Category: Daily Notes

 

when i awoke this morning, i felt a heaviness.  it wasn’t overwhelming – it was almost a gentle heaviness – a mix actually like part relief part sad – quite somber overall.  i tuned in – knew it wasn’t mine.  i again felt it was a loss of some kind.  some sadness but also this knowing – this is all for a reason.  a purpose in the loss.

well i pushed that aside and tried to find the answer in my logical mind – what would make sense?  my original feel or was it a continued mourning for the shootings.  so i tried to settle into the idea that it was the collective mourning the shootings and hesitantly held onto that theory all day – and yet – i could not fully mesh with that within.  

so i tuned in again later this evening and i thought perhaps it was more cleaning up – like some “bad actors” getting removed.  i returned to what i felt this morning – and that just felt more right.  in war there is loss – of the “good fighters” and the “bad doers”.  if that’s what happened last night and into the start of today, that would explain the rather paradoxical feeling of heaviness i had this morning.  whatever this “loss” – it felt significant – big enough for me to feel that is.

and then i was guided to check Trump’s tweets before going to sleep and i found this very interesting re-tweet from June 6 – commemorating the 75th Anniversary of DDay.  why would he share this again?  and on the 6th – 2 months later?  perhaps something DID shift today in the battle behind the scenes.  significant progress along with significant loss of life – which is what DDAY was.

this war is as we know is largely behind the scenes.  it has to be.  it isn’t as though we were invaded by an outside enemy suddenly and quickly.  we were hijacked and invaded long ago and have been enslaved in a VARIETY of means for, well, who knows how long.  this enslavement has become just a way of life – blinding the masses to the true danger of it, the insidious nature of it.  so announcing a plan of war in such a situation would be very destructive to that plan.  unawakened minds – simply not able to grasp.

As we commemorate #DDay75, let us give thanks for the valiant Allied soldiers who helped turn the tide of the Second World War on that fateful day. pic.twitter.com/mDaOLrSdqp

— Leader McConnell (@senatemajldr) June 6, 2019

 

i had a conversation today and i was sharing alternative (non-MSM narrative) info on the recent shootings.  if it was “real” it would show up on CNN or NBC was the response.

sigh.

the only way – that i continue to see – there will be an awakening among those who are still plugged in will have to be a new narrative that will have to be spoon-fed to them via their favorite outlets – at least in the beginning – and even then if a new face appears – there will be heavy resistance.  i feel the addiction to the perfectly groomed face on the screen is stronger than is the addiction to the information being shared.

and indeed – more trust is put in to the familiar face on the screen than is placed in we awakened family/friends/neighbors.

how sad is that?

how sad is it that family holds more trust in some media pundit or church leader than in a fellow family member.

same for friends.

i have said the words “why would i lie to you?  i have no motive to do anything but tell you the truth.  you KNOW i care about you, right?  it’s not like i have a corporate sponsorship and contracts keeping me in line with this information i am sharing.”

i am a seeker of Truth – not some information junkie and certainly not someone who seeks to fill up my space here or with my personal conversations with anything i find to be simply sensationalistic (yes that is going to have to be a “real” word for this piece).  sensationalism sells – but if it feels off to me i don’t share it.  and if i later find out something i share is false news – i pull it.  if it has some truth but still holds something that is false – i update.  in short – if a piece of information or an opinion has changed – on paper and/or in my mind and heart – i share the new perspective.

that person on the pulpit or on the television screen is getting PAID – often a ridiculous amount of money – to spoon-feed the masses a narrative.  an agenda.  as such that agenda is likely manipulated in order to keep you coming back for more.  and today – more than at any point in our experience here – the energy of attack and ensuing drama is at an all time peak.

do they not see this?  do they not care?  don’t they FEEL that ugh in their bodies when they watch or listen to this crap?  are they so desensitized to it – it goes unnoticed?

i follow a myriad of local social media boards – and overall in my community people put more concern in using correct language and allowing for ALL to enter our country regardless – than they do in seeing the homeless crisis – than they do in seeing the needles and trash and human excrement littering our walkways and parks and waterways.

apparently i am officially burned out.  i know i more or less “preach to the choir” here – and yet – what good is it doing?  am i really having a positive impact in this awakening at this point?  i know i provide reassurance to many of you for you have told me so – so that is what keeps me going.  but now – doesn’t it feel like we have reached this point of “what now?” perhaps this really is the (highly uncomfortable) calm before the storm – the storm – when ALL is FINALLY seen FOR all – regardless or whether one wishes to see it or not.

perhaps then i and others of you will feel more of a sense of purpose – where we will feel we have a place – where we will feel we are being seen and heard by those who really NEED it.

for now – this in between “space” kinda sucks.  lol

carrying on in love,

victoria

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So…..I have been in search of a Chiropractor for some time who will be willing to bill my insurance company.  My plan covers Chiropractic coverage.  I had found someone just 6 blocks from me and I was so excited about the possibility of seeing her.  She is an awesome with diagnostics and has a great history of helping people with a variety of ailments.  I heard back from her today – they do not bill my insurance due to low reimbursement rates.

