So…..I have been in search of a Chiropractor for some time who will be willing to bill my insurance company. My plan covers Chiropractic coverage. I had found someone just 6 blocks from me and I was so excited about the possibility of seeing her. She is an awesome with diagnostics and has a great history of helping people with a variety of ailments. I heard back from her today – they do not bill my insurance due to low reimbursement rates.
This brings up – a lot. All of the stories about money. Living in poverty (in terms of income). I feel absolutely pressed up against a wall now with both my mate and my health issues – not able to be addressed in the ways we need because of bleeping bleeping bleep bleep money.
Is this year “the end”?
Is 2020 really the dawn of the New – EVERYTHING?
Until then – please – if you are a subscriber and you value the work I do – please consider donating to my site (regularly if you can) as well. Even just a couple of dollars each month – done by the hundreds who visit here – will add up quickly. I have done all I know how to do at this point to alleviate my health issues and now I need the good people of this realm to help me out in taking the next step.
we continue to read “you are watching a movie”. tonight in my shower portal this phrase popped into my mind and i had a feeling come through me – it is possible this movie is going to play out differently for all of us. the ending will depend upon our beliefs, our perceptions, our desires and needs.
when we go to a movie we may not feel the same or view it in the same manner as others in the theater. millions would watch the same scene and there would be a lot of different interpretations and perceptions.
or we may have such disdain for the movie we simply walk out or unplug from it. i simply do not see all uniting under one ending – unless something metaphysical comes through us – something not of this realm – something like The Event (we don’t hear much about that these days). but even then – while we are One – we are not the same.
i have a variety of other thoughts going through my mind – most of them focused on changing how this movie is playing out. if trump and team have access to time travel (which i have seen ample evidence for that) – they would see these shooting’s take place and would have the opportunity to intervene and stop them. why isn’t this being done? i know these are staged events – but people get hurt. people die. adults and children. and people experience trauma. why allow this to continue? doesn’t matter if it’s all an illusion – we still FEEL the experience as we are now. keep raising those vibes while the movie on the screen in front of you continues to traumatize you. no thank you.
makes me want to do these things – especially the past few days:
make my own movie – my own ending. i’ve seen enough. i know enough about this realm – what has happened, what has gone on, what is going on. what i WANT to know is where is Home – how do we transition there – and WHEN….what that looks like – and celebrate and create again with Original Family/Tribe.
for now it’s blankies and cake.
love,
victoria
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i was awake right around dawn. as i returned to sleep, i intended to “go Home” for a visit. actually it felt more like i was guided to allow the experience to go Home. i fell asleep almost immediately upon having that thought. and this is what happened…..
the dream started off with a group of us on a bus. it was a luxury bus. i saw my husband, daughter and lisa harrison – a few others that felt familiar but i did not “know” who they were at the time. we were nearing the end of the ride/trip and i walked up front to ask the driver about using the restroom. i was surprised seeing the driver – she was beautiful – young, long thick coarse hair – big green eyes, slender nose – the way i would want to look if i could choose. i had expected to see some grumpy old person – perhaps male – so seeing her was a nice surprise. she smiled at me and gave me a look that radiated pure love and compassion. “you don’t need to use the restroom on this bus,” she said. i was not fully trusting of her words though (my ever present skepticism) so i headed back towards my seat and that is when i heard my girl say “here mama you can use one here” – as though i could manifest one on this particular bus just by calling for it – holding the intention.
so as i glance back to my seat the back door had opened and i saw the most beautiful forest and sunlight. i could feel the air – it was PERFECT. cool with the temp of the sun being perfect. again – my version of perfection. the need to use the restroom had left.
as i stood there in a bit of wonder at what i was seeing – and saw a childhood friend motion me back – the dream switched and suddenly i am plopped down in the kitchen at the new house at Home. it was HUGE – massive – wooden – very high ceilings. i feel my child and hear her running around off to my left (saying things like “mama LOOK!”) – and in front of me my mate pops in – excited. we’re both saying “We made it! we made it! we’re here we’re really here!” and he looks different. i knew it was him – but physically he was much younger, much shorter hair – face was a little different too – but i knew it was him.
