Category: Daily Notes

I continue to hear “music will set you free” – for months I hear that.  And experience is matching those words for I feel Highest of All Me/It/All speaks to me through song titles and the songs that are playing in my mind when I wake up.

Last night I had a dream where I was meeting new people.  I was allowing all to enter my space –  including one who seemed “high vibe” (for lack of a better word) – perhaps benevolent purpose and honest/transparent are better terms.  As I am interacting with him, he hands me these pills and says “these will help you”.  I knew immediately what they were, felt disappointment, and knew their purpose was to get me wasted.  Baaaad drugs.  I pushed them away and said “no”.  He shrugged and said I was missing out on the chance to feel amazing.  That nagging voice of a low vibe that tells me things like “oh but they’re a nice person”, which has landed my ass in trouble in that I have let myself put up with treatment/behavior my Grand Me wants no part of, began to appear in the dream.  I saw and felt Grand Me taking her into my arms and said “nope – not sticking around here – you deserve better” and left the experience.

Next dream experience I am in a garage and there is snow on the ground.  I look down and see my bike helmet – knew I needed it at that moment – and as I thought that, it slides down the driveway and into the street – which is covered with thick chunks of snow.  I take off after it and am unable to get to it for suddenly a line of cars come traveling down the street – not paying attention to my helmet which lay in the middle of the street.  I began to yell “hey!  watch where you’re going!” when some unknown male appears off to my left – smiles – and says “it’s ok – see?” and as I look back out into the street at my helmet, I see it laying there – unharmed.  He watches me as I go retrieve it – smiling at me.  Watching over me in a protective way.  That’s the best way I can describe the experience.  I thank him for his help and leave the experience.

As I woke up the Corey Hart song “Never Surrender” is going through my mind – quite powerfully.  I am not a big CH fan (in spite of being an 80s child) and that is a song I never tune into much less hear in my mind.

As I lay there, still groggy, I feel light.  Buoyant as though something is carrying my body.  Moving it (my light BIG ME self).  This experience of serenity came through me.  At first I wanted to resist it.  It can’t be, I thought.  I allowed it.  My mate said he too was feeling something similar.

Later when I was fully cognizant, I recalled reading something right before I signed off the computer for the night.  This woman on a social media page whose stories and words sometimes just appear.  I don’t know why as I don’t really interact w/her.  But last night’s stood out at me – she mentioned the next energy wave which she called the Rainbow Wave was coming in on March 4th.  She was feeling it early – something that just naturally happens to her, she said.  I recalled Lisa Harrison’s latest and how she gave the date of March 4th as the next significant energy coming through.  She mentioned as well the Rainbow Wave – which came through last year at this time but many did not experience (I didn’t and so I shrugged it off).  She said this was not experienced because of one of the matrix programs – which she said was recently removed and thus allowing all to feel the experience here in the next couple of days.

Hmmm….I thought – still skeptical I would experience it.  So as I sat at the kitchen table – again in my fully cognizant state – I processed all of this.  I felt a lift in my energy – that love feeling – not romantic love but just LOVE – and I looked at my girl and at my mate and could feel that energy pouring out of me and into them just with my eyes.  It was so powerful – I then broke down into tears and wept for maybe 15 seconds before returning to that calm state….serene.  Not artificial.  Not drugged out or groggy – but that real serene “I Am Ok” state.  Pure knowing.

And I have remained there.

When I headed out to get some food for the household, the first song I hear on the radio is “Don’t Stop Believing”….I then notice D’s and Q’s together on licence plates.

Two powerful phrases – never surrender (to all that is false) and don’t stop believing (in what I continue to feel/know what is happening).

I leave this with those two songs.

Love,

Victoria

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Published on Feb 19, 2010

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I wanted to share today’s manifestation success.  Even though it has been a very challenging week energetically, I still remembered to focus on miracles and love here and there.  A couple experiences came my way this week.  Miracle gift number one ~ I was able to create a free bottle of CBD oil (retail value $130 – the highest of potencies).  It was not something I expected.  It started while reading a man’s story of cancer – quite advanced. He was obviously in a very difficult state and I wanted to help him so I connected him with a woman I recently connected with who is focused on opening centers world wide that provide advanced healing tech using a variety of modalities including tachyon chambers.  This was all happening on Twitter so I was able to see their communications and was happy to see she reached out to him.  One of the things she offered him was a free bottle of CBD oil (created by a team of people who work for the organization in which she is affiliated).  He wasn’t willing to provide his address to her in a private message and declined her offer.

