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This is getting old.  Energetically – old.

The divide.

I get the idea of the plan.  I see the purpose of exposing ALL and holding those who controlled and deceived accountable.

What I don’t support are these huge ego’s on both sides who think they are right and the other side – wrong.

For example – I regularly see many who do support Trump think every word muttered by the left has absolutely no value or merit.

Take the topic of free college.  What’s the problem with that?  Or free health care?  I don’t want socialism because I don’t want government telling me what to do and how to live.  However the concepts of free – can’t we discuss this?  Can’t it be time to dive into the concept that pay to live at any level is enslavement and denies one the Freedom to BE and DO.

Religion and abortion are still creating divides.  Want to practice your religion?  Fine.  Just don’t push it on others.  Against abortion?  Don’t have one and be willing to SEE how compromised we have been here.  Birth control is pathetic and with these compromised/altered bodies, we have lost the ability to control our own fertility.

Then there’s the gay/lesbian/transgender dialogue.  I don’t care what people do with their bodies.  I don’t care who you or anyone else chooses to love or with whom you have sex (in so long as it’s consensual and of an adult age).  Yes, I know there’s an agenda.  I know about the human and animal DNA put into vaccines.  I know about the hormones in the water.  I know the push to “accept all without question”.  I know the horrid push to sexualize our children and expose them to situations that were once for adults only.  It’s sick.

We are all still PEOPLE – regardless of what gender we identify with.  We have all been victimized here and for many it’s just plain luck and divine grace they have not fallen victim to this whole trans-humanism agenda. Imagine the horror at really not feeling right in your own body?  Almost as challenging as not feeling right about existing in this realm.

Compassion is the only way to relish in the freedom coming.  Judging others isn’t fun – certainly not for the long term.  When we discount anyone simply because they are different – we close our hearts and remain in anger.

I’ve been as guilty as anyone else in all of this.  I am feeling more of a draw now to understand.  To see and listen.  And hear.  I am feeling the desire to see how every one of us has been victimized here – our perception of truth hijacked.  We have been programmed not to just be “sheep” but blind sheep.

All is being seen.  That’s creating a lot of chaos – in ourselves and being projected “out there”.  Our programs and the judgments in them – all being exposed.

Will the divide fade at some point?  I don’t know.  Both sides of (take your pick topic) are so busy shouting and pushing their perspective, they can’t hear the other side.  Today my girl and I watched a little house on the prairie episode.  The community was torn over the installation of a church bell.  The Oleson’s wanted to donate the bell and have a plaque erected in their honor. Some were for that idea – others adamantly opposed.  The refusal to listen or come up with a compromise kept the divide going for weeks.  It then took one man – a craftsman – and the towns children to come up with an idea – make their own bell.  The children gathered up tin and other metals while the craftsman melted it down, poured it into a mold and installed it.  That act of kindness softened the hearts of the fighting adults – and all was healed.

Reading to her later from a Berenstein Bears book.  A feud took place between the bears and grizzlies.  Another example of us vs. them.  So I saw how this divide/us vs. them theme was in the air today.

We need to expose all that has been hidden, yes.  Isn’t part of the nightmare of this experience, beyond the deception, is the power-over crap?  The programmed belief that MY way is better than YOUR way?

If no one is getting harmed or being controlled – WHO CARES HOW ONE CHOOSES TO LIVE HIS/HER LIFE?

Live and let live.

This divide – has morsels of truth from all sides.

We’ve engaged in enough shouting.

Perhaps it’s time now to listen…..and hear.

Love,

Victoria

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i’m seeing this more and more – some people losing their minds….or shall i say losing their programs and in the process, chaos is ensuing.  it’s sad – and a bit disconcerting.  i’ve had a couple of moments myself – when i am under a lot of stress that puts me into a state of numbness and trauma – where i feel “ok this is it.  i’m losing it.”  but i come back to center and do what neo does when he does that cool deep-breathing/regrouping.

i don’t share all that goes on with my life – mostly for privacy reasons – some out of not wanting to rock any boats or offend anyone.  i am by nature a maker of peace – and conflict – especially when it is the same topic being visited over and over – is something that quite frankly repulses me.

the topic of money as you all know by now stresses me more than any thing. my left hand and left foot are numb at times – tingly actually.  i am in need of chiropractic work and have yet to find one who will work with me.  my insurance doesn’t cover it.

