Category: Daily Notes

today at breakfast, we were talking about the weather which has been very unusual here.  having lived in this area of the country since birth, i don’t recall ever having a summer like the one we’ve had.  a lot of rain and cool breezes.  when it is sunny, the temps struggle to reach 80.  as my mate said weeks ago he felt we were in for a “summer of the cool breeze”.  it indeed has been very windy for weeks.

so as we discussed this he and our girl mentioned the calendar and how off it was.  that is when i had that immediate feeling in my gut i now receive when something doesn’t align.  i said we weren’t to go by the calendar system anymore – not the one they have given to us as it was no longer valid.  i just immediately “knew” this.

a few hours later i receive this text message from brother rick (and i had to pause just now from typing this to read another message from him describing the weather where he lives – lol – another synch):  “at the vatican observatory and on the grounds of vatican city you still see the ‘keyholes’ and ley line markers that were used to establish these calendar systems.  You can also observe as Russell-J Gould, that the keyholes upon which these calendars are based no longer line up.  The Procession of the constellations has moved on, and the basis of the calendar systems has shifted until everything is out of alignment and invalidated.”

i would say this is another way of saying we have been moved (something he and i both have been saying/feeling for well over a year) and going by the calendar’s that hang on our wall are not really necessary – certainly not as a marker to indicate weather or time.  how this plays out, i don’t know obviously.  but i did find it very interesting i had this sudden feeling within and awhile later, receive an unexpected message of confirmation.

many plans playing out – inside and outside the realm/dome – some we see, others we feel within.  for now, at least when it comes to the weather, i smile as i see the meteorologists struggle to accurately predict weather 24 hours ahead much less 12.  under “normal” (old) conditions, the claim was accurate forecasting for 72 hours.  those days are gone.

as my grandpa, the farmer, used to say, “want to know the weather?  go outside.”

love,

victoria

a few things “weighing” on me (that i do not align with nor consent to)…

the “resignation” of the IMF head – she is merely going from one position of corrupt power to another.

heather ann tucci jarraf’s “doing’s” are on hold –  no movement (being told that is “part of the plan” by some alleged being from the alleged earth alliance).

it was stated on a media platform that the MSM will not fall until 2021.

now it is being stated by certain channeler’s that there is no event – nothing on the outside to break us free of the controls here and that our suffering is merely something we someone imagine with our minds.

well it seems like i woke up to a reality of more matrix nonsense.

heather’s “doing’s” would only be on hold if another force is powering over that (and she has not said a word to confirm this)….so many mixed messages.  there IS an earth alliance from Home helping OR running this operation.  or there IS no such alliance.  WHICH IS IT?!  and who is going to start asking the tough questions other than myself?!

the collapse of the MSM in 2021 (which is necessary for ALL to change i read) – what kind of a country/world would we have left?  does this include the release of healing tech?  i don’t even want to think about my mate’s health in 2 years if he has to wait this long.  2021??  if this is the case this chaos and collapse will continue for another 2 years leaving MORE suffering.

the IMF head moving positions – just another chess piece moving on the board instead of LEAVING….

and now suddenly – no event (which this same “being” has said there would be) – no outside help because this is “law” (even though many of us have ASKED FOR HELP to break out of this controlled experience)?

MATRIX NONSENSE.  all of it.  

if this IS OUR experience – then WE THE COLLECTIVE say “NO!!!” to ALL of the above games of power over NONSENSE.  i don’t know about you but i am g.d. DONE with any being – benevolent or otherwise – dictating how i am allowed to LIVE MY LIFE.

END THIS GAME NOW!  the time to walk out of this movie has come.

love,

v.

these proton and electron spikes are something i seem to be feeling in my body.  the visual i am getting now is that each “spike” – rather “pokes” my body to pull up and out any false belief i carry about myself and remember my Original concept of Self.

more than once today i have had to say “BACK.  OFF.”  verbally and energetically.  boundaries, boundaries, boundaries.  SO vital now to feel and create them.

i see these energies as really pushing people to be who they really are – as in there is no fighting with oneself now.  absolute acceptance.  i also see where the neglect – the resulting neglect of this realm with its lack of love in all system’s we have all had to conform to and under – is showing itself too – in ways that are horrifying and in ways that are heartbreaking.