so we go exploring in the house and i realized – i could change things at will if i wanted to. and it was like the house continued to expand based on what i wanted it to look like. instant manifestation. and i could change it again or back to how it was if i wanted. i was like a kid in a candy store. lol
one really cool piece – as i was checking out the kitchen i noticed a refrig – and it looked far too small but something guided me to open it and as i did – it was HUGE inside – just like a scene out of one of the harry potter movies where the tents they camp in look normal on the outside but inside? massive and luxurious – created purely based on what they desired.
i then saw a family from my neighborhood here and was happy to see them – although they appeared to be going into their own experience – and i was not even fully sure they were in knowing of what had just transpired and what was happening. and i also felt the lake close by. brother rick has spoken of a lake in our area for over 2 years and i have yet to see it. but last night – i knew it was there and i knew it was very close.
as i later felt into this experience, i realized the driver of the bus was big Me driving me and my personal experience Home. it is very possible if not likely we all look different at Home – in our real bodies.
and that – was the experience. tonight i am going to explore again the intel from David Cowan and his reflection on these “end times” – in particular the 2019 year/date he gave which he said marked the end of the experience here. as most of you have probably figured out by now, i like to put together little pieces of this puzzle to form a bigger picture. my mate is currently focused on (and being guided to) seeing the changes in our atmosphere – how it is literally being compressed which aligns w/his vision of the transition/end. 2 videos have already appeared again for him just this morning on this topic.
this is indeed happening – and as i have felt all along – it will be as gentle as can be. no global cataclysmic events – that was all part of “their” end game here for us. but that game was been given the big CANCEL CLEAR DELETE stamp long ago.
it’s shower portal time reflection. tonight i was putting together a description of where we are – how we got here – and what’s going on now. i have been working on ways to talk to those who are open/seeking – putting it all together in a way that is easy to understand – and innerstand – in a story-like formula – in as few words as i can – all based on my feels and the research i have done going back 20 some years.
as i was putting this together i thought of Home. what exactly does this term mean? what does it look like? for some reason i felt now was the “time” to get clear on this.
it is Individual. and the only thing that came to me – through me – was Home is our Original Experience before the hijack. what is Home to me may be different for you. we likely had different forms. different ways of being/living. but ALL was Original Universal Creation. no separation. live and let live. create and let create. i know i have spoken similar words here often – but tonight – it “synched up” within.
how many life cycles this has gone on, i have no idea. 10. a million. i don’t know and i can’t feel much into this other than i feel it is possible they reset this realm “many times” – wiped us out – and reinserted again. i theorized that in recent weeks here and still feel there is some truth in that. certainly it is plausible.
for me Home is about nature. trees. LOTS of trees. luscious fruits. connection. celebration. music. dancing. ocean. water. and i am sure other ways of being i have not remembered yet.
but the feeling is powerful. solid. sustaining. and it comes from deep within.
A couple of days ago I postulated the question: Is it possible the magnetic field has actually kept us isolated? (and in quarantine)
I put this on a social media page and dani arnold mckinney – who runs the Removingtheshackles channel on youtube – said it was actually a current theory on the table.
So there you go.
As I feel into this – if we were in a truly supportive Universal energy experience (which is so blatingly obvious by now we don’t) – would we have to be (allegedly) protected from other Universal forces? No. Such a “need” speaks loudly that that barrier kept out the good stuff and kept us isolated and trapped from that good stuff.
Support is support. And all is in alignment in a supportive environment.
It is breaking down and allowing TRUE UNIVERSAL ENERGIES to enter – bringing us back Home. That’s why NO ONE can explain where these new energies are coming from as they are not coming from this object we call the “sun” here. As I told my friend today – I am not a scientist but I do have a good inner sense about things sometimes.
So last night I was in this large auditorium. Felt like a political rally (I did not know POTUS was having one tonight, btw). There was a sea of blue, however and I was in a corner with 5 other people, in red. In this experience, HRC won and the people went nuts. I felt this huge sinking sensation and I shook my head as I told those around me that they were responsible for the end of the world that was coming because of who they voted for. The verbal attacks and poking began, so I said “i’m outta here – not my reality – you can have that experience” so I and these 5 others walked out.
