Category: Daily Notes

 

i was out of the loop today with all of the happenings ~ and it’s likely good for my mind/heart/soul that i was given the headlines i just linked.  yikes!

i was however tuned in to the All earlier – the Flow.  i have a life long friend in town.  we haven’t seen each other in years.  we have always had this common connection and have been able to maintain a friendship even when we have vastly different perceptions at times.  today while in the shower portal, i was thinking about our visit.  she was coming over today and i had been thinking about what to say to her.  what to talk about.  i felt this quiet but still very present sense of urgency to “spill the beans” on the things i have researched and what i perceive as happening here in this realm and outside.  at first i resisted thinking i didn’t want to overwhelm and i did not want to come across as arrogant or preachy but something – the Flow – just came through and essentially said “go for it.  share it all.”  all of it?! i thought.  yes – all of it.

i then had this inner knowing that NOW was the time for her to hear these things.  and again i thought oh that sounds so arrogant – but the feeling of arrogance was not there.  i felt there was a reason she was here in town NOW and that NOW was the time for me to tell her and for her to hear it.

so – a few hours later my beautiful friend arrives.  we hug and laugh and talk….like old girlfriend’s do.  we settle ourselves out back while our girls went into the pool.  we had not seen one another in 4 years and i felt there was so much to say where do i even begin?  we talked for a few minutes – getting into the flow of conversation.  and then i felt it.  felt that nudge and i just began to talk.

i began by talking about the site and how that came about.  then, well, out it came.  the stuff about where we are.  the controller’s inside and outside.  our “fall” (hijack).  the deep state.  jfk’s assassination.  the cia.  the plan.  trump’s role.  even jfk jr.  it just all came out in this flow – in bits – but still in this flow.  my mate wandered in and out of the conversation from a distance and said, “honey don’t redpill her too much!”  i wasn’t trying to do anything really.  this came from my heart.

her eyes popped open wide several times – and she was open and receptive and well, in short, she believed what i was saying – at least she wasn’t surprised.  she’s already very awake to the nonsense in the world.  the media.  politics.  the role of big pharma and the corruption of the medical system.  but, as she said, until just 2-3 weeks ago, she couldn’t stand Trump – but she began to question the insane hatred being thrown at him.

and now, well, she seems to get it.  and she even said she never did feel JFK Jr died.  lol  she is very intuitive.  always has been.

i just know this had Divine Plan in our conversation.  it’s interesting too as she lives in a sanctuary state and her city has become as much of a horror show as has ours – in ways that are a little different but she as well has noticed how this horror just kinda went nuts this year.  she had driven around our town enough to see the tents and campers littering the streets and was shocked – also saw a camp in a local park.  also of interest – her child had displayed similar behaviors recently as has our own girl and a couple of our girl’s friends have as well (according to the parents).  so yeah – she knows something big is up.  and now, i am hoping, she has a better view of what that is.  the more you know, the more you can approach the situation.

i pause – and laugh – as i think how i have rather longed for just one experience where i am sharing my perspective and especially my support ot Trump and not get attacked.  “just one experience,” i have said for some time now.  and today – i received.

it’s crazy out there now.  hold onto one another.  energetically.  physically.  emotionally.  however we can.  and it will be all right.  it will be MORE than all right.

it will be – perfect once again.

love,

victoria

 

Today’s words:  flustered and agitated

WOW!  I feel like I’m birthing a cow – inner energy experience….

Today was a day to just unplug from everything.  No talking.  Solitude.

I had neither.  lol

The drama is off the charts now.  I took one look at twitter and said “uh, no thank you” and exited.  The attacks going on from both sides are at a zenith level now – neither “side” seeing the division they are creating.  There is this external pressure to “pick a side” while the rest of us (myself included) say “i don’t align with picking any side”.  Freedom and love.  Quiet.  Peace. And the inner exhausted voice says “and to be left the frigging he## alone!”

I have been doing a lot of “I Am Love” remembering – reminding myself of just that.  A LOT.  Quietly.  Deep breaths going along w/the doing.  And always and only coming from my Heart space.

One of our neighbors – who doesn’t look into the whole awakening/truther movement – commented that the insanity between the “two sides” is off the charts, most particularly today.

Where is this going?

Is this a giant whirly derby of energy that is going to continue to increase until the bubble bursts and suddenly we’re all just finally AWAKE?  The energy increases until it hits TRUE Zero Point?

Where all just IS………….

And in that all just IS………..no one harms another.

