2/16 ~ A (Trump) Dream ~ Reflection & Finds

 

Today’s been all over the place.  First my mate returned home from the store and I noticed – he was charged for something he didn’t get.  Back to the store he goes.  I’m still putting groceries away when he returns and notice – hey – they charged us for two butters – we only bought one.

So back to the store he goes.  Again.

You see these clerks at this particular store will scan your items – but they won’t bag them.  Yes –  let us see the logic in that.  They will TOUCH them to scan – but they won’t PUT THESE ITEMS they have just TOUCHED – into your bags.  Where is the logic?

Oh that’s right – there isn’t any. DUH! | Duh Meme on ME.ME

Anyway….so when you are stuck bagging your own groceries it makes it difficult to watch them as they scan so you may miss their mistakes.  I wonder how often this now happens – how much these corporations are making additional $$.  Their excuse today at the store?  “new software”.

Speaking of theft…..

I am still working with my bank to get them to fix things so I can use my account.  Oh my gosh – was I even dealing with humans today??  They continued to tell me that in order for them to issue a credit, the retailer had to put the charge through.  As of last Thursday, I have had several pending charges that are not mine – FRAUD – THEFT – to the tune of over $1,000 – putting me into the negative category and as such – unable to use my account.  Once that charge goes through, THEN they issue the credit.  Once the credit is issued – it stays in my account.

Wrong.

I told them that they issued credits for each amount over the weekend – but then removed those credits.  They said they had no record of that.  I said I did – I took photos – several of them.  “Let me send you those,” I said.

No.  They did not want that.  “We have no proof of such a credit,” was their response then telling me they can issue credits and remove them after midnight if they are still pending.  I asked why would they do that and they had no answer for that. By this point I’m getting pissed and I fought back.  I reminded them this was MY money – not theirs – and I was being denied the RIGHT to access my money due to fraud on MY account that THEY are supposed to protect and keep safe.  “You can still use your account,” I was told.

O M G – face-palm moment.  “And how am I supposed to use it when I currently have a NEGATIVE BALANCE?”  Uh duh oh that’s right….

You know how it went most likely – “Oh we are so sorry we understand,” blah blah blah.  When it was obvious things were getting nowhere – when I had to accept that this would take until Thursday to fully resolve – I hung up.

So I sat there – pondering all of this.  I had the retailer’s information. Why not call them up and see if I could get some answers – get them to cancel the charges on their end.  Speed up this ridiculously slow process.

So I called and I got answers.  I found out the name of the person who hacked my account (if you want her name let me know – I’ll share it with anyone who wants it), her state, what she purchased and the amounts and had it all cancelled.  All in 10 minutes.

My bank still had not done that.  They just cancelled my card – but had made no contact with the retailer.

So I had the charges stopped and reversed.

Morons.  Seriously unimpressed with so much of humanity these days.  And this “that’s just how things are” doesn’t appease my mind, heart or intelligence.

Moving on.  In recent weeks I have wanted a Trump dream.  I had the thought for a day or two then just let it go and moved on.  Last night – I had a good one.  I found him – I had to go looking – driving in an old car of mine (my Mustang from college years) – old streets that were familiar.  He was in a huge mansion – I found him sitting in a beautiful, ornate room behind a solid mahogany desk – big windows all around the room.  He seemed really big to me.  He had on a dark navy blue sports coat, white shirt, red tie – hair parted to the side as always – with that orange/yellow color.  It appeared I was welcome – there were a lot of people around – most of them in the adjacent room.  I asked some questions – two he said he could answer (as in it was “safe” to know now).  I asked about JB first.  “He’s gone.  This one’s a fake,” DJT said.  “And Hillary?” I asked.  With a wave of his hand he responded immediately and said “she was the first to go”.