So I sat on that.  I recently began taking CBD oil.  Top quality is expensive so I have been conserving mine – taking half the dosage amount.  I was about out and was wondering if I should get another bottle.  I take a variety of products to help out this vessel.  You know how it goes.  You have 123 dollars and need to spend 234 dollars so you prioritize.  The voice within nudged me and said “ask her if you could have the free bottle”.  I hesitated.  Guilt kicked in.  That whole “I’m not worthy/deserving” thing.  Ugh.

So last night I said “no more” to that program – sent love to my guilt – and said “I deserve this”.  I wrote her and asked – told her what it was for.  I stopped at saying “I understand if my condition doesn’t warrant free help” because that would just put DOUBT into something I really wanted.  And as I have been hearing in my mind lately “just ask.  It’s ok to ask” – for whatever it is that I need or want.  THAT is NEW speak/doing/being.  I can do that at times – as you have seen me do here – but it is a challenge for me energetically.

She wrote back and said “yes of course” to my request.  She is a real healer – not into this for the money or recognition.  Her driving desire is to heal.  So I have a bottle of high concentrate CBD oil headed my way.  And for that I am humbled. Grateful.  And – empowered.  One of my desires – for many years now – is to find real healing treatments that will heal my physical and emotional/mental challenges so that I then too can get trained in the methods so that I can heal all who seek healing.

Manifestation miracle number 2 came as a surprise – all on its own. Without mentioning names, I was gifted a box of absolutely beautiful hand-crated Triskelion jewelry by one of the readers of this site. He offered to send them to me to sell.  His story is powerful.  He made them as a means of finding some solace during a time in which he was homeless.  (permission was granted to share his story)  I was so touched – and surprised.  I’m kind of funny that way. Acts of kindness like that go deep and rather floor me.  (in a good way of course)  My initial thought again was the worth thing but I decided to accept – and the worth thing kicked up again and I offered to send him some of the money.  He struggles too and I wanted him to receive some $$ benefit through the work he created.  That was declined.  So I am telling myself it is ok-it is beautiful to just accept the gift.  I don’t have to “do” something in return other than offer thanks.  A challenge for me but I am doing it!  So……They have arrived.  Wow!  He has a real talent.  Looking through them they are so beautiful I don’t know if I want to sell them all.  I will have to keep a few for myself and my girl.  When I get them ready to sell, I will let you all know first.

So in between the energetic challenges of this week, real connection and sharing was created/experienced.  And this is a very big lesson for me to incorporate – because it is those types of experiences that leave me with the deepest impression.  That is the feeling of the NEW we are desiring. Longing for.  Creating.

I am in gratitude to all of you who share your stories with me and who offer your shares – pictures, uplifting thoughts, videos.  I thank you for the love you share, your vulnerability, your honesty.  ALL is seen, read and FELT.

Love,

Victoria

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One of the “new” experiences I am deeply desiring and ready for is a new way of communicating.  New language.  New ways OF having conversations. Both of which will satisfy my deep longing for more connection.  Oh how I am longing for that…

So much of our spoken language is harsh.  I have been playing around with sounds and consonants and vowel blends.  I have a preference for l’s and vowels.  Today I came up with a new word for “hello” (which I have gotten away from).  I was saying “greetings” but that feels harsh in my mouth/throat.  I thought of the word “aloha” and even the “h” didn’t feel right so I came up with “alola” – and followed that with a smooth gesture with my right hand.  Heck, I’m even wanting to change my name to something that contains l’s and vowels.  That “v” sound is just not resonating with me now.

There is a scene in the movie “Valerian and the City of 1000 Planets” where we see the beings of the planet Mul and how they greet one another.  They gently touch their 3rd eye and wave it back at the other they are greeting.  I had naturally been doing that before seeing the movie so I was surprised when I saw that scene.

So much talking we do with all of these words that so often just grate on my nerves now.  Noise noise noise.  Very little connecting.  Just lots of blah blah blah’ing.  At this point I would rather just make eye contacts and smile – at least much more of that and less talking.  I did that this afternoon when I decided to treat my girl to a mama and daughter lunch date.  I didn’t talk much – did a lot of listening.  But there were moments where I just sat and watched her – observing – smiling at her.  This little being.  All her own person.  It was quite special.  There was far more connecting going on with those eye to eye contact moments than there was using our words.