i am seeing this play out in my community.  while we have shelters for those who are without homes, we don’t have enough of them.  and of an even bigger issue is the percentage who struggle with mental illness and thus addiction.  from what i am reading of those who engage with these people, most of them don’t want a city/state sponsored shelter.  too many rules – the big one being no drugs or alcohol.  and that is their salve for their pain.

and this problem – this huge challenge – is being seen by all now and is of no surprise to me that it has increased visibly in correspondence with these increasing energies – the magnetics, protons, electrons, plasma or whatever “they” really are.  it is allowing ALL TO BE SEEN.  and FELT.

i pause to reflect on what to add next to this.  as i do so i glance down at my bare feet in my flip flops.  glitter sparkles on the tops of my feet.  a previous project today of my child’s.  her definition of a “small amount of glitter” differs from mine so there was some sparkle on the table, floor and apparently, on me.

but i’ll take it.  i will take it and let myself remember that what i am is Light. Love.  and that is what this realm needs now – more than ever.

i leave you with some interesting energy captures from today.

love,

victoria

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i feel – sad.  late last night i took a cookie out of the refrigerator, poured myself some fresh ginger-root tea and sat on the couch – the only light coming from the light strands hung around the room.  i hugged a pillow and sat on that couch and wept and wept.  i took in a lot with this JE stuff coming out and had to release my response.

this is just who i am….a highly sensitive being who has never understood – innerstood – NEVER been able to “be ok with” or “accept” the horrors here.  all of this horror being brought up and revealed that has been done to the children here – i don’t want to “get it”.  i don’t want to “accept it”.  and i certainly don’t want to nor need to watch it play out and play this role of observer.

how can one watch this play out by simply observing?  this is as heavy as it gets – traumatizing if allowed to seep into the heart and feeling/emotional body.  i don’t compartmentalize like that.

today i am heavy with the feeling of weariness i experience in being here – not fitting in.  never have.  never will.  my attempts to “suck it up” and just do are temporary.  always have been.

if i chose to come here – well i made a mistake in that choice.  and why do we even do that to one another?  “you chose to come here” (spoken in holier-than-all of you voice).  such pretentiousness.  don’t get that either.

it is true as we have read in the Q drops –  not all coming out will be for ALL to see.  some things are just far too UGH.  just like some can eat onions and peppers and spicy foods without a challenge – some of us have more sensitive systems and cannot process.  i am one of the sensitive ones.

i am already putting my hand in front of my eyes when i see another JE piece show up.  to that i add just one comment – let his victims decide his fate.

for now – i let myself process whatever needs processing and continue on doing the best i can – with self care being priority #1.

on lighter words, i had a carolyn/john dream last night.  it was – weird. parts of it felt “real” while most felt compromised.  someone else’s version. apparently the power-over continues until the end.

that is all for now.

love,

victoria

today….i am feeling very quiet.  vulnerable.  very vulnerable.  my heart is both quiet, heavy and opening.  a lot of tears are flowing and are showing no signs of stopping.  feeling the harm of innocence HUGELY today.  i had such horrible dreams last night of the sickness – their manipulation tactics and their absolute lack of remorse.  that is what i cannot inner or understand. there is evil for certain.

i cry for lost childhoods.  i cry for every moment a child’s light is questioned and blown out – bit by bit – until the being succumbed to apathy and the feeling of just never being good enough – the thought that “this cannot really be the reality here”.  had that experience far too often.

for now i am feeling another round of “no movement”….a giant pause button pressed down in order to remove the filth from the road.  that’s the best description i have to offer.  i don’t like it and frankly i’m tired of the over “plan” being played out having more power over my experience where all i can do is “wait it out”.  who consents to that?  not me.  but it is what it is.  at some point along this roadway i will once again have full power – full freedom in my moment to moment experience.  for now the pause remains and i do the best i can to stay in my heart.

love,

victoria

this is an obvious message – but for some reason it synched up with me tonight for it came from within and not through a thought pattern in my human brain.

we have our real authentic selves version and the matrix version.  when we are in fear mode – panic, stress, worry, doubting, attacking – we are in our matrix role – the program it/they inserted into us upon entering this realm. in other words that’s who it/they want us to be.