After that I knew I wouldn’t be getting any further information.  Feeling into his mood – he was confident – very busy – still doing things “behind the scenes”.  I asked for a hug and he said “sure” – and I reached over his desk – gave him a hug – and told whoever was with me (still not sure) “let’s go.”  As this was happening I could feel “them” enter the space (that was supposed to be private) – and sensed this “she’s not supposed to be here!” lol

Upon feeling that, I was then put into another scene – some ridiculous school dream – going from classroom to classroom trying to find my way out.  A common theme the matrix asStral controllers like to put me in.  I finally got out of it – but it took me far longer than ALL OF REAL ME would ever allow for.

Why is it in the astral state we are so often trusting and vulnerable and not so powerful?  The best description I could come up today came in a visual as I was reflecting on this outside, picking up sticks:

Hooked up to some sick machine of theirs – controlled by them – and we do the best we can when we’re inside of it during that sleep time.

Convince me otherwise – this is the ONLY thing that makes sense to me.  As we tell our child – “You would never scare yourself – you would never create an experience where something is chasing you.  Only evil does that.”  Who goes to sleep and says “oooh sign me up for some nightmares!”

Yeah…..

At this point all of that is such a “DUH” – I rather lack the patience when others want to analyze dreams and take on full responsibility for the horrible traumatizing nighttime experiences.  THEY ARE NOT OURS.

As I say – how can we EVER take 100% full on responsibility for ANY EXPERIENCE in which holds so much deception and power-over/control?

Yeah…

We do the best we can.  Period.  Support one another from that state of consciousness and that is how we stay strong – together.

Ok – here are some finds.  Having a challenge finding much of anything resonating.

Love,  V.

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Lin Wood: “I Believe There’s A Lot Happening We’re Not Seeing Right Now…”

Facebook CEO Mark Zuckerberg Takes ‘Anti-Vax’ Stance in Violation of His Own Platform’s New Policy:

875K subscribers

https://www.zerohedge.com/commodities/grid-chaos-2-million-texans-without-power-rolling-blackout-begin

 

Ok i wanted to vet this top  one to see if this child on the right is a real photo – it’s legit (i do not know about the interpretation – but it would not surprise me)…my finds are below this one:

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These Are The First Photos of Chelsea Clinton's New Baby ...

Chelsea Clinton and Marc Mezvinsky expecting first baby ...

 

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/the-covid-19-curfew-in-the-netherlands-must-be-lifted-immediately-the-dutch-court-of-justice-ruled/ar-BB1dIHpI

 

Funny how that works…

May be a Twitter screenshot of text that says '11:54 Kevin Sorbo on Twitter:" mobile.twitter.com 75% Search Twitter Log in Sign up Kevin Sorbo @ksorbs So California is requiring signature verification for Gavin Newsom's recall, but didn't require it for the mail in ballots. How strange 7:39 AM Feb 15, 2021 Twitter for iPhone 25.9K Retweets 1,631 Quote Tweets 114.4K Likes'

 

 

FYI:  It should ready “Drop #4011”:

FREEDOM FRIES REPOSED

Heck of a coincidence…

POTUS said, ‘CALM BEFORE THE STORM’ on 10.5.17
10.5.17 lines up on the Qclock TODAY.
10.5.17 was 1230 days ago = 123
Drop#123 = “Nothing is random.”
10.5.17 was 40 months, 11 days ago = 4011
Drop#4911 includes, “You didn’t think the statement by POTUS re: ‘CALM BEFORE THE STORM’ was just random did you?”

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I await the day when we can sue the doctors (with attorney’s who have courage to stand up to the system) who harmed so many of us….restitution!  We found out the past year that the surgery my mate had over 20 years ago – which at the time we were told was a permanent fix – is only good for 5 years (no one said a thing all these years in his yearly visits – each doc knew of this surgery) – and now his condition is not reversible – only treated with one of their toxic pharmaceuticals.  The nightmare we have gone through with him and the establishment…..There isn’t enough money or accolades that can make up for any of it.  