I found a door, opened it and walked out into beautiful sunshine.
However, there was a male there that looked like Ed Harris – the actor – who was the Director in the movie “The Truman Show”. He smiled his beautiful smile and held his hands out to me for an embrace. I walked over and at first collapsed into him feeling so low and in so much despair. He patted my back but then – I remembered. I pulled away and said “Wait – I know who you are. You are the one who created this matrix. I’m going my own way.” and I looked ahead and saw a long walking path and said “that’s where I’m going”. I and the group of 5 took off for it and the experience ended.
Attacks are indeed heightened right now. As we know – this is more than just a ground war (albeit it quite hidden) here – but an ending of the harvesting experience – an ending of the control experience – an ending of the enslavement experience. ALL that has used and abused and harnessed our energy is ENDING. E N D I N G. And they know it.
And most importantly – WE know it too.
We got this.
Love,
Victoria
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i felt poked and triggered all day today. it started when we woke up to a dead rat in our yard. it had been chewed up and left behind. our neighbor’s cat roams freely and frequents our yard regularly at night (talking with the owner is pointless). at times this cat has left dead animals in our yard and i am fed up with it. i was sharing this with another neighbor and stated how i was at the point of saving these dead animals, placing them in a box and delivering them to the owner’s house so she can deal with the messes her cat is leaving in my yard. no no no don’t do that, she said shaking her head, frowning. that’s not ok. that’s what cats do.
well i should have known better – this person is not the most awakened person. so i asked her if she would prefer i deliver the cat to her house so she can be left these presents. she literally gave me a blank stare.
anyone home with some of these people? it’s like i literally witness them experiencing a new concept they cannot comprehend. a new program. i sympathize. and yet i am also just plain tired and fed up with having these experiences with others. the people in my sanctuary world have more sympathy towards the rights of sex offenders, illegal immigrants and drugged out homeless people who steal and poop all over the place than they do with law abiding people just trying to survive. it is soooo apparent now the programming and agenda has worked here. if i walked down the street with a MAGA hat on while saying “i am a PROUD white woman” – heads may implode.
i saw some new bumper stickers around town too: “make america not be an embarrassment again”. i shook my head and kept going. then my social media seemed to flood me with stuff known to trigger me.
with each experience i said “i see what you’re doing. not feeding you.”
unplug. unplug. unplug.
and at the same time thinking and feeling – i am so done with this absolute bullshit.
validation came when i saw a MEME asking this: “Any of you feel you are being seriously triggered today? more than usual?”
YES YES and YES!
also felt really slammed mid afternoon with “something” that came in energetically and tempted to floor me. i heard from sister d who said she felt something around the same time. i had things to do so i pushed through it.
i felt the equal draw to lash back and to respond with love today – and i engaged in both choices. likely if i had rested in the way i needed, love would have been the only choice. it certainly did not help having a mate who was in a major down space today – combination of exhaustion, health issues and extremely grumpy from cleaning out a very hot, dusty garage. downsizing. i helped when i could. trigger trigger trigger for both of us – having to get rid of even more of our stuff we otherwise would like to keep but have no room for as we have been unable to find a bigger place we can afford plus we also really need the money to fix the #%@! dishwasher so some items are now up for sale.
pay to live is madness. feeling isolated here is madness.
i had such a beautiful dream last night. i was dancing – sometimes alone – sometimes with others. i felt young – was young – and i was covering the entire dance floor. i felt amazing. AMAZING! all of this was just flooding out of my heart center. at one point some pesky entity disguised as some girl from my past (who made my life hell in high school w/her relentless bullying) walked over to me – attempting to break up the moment of joy i was having dancing with someone. i looked down at her – put my fingers in her eyes and nose and pushed her away while saying “i never did like that girl” then went on with my wonder and fun.
as i woke up i carried that beautiful feeling of love and connection and vitality and joy and creating. i began to shut down the experience for i was “awake” now and that was “just a dream” so best to let it go and focus on “reality”. that is when i felt this powerful but gentle force within call on me to embrace the experience. those experiences while our body is resting are every bit as real as the experiences we have when fully “awake” and functioning in this 3d type experience. inner me said “seek them now wherever you can – even if in dream state.” the message was clear – SEEK THEM NOW. call them forth. THAT is who we are and THAT is who we were Originally created TO be. ALL experiences are in Joy and Freedom – and ALL from the Heart.