obviously the antidote (kryptonite) to that program is Love.  being in the heart.  KNOWING who we are.  being Courageous.  Solid.  this came to me from within and i saw a bunch of flashing images.  i saw how my parents were designed with their own programs to ensure i received certain programs.

these programs of course can be fully rejected – but who among us knew that as children?  the innocent are the easiest to influence – especially when there is a lacking of awareness in who one is. the mind wipe makes that much easier for them to carry out that agenda.

anyway – probably nothing new here – but the feeling within that came with this was – for me.  so i thought i would share and see if someone else finds this helpful.

love,

v.

so this interesting dream i had….

i’m in a car with my mate and we’re out exploring….leisurely driving around when suddenly this huge lake appears off to our left.  i got excited and said “hey that’s foster lake!  we HAVE to go there!  it’s east it’s east!”  (foster lake is a lake about an hour east of us)  allison coe appears at the shore and then these seals are suddenly there.  that’s odd, i think, knowing seals are ocean/salt water creatures.  the scene then switches and we are eating a meal before we go – then i comb my hair and my mate’s and the dream ends.  i felt both of those things were necessary – for me – before i went to the lake.

interpret away if you wish.  the last couple of days i have said if the event/transition and all of “that” that has all but consumed me – called at me – for the past several years is not going to manifest – i am ok with letting it all go.  and since making that statement i’ve received many “signs” – which as i said yesterday – is that just another matrix program or the Truth?

i don’t know.  but i am just taking this all from a state of neutrality.  but i will own that within – deep within – i feel i am “on to something” and these messages were a bit more than just another program.

i did do something today with an experience i did not like and knew it was an injected program.  i centered myself – took in a deep breath – refocused on MY POWER – and did a visual of wrapping up that program and delivering it back into the depths of the matrix machinations.  after a bit it tried to reappear but i immediately pushed it back with my mind.

love,

victoria

something was in the collective air.  someone mentioned mercury retrograde but this was different.  this was – collective.  purging. unplugging perhaps.  and definitely feeling the swamp creatures stirring in their fear.

ARGH!!!!!!

deep breathing.  CBD oil.  bach rescue remedy.  and at the end of the day – i simply walked out of the house announcing that it was just ME leaving – with my headphones, portable radio and a quiet visit to pick some blueberries….that was what soothed my inner R O A R.

it was also quite validating to read a local group of mama’s expressing their days with their families.  one said she dropped several f-bombs.  another said she shouted at her kids to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE and she made them get out.  (i can hear the non-parents jaws drop and can see their eyes pop open wide – i used to do the same thing UNTIL I HAD A CHILD).  or as i like to say – until i grew a child, birthed it, brought it home and decided to keep it.  lol

so the very end of the day included some honest, authentic talk about choices….about understanding….about relationships.  we all create the space in this house.

and what i am struggling with is creating my INNER space – which as i referenced above was just all but whacked up and out today.  as i said to one of you “i am losing my shit left and right today”….i may have needed to clarify i wasn’t really losing or misplacing things – i was having mini meltdowns.  heck i even had one moment out in public where i could not look the clerk in the eye.  i was that overwhelmed.

last night i slept straight through.  i intended again i was NOT to engage in any meetings.  instead – my mate did and had a long night as a result.  i also intended to forget all visions and desires of new earth if it was just another program.  if i am waiting for “nothing” – well obviously i don’t consent to that.  today i was all but bombarded as i headed out with songs about “take me home” and i am waiting for you and “don’t you forget about me” (that last one greeted me immediately upon entering one of the stores i visited).

a message from the Universe or another program?  honestly – i don’t know. when the “home” (event) narrative doesn’t align with me, i focus on the changes i am seeing happen.  any of you feel you have done all the inner work – and are having a real challenge in expanding your life experience in the here and now and are just waiting for something to shift “out there” to draw you “forward”?

me too.

current physical stuff:  a lot of burping lately – including my daughter which makes me think it’s something to do with energies and expansion and whatever else is actually going on that i am not able to see or know just relying on how i feel and that compass is feeling quite old and squeaky these days…..

love,

victoria

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