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Speaking of – NEW TECH??

https://www.teslabiohealing.com/pages/help-for-stroke-and-cancer-patients-tesla-biohealing-bed

This is what they are seeking:

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Someone on anonup linked this in response to a comment I left about B Wood and PLG (a little info on S4 – I have seen that term come up in recent years in my search):

 

And this piece…..the last image in the article below about Trump tossing water out of a glass (threw the water)….17 telling us to “watch the water”….Through The Looking Glass…..

https://www.humorousmathematics.com/post/project-looking-glass-area-51-s4-level-4-2

 

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2/15 Finds and a Reflection/Check-in

 

How are ya’ll feeling today?  I’m quiet – somber actually – reflective.  Just not feeling connection with this place.  I’ve been crying off and on for days. The longing for Purity and New is overwhelming.  It grows – just as my attachment to this place detaches and wanes.  My mate has been into The Shire (Lord of the Rings) – my girl and I continue to be into Little House on the Prairie.  Home.  Purity.  I don’t know how it happens – I don’t know what it all looks like (other than what I have seen in my mind) – I just know that “IT” is big and is absolutely not leaving me – no matter what I tell myself.  Even though yesterday I shared it is possible the concept of Home is a matrix narrative – today I feel that is just not true.  While I may not have what I once did on the outside before all “this” happened – THIS PLACE IS NOT HOME.  Not how it is.  And while I may be feeling some of this heaviness due to being “unplugged” from this place – there is something else to this heaviness in my heart.  And I also cannot wrap my mind around this vaccine agenda playing out.  That continues to be a big red flag for me as all else plays out….

It’s as though my longing and desire for something new has worn me out atm.  That’s the best way to describe who I am at this time.

Here are some finds.

Love,  V.

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A new AnMarie Uber
A new Patriot StreetFighter

 

Group “Our Vote Matters” Is Suing Facebook, Dominion, Mark Zuckerberg, Certain State Officials, Others for Infringing Upon Right to Vote, Assemble and Speak Freely – You Can Join Too

 

GOP Ranking Members Demand Pelosi Explain Why She Refuses to Turn Over Documents on US Capitol Security and Why She Delayed National Guard Response for One Hour During Siege

 

I haven’t been able to sign in:

Breaking: Parler CEO Says Social Media App Is Back Online – Company Gets New Servers After Tech Giants Collude and Shut Down Platform

 

If you overlook the religious elements – there is truth in this one.  Destroying and removing the evil here.  Their statues.  His speaking of the unusual snow storms – which are upon us now – does feel a bit biblical in nature – as though all is about to break loose and FREE.  And it also feels to align with what the woman out of the UK said – When the Man Stands in Snow.  (According to Noah from WELOVETRUMP.com – the words in this video were originally spoken on January 24 of this year.)  My feel – they fall we STAND. Even Yellow Rose says we all STAND at the end.  That could make for a good hashtag:  #INTHEENDWESTAND  (and of course this is about everyone, every space and place here)

https://rumble.com/vdv9fh-hank-kunneman-prophecy-comes-to-pass.html?mref=2oodx&mc=8wf7a

 

Question is:  Who took the Silver?

Will London Silver Bullion Supplies Run Out?

 

Nearly 1 Million Patriots Tune Into Trump Parade on President’s Day as Only 50,000 Watch China Joe’s Speech

 

I want to see this locally – I would buy all of my supplies there:

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This is just…..weird (if you aren’t on anonup – it’s a 35 second video of JB and wife….a phone rings….JB sits there, quietly, looking confused….)…many are saying this is elder abuse….that would be true if JB were human – still alive…this is not the original JB as most of us know…..this is an android – a computer android with organic flesh on the outside…..i know it’s sick but evil has been doing this for decades – the plan is just using it against them which allows for exposure….there is ample evidence of this…..it does what it is programmed to do…..looking at the body language – he looks confused – she looks distraught…

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“Not to be shown to public” ….Ha! We Anons know what to do! It looks like he just received bad news on Presidents Day like maybe????🤔
THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!
And POTUS TRUMP SAID SO!!!