This brings up – a lot.  All of the stories about money.  Living in poverty (in terms of income).  I feel absolutely pressed up against a wall now with both my mate and my health issues – not able to be addressed in the ways we need because of bleeping bleeping bleep bleep money.

Is this year “the end”?

Is 2020 really the dawn of the New – EVERYTHING?

Until then – please – if you are a subscriber and you value the work I do – please consider donating to my site (regularly if you can) as well.  Even just a couple of dollars each month – done by the hundreds who visit here – will add up quickly.  I have done all I know how to do at this point to alleviate my health issues and now I need the good people of this realm to help me out in taking the next step.

Thank you.

Love,

Victoria

 

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we continue to read “you are watching a movie”.  tonight in my shower portal this phrase popped into my mind and i had a feeling come through me – it is possible this movie is going to play out differently for all of us.  the ending will depend upon our beliefs, our perceptions, our desires and needs.

when we go to a movie we may not feel the same or view it in the same manner as others in the theater.  millions would watch the same scene and there would be a lot of different interpretations and perceptions.

or we may have such disdain for the movie we simply walk out or unplug from it.  i simply do not see all uniting under one ending – unless something metaphysical comes through us – something not of this realm – something like The Event (we don’t hear much about that these days).  but even then – while we are One – we are not the same.

i have a variety of other thoughts going through my mind – most of them focused on changing how this movie is playing out.  if trump and team have access to time travel (which i have seen ample evidence for that) – they would see these shooting’s take place and would have the opportunity to intervene and stop them.  why isn’t this being done?  i know these are staged events – but people get hurt.  people die.  adults and children.  and people experience trauma.  why allow this to continue?  doesn’t matter if it’s all an illusion – we still FEEL the experience as we are now.  keep raising those vibes while the movie on the screen in front of you continues to traumatize you.  no thank you.

makes me want to do these things – especially the past few days:

make my own movie – my own ending.  i’ve seen enough.  i know enough about this realm – what has happened, what has gone on, what is going on. what i WANT to know is where is Home – how do we transition there – and WHEN….what that looks like – and celebrate and create again with Original Family/Tribe.

for now it’s blankies and cake.

love,

victoria

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it’s shower portal time reflection.  tonight i was putting together a description of where we are – how we got here – and what’s going on now. i have been working on ways to talk to those who are open/seeking – putting it all together in a way that is easy to understand – and innerstand – in a story-like formula – in as few words as i can – all based on my feels and the research i have done going back 20 some years.

as i was putting this together i thought of Home.  what exactly does this term mean?  what does it look like?  for some reason i felt now was the “time” to get clear on this.

it is Individual.  and the only thing that came to me – through me – was Home is our Original Experience before the hijack.  what is Home to me may be different for you.  we likely had different forms.  different ways of being/living.  but ALL was Original Universal Creation.  no separation.  live and let live.  create and let create.  i know i have spoken similar words here often – but tonight – it “synched up” within.

how many life cycles this has gone on, i have no idea.  10.  a million.  i don’t know and i can’t feel much into this other than i feel it is possible they reset this realm “many times” – wiped us out – and reinserted again.  i theorized that in recent weeks here and still feel there is some truth in that.  certainly it is plausible.

for me Home is about nature.  trees.  LOTS of trees.  luscious fruits. connection.  celebration.  music.  dancing.  ocean.  water.  and i am sure other ways of being i have not remembered yet.

but the feeling is powerful.  solid.  sustaining.  and it comes from deep within.

love,

victoria

 

A couple of days ago I postulated the question:  Is it possible the magnetic field has actually kept us isolated?  (and in quarantine)

I put this on a social media page and dani arnold mckinney – who runs the Removingtheshackles channel on youtube – said it was actually a current theory on the table.

So there you go.

As I feel into this – if we were in a truly supportive Universal energy experience (which is so blatingly obvious by now we don’t) – would we have to be (allegedly) protected from other Universal forces?  No.  Such a “need” speaks loudly that that barrier kept out the good stuff and kept us isolated and trapped from that good stuff.