i visited my neighbor last week and practically begged him to hire me – let me clean his house (which he desperately needs).  organize it.  cook him a homecooked meal.  he wasn’t interested. my spouse works for him in the warmer months and gets paid for it – rightfully so.  i don’t know if it’s because i’m a woman or if it’s simply another moment where the matrix seems to be working through another to ensure i do not make the money i seek – am willing to work for – and deserve.

i’m beyond fed up with this topic.  i have been “attacked” for lack of a better word for not having enough for far too long.  and i am not going to be silent about it – i am not going to stop asking for help.  at some point that dam will burst wide open and i will have what i seek – what i am worthy of – and what i am willing to work/exchange my time FOR.  and i already do a lot of that here at this site – work.

i will take it to another level.  i don’t need advice.  i don’t need to listen to videos.  the need is basic – money.  that is it – nothing more, nothing less.

my desire to be fully transparent and honest has arrived.  at least it has gone to the next level.  whatever embarrassment or shame or fear i may feel – the desire to say “this is who i am this is what i deserve if you value me and what i offer you will show this in a financial way” – is here.  solid.  but gentle too.

at some point this will be mute – but now perhaps i am being given the chance to be more firm energetically and acknowledge ME.

and that is indeed what this current experience is about – transparency and revealing All.

love,

victoria

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our girl had a dream last night where she said she was outside of what looked like a snow globe.  it was our earth, she said.  and she saw it become whole and pure again.  cleaned up.

i found it beautiful and called the experience forth now.

no more suffering.  no more deception.

our local homeless situation is quickly becoming a nightmare.  a very different situation today than it was just last year at this time.  drug camps are throughout the city.  fires are being set – accidentally and intentionally.

i know we have been told all year the chaos will continue to increase.  and i have to ask – i do ask – what is the purpose of such an experience?  if the event is a legitimate, valid, real happening – if a frequency is going to enter to fully awaken us – allowing us to remember – unhooking us from the virus programs here – why the wait?  why allow it to reach such a state of chaos?

people’s emotional responses to local issues are at an all time high.  perhaps that’s a good thing.  perhaps repression has been the norm for so long – for all of us in varying ways – some authenticity is needed to get to the purity.

hmmm…..yes, perhaps there is some truth in that.

i recently looked through the books our girl brought home from the library (we were not with her – another parent took her so i was not there to supervise her choices).  books on young girls participating in roller derby – encouraging one another to “go get her!” and engage in other self-described empowering behaviors that are, in truth, violent and power-over. books on girls being bullied.  books with one or both parents dying.  graphic novels with pictures of demons and retilian looking creatures because, after all, what good is any story without some entity attempting to disrupt your creative process?

I AM DONE WITH IT ALL.

D O N E.  (and yes we took those library books back and have decided, for now, we are not supporting that system until it is cleaned up)

I used to let myself believe it was counter-productive and downright nonsense to be naive and wanting Purity as the norm rather than the rare exception.  Now I see – this is how one is as a heart-based Being.

Purity is the absence of abuse, harm, power-over and deception.

I am done with the “that’s just how it is here” dismissal nonsense.

And I am fatigued from experiencing the chaos.  Empaths are to observe – not absorb – i hear that lately.  I am wondering if that too is just another program here to keep us passive and thus, detached.

Any one know how to do that?  (i know i have asked that one before)

I don’t know how to witness suffering and not experience an emotional response within.  

And I am not sure now if I want to “learn” that.

I can remain in control of my response – but to just remain in observer mode feels, well, “off”.

So for now I am feeling into the purity experience – and pondering what I can do to create more of that here.  Be the change you want to be in the world, right?

Still a program – but some modicum of truth in terms of keeping us focused on who we want to be instead of who we became.

That is all for now – about that.  Energetically I am depleted.  After a very exhausting day earlier in the day yesterday, this entire family could not fall asleep before midnight.  We were highly energized so all went to bed very late and while the child is buzzing away with good energy, the two adults are dragging.  Other than our girls insightful dream, I had a myriad of fleeting dreams.  I have been seeing the same person for awhile now.  No idea who he is.  Seems to be working on something in the new.

Speaking of chaos – two cars just sped up the street at very fast speed – one chasing the other.  Residential street.