the synchronicities that began to flow after that – off the charts! energy from Home – HUGE! even now as i type this the new song to just come on the music channel – “Heart Chakra”. last night i read some message – and now i can’t recall where – about how the Love is now pouring into this realm and we will be feeling it at any moment. i thought “yeah i will believe when i feel that.”
ok so i am feeling it.
after breakfast, i began reflecting on relationships – how restricted they are here. how restricted EVERY THING is here. we have been (HAD been) removed from the most beautiful energy space of the Universe – having only little bits of that flow enter our lives now and then – when in Truth my friends – we are to be in that Flow CONTINUOUSLY. WITHOUT EFFORT. without asking or praying or meditating. we are One with it – ALWAYS.
and we are being returned back to that Flow. it IS powerful and I am feeling it happen – at least in my experience – likely as a prep – for yes it can feel almost overwhelming. but hey – i am an excellent “student” and i learn/adapt quickly. and remember, too.
so back to relationships. i have been thinking of people from my past with whom i felt connections with. it seems, at times, the most beautiful and most heart-felt relationships whether they are friends or family or lovers are pulled apart. those tragic stories we see on the tv screen and all of “that” are just indicators that this matrix energy space has indeed created that destruction. Original Source would NEVER EVER EVER create such an experience. what would be the point? what point is there in suffering and in loss and grief? NONE…. other than to feed some entity who “gets off” on seeing others suffer.
yeah – ENOUGH OF THAT.
we are in our heart – LONGING to connect with one another – openly and freely. LOVE SUPPORTS THAT. LOVE SUPPORTS FREEDOM.
so the synchro’s today – aside from the one i shared above….prior to that i received a message from sister deborah earlier and we exchanged some thoughts back and forth. she had this amazing experience this morning and the person left her with a phrase that struck out at me – it was the SAME PHRASE someone from my long ago past left me with – and this same person entered my “space” again in recent days. a very unusual phrase too – “next time i see you will be in heaven”. who says that? i’ve never said it. but i heard it just once decades ago – and sister d – today.
as i felt into all of these reflections and synchro’s – i was called to look at the television again and look at the title of the song. “song of the banshee.” when this friend of mine from the past who said the “see you in heaven next time” told me of the birth of their child, they said they “wailed like a banshee”. i had no idea what that meant at the time so i had to figure that one out. but that word “banshee” has stayed with me ever since. so yeah, imagine my “uhhhh” moment for the brain when i saw that word in a song title. (below)
no one gets to tell us how to live or be or do any more. NO ONE. no one or no thing gets to bully their way into our space and tell us “NO” to what it is we desire to create. that experience is absolutely contrary to Original Source Experience.
when i woke up this morning – after having the insight into finding love in ALL experiences including dream state – i heard “it is time. i am ready to go Home.” energetically that is lining up. has lined up. not just from within but also because of what is being accomplished OUT THERE energetically and literally to allow us TO walk into that state – that experience – of love and freedom once again.
This is the approach I have been taking lately. I don’t really share information now. I ask questions – put the responsibility to search further upon the individual. Here are some examples of questions I have been asking:
Do you feel this planet, this space we occupy, is a place where love and freedom govern our experience? (i always get a “no” – so then i ask “why do you think that is” and leave it at that)
Has ANY political party anywhere in this planet been able to solve our ongoing problems of disease, war, poverty, homelessness, etc.? (again i always get a “no” so then i ask, again, “why do you think that is – and leave it at that)
Have you EVER seen the media attack a president the way they do Trump? Have you EVER seen such a deep focus on what he says and what he does? (again – i get the “no” and ask them to contemplate why that is)
Has Trump started any wars? Has he called for any invasions and occupations? i get a pause and usually a “no” so then i ask… Have we seen that in the last 40 some years with any previous president? No? Why do you think that is?
If they are more open-minded and want to go deep, I share this one with them: “Did you know Trump tweeted a few months ago about keeping out criminals in ALL DIMENSIONS? What do you think he meant by that?”