BOOYAHHH!!!!!🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸
Biden WILL be gone SQQN. 😉
‼️RESHARE FAR & WIDE

https://anonup.com/upload/videos/2021/02/VLMk9ejycRCbhY5gTeqO_16_c247073e914d256593fb05eebdb7299d_video_original.mov

 

To tie in with the above – from a POTUS rally last year (referring to JB).  “He’s shot” and has “half of his head left”….If that isn’t a comm……

https://anonup.com/upload/videos/2021/02/eJfEadXNQrQ2LZLWYGnE_15_4387ae02a06143af5f63b5aff4a90e5e_video_original.mp4

 

Then there is this….very interesting:

We Are Watching A White Hat Movie: The 2021 USA Inc. Joe Biden Shadow Presidency

 

Interesting drop on this day – and this theme:

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THE GAME ATM:

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SR-71…and who is that in the bottom image?  On the top of a SUB…..(the SR is said to be “alien tech”….I like it – a lot.  I would like one sitting in my driveway.  It’s like a batmobile on wheels.  I wonder if it can travel at light speed or faster?)  Here are some interesting facts about this craft:

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BEAUTIFUL:

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“2 terms means 2 terms
prophecy will be fulfilled”

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Seems someone is a wee bit concerned?
And 3-star could be referring to General Flynn (3-Star General) and perhaps Thomas McInerney…
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Digital Soldier🇺🇸 WWG1WGA 🌏Survivor 🇺🇸Dog Lover♥️ MAGA🇺🇸 GOD WINS🙏 Great Awakening!!! I’m here 4 TRUMP

Where have you seen those 3 stars before?

“Not long now.”

(3 stars are not on the “official” seal)
#DoItQ#BRINGTHEPAIN#trumpwon#trusttheplan

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There’s that number again (I have noticed it is often used in movies too – we have taken it back)….
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Well since I WAS BANNED on twatter- thought id move a few of my fav.s over here! for old times sake heres a few oldy but goodies!

WHAT 8S THE SIGNIFIGANCE OF THE
R E D. F I LE ?????
VERY IMPORTANT !!
WE HAVE IT ALL!!

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A brief reflection (via the shower portal) ~ and some finds

 

So – before I “got stuff” – I pushed past that heavy weight of frustration and anger that just wanted to lash out – went back to Center/My Heart – made amends – then went into the bathroom.  In the shower portal I had some things come to me (new friends:  my friend Sister D gave me the term “shower portal” a few years ago as that is a space in which I “get stuff” – nothing magical about it – I don’t do anything but wash and stand in there and enjoy my quiet space and stuff comes to me).

Today what came to me was one of the reasons – if not the reason – why I am feeling so disconnected lately – so detached and cut off – is because I am – from the matrix.  It is possible this reality has had the ability to plug in a variety of programs including some that seemed to work for us – felt “good” – but really weren’t.

If we are truly getting out – if we are indeed coming back to the totality of who we are  that means anything not OF that space of Original Us is gonna go.

At first I didn’t like this – I felt a moment of strong fear – but then I felt within that sense of Calm.  GO WITHIN.  That quiet never wavering space of Center is where I get my Power (not fully restored here – yet – but it’s all I’ve got for now).

I have also been having this nudge off and on the past week or two to be where I am now and not so focused on going back in time to remember, well, Home. It is possible it was all destroyed in the original hijack.  I may have to start over again.  I know – heavy stuff – but it doesn’t bring up fear for me.  I just want to know the Truth – I can handle it  now (feeling more the ability now TO handle) – and if I have to start over again in a new space in which I have never been to – so be it.  What matters (most) is WHO I AM NOW.  And I know I CAN “handle” the truth – whatever that may be.

This is all just “stuff” that came for me – and I am passing it along in case it may resonate with one or some of you.  As always, please share your thoughts.  Together we are strong(er).  Love, V.

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I have been searching for this puzzle piece for a couple of weeks now….Blue box is the Key….They have the blue box(es)….