I’m ready for the party.  The new.  Deeply deeply deeply ready for it. The NEW and how we all celebrate the new – things – experiences I don’t yet even know of.  I will know it when I have created it – when that door opens and I don’t give a god damn darn if I have to wait for 50 thousand more years to have that kind of freedom – I WILL NOT STOP DESIRING ALL THAT I HAVE SEEN and FELT.  (not saying that is my timeline – just that this is one dream/vision I AM NOT LETTING GO.  I know it THAT deeply.)

It is truly Freedom or Bust for me now.

Love,

Victoria

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I’ve been sitting with this one for a few days and decided to share it here. While laying in bed one evening, resting, in my mind’s eye – what felt to me was that “3rd” eye area – I began seeing a 5 pointed star rotating clockwise. It continued for a couple of rotations before it stopped and was replaced by a 4 pointed star, which then began rotating counter-clockwise.  That rotated on its own until the vision faded.

At first I thought perhaps it was a mandala image.  I went down that hole for a bit and felt I was being too complex.  Keep it simple (something I keep feeling lately – to keep all that is happening in simple terms as we often make things so complex when using our minds.  Higher Mind, to me, keeps things simple).

So I looked up some meanings of the 5 pointed star.  Obviously a lot of occult stuff around that (which I already knew) including the symbol of the goat. Baaaaaad.  (unintentional funny there – decided to leave it – if you can’t laugh it away….)

Then the meanings of the 4 pointed star.  In Christianity it represents the cross which can also have occult energies as well.  However, I feel dark took over everything pure and made it into its own.

Something occurred to me.  Keeping it simple….in the beginning there was Consciousness.  That Consciousness created both dark and light. One energy creates freely – the other by using power over means.

I felt the “Light” is more representative of Christed Consciousness thus the 4-star symbol of the early cross.  The “Dark”, occult, evil/satanic worship and behavior, thus the 5-star symbol.

So at this moment I am taking my vision of the 5 star transforming into the 4 star symbol to represent the experience that after eons of “dark” we are now returning to “light”.

Control to Freedom.

Enslaved to Liberation.

Keeping it simple, I find and feel my way to Truth.

One last share ~ I contacted Yellow Rose with a few questions I’m having.  If these bodies are truly holograms, why have all of these (alleged) ascension type experiences in something that isn’t more than a projection?  Is it our REAL Light Bodies getting the experience and via conscious connection, we are experiencing this as well in these forms?  I also asked if we have our other (Real) bodies in stasis, who has been watching over them?  Did this begin as part of the hijack experience and has now been taken over by family/friends from Home who are helping liberate us?

Perhaps those are complex questions but I feel the Truth will come in simple terms.  I will share her responses when they are forthcoming.  She has always been quite generous in answering questions – even from those who are obviously seeking to stir up trouble instead of Truth.

Love,

Victoria

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currently “pushing” at me from within – LET.  ME.  BE.  and note to self: listen to Me.  let little me go.  

can no longer let anyone else’s agenda for me allow me to give in.  it can no longer matter who it is or how i feel.  i have to even be careful in who i touch now.  i feel ALL i am experiencing is “soaking” into my Being now.

feeling into my empathic side.  i want to be compassionate and understanding but i don’t want to feeeeeeeeeeeeeel things from others unless I CHOOSE the experience.  so tuning myself up in that regard to be neutral and CHOOSE by asking “do i want to feel into what this person is experiencing?”  i honestly feel i need to stop caring about everything and everybody.  time to select those experiences consciously.

today we visited with a neighbor.  he’s a bachelor – eats a horrendous diet – lots of processed foods.  he’s been like family to us and invited us in where he made my girl and i a bologna sandwich.  normally i would say no but today i was so out of it – i was simply not myself.  not Me.  i hadn’t eaten bologna in years.  my girl has had maybe one bologna sandwich in her lifetime and that was when she was a toddler.  one slice we split – and wow – the stomach upset was quick for both of us.

it is the end of the month and when that happens, money is short (donations are really down for the month, nudge nudge) so for dinner i opened up a can of tomato soup.  processed.  i could have made it with canned tomato’s if i had wanted to but after last night’s unbelievably strange/long night, i could not find the energy to do much other than open a can and pour.  that too upset my stomach.

reminders – do not go visiting when my energy is low/i am tired.  i need to be on my game – grounded – Conscious Me online – so i can say “no” to ALL that does not align with Who I Am and Who I want to Be.

and do not eat crap.

perhaps that’s better.  does it make me feel like crap?  don’t be around it and don’t put it in me.  most days i do this – today i slipped.

something has come in today.  emotions off the charts for all in the house – and yet i realized it was so much easier today to get to the authentic emotion.  pure honesty. beautiful.

the shared dream experience happened again last night – this time it was my child and i having the exact same dream.  i’m not so convinced now as i was that these are attack dreams.  they are feeling, to me, to be guidance dreams.

let go of all that does not align.  let it all go.

settling is 3D.  matrix program.  let that go.

keeping up and doing the “right” thing.  matrix program.  let that go.

let others have their own path so i can have breathing room on mine.

even in my exhausted state, i can come up with some good tag lines.

love,

victoria

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Greetings everyone.

