Category: Daily Notes

 

our girl had a dream last night where she said she was outside of what looked like a snow globe.  it was our earth, she said.  and she saw it become whole and pure again.  cleaned up.

i found it beautiful and called the experience forth now.

no more suffering.  no more deception.

our local homeless situation is quickly becoming a nightmare.  a very different situation today than it was just last year at this time.  drug camps are throughout the city.  fires are being set – accidentally and intentionally.

i know we have been told all year the chaos will continue to increase.  and i have to ask – i do ask – what is the purpose of such an experience?  if the event is a legitimate, valid, real happening – if a frequency is going to enter to fully awaken us – allowing us to remember – unhooking us from the virus programs here – why the wait?  why allow it to reach such a state of chaos?

people’s emotional responses to local issues are at an all time high.  perhaps that’s a good thing.  perhaps repression has been the norm for so long – for all of us in varying ways – some authenticity is needed to get to the purity.

hmmm…..yes, perhaps there is some truth in that.

i recently looked through the books our girl brought home from the library (we were not with her – another parent took her so i was not there to supervise her choices).  books on young girls participating in roller derby – encouraging one another to “go get her!” and engage in other self-described empowering behaviors that are, in truth, violent and power-over. books on girls being bullied.  books with one or both parents dying.  graphic novels with pictures of demons and retilian looking creatures because, after all, what good is any story without some entity attempting to disrupt your creative process?

I AM DONE WITH IT ALL.

D O N E.  (and yes we took those library books back and have decided, for now, we are not supporting that system until it is cleaned up)

I used to let myself believe it was counter-productive and downright nonsense to be naive and wanting Purity as the norm rather than the rare exception.  Now I see – this is how one is as a heart-based Being.

Purity is the absence of abuse, harm, power-over and deception.

I am done with the “that’s just how it is here” dismissal nonsense.

And I am fatigued from experiencing the chaos.  Empaths are to observe – not absorb – i hear that lately.  I am wondering if that too is just another program here to keep us passive and thus, detached.

Any one know how to do that?  (i know i have asked that one before)

I don’t know how to witness suffering and not experience an emotional response within.  

And I am not sure now if I want to “learn” that.

I can remain in control of my response – but to just remain in observer mode feels, well, “off”.

So for now I am feeling into the purity experience – and pondering what I can do to create more of that here.  Be the change you want to be in the world, right?

Still a program – but some modicum of truth in terms of keeping us focused on who we want to be instead of who we became.

That is all for now – about that.  Energetically I am depleted.  After a very exhausting day earlier in the day yesterday, this entire family could not fall asleep before midnight.  We were highly energized so all went to bed very late and while the child is buzzing away with good energy, the two adults are dragging.  Other than our girls insightful dream, I had a myriad of fleeting dreams.  I have been seeing the same person for awhile now.  No idea who he is.  Seems to be working on something in the new.

Speaking of chaos – two cars just sped up the street at very fast speed – one chasing the other.  Residential street.

PURITY NOW.

Love,

Victoria

p.s. ~ just received a message from brother rick who says clair told him Heather is still in jail (while the others were released) because she is needed in there to move things forward – which we will see very shortly.  so let us all remember that one and if see this manifest – AWESOME.  if not – hold these messages and the one(s) sending them accountable.  i don’t take ANY of these messages lightly – which is why you don’t see me posting channeled messages much – and those include the hypnosis sessions.  i began to feel those were compromised months ago as well so you don’t see them here.  if it isn’t a message of love and truth and freedom – it is compromised.  no lessons.  no power-over.  we are Free Being’s who were created to experience FREELY.

