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I went into my water portal (the shower) feeling subdued.  I was not interested in nor even open to having some sort of inspiration.  Source Me had a different idea.  I suddenly see the ocean and thought of Source – and then I felt a longing which was a bit like sadness.  Source being the ocean of course, each of us the waves.  One needs the other.  Then I suddenly knew the nefarious being’s use of pay to live, religion and the like were just after-affects of the original game they played to enslave us.  That original, ultimate game was to wipe our minds so that we entered this realm without a strong knowing of who we really are and with that feeling of isolation, abandonment, feeling alone.  Then I could see these sparkles within a whole and knew that not only did the employ the mind wipe, they separated us into fractals.  Indeed that aligns with my ongoing feeling that a piece of our Source Selves is here in this realm, within our vessel and the “rest” of us is outside.  The connection is still there BUT there’s a lot of static, so to speak, making the ability to be totally connected, totally online with ALL of WHO WE ARE to be a huge challenge – indeed as an ongoing experience.

The mind wipe….such a sick, nefarious experience.  And yet – guess what? They need our cooperation to continue the experience.  They need US.

We don’t need them.  THEY need US for their survival and that’s why they’re so pissed off right now.  We FEEL it.

They think they’re living an experience of freedom but they aren’t.  They are living in fear.  Any time you are controlling another individual, any time you are engaged in power over of another being, you are living and doing in fear. They live to keep us under control.  Imagine the fear in having to live with that kind of pressure – always knowing within that your slaves may wake up.

And that isn’t freedom.

WE KNOW freedom for we have LIVED it and that’s why we LONG FOR it.

That’s why churches keep telling us “you are a part of God…..well only if WE say you are and in what way so not really, no, you’re not really part of God but you need to become like Him….”  Keeps their audience and the money flowing in.

Pay to live.  The biggest, most controlling tool they have used.  Keeps us in fear of survival.  Will I have enough?  Certainly keeps us preoccupied with paying the bills and going by the rules to ensure we do this living stuff right and well enough to keep ourselves fed and clothed.  Ugh.  I’m certainly ready to give THAT all up.  I talk about that often here and goddess knows I have a natural discomfort in asking for money for even the work I provide here.  It just does not align with Who I Am.  But I do it nonetheless.

What can I do in all of this?  Remember Who I Am.  In all of this outside distraction, with that challenge, we are doing it.  I am PROOF that is possible for I do have those moments where I rise up again from the abyss of fatigue and weariness and Remember Who I Am.  It never ever leaves.  It can’t.  That is the ONE THING that CANNOT be destroyed.  Source Perfection rolls like that.

Remember who we are. That is to be my main focus.  My purpose.  Share that with others we interact with.  Encourage THEM to remember who they really are.  What motivates them.  Inspires them.  What touches them in their heart space. Who were they before they entered this vessel?  What does Home mean?

As I reflected on this, I feel into how long I’ve played this game.  I feel my part in it.  I won’t play anymore.  I see.  And I know.  And I quit.  I just want it over.

I just want it over.

Love,

Victoria

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Last night was a challenge for many of us from what I am gathering today. My girl had invasive dreams which brings out that roaring Mama Lioness within.  Mine were a bit more neutral – more like other being’s lacking pure intent were attempting to mislead me.  Others I have spoken with or seen/read online are saying the same:  Dark is attacking back again at the moment.  Must mean another whomp in their plans has taken place. Feeling more of the collective “NO” the awakening are sending out. Part of me says reach out in Love and at the very least say “come on – unite – come join in and be Free.”  That is a very small piece of me and I have done that quite enough. Overwhelmingly now I am saying “Enough of this shit. Surrender your destructive ways or you will be stopped by whatever means necessary.”  The Q team – think they’re using using loving speak to stop the cabal or are they using force?

On a walk this evening, a local dog ran aggressively after me.  I know this dog and it knows me.  I’ve interacted with him before and I have not seen this behavior from him.  I was alone and had my stick of protection.  It’s big and I know how to use it.  I stopped and turned around – faced the dog – put my stick in position and was ready to use it when it stopped and remained still – barking at me.  I could sense another presence around him, creating this behavior.  I stayed there – stood my ground – until the owner took control.  While this happened, in my minds eye, I was metaphorically rolling my eyes while thinking “Seriously?  I am not participating in your desire to scare, influence or fight.”

But I am certainly not going to be pushed around either.

I am done with the nonsense.  I am done with delays of any kind.  I am done with ANY speak telling us we must forgive those who have engaged in the abuse and trauma, often in such deceptive, secretive ways.  (why so much focus on them?  what about the people who have been harmed, abused, enslaved?) Fucking enough of such nonsense.  TAKE  THEM  ALL  OUT.  I am more than willing to forgive.  I have done a lot of that already.  At this point I just want us all free.  Free from harm.  Free from attacks.  Free from control and any and all power-over games.