EAGLE SOUL REPOSTED

THIS RIGHT HERE IS ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW!
🇺🇸💥🇺🇸💥🇺🇸💥WE HAVE IT ALL!💥🇺🇸💥🇺🇸💥🇺🇸

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I never did fully understand the Conways – wondered how Kelly could be married to him.  I also had a few moments where I thought “she kinda looks like a man.”  Wouldn’t surprise me if he’s a she and she’s a he.  eye roll…

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https://anonup.com/upload/videos/2021/02/JAPCSWZFJ7P5GLXuZrAW_14_e949b37218f345892ec5de2c149734ae_video_original.mov

 

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Some days it is impossible to find anything pure here (except for one another):

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💥Anybody ever pay attention to DEF LEPPARD Album covers, titles, and lyrics to songs. 🤯 Was just listening to them for the very last time, I just realized what the words were saying. 😡 I’m BLOWN away, there is literally NOTHING from my childhood that was good. 😤

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I actually do this with those I feel the closest to – it feels “Original”:
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This is – quite interesting:
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Tweets from Dan Scavino, Kayleigh McEnany and Trump War Room ALL WITHIN A 15 MINUTE TIMEFRAME.

-Scavino timestamp 17:48 military time.
Q Drop 1748 = Something BIG is about to drop.

-Kayleigh timestamp 18:02 military time.
Q Drop 1802 = Something BIG is about to drop.

-Trump War Room timestamp 17:47 military time.
Q Drop 1747 = Something BIG is about to drop.

Notice the exact same message? 🤯

Coincidence?
Naaah.
SOMETHING BIG *IS* ABOUT TO DROP! 😉

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Sidney Powell, the sum of votes flipped 2M + .#Trump2020Landslide

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https://silview.media/2020/10/04/atomic-bombshell-rothschilds-patented-covid-19-biometric-tests-in-2015-and-2017/
Another interesting find:
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*MAJOR DT COMS:

“NEWS unlocks MAP.
MAP provides KEY.
KEY spreads TRUTH.
TRUTH shines LIGHT.
LIGHT saves HUMANITY.”
– Q

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Today’s reflection ~ Attacks up – Ability to SEE strengthens

 

So…..my bank account is still in limbo……..First the bank gives me full credit – then they take it back and start all over again – this time with the smallest amount.  Who knows when I will get use of it again as it still remains in the negative territory.

Twitter suspended my account – again – third time.  I have no idea why as I haven’t really even been using it other than to get info – which I can still do – but whatever.  I am walking away – not diving back in.

Trolls are trying to come here and get on my email subscriber list – so I am removing those entities/bots.  People attacking online for whatever reason. Ego’s are all over the place.  Mate has on nascar which is showing masonic symbolism and looshing in a way that, well for me, I cannot watch.  IT IS SO OBVIOUS NOW.

Evil is giving a lashing now and isn’t interested in hiding.  Much of today I have had to deflect it – coming from seen and unseen experiences.

I’m still not “getting” why this vaccine agenda is being allowed to go forward – in any way.  Makes me think there is no “good” coming through helping – no “home” – just confusion to deceive us.  So for now – I hold no trust for ANYTHING until I SEE with my own eyes the END RESULT – which is FREEDOM.  And by Freedom – I expand on that – ALL is seen so ALL can make the BEST CHOICE for him/herself.  Until we have that – we’re in a prison.  Last night I heard – again – “trust the plan – do not unite with others and engage in violent takeovers”.  Yeah – still not ruling that one out – anyone awake enough needs to really think of a back-up plan because we are putting our trust in others we have never met – much less most we have never seen.  Tough part of that red pill to swallow.

UGH!  Pass the chocolate!

Love,

V.

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Today’s Current Thought

 

Spotlight | Maggie Taylor | Photoshop.com

I feel like a line was walked over – door closed – so NOW WHAT?