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right before dinner, i suddenly, absolutely, HAD to sleep.  my mate as well.  so keeping dinner on warm, we both went to take a snooze.  i woke up to check on dinner and upon returning to the bedroom, as i glanced at him, i suddenly saw him as he would likely be at Home.  he was a good 25 years younger, hair shorter and feathered with a fairly thick, dark mustache (he currently wears his hair long and maintains a very short mustache).  the vision was there and gone in an instant and i shook my head while wondering “huh what was that?!”

after dinner, i was sitting at the table talking with our girl.  suddenly i heard quite loudly in my mind to turn on the radio as there was a message for me.  i hesitated then felt this inner prod to turn it on – as in now.  so i turn it on and i heard “we’re ready now.  oooooh we’re ready now.  we’re ready now, oooohhhh…”  very old song by Boston i had not heard in many years.  i caught it at the very end – those were the only words i heard (in quotes).

synch!

love,

victoria

 

i don’t know what to post today.  there’s an executive order on patient care on improving price and transparency which doesn’t resonate much as i don’t align with modern medicine or insurance.  unless it’s releasing the tech, i’m not interested.

ben fulford and luke rudkowski (we are change) are saying trump’s taking us to war and is just another khazarian puppet.  one is controlled op – the other – just not able to see what’s behind being shared.  been encountering many like that lately wanting to engage in conversation.  i had shared a recent study showing 30% of the migrants showing up at the border in texas lied about the children being theirs – according to DNA tests.  i was told this just shows how desperate these poor people are.  please.  who kidnaps children who aren’t theirs just to get into another country?  where did those children come from?  imagine how traumatizing it is for them.

i had to end that conversation.  just not interested.  it is so late in this “game” – i see what i see.  i feel what i feel.  i know what i know.  and i don’t have time to engage in dialogue with someone who is in a completely different reality (in terms of perception).  i wish them well.  i am on my own path.

my mate is saying there’s  “a lot” going on.  perhaps there is.  i resonate w/what kp says at times – today – just not into any of it so far today.  if that changes or if i find something that resonates, i’ll post.

i did have a new experience earlier – just remembered.  i was vacuuming – reflecting on what i wanted to do different.  i had this sudden feeling come through me that there was nothing i could think of to try new that would align with me – here and now.  wow.  that felt very big – and bit scary.  was this the next step in letting all go here?  another poke?  i’m not sure.  just another day of feeling very weird.  the “not all here” experience very present – as is the “not aligning energetically need to go now” experience.  a strange experience – wanting to be alone but not wanting to be alone.  wanting to connect with others but not wanting to when there’s an obvious disconnect.

argh!  lol

well enough rambling.

love,

v.

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so the past week or so i have really been feeling quite low at times – feeling how much i think i failed here with my life – my choices.  feeling like i missed the boat on all of the “stuff” and doing’s of 3d living – career success, financial success, lots of friends and family and travel and stuff, etc. etc.

mate’s been feeling the same.

and as i am seeing in some of my social media circles – others too are experiencing this at the moment.

so tonight i was nudged to visit the comment section of yellow rose’s last video from several weeks ago.  i had been listening to another channel speak of the event and the rv and NONE of it was resonating with me.

zero.  zip.  nada.  so i followed my inner nudge.

good thing i listened.  here’s what she had to say 4 days ago about all of this self-worth talk:

“Everyone has already gone through judgement. It was the main players, that they held responsible. You’ll remember it all very soon, so no worries. Its the Els that push “you’re not worthy” kind of feelings as they are very ticked off humans are leaving their control. The fact that you’re getting that sort of message, is rather telling – it tells you that you are in fact leaving them.”

my feel?  they’re indeed pissed – and they’re poking.  i had an image of this this morning.  neo – in the matrix – dodging bullets until he realized – the bullets were an illusion.  so he no longer HAD to dodge bullets.

that is where we are.  NONE OF THIS IS REAL.  we really are in a dream – and we are going to be fully waking very very soon.  (yeah there’s that dang word again – soon – but it’s all i have.)

interesting as well to me – someone in rose’s comment section shared a dream that was very similar to what i dreamed earlier this year – seeing myself in stasis.  in this particular person’s dream they’re in a medical bed – other’s around them (who they sensed they knew)- and they are waking up – feeling a lot of relief from leaving this experience here.  in my dream i saw myself and wanted to scream ‘WAKE UP!!”  anyway here’s the person’s dream:

“YellowRoseforTexas sneak me in the back door if im not redeemable k rose lol🌹…. u bout ready for this to end? Rose i had a dream.. . (i was on a medical bed and there were two people near me helping me wake up(felt like they knew me) in the dream it felt like i was waking up from this life im living… in the dream i felt very emotional, feelings of relief from leaving that place(real life here).. the place i was in looked like a medical facility … this dream came to me mid 2018 .. i wonder if this was a glimpse of whats to come...”

here’s something i recently said to a friend of mine who lives in australia: what if we wake up and realize we’re really in the same room together?

i haven’t heard back on that one.  lol

one last recent comment from Rose, which i found just beautiful – and gives me an inner relief as i have struggled with ptsd and panic throughout most of this life cycle – and everything i have explored and tried has not healed it.  in a recent day i again thought of this struggle/challenge of mine – and something stopped me and i heard and then knew – i will be healed.  may her words provide some comfort:

“She is saying – to the victims, ‘you wont suffer PTSD, you will be healed and your lives will once again be abundant with love. We are leaving & its time to let go of the fighting, anger and emotions that no longer serve you.’ And to the perpetrators – ‘you are held accountable for your actions and crimes – especially those that led to true Eternal death for so many souls here.’ She wants people who are on the exit, to understand its time to stop and let go. Justice will be served. And like Trump said..NONE of these criminals gets a free pass.”

keep holding the faith…i was wondering how to end this piece as i paused and contemplated what i’ve shared tonight and the “pokes” going on – and heard “keep holding the faith” on a video playing………so that is what i do – because it’s also Who I Am.

please share any feels, comments, stories you feel inclined to.

love to you all,

victoria

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outside earlier today – took these captures……..you will see the clear difference between the blue sky to the NNW and the chem sky to the SSE….and i saw a first today – a trail that did not widen as they normally do….instead it stayed narrow and as it drifted to the east it dispersed the “chemical concoction of sheot” as it went – leaving the skies hazy white (as you will also see below)……then there was the odd pattern too – not sure if that was from this particular trail or the ones that had been laid to the west….

program ceasing?  i’m not seeing it.  i would like to.  i intend daily.

deep breath…….as i have felt and as rose has said – they’re gonna be at it until the last moment……..then magic happens, right?  the game ends.  the program shuts down.  we see ALL – and those who long to go Home (wherever that is) go – and the rest go “west”……..i really don’t know how else to feel or what else to think now – nothing new comes – and the perspective doesn’t change even though i remain Open….

 

pretty blue sky to the north…..puffy white clouds….

 

nasty little effer – already changing the landscape of the sky (without widening)…..

 

 

 

some new dispersion trick?

 

leaving you here with something beautiful ~  garden harvest from a few days ago..;.mixed lettuce, snap peas, parsley and basil (all been consumed)….

 

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*an inspired piece ~ for all who feel “forgotten”….

Are you one of the forgotten ones in this land we call America?  In this realm we call Earth?

We all have stories.  Some are more painful than others.

Many of us did as we were told.  We finished school.  Got a degree.  Went out into the world with a flaming energy only to find out our degree wasn’t wanted.  Wasn’t important.  It even over-qualified some of us.

We kept at it.  Kept putting ourselves “out there”.  We believed in ourselves. We knew we had something to contribute.  For some of us, this worked.  For others, it didn’t.

That’s when we slowly became “forgotten”.

We knocked.  No one answered.

We reached out to counselor’s and organizations seeking help.  While well-meaning, most of these institutions were just another arm of the very system’s that lied to us – and only allow certain members in.

It was during this time many of us began to “feel” something was off about this reality so we searched for answers.

Days.  Months.  Years – we searched.

And we learned.  Expanded.  Some were able to find new venues – and it is for most of those that they stopped the search.

Others though – we continued to search and the more we searched – explored – the more horrified we became.

Many of us began having strange health conditions arise.

Throughout all of this a solid knowing of what’s out there and what’s in here began to take form.  And we began to speak.