For I now stand firmly grounded in Who I Am.  I am a Loving, compassionate, generous Being.  But I will not be f’d with.  I will not be told what to do/think.  I will not be told how to live my life.  No More.  Love knows when to hold back and when to take action. Love is Truth and Truth is Love.

And Love knows when enough is enough and when the line in the sand has been drawn and I am saying IT IS DRAWN.

One last thought….just came through me:  We are beyond needing to see numbers for validation and confirmations.  Those have been a very useful, positive program in this realm to help awaken us from our slumber.  Same for astrology and the like.  We have awakened enough now to stand Firm and Solid in our Own Being.

In Love and Truth ~

Victoria

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I had a very interesting dream this morning that felt more like a visit into a vision.  I felt I was in some sort of a reclining type vision, looking upwards.  I saw a massive body of bubbles – all small but of varying sizes – almost like sea foam.  The color in back of and in between the bubbles was a copper/brown color.  I was doing nothing but observing. The bubbles then disappear and I see an equally large space of netting. Again, I just observed it but seeing the net was a bit surprising.  Then I pulled myself out of the experience.  Felt like Higher Me was, again, showing me some things within this matrix game.

Today I am having a day where I feel and look younger.  I have days like that – at times moments – where I look at myself and see myself at 30 or so.  It’s as though I am looking at myself with new eyes – other eyes.  It’s quite an interesting experience.  Then I have the other moments where I am, well, older.  lol

Nothing else to report today so will leave it at that.

Anything new from any of you?

Love,

Victoria

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this will be brief….i am tired and feeling the need to go within and stay there…

are any of you having sudden itching at the base of your spine?  and it’s intense?  both my girl and i have had it the past several days.  interesting in that it’s in the same location as i felt that buzzing sensation back in september of 2017 wherein that experience i felt myself being lifted up and heard “this is how it happens”.  the “it” i wasn’t so sure of at the time as this was a new rabbit hole – the event, the exit and all of that.

speaking of that i just saw this comment by yellow rose on her recent video:

I continue to hear “music will set you free” – for months I hear that.  And experience is matching those words for I feel Highest of All Me/It/All speaks to me through song titles and the songs that are playing in my mind when I wake up.

Last night I had a dream where I was meeting new people.  I was allowing all to enter my space –  including one who seemed “high vibe” (for lack of a better word) – perhaps benevolent purpose and honest/transparent are better terms.  As I am interacting with him, he hands me these pills and says “these will help you”.  I knew immediately what they were, felt disappointment, and knew their purpose was to get me wasted.  Baaaad drugs.  I pushed them away and said “no”.  He shrugged and said I was missing out on the chance to feel amazing.  That nagging voice of a low vibe that tells me things like “oh but they’re a nice person”, which has landed my ass in trouble in that I have let myself put up with treatment/behavior my Grand Me wants no part of, began to appear in the dream.  I saw and felt Grand Me taking her into my arms and said “nope – not sticking around here – you deserve better” and left the experience.

Next dream experience I am in a garage and there is snow on the ground.  I look down and see my bike helmet – knew I needed it at that moment – and as I thought that, it slides down the driveway and into the street – which is covered with thick chunks of snow.  I take off after it and am unable to get to it for suddenly a line of cars come traveling down the street – not paying attention to my helmet which lay in the middle of the street.  I began to yell “hey!  watch where you’re going!” when some unknown male appears off to my left – smiles – and says “it’s ok – see?” and as I look back out into the street at my helmet, I see it laying there – unharmed.  He watches me as I go retrieve it – smiling at me.  Watching over me in a protective way.  That’s the best way I can describe the experience.  I thank him for his help and leave the experience.

As I woke up the Corey Hart song “Never Surrender” is going through my mind – quite powerfully.  I am not a big CH fan (in spite of being an 80s child) and that is a song I never tune into much less hear in my mind.

As I lay there, still groggy, I feel light.  Buoyant as though something is carrying my body.  Moving it (my light BIG ME self).  This experience of serenity came through me.  At first I wanted to resist it.  It can’t be, I thought.  I allowed it.  My mate said he too was feeling something similar.

Later when I was fully cognizant, I recalled reading something right before I signed off the computer for the night.  This woman on a social media page whose stories and words sometimes just appear.  I don’t know why as I don’t really interact w/her.  But last night’s stood out at me – she mentioned the next energy wave which she called the Rainbow Wave was coming in on March 4th.  She was feeling it early – something that just naturally happens to her, she said.  I recalled Lisa Harrison’s latest and how she gave the date of March 4th as the next significant energy coming through.  She mentioned as well the Rainbow Wave – which came through last year at this time but many did not experience (I didn’t and so I shrugged it off).  She said this was not experienced because of one of the matrix programs – which she said was recently removed and thus allowing all to feel the experience here in the next couple of days.