I can feel it within.  As I have stated here many times – I am not a patient person.  It isn’t in my nature – even though I can muster up that energy.  It doesn’t feel natural – it feels like a byproduct of being in this matrix reality.

I feel apprehension – a building in the collective of ok AND??  WHEN CAN WE GO?  WHEN IS IT GO TIME?

That’s all I have today – for now that is.  I’m still feeling into the bank theft from a couple of days ago.  Something is up with that – the odd amounts – none of them containing any cents  – just dollars – telling me this was not about buying items but funneling money in any way they can.  The fact that this is happening to others – at this time – tells me it is global and coordinated.  Even though the amount was credited back to my account – I wonder if that $$ was somehow allowed to slip on through anyway as it would not surprise me one bit to learn the banks are in on this activity too.

It is PIT time for them.

Love,

V.

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A middle-of-the-night insight

 

I went to bed last night distressed over the vaccine issue. So I went to bed thinking HOW IS THIS PART OF SOME DIVINE/LIBERATING PLAN?

But then I remembered something Dr. Tenpenny said about the Moderna vaccine – that no one really knows what’s in it.  Her focus was on the Pfizer vax.  That quiet voice within did not feel worried – but I was still not comfortable with the whole issue.  Then in the middle of the night I woke up and remembered – The Trump Administration rejected Pfizer’s vax and instead worked with Moderna.

So….some reassurance.

SOME.

We are going to need that BIG EVENT and/or healing tech that goes deep within to restore at the cellular level.  (Or UNITE as I keep saying – in person – and DO our own thing.)  Even taking the pfizer vax in ignorance – one is still a victim of evil.  And I have had absolutely ENOUGH of that.

As I type this the song “Band on the Run” comes on…..

If we ever get out of here…..if we ever get out of here…

And the rain exploded with a mighty crash

as we fell into the sun.  

For the Love of every one of us BRING IT ALREADY.  END THE MATRIX.

Love,

V.

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Heads up on the “bank hijack”….An insight….and a check-in

 

So I spoke with a friend of mine today – she had the same experience in recent weeks.  Her debit card was hacked at Amazon and items were purchased at Walmart.  (Whoever stole my card info also went on a spree at Walmart – for me it was literally hundreds of dollars – but as I said last night – it’s been taken care of.  Still the inconvenience – the violation – pure evil.)

So I am thinking – DS outlets – asset$ getting frozen – taking from the people – whatever way they can.  Wouldn’t surprise me in the last.

So – if you shop at Amazon – don’t store your card info there – or anywhere at this point.  I am doing things different from here on out – in  many ways.

The “energy” feel is HAD IT DONE OUT OF PATIENCE OUR TIME IS NOW CONNECT WITH LIKE MINDED ONLY.

I will just leave it at that for now as there is nothing left to add – unless someone is interested in looking into purchasing an abandoned ghost town – mining rights.  Something similar.  Find locations that still allow homesteading.  One of a few ideas we are pondering and seeking to find others in the Vibe Tribe wanting to join in.  This “wait and see” as well as the “keep on trying to wake the masses (WHO ARE PROGRAMMED TO STAY ASLEEP AND THAT IS WHERE THEY REMAIN AND I NO LONGER CARE)” no longer aligns.  At all.

Love,

Victoria

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Special note (on this B of a day):

 

This applies to only a few people – probably not any of my subscribers – but I’m putting this out there about this myself and this site – which is called LOVE IN ACTION NOW.  That’s it – no other name.

My name is Victoria.  Sometimes I go by V.  lol  I post other people’s material regularly – and I always give them credit for that – when I can I link the original back to them.  I say this because I continue to receive emails from others thinking I am Rose or Lisa or Michael Jaco or Red Step Stacker – wanting to talk with me or asking questions when these are merely other truther’s/outlets for whom I share here sometimes.  I hope that clears this up for once and for all.