And the more we spoke, the more the system and system supporter’s tried to silence us.

We were attacked through money.  Through health.  Through relationships.

We continued to be WHO WE ARE.

And yet the attacks continued.  Personal efforts – not honored.

Exploring topics such as manifestation and the like only became a path of frustration as we learned – NOT ALL ARE “ALLOWED” to make it here.

In a game – there are winner’s and there are loser’s.  It is sick.  It is wrong on every level.

Throughout the journey, friends and family fall away for a variety of reasons.  They either no longer align with who you are…they are “afraid” that a bit of you might “rub off” on them.

All want that personal security net.

The personal flame of truth within continued to burn – until one day – after taking too many hits – some just collapse.  Give up.  Beyond surrender.

For others – the fight continues – the refusal to “give up” keeps one going.

But still – the knowing that one has been forgotten – by society in general – knowing one is nothing more than a commodity – that your value is no longer seen – is a pain no one should have to experience here.

And yet – many of us do.

You can know yourself – fully love and believe in yourself.

And yet if you don’t have others doing the same, you too can become one of the forgotten.

Here’s to the Remembering – of all – FOR us All.

Victoria

 

 

UPDATE:  i felt into this experience more and concluded this was not just a dream but an actual event/meeting i was a part of.  i say this because it took me over an hour to come to a full state of awareness after i had it.  when i woke up it was mid morning – and i was far too out of it to help my daughter get something to eat so my mate had to do it.  i lay in bed for some time – trying to get my wits about me.  even tonight i feel some residual drain from the experience (the between two world’s experience is quite strong right now – and anxiety is a bit high).  i don’t think i will be doing those experiences anymore – too much on this vessel and me here….not that they are necessary.  i feel all has been wrapped up.

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i had a very long night which included a dream (that seemed to go on and on) in which i was meeting with people here (lisa harrison was in it) as well as others at home (who i could not see but only hear).  my position was solid and unwavering – freedom.  lisa was quiet but was resolute in her energy and seemed to align with mine for freedom.  i recall saying “no” to “free will”.  no more of that.  it’s nonsense. a disaster.

there was some being there was i didn’t align with – who was saying i could not speak for all of humanity.  i disagreed.  i energetically sent the feeling of what it has been like to experience this realm and its “anything goes/free will” program.  i assertively stated what freedom is – and that it includes truth – and the people deserve both.  the full truth to make the full decision on which experience they desired to have.  then and only then if they said “free will” in place of “freedom” – they could have that.

i also said “no deals” and “no compromise”.

i also recall energetically sending out that if people desire justice, they have that right to see and experience it.  justice – accountability for the lies and wrong’s perpetrated in this experience.  i affirmed – again – those outside have no full understanding what this experience has been like and thus cannot step in and attempt to persuade others how to “feel” and what to “think”.

it was a very long meeting and i awoke absolutely spent and have barely been able to keep my eyes open (and affirming i was not open to experiencing any such experience again – i have a life that still requires my energy/focus here).  the ongoing feel was “no” to all ideas and only “yes” to freedom.  this felt like some type of a mediation where Home was trying to mediate between us and the matrix controller’s and whatever programs still run (there aren’t many left).  nope.  not open to mediation. end it.  own the part/doing.  and grant all the Truth and Freedom.

reminded me what “Q” has said – no deals.

if this aligns with you, consider sending out the same “feel”/statement.

love,

victoria

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as i’m peddling away, looking at my surroundings, then up into the sky, i see the familiar chemtrail.  i feel into it and start saying “this isn’t real.  end the simulation.”  i then felt into my core and said the same.  then i began to chant:  this is a dream.  this is just a dream.  wake up.  wake up.  wake up.

after doing this a few times something quite powerful spoke to me – gentle but powerful – and said “you may want to do this at home.  you are on a bike.”

good point.

just thought i would share.