Hmmm….I thought – still skeptical I would experience it.  So as I sat at the kitchen table – again in my fully cognizant state – I processed all of this.  I felt a lift in my energy – that love feeling – not romantic love but just LOVE – and I looked at my girl and at my mate and could feel that energy pouring out of me and into them just with my eyes.  It was so powerful – I then broke down into tears and wept for maybe 15 seconds before returning to that calm state….serene.  Not artificial.  Not drugged out or groggy – but that real serene “I Am Ok” state.  Pure knowing.

And I have remained there.

When I headed out to get some food for the household, the first song I hear on the radio is “Don’t Stop Believing”….I then notice D’s and Q’s together on licence plates.

Two powerful phrases – never surrender (to all that is false) and don’t stop believing (in what I continue to feel/know what is happening).

I leave this with those two songs.

Love,

Victoria

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I wanted to share today’s manifestation success.  Even though it has been a very challenging week energetically, I still remembered to focus on miracles and love here and there.  A couple experiences came my way this week.  Miracle gift number one ~ I was able to create a free bottle of CBD oil (retail value $130 – the highest of potencies).  It was not something I expected.  It started while reading a man’s story of cancer – quite advanced. He was obviously in a very difficult state and I wanted to help him so I connected him with a woman I recently connected with who is focused on opening centers world wide that provide advanced healing tech using a variety of modalities including tachyon chambers.  This was all happening on Twitter so I was able to see their communications and was happy to see she reached out to him.  One of the things she offered him was a free bottle of CBD oil (created by a team of people who work for the organization in which she is affiliated).  He wasn’t willing to provide his address to her in a private message and declined her offer.

So I sat on that.  I recently began taking CBD oil.  Top quality is expensive so I have been conserving mine – taking half the dosage amount.  I was about out and was wondering if I should get another bottle.  I take a variety of products to help out this vessel.  You know how it goes.  You have 123 dollars and need to spend 234 dollars so you prioritize.  The voice within nudged me and said “ask her if you could have the free bottle”.  I hesitated.  Guilt kicked in.  That whole “I’m not worthy/deserving” thing.  Ugh.

So last night I said “no more” to that program – sent love to my guilt – and said “I deserve this”.  I wrote her and asked – told her what it was for.  I stopped at saying “I understand if my condition doesn’t warrant free help” because that would just put DOUBT into something I really wanted.  And as I have been hearing in my mind lately “just ask.  It’s ok to ask” – for whatever it is that I need or want.  THAT is NEW speak/doing/being.  I can do that at times – as you have seen me do here – but it is a challenge for me energetically.

She wrote back and said “yes of course” to my request.  She is a real healer – not into this for the money or recognition.  Her driving desire is to heal.  So I have a bottle of high concentrate CBD oil headed my way.  And for that I am humbled. Grateful.  And – empowered.  One of my desires – for many years now – is to find real healing treatments that will heal my physical and emotional/mental challenges so that I then too can get trained in the methods so that I can heal all who seek healing.

Manifestation miracle number 2 came as a surprise – all on its own. Without mentioning names, I was gifted a box of absolutely beautiful hand-crated Triskelion jewelry by one of the readers of this site. He offered to send them to me to sell.  His story is powerful.  He made them as a means of finding some solace during a time in which he was homeless.  (permission was granted to share his story)  I was so touched – and surprised.  I’m kind of funny that way. Acts of kindness like that go deep and rather floor me.  (in a good way of course)  My initial thought again was the worth thing but I decided to accept – and the worth thing kicked up again and I offered to send him some of the money.  He struggles too and I wanted him to receive some $$ benefit through the work he created.  That was declined.  So I am telling myself it is ok-it is beautiful to just accept the gift.  I don’t have to “do” something in return other than offer thanks.  A challenge for me but I am doing it!  So……They have arrived.  Wow!  He has a real talent.  Looking through them they are so beautiful I don’t know if I want to sell them all.  I will have to keep a few for myself and my girl.  When I get them ready to sell, I will let you all know first.

So in between the energetic challenges of this week, real connection and sharing was created/experienced.  And this is a very big lesson for me to incorporate – because it is those types of experiences that leave me with the deepest impression.  That is the feeling of the NEW we are desiring. Longing for.  Creating.

I am in gratitude to all of you who share your stories with me and who offer your shares – pictures, uplifting thoughts, videos.  I thank you for the love you share, your vulnerability, your honesty.  ALL is seen, read and FELT.

Love,

Victoria

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