This was one B of a day – which ended with some twat(s) hijacking my debit card – draining my account.  I have excellent fraud protection and have put an immediate stop to this.  However – given how I felt today and given how evil continues to do its thing without consequence that is powerful & visible enough for me personally – I’m ending this day with a big finger gesture to this reality and eating some dutch chocolate ice cream.  Organic, of course.

Tomorrow will be clear of the energy of today.

Love,

Victoria

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Expanding on today’s earlier share…..

 

My girl wanted to share with me her feeling on this pain/sadness I (and as it looks like – many of us awakened ones) are feeling.  The dimensionals don’t feel sadness – not in the way we do – so they can take anger and change it to sadness – as I wrote one of you – kind of like alchemy perhaps.  She felt her pain was from them.

I couldn’t disagree – and found her share very wise/insightful and absolutely possible.

I still feel – for me though – that much of this pain if not most of it is coming from deep within me.  Now it is possible they are using that inner longing I hold for Home/Elsewhere against me at the moment – amplifying that experience.  So I don’t want to get lost or dwell in that pain.  I want to channel it.

Now and then I will get this nudge and reflect – does it matter now where I came from?  Isn’t it more important to focus on and KNOW and BE who I am today?

I still want the Truth – but there is obviously a blanket/veil placed over us/around us – in some way – still – and I don’t know how to fight that – remove it – destroy it.  Ignorance ain’t bliss – for me – even though now and then I CAN understand that choice (the Cypher affect, as I call it – from The Matrix).

One of you mentioned something in the comments that I found interesting – very interesting – the desire to get on the bike and ride and ride and ride until you are outta here.  I continue to work with a woman doing trauma release – and one of my big “things” I have carried with me throughout my life – is the desire to run or ride my bike – fast – as fast as I can – until I am Free.  Outta their grasp.  Outta their experience.  Original hijack energy is what I have concluded.  We have been working with that – releasing some of that energy – but the desire to get outta here remains.  If I could throw a lasso up to the top of this matrix and pull it all down I would.  Perhaps a collective “LET US OUT LET US FREE” chant is now in order.  All of us – together – as long as it takes.  For I KNOW we the collective have passed the DONE WAITING line.  I ain’t holding it.  I am crossing it.

Love,

Victoria

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Today’s Reflection and Desire: Longing for Purity and HOME

 

How are you all doing/feeling today?  Today’s words for me (and my mate as well):  Longing sadness.

This movie is seriously grating on my energies within.  Even listening to the leaf blower outside – absolute repulsion to Me.  I long for purity.  That is so strong now – more than its ever been for me.  It took a notch upward last night.  In my dreams I was packing – and when I arrived at the airport I realized I didn’t want to go where most were going.  I was also having issues with my suitcases –  one got lost – the one with my clothes.  There were people from my past – I couldn’t go with them so after some struggle (trying to locate my suitcase with the clothes and trying to accept the destination I felt I was supposed to go with these people who I no longer felt any connection to or with) I said I was going Home and walked out of the dream – leaving my suitcase behind.

I woke up shaking – my heart heavy – and hearing the song The Tennessee Waltz going through my mind.  It brought up sadness – a longing for a time that was simple and pure – sweet.  

Is this my pain? I asked of myself – tuning in.  Yes – this current emotional feel is all mine.  I’ve been weeping off and on since last night when this emotional state crept in.  Well, no – it didn’t happen like that – in truth it just came over me like a wave as I was getting ready for sleep.  I was neutral – then suddenly I felt sadness.  My mate asked what was wrong – and once I began to talk the tears poured out of me, I couldn’t talk anymore and I just sorta broke down.

The more ridiculous this entire facade here becomes – the more repelled I am of it.  Sure, I share stuff here – when I feel I can “carry” that.  But at this moment – I cannot look at any of the happenings.  I don’t want to do a darn thing that is related to this world and all of its systems.  I want my tribe.  I want my community.  I want my Freedom.  And I want to go back to this place I call HOME.  Period.

For now, I listen to this song in my heart and imagine….

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Love,

Victoria

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