I recently was told – by more than one person – to hold the line – armor up and FIGHT.
And yet – when I am honest with myself – I don’t have it in me now to do that.
Certainly not consistently.
Not in the way I once did.
Not now.
My body – my mind – my Spirit – is TIRED.
Soooo tired.
Battle-weary.
I know I’m not alone.
Think of a professional boxer.
A paid “fighter”.
They have trainers to help them.
They have a support team.
They train.
Then they fight.
And then they REST.
Not even the best trained soldier can fight for long durations without needing to rest.
Or even just stop.
ESPECIALLY if they are more “mature” on the calendar years or sustain injuries.
After listening to Yellow Rose’s latest – I get that now.
I received validation that screaming as I have (and many of us) have been doing – releasing – being honest in saying I AM DONE – perhaps that is being heard.
If her info is correct – we have been heard.
And those on the outside are horrified at how this is playing out at this point.
People fighting back and getting horribly assaulted.
People fighting back and getting killed.
It’s war.
It’s evil.
Enough IS enough.
I don’t have it in me now to sustain this “fight back and resist” energy.
I wake up feeling weary. As I have said – the need to sleeeeeeeeeeeep is regular now and very present.
That tells me we are at the end.
And it also tells me – this wayward daughter can lay her weary head to rest. If or when I feel I can roar – I will. But at the level I once did?
Likely not. I am who I am now.
My mate said – after he roared the other day – it exhausted him.
Sometimes going along isn’t about selling out.
It’s about keeping yourself GOING – get the basis so you can feed yourself and your family.
Respecting your body’s needs. It certainly does not imply one has sold out.
And so I am absolutely finished with anyone telling me to suck it up and do.
Sometimes when a soldier is on the battle field and is too tired to go on – those around him/her HELP. They carry the soldier. Those who CAN do what they can to help the one who just CANNOT.
The energy today was another UGH day. Overall. It’s like the UGH is now running continuously in the background and it is up to each of us individually to push it back or ignore it or visualize it being removed. However, I can “rise above” those whatever-they-are and be in my own space.
At times.
Distractions.
Lots of distractions now…..
It almost feels as though something is taking my face and saying LOOK and I simply don’t want to LOOK. No – I want to see the NEW.
Last night I wrote a message to myself that essentially reminded myself – powered myself up – to BE IN CONTROL of my own inner world. And NO MORE inner dialoguing – no more inner repeating the same stories. The same f’ing trauma’s. I visualize a giant sucking machine lovingly removing EVERY DAMN THING this matrix put into me that I DID NOT CONSENT TO.
TAKE IT OUT. REMOVE IT. I don’t want it. I don’t need it. IT IS NOT ME.
IT IS NOT ME.
However I am also being gentle with myself – I have to be. You cannot create heaven in hell – not as long as hell (those energies) are operational. We can just shine our inner “flashlights”. This is far more of a complex experience than I realize – I keep sensing that.
So………..turn off the matrix. SPEED UP THE ENDING. END IT ALL NOW.
I noticed something today – the feel OF the matrix. I paid to register our car. It is our car but the state says it is their CAR. That all caps. I noticed when I typed, I was only allowed to type in ALL CAPS. VICTORIA INC according to “them”. The energy coming from “their” site was so oppressive. I did it quick and exited.
Cleared my computer and me from the experience. It’s all so archaic and old and I am sooooooooooo beyond DONE with it.
Have I said how DONE I am? lol
My body is doing things it was programmed to do – that I look at now and know: this is not natural.
This is not me.
My desire to connect with the REAL GOD – Jesus too – has been present for awhile. I’m finding that a challenge atm. “Call on me and I will be there.”
Not seeing that. But I also know – I feeeeeeeeeel – I have to remove those shells around my heart in order TO.
And it could also just be another program I am clearing – or that has been cleared.
Our REAL connection to REAL Source – we may not experience it at all here. It may be something totally different than what we have had here.
I take on my family’s pain. I see my mate struggle so much physically these days – with walking, getting around, dealing with his chronic pain. And now he has to really watch being around people – the jabbed. This is no way to live. And I am absolutely powerless to heal him. I can assist – but I cannot heal – even though I know intuitively this is a gift I have – certainly I once had it. WE ALL do. Seeing him going through these health issues for over 10 years – it is overwhelming. I’m a different person because of the medical horrors and mistreatment he has gone through – and all of the treatments including many holistic approaches. I am more vocal and empowered but also more apathetic. And my girl – with the issue of friendship. She has been bullied this past year by a couple of girls she once knew in person (they moved away with their families in recent months). This has occurred online. It incenses me – pains me to see her suffer. So tonight I strongly pushed her to speak up and out (as honestly mama bear could not take it anymore herself!) – set a good healthy solid boundary and claim “NO MORE I AM DONE WITH YOU TWO.” Call them out on their abuse. With our help, she did it and I am so proud of her for taking a stand on her behalf. Petty, fake, toxic behavior – in our children – is learned and allowed by lazy, uninvolved parents. It ALL brings up that ongoing inner feeling I have carried since I was a little one: I DO NOT BELONG HERE. This place is foreign to me. And many “human” behaviors considered “normal” I find appalling.