Live and Let Live.

As I continue to say.  (i have mastered persistence in sharing a message – i am a mother….sounds better than saying i am a master nagger)

This is more than just physical human being’s and their human parts.  This is an Energy pushing through this entire realm exposing and purging and cleaning and sucking up and out anything that ain’t going forward.  And this will continue until the end of this year, I feel.  I keep feeling/getting that NOTHING of the “old” ways goes forward into next year.  There is indeed a cut off point – a space and a place we can measure on our calendars – when all of this chaos ends.

And I feel we will have days that are energetically more in alignment with peace.  Love.  Freedom.  Soft, gentle energies of Home/Original Source Experience.  If this is what is happening as I have described, that would be the Loving way…..like cleaning a house that has become totally cluttered. You feel ick cleaning until you find a space of beautiful flooring again and feel that relief/calm energetically – until you work on the next spot.

Back and forth until the whole space is Clean.

Source providing the vacuum power – we guiding the machine.

Or something like that.

For now – as I said earlier today during a moment of intense drama inside the household:   When you are getting lost in intense emotions that don’t feel so good you just suck it up and DO the best you can and BE the best you WANT to be in that moment.

Love,

Victoria

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had a couple of “look at the tv” moments.  all day i thought of and felt into “Home” so “East” and “Almost Home” was a nice synchro moment.  and our little mischievous squirrel, who lives in our tree out front, was taking a break, enjoying the coolness of the sidewalk.  it was 90 here – the hottest we have seen in weeks. i thought he looked cute lying there like that.  the moon in the sky looked quite stunning.  we bartered an older telescope for a camera a couple of weeks ago and as you can see – it takes really nice pictures.  enjoy!

love,

victoria

 

 

We are in need of an extra $500 for the month with expenses/repairs.  As I have said, our income took a $240/month hit since January.  This doesn’t include the cost of food hikes either.  The temporary work I was doing for our neighbor has ended.

Could really use the help.  As I say – all contributing just a few dollars each month would alleviate this ongoing financial burden.  Thank you and much love.

Victoria

 

when i shared my reflection piece earlier today i had a real challenge posting it. first i was not able to include a photo.  the one i really wanted refused to upload.  so i settled on the one i included.  then the site would not post the article.  kept getting an error warning.

this “challenging” experience went on for almost 25 minutes.  i finally announced “ok nice try – i will not be blocked sharing this one”….but deep within i felt it wasn’t a “negative” block but something guiding me to sit on it and wait – the “perfect” photo had not yet been found to include in the piece.

waiting is not my strong point so i resisted and posted again.  took me a couple more tries but it went through.  energetically i still felt – the piece was not ready.  i had settled on the photo.

i went about my afternoon.  about 30 minutes later i walk into the living room.  something guides me to look at the television to see the song playing.:

there it was.  Reflection.  Coming Home.  the perfect photo to use for my piece.  i just had to wait a little while.  the experience had me in tears.  i bring out the camera to show my mate – outside.  i could hardly get the words out w/o my voice shaking so i whispered it.  once he saw the photo on my camera screen his eyes teared up, a huge smile appeared on his face as he said, laughing “oh wow that is a synchronicity!  we are so ready!”

energetically i don’t know how much more of this “misalignment” experience here i can endure.  it is only increasing.  i am also finding some of my other conversations with others who are saying they are feeling SOMETHING has to switch here.  the way things have been and are simply cannot continue.

as i type this i receive a message from brother rick about home.  “new body. new name.  new earth.  all in a flash.”

we are ready.

love,

victoria

 

 

 

the headlines are just too difficult for me to read today.  batsheot crazy.  i couldn’t bring myself to share any of them.  so instead i am sharing fun, cool stuff tonight.  on my walk today i took some photos of life.  the first one looks just like the sun but i noticed something dark off to the left (that black object on the right is always there – on my camera lens).  it’s darker in the first photo, lighter in the second – but something is there.  the rest are self explanatory – flowers i stopped to enjoy.  the last photo is tonight’s dinner – coconut chicken and rice with ginger, cinnamon, scallions and zucchini. very tasty.

energetically i felt lighter today.  enjoyed that long walk, the music i listened to and the time alone.