Today I simply feel WEIRD.  It’s a new energy coming in and it is giving me a lot of twitches in my face (left side interestingly enough) as well as an increase in the mucus (which had subsided in recent days).

I reflected on yellow rose for texas’ info from last night.  I remembered how by last fall I was disillusioned by the whole transition/event experience because the event tree (up the street) had lost most of its leaves.  In the first and most powerful event dream I had, I was intent on focusing on the tree. It felt to be a focal point – how it looked.  It’s a Deciduous tree (loses its leaves) and in the dream it was full of fully-bloomed deep green leaves.  When that experience came and went I began to doubt the whole thing.  However, something kept gently nudging me saying “plans change.  Trust the plan.”

The plan inside and the plan outside.

When I saw YRFT’s video last night, she said September 17, 2018 was the green light/go light for our exit.  However, as you know (if you watched the video), those going “west” weren’t quite ready yet.  More had to be done.  So, given that date/timeline, I WAS in tune w/our exit.  I did not know the exact date obviously, but I was in the general time frame.  (after I had the original dream I felt early spring or early fall)

Which brings me to my next reflection on her video.  She says we aren’t to focus on a date.  At first this struck me as odd, mostly because I simply don’t like to be told “don’t do this or that”.  lol  So I decided to let go of my attachment and let the answer come to me.  When we focus on a date and that date comes and goes without our expectation manifesting, we get disappointed.  Sad.  Angry.  And those are the energies those creepy little bastard’s have fed on.

So I made a new choice.  I don’t need a date.  I KNOW this is happening and I don’t need to prove it or know WHEN.  I would like to know HOW just for my own preparation and I feel I have had nearly enough insights come my way to prep me for that.  The big question that remains is am I in an avatar here and is REAL ME (BIG ME) in stasis.  I keep coming back to that as being Truth.

Now on to last night’s dreams, which were quite amazing.  New too (and very interestingly enough my mate shared one of those dreams with me as in he had the exact same dream and theme).  And one that was obviously of outside influence.  I won’t share the details for I am not giving it power.  It did focus on my top fears I have experienced here – fears I have been working on with a breathing exercise – detaching from those programs and returning to the state of Love and Freedom.  I finally awoke to this in the dream – feeling Big Super Woman Me off to my left in the dream nudging me to get out.  Plus I knew the characters in them were NOT the real people in my life – they were imposters.  I did not need to be in the experience of more fear and trauma and drama – and deception.  So I walked out.  It was like suddenly looking at a screen and I turned off the projector – making the screen suddenly turn a pale beige.

The next dream was a little different.  Michael Jackson walked into a room – looking like he did when he was in his 20’s.  He was in a play I had been watching and he wanted to talk to me.  Surprised me.  I never really felt a real connection with him aside from loving his music.  At the end he tells me he could not take living the life he was living – not how things are in the business.  It was robbing him of his Spirit.  So I asked him if he really died and all he said was “remember who I was married to.”  I tuned into that.  Lisa Presley.  Then he said “and remember who her dad is”.  Elvis Presley.  Duh.  lol  Then I felt there was a connection between him and Elvis – Elvis’ alleged death and Michael’s alleged death.  There are people who insist both are alive and have shown video and photographic evidence that is very compelling – especially the intel on Elvis.  So….it would not surprise me if both are still alive – ala JFK Jr – staging their exit so they could be free from the control’s they were under.

So….as I said a few days ago…..I do feel we are so very close to exiting.  Intel I follow has all said the same (all is complete) and that intel includes INNER ME.  We have been here before and things got put on hold – now I see it was for good reason.  Plans change.  What’s most important in this particular experience is the END RESULT (never did much align with the concept “it’s the journey that matters – not the end result” –  nonsense – BOTH have importance – especially when that journey includes getting out of a control system/prison).

Much love,

Victoria

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