Support is support.  And all is in alignment in a supportive environment.

It is breaking down and allowing TRUE UNIVERSAL ENERGIES to enter – bringing us back Home.  That’s why NO ONE can explain where these new energies are coming from as they are not coming from this object we call the “sun” here.  As I told my friend today – I am not a scientist but I do have a good inner sense about things sometimes.

And with this – I feel I am spot on.

Love,

Victoria

 

So last night I was in this large auditorium.  Felt like a political rally (I did not know POTUS was having one tonight, btw).  There was a sea of blue, however and I was in a corner with 5 other people, in red.  In this experience, HRC won and the people went nuts.  I felt this huge sinking sensation and I shook my head as I told those around me that they were responsible for the end of the world that was coming because of who they voted for.  The verbal attacks and poking began, so I said “i’m outta here – not my reality – you can have that experience” so I and these 5 others walked out.

I found a door, opened it and walked out into beautiful sunshine.

However, there was a male there that looked like Ed Harris – the actor – who was the Director in the movie “The Truman Show”.  He smiled his beautiful smile and held his hands out to me for an embrace.  I walked over and at first collapsed into him feeling so low and in so much despair.  He patted my back but then – I remembered.  I pulled away and said “Wait – I know who you are.  You are the one who created this matrix.  I’m going my own way.” and I looked ahead and saw a long walking path and said “that’s where I’m going”.  I and the group of 5 took off for it and the experience ended.

Attacks are indeed heightened right now.  As we know – this is more than just a ground war (albeit it quite hidden) here – but an ending of the harvesting experience – an ending of the control experience – an ending of the enslavement experience.  ALL that has used and abused and harnessed our energy is ENDING.  E N D I N G.  And they know it.

And most importantly – WE know it too.

We got this.

Love,

Victoria

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working on another one to help increase the income by selling my tooth powder.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1yur1GhINfSUN17hUimnEsh1rFuuR01_pyVj5t9iOacQ/edit?usp=sharing

 

i felt poked and triggered all day today.  it started when we woke up to a dead rat in our yard.  it had been chewed up and left behind.  our neighbor’s cat roams freely and frequents our yard regularly at night (talking with the owner is pointless).  at times this cat has left dead animals in our yard and i am fed up with it.  i was sharing this with another neighbor and stated how i was at the point of saving these dead animals, placing them in a box and delivering them to the owner’s house so she can deal with the messes her cat is leaving in my yard.  no no no don’t do that, she said shaking her head, frowning.  that’s not ok.  that’s what cats do.

well i should have known better – this person is not the most awakened person.  so i asked her if she would prefer i deliver the cat to her house so she can be left these presents.   she literally gave me a blank stare.

anyone home with some of these people?  it’s like i literally witness them experiencing a new concept they cannot comprehend.  a new program.  i sympathize.  and yet i am also just plain tired and fed up with having these experiences with others.  the people in my sanctuary world have more sympathy towards the rights of sex offenders, illegal immigrants and drugged out homeless people who steal and poop all over the place than they do with law abiding people just trying to survive.  it is soooo apparent now the programming and agenda has worked here.  if i walked down the street with a MAGA hat on while saying “i am a PROUD white woman” – heads may implode.

i saw some new bumper stickers around town too:  “make america not be an embarrassment again”.  i shook my head and kept going.  then my social media seemed to flood me with stuff known to trigger me.

with each experience i said “i see what you’re doing.  not feeding you.”

unplug.  unplug.  unplug.

and at the same time thinking and feeling – i am so done with this absolute bullshit.

validation came when i saw a MEME asking this:  “Any of you feel you are being seriously triggered today?  more than usual?”

YES YES and YES!

also felt really slammed mid afternoon with “something” that came in energetically and tempted to floor me.  i heard from sister d who said she felt something around the same time.  i had things to do so i pushed through it.

i felt the equal draw to lash back and to respond with love today – and i engaged in both choices.  likely if i had rested in the way i needed, love would have been the only choice.  it certainly did not help having a mate who was in a major down space today – combination of exhaustion, health issues and extremely grumpy from cleaning out a very hot, dusty garage.  downsizing.  i helped when i could.  trigger trigger trigger for both of us – having to get rid of even more of our stuff we otherwise would like to keep but have no room for as we have been unable to find a bigger place we can afford plus we also really need the money to fix the #%@! dishwasher so some items are now up for sale.

pay to live is madness.  feeling isolated here is madness.

HOME SWEET HOME NOW!

or at least:

lol

love,

victoria

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