NONE of it is “normal”.
Who allowed unhealthy to become normal anyway?
So my emotions these days are all over the place.
Moving on with more thoughts coming my way……perhaps each of us is getting lined up individually to get outta here – so there IS no creating new here (lasting that is – I am getting glimpses to embrace totally new ways that I am looking into but even that feels like a “distraction UNTIL”….). Certainly I just do not feeeeel this realm is fixable. “There ain’t enough sage…..”
So we’re in that ongoing holding pattern. Hence – WRAP IT UP. Speed up OUR END.
And/or it could be what I read in Linea’s comment section. Something Rose said:
“Rose said the same thing…(quietly in the comments) – that we have already gone through this and whatever we’re going to go through here at the end. And right now we’re up there in those beds waking up, and this is our memories coming back…, this is our debrief…, watching what happened already.”
That could make sense…………And Bill Wood said the ending was already done. I feel something happened in 2012 where “they” could NOT get their ending. Something happened in that December 2012 period. And I’ll bet those f’ers have looped and looped and looped us to where time now feels sooooooooooooooooo g.d. slow and yet – fast at the same time. It’s like there are two different versions of me awake now. I know this – I have had SO many deja vu’s the past few years – including one just yesterday. Now when they happen I say “nope already done this” and move through it without attachment or saying “ooooh cool one of these things again!” We HAVE already done this. And I have also been feeling the need to remember again – to get those memories back.
Question is – is it us HERE that has gone through this – or US on the outside?
IF that is truth.
SO are we playing out the movie or are “they” delaying the end?
Or both?
Ok – enough on that. My mind is telling me it’s had enough.
Here are some finds.
Love,
V.
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Linea’s latest….(wondering what male came in at the end – she sure ended it quickly….)
As I told my mate – one way to prod awake the normies – those who watch this show. When they see these “things” on this show say hey the PCR test doesn’t work – well they’ll believe it then. (eye roll – but it’s the truth – that’s how these people roll)
Remember when Bill Wood said the closer we get to the end (that merge of the two timelines he saw on PLG) the more powerful our ability to create the outcome/experience we want. Remember that?
And remember how he also said the only thing “they” can do is delay their demise (which they are doing in a BIG way now – they’re f’ing with their time machine/program or whatever it is to stretch out this end and I for one am f’ing beyond DONE with that)?
So let’s use this to our advantage. Let’s focus on SPEEDING UP OUR TIMELINE.
We the many souls come together in service to our Divine God to ask the universe to honor our request to manifest a timeline that creates a future for this Terran planet Earth that will allow all souls & every living creature to live together in an individual sovereignty in this universal consciousness in peace, security,& prosperity.
1.We ask to manifest a future where every single soul on this planet receives sufficient light & wisdom to connect with our“One God of the Universe” enabling us to co-create the earth of love & compassion he intended for us & every other living creature in free will.
2.We ask to manifest the patriots & angels win this battle against evil & corruption & create a Constitutional Republic with smaller govt, a new monetary system(Nesara), new judicial &educ.systems & new operational systems that allows for individual sovereignty that provides for the basic needs of every soul&creature on this planet fairly & justly.
Do any of you have a daughter who is pre-teen (9-12) who too has had a difficult time due to this scandemic and is need of a friend to talk to? I don’t care where you live. The girls can facetime (we use duo). Let me know! Thank you.
Others are saying the same. This is a new unusual one.
How are you all feeling today? I’m about ready to bust outta my skin with HADITDONE energy. My mate recently went to one of the big stores recently – the one where I swear they have some transmitter/transponder inside that amps up the spike protein shedding going on. And again, within a few hours upon returning home, he has blisters appear on two places of his body. I did my magic on him and it worked a bit – slowly. We have a big event here in the city and people are saying how it’s all back to normal now that most are jabbed (you know – did the responsible thing) and doing what the governor and city officials are telling them to do.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOT DOING THIS ANYMORE! The GOD Spark/Voice in me is saying NO MORE. We know “their” god(s) are here.
WHERE IS OURS??!!
I am just f’ing done with all of this so once again I am SCREAMING inside does ANYONE know of a nice, safe affordable home in a rural area that is more FREE than this nazi prison state. I know the entire realm is enslaved by evil but there are more free areas. And AFFORDABLE is a must. Must have everything we seek for this to work.