PURITY NOW.

Love,

Victoria

p.s. ~ just received a message from brother rick who says clair told him Heather is still in jail (while the others were released) because she is needed in there to move things forward – which we will see very shortly.  so let us all remember that one and if see this manifest – AWESOME.  if not – hold these messages and the one(s) sending them accountable.  i don’t take ANY of these messages lightly – which is why you don’t see me posting channeled messages much – and those include the hypnosis sessions.  i began to feel those were compromised months ago as well so you don’t see them here.  if it isn’t a message of love and truth and freedom – it is compromised.  no lessons.  no power-over.  we are Free Being’s who were created to experience FREELY.

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right before dinner, i suddenly, absolutely, HAD to sleep.  my mate as well.  so keeping dinner on warm, we both went to take a snooze.  i woke up to check on dinner and upon returning to the bedroom, as i glanced at him, i suddenly saw him as he would likely be at Home.  he was a good 25 years younger, hair shorter and feathered with a fairly thick, dark mustache (he currently wears his hair long and maintains a very short mustache).  the vision was there and gone in an instant and i shook my head while wondering “huh what was that?!”

after dinner, i was sitting at the table talking with our girl.  suddenly i heard quite loudly in my mind to turn on the radio as there was a message for me.  i hesitated then felt this inner prod to turn it on – as in now.  so i turn it on and i heard “we’re ready now.  oooooh we’re ready now.  we’re ready now, oooohhhh…”  very old song by Boston i had not heard in many years.  i caught it at the very end – those were the only words i heard (in quotes).

synch!

love,

victoria

 

i don’t know what to post today.  there’s an executive order on patient care on improving price and transparency which doesn’t resonate much as i don’t align with modern medicine or insurance.  unless it’s releasing the tech, i’m not interested.

ben fulford and luke rudkowski (we are change) are saying trump’s taking us to war and is just another khazarian puppet.  one is controlled op – the other – just not able to see what’s behind being shared.  been encountering many like that lately wanting to engage in conversation.  i had shared a recent study showing 30% of the migrants showing up at the border in texas lied about the children being theirs – according to DNA tests.  i was told this just shows how desperate these poor people are.  please.  who kidnaps children who aren’t theirs just to get into another country?  where did those children come from?  imagine how traumatizing it is for them.

i had to end that conversation.  just not interested.  it is so late in this “game” – i see what i see.  i feel what i feel.  i know what i know.  and i don’t have time to engage in dialogue with someone who is in a completely different reality (in terms of perception).  i wish them well.  i am on my own path.

my mate is saying there’s  “a lot” going on.  perhaps there is.  i resonate w/what kp says at times – today – just not into any of it so far today.  if that changes or if i find something that resonates, i’ll post.

i did have a new experience earlier – just remembered.  i was vacuuming – reflecting on what i wanted to do different.  i had this sudden feeling come through me that there was nothing i could think of to try new that would align with me – here and now.  wow.  that felt very big – and bit scary.  was this the next step in letting all go here?  another poke?  i’m not sure.  just another day of feeling very weird.  the “not all here” experience very present – as is the “not aligning energetically need to go now” experience.  a strange experience – wanting to be alone but not wanting to be alone.  wanting to connect with others but not wanting to when there’s an obvious disconnect.

argh!  lol

well enough rambling.

love,

v.

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so the past week or so i have really been feeling quite low at times – feeling how much i think i failed here with my life – my choices.  feeling like i missed the boat on all of the “stuff” and doing’s of 3d living – career success, financial success, lots of friends and family and travel and stuff, etc. etc.

mate’s been feeling the same.

and as i am seeing in some of my social media circles – others too are experiencing this at the moment.

so tonight i was nudged to visit the comment section of yellow rose’s last video from several weeks ago.  i had been listening to another channel speak of the event and the rv and NONE of it was resonating with me.

zero.  zip.  nada.  so i followed my inner nudge.

good thing i listened.  here’s what she had to say 4 days ago about all of this self-worth talk:

“Everyone has already gone through judgement. It was the main players, that they held responsible. You’ll remember it all very soon, so no worries. Its the Els that push “you’re not worthy” kind of feelings as they are very ticked off humans are leaving their control. The fact that you’re getting that sort of message, is rather telling – it tells you that you are in fact leaving them.”

