship???  (it’s a mov file – won’t play here – so you will have to go to anon up to see it):

Doq Holliday @doqholliday

https://anonup.com/upload/videos/2021/12/g5f3MEXweILV8ZFYfZmT_26_b7797277e0c1d86f5ca6986bac209edd_video_original.mov

Finds later, friends.

Love,

******

Less of a reflection – more of an opinion piece – even a statement….

You all know I shared the piece by Clif High – a piece I can see logically.  And yet, as I say repeatedly: we are not robots.  We are humans with real experiences that induce real emotions.

Tonight – my mate was violently ill.  Any more ill and I would have had no choice but to bring him to the last place in which he wants to go – the satanic medical practice building on top of the hill that calls itself a hospital.  Would he have received any benefit?  Other than perhaps giving him fluids via IV, no.  They haven’t a clue how to treat him.  They have proven themselves in that regard over the years.

As I was scrubbing the shower, disinfecting surfaces and all of that, I was thinking about Clif (and so many others) analogy how we are in war – and we must unite humanity (for some reason in which I continue to struggle to understand exactly WHY we must all unite) – and in order for us to be united AND in order for the “normies” heads not to implode – such awakenings must be done very carefully and to consider what is the least possible harm done to humanity as a whole.

Fuck that.

First – there is nothing “normal” about the normies.  They are bizarre and absolutely lacking in any sort of real intellectual dialogue OR critical thought much less curiousity:  all of which, in my heart and soul and mind ARE NORMAL.  You know – that innate sense of curiousity that comes from BEING human which leads you to organically and naturally QUESTION YOUR REALITY.  THAT is normal healthy behavior.  To do otherwise is, well honestly, quite frightening to me and is indicative of some sort of a mental schism.

I see the harm being done to those I care about the most – not just inside this house but others I know.  I see suicidal thoughts.  Isolation.  Depression.  Financial struggles and outright poverty.  Physical illness.  Children suffering.  Don’t these experiences account for the same level of concern as some “normie”?  I simply see this as tossing those of us under the bus to spare some normie’s “mental/emotional experience” in seeing the truth too soon.

Fuck that – again I say – fuck that.

Anyone who wants to throw that analogy or logic my way can go speak to my mate – right now – as he lay in bed moaning, feeling as though he is dying (he’s not – he will come out of it – he always does).

They can also share that logic – that analogy – with our daughter who was plugging her ears tonight – shaking – afraid for her daddy and traumatized from having to hear his physical reactions too many times because he has not received PROPER medical healing/care.

And they can also try to share it with me – the one who was trying to assist my mate – while keeping our daughter occupied with Anne with an E episodes – reassuring her that daddy always gets through these “episodes” and will be fine in the morning.  And now – at this moment – when big and little sweeties are in bed – I sit here alone – to process all of this…..To try and make sense of any of this.  To reassure myself of the ongoing mental narrative that this is all over soon and my mate will get the real treatment and healing he needs……that he will be able to walk into a doctor’s office and will be SEEN……and he won’t have to have 20 thousand fucking dollars to do it.

And maybe – just maybe – some of these huge accounts with these large followers – maybe – just maybe – ONE of them is the real deal and not just using this awakening to profit and have a podium in which to stroke his/her ego.  MAYBE there is just one out there who has affluence and benevolent connections and the means to actually help not just my mate – but myself – and everyone I know who is going through hell right now – who NEED real healing – whether it be physical/emotional/mental.  None of us know the real truth of this plan much less when it wraps up NOR what the ending will be and if it is US who is truly going to be liberated from evil.  We might all get thrown under the bus.  We don’t know.  We truthfully honestly don’t know.  We can throw our desires and faith into this all we want – but the truth is – while we are in charge of our own process now – we are NOT in charge in what is playing out on the world stage (unless a million vets/well trained men and women organize and take it all down).  And so………..if we aren’t truly supporting one another right now in the way we each uniquely need – as I keep saying – there is NO sense in awakening any further.  If we can’t support one another – there was no point in which to awaken to begin with.

With love and truth,

Victoria