Funny thing happened on the way into the kitchen tonight. I began to make/bake Cranberry Almond cookies when I thought “turn on the radio”. Talk about the Universe speaking. Favorites plus a song I’ve been hearing in my mind the past few days – thinking “I need to listen to that one.”
First the cookies (turned out REALLY YUM) – our girl is telling me to “dip them in chocolate”. lol Excellent suggestion!
Now for the songs….
First one (that I’ve been hearing in my mind the past week) – Survivor: Eye of the Tiger
Second one – Kansas: Carry On Wayward Son
Third (a favorite for 30 years) – 4 Non Blondes: What’s Up
Next up – the WH in Yellow?
It sure is. Thanks to Sister D for passing this one on to me….JB isn’t there…..We know that….I also saw from Nancy Drew/Kelly Brady that the North side of the WH no longer has security….
How did ya’ll sleep last night? It was chaotic and scattered here – for each of us – especially the adults. I woke up frequently – tense. Part of this was due to just being cold but there was that under current of anxiety. Another day of fatigue. Something happened last night. I was told another battle took place (and of course we won).
Some day we’ll be out of this, right?
Speaking with others, it seems to be, once again, a collective experience. At least among those who are Awake.
Or human.
Take your pick now as I really wonder who is either now – especially in our area.
Which leads me to a little story.
Pull up a chair, friends – get a blankie (or fan depending on where you are), some cookies and a beverage of your choice. The character in this story (my mate) roared like a beautiful f’ing Lion today.
So it goes a little something like this. Mate goes out into the world to get some fuel for the car. There’s an issue with the price (it’s one of those store stations – you shop at the store, get fuel points, turn them in at the gas station upon fill-up). So the manager has to come out and see what’s what. Manager walks over – sees my mate – says “put on a mask” to which my mate says “I don’t participate in that satanic activity”. The manager then says “6′ distance then” to which the Lion says “don’t do that either.” Well an intense conversation takes place. The Lion is dropping truth bombs left and right – saying the masks don’t work. This is all an agenda of control and evil. “Look up what I’m saying,” the Lion says over and over. You don’t believe it? Look it up. It’s the Truth. He tells them if Jesus were here he would tell them to remove that mask – to which the response was “Jesus would tell you to stop swearing”. Sorry, satanic practice is a far more serious issue than dropping an “f” bomb roars the Lion.
Realizing he’s getting nowhere with his truth sharing OR with figuring out the price, the Lion decides to leave. Around him are young males, soy boys, masked up, wearing rainbow pride arm bands, mimicking how they are praying to Jesus. Making m.loch pretty happy doing that, the Lion says as he gets in the car. Mloch? “Look it up,” the Lion says as he roars out of the station.
The End.
The Lioness’ comment? So proud of him! So manly! THAT is the Divine Male. LOVE IT and him for what he did today. And – it also shows how alone we are here as well as proof positive the normies aren’t waking up. All who are going to already have. The rest will need the truth shown everyplace they search (to avoid it) before they have a chance at seeing and knowing.
I had a wonderful convo today with Sister D. What am I doing to nourish my Soul, she asked.
Uh, eating cookies? Oh wait not doing that lately – amping up the immunity after the latest attack (virus). Honestly, not much is really getting my attention or igniting my “juices”, you know? I am so neeeeeeedy in my neeeeeeed for NEW – doing much of anything here is just zzzzzz for me now. Even playing the piano has, overall, lost so much of its appeal. It all feels like a distraction now. Tonight while making dinner – I was listening to a video channel my daughter was listening to. So I said mama needs to get in her happy place – put on some music and danced. That did it. For a bit. Then I just imagined I was dancing at the party – had a tribe around me. I’d like to have the powers of I Love Jeannie and just blink myself wherever I want to go.
Also reflecting on “time”. Talking with Sister D – whose birthday was just a few weeks ago – feeeeeels like it was a year or two ago. My girl’s b-day was also in recent months – and as I was seeing pictures of it – that moment felt like it was a couple of years ago as well. So………….as Bill Wood said – NO ONE can stop their end and our Victory – however what “they” CAN do and obviously HAVE been doing is delay the end which means f’ing with time and slowing it the frig down which would also explain why so many of us are so g.d. exhausted these days. Even after 12 hours of sleep – we’re still tired. It’s like I can’t get caught now. I try – and I get a little boost – but BAM – I’m back to exhaustion. So it’s the spiritual war and the sickening manipulation of time/physical space. END IT. END THIS SHOW. END THIS MOVIE. END THE DAMN WAR. And for OUR WELL BEING – if this is what is necessary – DROP THE DAMN CURTAIN. SOME of us are being harmed – traumatized – stressed. Cannot believe things are still playing out. Just absolutely cannot grasp that at this moment – in most moments now.