 

when i awoke this morning, i felt a heaviness.  it wasn’t overwhelming – it was almost a gentle heaviness – a mix actually like part relief part sad – quite somber overall.  i tuned in – knew it wasn’t mine.  i again felt it was a loss of some kind.  some sadness but also this knowing – this is all for a reason.  a purpose in the loss.

well i pushed that aside and tried to find the answer in my logical mind – what would make sense?  my original feel or was it a continued mourning for the shootings.  so i tried to settle into the idea that it was the collective mourning the shootings and hesitantly held onto that theory all day – and yet – i could not fully mesh with that within.  

so i tuned in again later this evening and i thought perhaps it was more cleaning up – like some “bad actors” getting removed.  i returned to what i felt this morning – and that just felt more right.  in war there is loss – of the “good fighters” and the “bad doers”.  if that’s what happened last night and into the start of today, that would explain the rather paradoxical feeling of heaviness i had this morning.  whatever this “loss” – it felt significant – big enough for me to feel that is.

and then i was guided to check Trump’s tweets before going to sleep and i found this very interesting re-tweet from June 6 – commemorating the 75th Anniversary of DDay.  why would he share this again?  and on the 6th – 2 months later?  perhaps something DID shift today in the battle behind the scenes.  significant progress along with significant loss of life – which is what DDAY was.

this war is as we know is largely behind the scenes.  it has to be.  it isn’t as though we were invaded by an outside enemy suddenly and quickly.  we were hijacked and invaded long ago and have been enslaved in a VARIETY of means for, well, who knows how long.  this enslavement has become just a way of life – blinding the masses to the true danger of it, the insidious nature of it.  so announcing a plan of war in such a situation would be very destructive to that plan.  unawakened minds – simply not able to grasp.

As we commemorate #DDay75, let us give thanks for the valiant Allied soldiers who helped turn the tide of the Second World War on that fateful day. pic.twitter.com/mDaOLrSdqp

— Leader McConnell (@senatemajldr) June 6, 2019

 

i had a conversation today and i was sharing alternative (non-MSM narrative) info on the recent shootings.  if it was “real” it would show up on CNN or NBC was the response.

sigh.

the only way – that i continue to see – there will be an awakening among those who are still plugged in will have to be a new narrative that will have to be spoon-fed to them via their favorite outlets – at least in the beginning – and even then if a new face appears – there will be heavy resistance.  i feel the addiction to the perfectly groomed face on the screen is stronger than is the addiction to the information being shared.

and indeed – more trust is put in to the familiar face on the screen than is placed in we awakened family/friends/neighbors.

how sad is that?

how sad is it that family holds more trust in some media pundit or church leader than in a fellow family member.

same for friends.

i have said the words “why would i lie to you?  i have no motive to do anything but tell you the truth.  you KNOW i care about you, right?  it’s not like i have a corporate sponsorship and contracts keeping me in line with this information i am sharing.”

i am a seeker of Truth – not some information junkie and certainly not someone who seeks to fill up my space here or with my personal conversations with anything i find to be simply sensationalistic (yes that is going to have to be a “real” word for this piece).  sensationalism sells – but if it feels off to me i don’t share it.  and if i later find out something i share is false news – i pull it.  if it has some truth but still holds something that is false – i update.  in short – if a piece of information or an opinion has changed – on paper and/or in my mind and heart – i share the new perspective.

that person on the pulpit or on the television screen is getting PAID – often a ridiculous amount of money – to spoon-feed the masses a narrative.  an agenda.  as such that agenda is likely manipulated in order to keep you coming back for more.  and today – more than at any point in our experience here – the energy of attack and ensuing drama is at an all time peak.

do they not see this?  do they not care?  don’t they FEEL that ugh in their bodies when they watch or listen to this crap?  are they so desensitized to it – it goes unnoticed?

i follow a myriad of local social media boards – and overall in my community people put more concern in using correct language and allowing for ALL to enter our country regardless – than they do in seeing the homeless crisis – than they do in seeing the needles and trash and human excrement littering our walkways and parks and waterways.

apparently i am officially burned out.  i know i more or less “preach to the choir” here – and yet – what good is it doing?  am i really having a positive impact in this awakening at this point?  i know i provide reassurance to many of you for you have told me so – so that is what keeps me going.  but now – doesn’t it feel like we have reached this point of “what now?” perhaps this really is the (highly uncomfortable) calm before the storm – the storm – when ALL is FINALLY seen FOR all – regardless or whether one wishes to see it or not.

perhaps then i and others of you will feel more of a sense of purpose – where we will feel we have a place – where we will feel we are being seen and heard by those who really NEED it.

for now – this in between “space” kinda sucks.  lol

carrying on in love,

victoria

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