 

warning:  some language in this one…

i did not speak of the doctor experience from yesterday.  one of those docs who have the “god complex” – denouncing naturopath’s and anyone who challenges the notion that many pharmaceutical’s are harmful and deadly – even though it was a NATUROPATH who finally diagnosed my mate with lyme after numerous “medical doctor’s” failed to do so instead saying “we don’t know whatcha got.

nope.  people like myself and my mate – we’re just “conspiracy theorists”.

a new diagnosis came with the appointment.  15 years ago a surgery my mate had at the time only lasts 3-5 years.  WE WERE NOT TOLD THIS.  we were informed the procedure created a new, permanent valve for the stomach.  now the original condition has returned and is severe – likely having increased over the years.  my mate’s been speaking of the symptoms for years but not one doctor until yesterday said “that surgery is only a temporary fix”.

doctor’s can do what they want.  say what they want – usually without impunity.  they aren’t out to heal or cure.  they’re nothing but drug pushers and whores for the pharma and big medical cartel.  i’m tired of hearing how they do their best.  nonsense.  when they refuse to be open to NEW avenues for healing, they are part of the problem and need to be called out on it.

this doc yesterday poked and prodded my mate in the lower left quadrant – an area that has been chronically tender for years.  doc knows this.  he doesn’t know “why” he’s tender – the scans don’t show anything.  but still – knowing my mate is very tender there – he had to poke away again in spite of not knowing the cause.  obvious question:  what was the purpose?

i wasn’t there for the appointment or else i would have had some things to say.  it is extremely anxiety-producing for me to go to the appts anymore and to be in front of such ego’s and incompetence.  they usually do not take to questioning/challenging of their opinion.  looks like i need to find a way to deal with that. how?

i don’t know.

so the underlying tension is here in the house.  not angry with one another – but just at the system in general who has been harmful and toxic to my mate and myself.  oh and did i mention the electric and water bills have jumped? it is challenging to remain neutral and calm when the hits keep coming.

this is my life.  and i am commanding to see and experience the life I want. for me.  for my family.  the rest of the world can go on spinning in their personal bubbles of illusion and the new age communities can say we’re all in this together – all having to “ascend” awaken “before”.  go have at it.  i am quite finished with this entire b movie.  with the lies.  with the hidden truths and the repressed cures.  for me it is truth and love and support only. and i command that be my experience.  if you align, consider calling that experience forth as well for yourself.  if this is a simulation – we should be able to create that.  now.

gonna go do some more purging in an attempt to find my Heart again.

grumpy love,

victoria

 

today feeeeeels lighter to me.  i don’t feel nearly as wiped/drained.  i had a couple of experiences that left me feeling the same – that something shifted over night.

first our neighbor is putting in concrete pavers.  our driveway runs parallel with her sidewalk.  i am always running over it (our driveway is very narrow – gravel – and i am lacking in backing-up skills – ha).  she had been quite adamant on putting in pavers while also having a small barrier wall or fence run along the perimeter of the pavers.  i told her i was so concerned i would run that over – damage her property and my car.  she knows of my driving “ability”.  or disability shall i say.  anyway i have been stressing about this a bit for months.  today the contractor was out and she was showing us what she was planning on doing.  at first i thought “no!  i don’t want to have to deal with this!”  she had a total change of plans – all because she had considered my concern.  WOW!  (and this was a behavior that can be unusual for her)  as she put her arm around me i touched my heart in thanks to her (an automatic gesture of mine) and as i stumbled for the words to say i heard/felt “she shifted”.  a new experience.

more thank you please!

then i head to the store to get a few things.  one of the local big box stores. not only did we receive a bit of free food from one of the clerks at the deli – an older greek man – very outgoing, animated and generous – but people seemed drawn to look at me and my girl.  and there was a Light in people’s eyes.  a purity to the smiles we received (and gave).  a shift.

after feeling pulled under again for awhile now – i feel lifted back up.  and i saw it in others.

subtle.  perhaps not noticeable to some – or most.  but it’s there.  and it is beautiful.

we are being lifted up.  returning to our heart-based way of Being.  and Doing.  like an inflatable ball – some controller can attempt to hold it under water but it inherently wants to Rise Above to Freedom.

love,

victoria

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