my feel?  they’re indeed pissed – and they’re poking.  i had an image of this this morning.  neo – in the matrix – dodging bullets until he realized – the bullets were an illusion.  so he no longer HAD to dodge bullets.

that is where we are.  NONE OF THIS IS REAL.  we really are in a dream – and we are going to be fully waking very very soon.  (yeah there’s that dang word again – soon – but it’s all i have.)

interesting as well to me – someone in rose’s comment section shared a dream that was very similar to what i dreamed earlier this year – seeing myself in stasis.  in this particular person’s dream they’re in a medical bed – other’s around them (who they sensed they knew)- and they are waking up – feeling a lot of relief from leaving this experience here.  in my dream i saw myself and wanted to scream ‘WAKE UP!!”  anyway here’s the person’s dream:

“YellowRoseforTexas sneak me in the back door if im not redeemable k rose lol🌹…. u bout ready for this to end? Rose i had a dream.. . (i was on a medical bed and there were two people near me helping me wake up(felt like they knew me) in the dream it felt like i was waking up from this life im living… in the dream i felt very emotional, feelings of relief from leaving that place(real life here).. the place i was in looked like a medical facility … this dream came to me mid 2018 .. i wonder if this was a glimpse of whats to come...”

here’s something i recently said to a friend of mine who lives in australia: what if we wake up and realize we’re really in the same room together?

i haven’t heard back on that one.  lol

one last recent comment from Rose, which i found just beautiful – and gives me an inner relief as i have struggled with ptsd and panic throughout most of this life cycle – and everything i have explored and tried has not healed it.  in a recent day i again thought of this struggle/challenge of mine – and something stopped me and i heard and then knew – i will be healed.  may her words provide some comfort:

“She is saying – to the victims, ‘you wont suffer PTSD, you will be healed and your lives will once again be abundant with love. We are leaving & its time to let go of the fighting, anger and emotions that no longer serve you.’ And to the perpetrators – ‘you are held accountable for your actions and crimes – especially those that led to true Eternal death for so many souls here.’ She wants people who are on the exit, to understand its time to stop and let go. Justice will be served. And like Trump said..NONE of these criminals gets a free pass.”

keep holding the faith…i was wondering how to end this piece as i paused and contemplated what i’ve shared tonight and the “pokes” going on – and heard “keep holding the faith” on a video playing………so that is what i do – because it’s also Who I Am.

please share any feels, comments, stories you feel inclined to.

love to you all,

victoria

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outside earlier today – took these captures……..you will see the clear difference between the blue sky to the NNW and the chem sky to the SSE….and i saw a first today – a trail that did not widen as they normally do….instead it stayed narrow and as it drifted to the east it dispersed the “chemical concoction of sheot” as it went – leaving the skies hazy white (as you will also see below)……then there was the odd pattern too – not sure if that was from this particular trail or the ones that had been laid to the west….

program ceasing?  i’m not seeing it.  i would like to.  i intend daily.

deep breath…….as i have felt and as rose has said – they’re gonna be at it until the last moment……..then magic happens, right?  the game ends.  the program shuts down.  we see ALL – and those who long to go Home (wherever that is) go – and the rest go “west”……..i really don’t know how else to feel or what else to think now – nothing new comes – and the perspective doesn’t change even though i remain Open….

 

pretty blue sky to the north…..puffy white clouds….

 

nasty little effer – already changing the landscape of the sky (without widening)…..

 

 

 

some new dispersion trick?

 

leaving you here with something beautiful ~  garden harvest from a few days ago..;.mixed lettuce, snap peas, parsley and basil (all been consumed)….

 

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*an inspired piece ~ for all who feel “forgotten”….

Are you one of the forgotten ones in this land we call America?  In this realm we call Earth?

We all have stories.  Some are more painful than others.

Many of us did as we were told.  We finished school.  Got a degree.  Went out into the world with a flaming energy only to find out our degree wasn’t wanted.  Wasn’t important.  It even over-qualified some of us.

We kept at it.  Kept putting ourselves “out there”.  We believed in ourselves. We knew we had something to contribute.  For some of us, this worked.  For others, it didn’t.

That’s when we slowly became “forgotten”.

We knocked.  No one answered.

We reached out to counselor’s and organizations seeking help.  While well-meaning, most of these institutions were just another arm of the very system’s that lied to us – and only allow certain members in.