I had several dream experiences last night – only remember 2. One I was trapped on some boat and the people on the boat with me were control freaks and very robotic like. I wanted out so I ended it. Next “skit” I’m in a gynmasium – kids and parents – and I loudly announce I was seeking a mama who had a child around my girls age in which to play. Two girls looked my way and smiled – their mama’s stepped forward and said “I do”. As I approached, they turned their backs on me. Only message I have for those that create those poking skits is this:
The symbol of the scales is based on the Scales of Justice held by Themis, the Greek personification of divine law and custom.
She became the inspiration for modern depictions of Lady Justice.
Libra is the only zodiac sign that is represented by an object; with the other eleven signs represented by either an animal or mythological character.
Nothing Can Stop What Is Coming…
NOTHING!
BOOM:
Be Like Yoda. Pure Power Manifesting:
What I know today. As a child I used to love to eat lemons – no one told me about the peel. When my girl was tiny she wanted to eat lemons like apples but I said not to eat the peel. That was then this is now. Today – we eat peels.
He is not a man. He’s a programmed arrogant little soy boy who needs some real lessons from a REAL MAN followed by major deprogramming. Any volunteers?
I went to bed early and slept a good 12 hours. I feel better today – more alert and lucid. Still tired but better. As I climbed into bed last night, that’s when I had the nudge to do a card read. I resisted at first but felt that “then” was the time. After I did my last read (which was one of those “do this now” experiences), I decided to be open to doing reads when I felt the nudge. So I got out the cards I felt aligned to do a read on and did my thing. And again – I just keep my space pure – no outsiders allowed – just pure me aligned with The Divine Wisdom/Creator. I intended to do this for us all – to get a picture of where we are and what’s right in front of us. Here’s what came up (think ya’ll will like this one):
The 8 Card: The Strength
You will soon accomplish with love what force cannot. You will calm any fears with courage and persistance. You may become an example of strength and bravery. A “brave” heart goes on no matter the fear.
The 16 Card: The Tower
You will soon encounter/experience revoluntionary ideas or the breakdown of established structures. Volatile energies may be released quite suddenly. The old rules will no longer apply. You may be liberated in some way.
9 of Hearts: Fulfillment
You will soon see your desires granted in a happy way. Be alert to it happening in unexpected ways. Focus on/intend what you really want because you will likely get it.
Pretty cool, huh? Here is my insight (extra’s) into these messages. I have a sense the volatile energies are what we are already sensing from the IE at this time. And it could also be us fighting back too. However, the “sudden release” I feel comes when the rest of those not seeing SEE. T has talked about something happening quickly and fast – a few times this year. SOMETHING is going to burst open allowing all to see without ANY ability to deny (unless the desire to stick the head in the sand and never see truth is that strong). The old no longer applying – we know that. It’s the “destruction of the old guard”. Control and evil get flushed with the ship. And that liberation part (LOVED seeing that) – self explanatory.
The strength card I felt was just a positive reminder of encouragement to stay strong – STAND FIRM – create/be/do from the Heart and not cave to any fear being pushed or felt. Let LOVE be the guide – let things FLOW instead of forcing things (I almost constantly need that reminder). And the message on becoming an example of bravery may be how those of us who already know most of those hidden truths – we may become an example to those who don’t know sheot. Imagine going from 0 to 10 in terms of knowing the truth. Some examples of strength around them would be helpful.
And lastly – seeing our wishes fulfilled. Our desires manifest. Focus on what we want. It’s coming.
So….as I said – pretty cool.
Lastly, I want to share a dream I had last night. I was in some large building – single story. I kept wanting to go home with my family (my bio family today). Their cars were too full – there was no room for me. So they left without me. I wasn’t really surprised nor disappointed – more neutral. So I began to plan how I would “go home” on my own. As I’m thinking on this, a group of “them” (disguised as human males with dark skin) enter – blocking all of us who wanted out. I decided to be direct and honest and approached one of them – explaining why I needed to get out. The man just laughed at first until I looked him straight in the eye and would not look away. I sent some sort of energy from my heart to him and that in turn left him looking very uncomfortable. His eyes even began to tear up. The “leader” (off to my right – some big ugly looking a’hole) called on this man saying I was “messing with him” and to “get it together”. As the man struggled what to do, I walked away – passed the leader – who yelled at me to “get back here”. I said nothing – only continued to walk away – as the leader is yelling at me and threatening me – which gave me a bit of fear inside but I continued walking away. And as I did, the room began to burst forth with Light. As I walked into the Light, the experience ended.
I had a conversation with one of you today and we both realized we both essentially had the same/very similar dream.
I don’t think it was a dream. Anyone else have interesting experiences last night?
Our girl had her own dream of them. They were howling at the full moon. One thing she noticed – their colors have changed. They are dying from lack of energy. We’re Awake.