It was during this time many of us began to “feel” something was off about this reality so we searched for answers.

Days.  Months.  Years – we searched.

And we learned.  Expanded.  Some were able to find new venues – and it is for most of those that they stopped the search.

Others though – we continued to search and the more we searched – explored – the more horrified we became.

Many of us began having strange health conditions arise.

Throughout all of this a solid knowing of what’s out there and what’s in here began to take form.  And we began to speak.

And the more we spoke, the more the system and system supporter’s tried to silence us.

We were attacked through money.  Through health.  Through relationships.

We continued to be WHO WE ARE.

And yet the attacks continued.  Personal efforts – not honored.

Exploring topics such as manifestation and the like only became a path of frustration as we learned – NOT ALL ARE “ALLOWED” to make it here.

In a game – there are winner’s and there are loser’s.  It is sick.  It is wrong on every level.

Throughout the journey, friends and family fall away for a variety of reasons.  They either no longer align with who you are…they are “afraid” that a bit of you might “rub off” on them.

All want that personal security net.

The personal flame of truth within continued to burn – until one day – after taking too many hits – some just collapse.  Give up.  Beyond surrender.

For others – the fight continues – the refusal to “give up” keeps one going.

But still – the knowing that one has been forgotten – by society in general – knowing one is nothing more than a commodity – that your value is no longer seen – is a pain no one should have to experience here.

And yet – many of us do.

You can know yourself – fully love and believe in yourself.

And yet if you don’t have others doing the same, you too can become one of the forgotten.

Here’s to the Remembering – of all – FOR us All.

Victoria

 

 

UPDATE:  i felt into this experience more and concluded this was not just a dream but an actual event/meeting i was a part of.  i say this because it took me over an hour to come to a full state of awareness after i had it.  when i woke up it was mid morning – and i was far too out of it to help my daughter get something to eat so my mate had to do it.  i lay in bed for some time – trying to get my wits about me.  even tonight i feel some residual drain from the experience (the between two world’s experience is quite strong right now – and anxiety is a bit high).  i don’t think i will be doing those experiences anymore – too much on this vessel and me here….not that they are necessary.  i feel all has been wrapped up.

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i had a very long night which included a dream (that seemed to go on and on) in which i was meeting with people here (lisa harrison was in it) as well as others at home (who i could not see but only hear).  my position was solid and unwavering – freedom.  lisa was quiet but was resolute in her energy and seemed to align with mine for freedom.  i recall saying “no” to “free will”.  no more of that.  it’s nonsense. a disaster.

there was some being there was i didn’t align with – who was saying i could not speak for all of humanity.  i disagreed.  i energetically sent the feeling of what it has been like to experience this realm and its “anything goes/free will” program.  i assertively stated what freedom is – and that it includes truth – and the people deserve both.  the full truth to make the full decision on which experience they desired to have.  then and only then if they said “free will” in place of “freedom” – they could have that.

i also said “no deals” and “no compromise”.

i also recall energetically sending out that if people desire justice, they have that right to see and experience it.  justice – accountability for the lies and wrong’s perpetrated in this experience.  i affirmed – again – those outside have no full understanding what this experience has been like and thus cannot step in and attempt to persuade others how to “feel” and what to “think”.

it was a very long meeting and i awoke absolutely spent and have barely been able to keep my eyes open (and affirming i was not open to experiencing any such experience again – i have a life that still requires my energy/focus here).  the ongoing feel was “no” to all ideas and only “yes” to freedom.  this felt like some type of a mediation where Home was trying to mediate between us and the matrix controller’s and whatever programs still run (there aren’t many left).  nope.  not open to mediation. end it.  own the part/doing.  and grant all the Truth and Freedom.

reminded me what “Q” has said – no deals.

if this aligns with you, consider sending out the same “feel”/statement.

love,

victoria

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as i’m peddling away, looking at my surroundings, then up into the sky, i see the familiar chemtrail.  i feel into it and start saying “this isn’t real.  end the simulation.”  i then felt into my core and said the same.  then i began to chant:  this is a dream.  this is just a dream.  wake up.  wake up.  wake up.

after doing this a few times something quite powerful spoke to me – gentle but powerful – and said “you may want to do this at home.  you are on a bike.”

good point.

just thought i would share.