Category: Daily Notes

greetings everyone ~

I am feeling some movement today – slow – but I am feeling it.  A lifting. That “lull” I was feeling for several days continued to feel artificially placed. The last Schumann 24 hour blast had one of those black lines following.  My first thought was “oh nooooo….” and as I said previously today, I dismissed that as I didn’t want to give it my energy.  But I was simply not able to shake that feeling within that it was an intentional block thrown in – which I feel has been removed.  Terran Cognito had a piece that speaks of this “lull/dely” feeling and I will share it next.  “Light” forces did not send forth that energy that created that feeling of lull.  As my mate continues to say “dark delays”…  It also explains my discomfort in reading some of Sophia Love’s latest channeling.  That being did not align with me and felt like another one of the controller’s.  Kinda like the Alex Jones of the media side of the awakening movement.  Controlled Op.

So….onto the dreams – both myself and my mate.  My mates is more exciting so I will save that for last.  Mine was quite powerful though and showed me how the “dark” are still trying to distract us.  When I say “dark” I am referring to all being’s who don’t want to see this experiment end – because of their participation and/or “benefit” from it.  (who really benefits from enslaving another?  it’s a false sense of power – heavy and ick)…

In my dream, I was alone in an apartment on the top floor.  There was a knock on the door and I opened it to see a friend of mine from high school – or what appeared to be her.  At first I was surprised and greeted her with enthusiasm – only to immediately know this was not her.  “You’re not her,” I said.  The being’s eyes turned to anger and it reached out and grabbed my arm.  The feeling was palpable – strong – but not strong enough.  It wanted to take me with it – into the pit below.  “No,” I said – calmly, matter-of-factly.  I had a brief thought to tell this being it did not have to choose that experience – but knew it had already made the choice to not surrender to Love.  So, I removed its arm and in one move, I tossed it over the railing.  In the dream I knew this was all a metaphor – an illusion – and no actual harm would come to the being for what I had just done.  And yet I also did what I knew I had to do – protect myself and my space….  Establish a clear boundary that I would not allow to be violated.  I walked back inside my space and shut and secured the door.  It was then that I noticed bright light coming in through the keyhole, which I observed until the dream ended….Still reflecting on that piece….

My mate’s dream showed the three of us at the kitchen table eating a meal – dinner.  He was looking West/Southwest out the window and saw the clouds suddenly drop – quickly.  First they appeared over our neighbor’s roof then just as quickly, dropped to the ground, coming right up to our window.  He said we held hands – knowing this was “it”.  He said as the clouds came up to our window, we all placed our heads on the table.  (i found that last part interesting – some have said upon the energy incoming many will go to sleep for awhile)

What I found interesting in the timing of his dream is that last night I had a thought of the event wave.  I don’t give it nearly the focus as I once did and have more or less let go of dates and when and how and all the questions. I am more focused on freedom now. But last night it popped up in my mind as a myriad of thoughts that I can’t recall – but tuning inward I feeeeeel I was being told “it’s coming” and maybe sooner than I currently realize.

I shrug at that…..hopeful….as always….but really feeling detachment from it in terms of expectations.  That experience (expectation) just drains me.  It is one of the more challenging “addictive” programs here – for me.

So back to this delay issue.  As I have said those who do not wish to see their control of this experience here end will be at it until the last moment.  That could change of course and I certainly INVITE and WELCOME that to change – for us and for them.  I don’t know if their power is weakening or if it’s just ours Powering Up – perhaps a bit of both.  Whatever was “injected” is either being taken care of or has been remedied.  That is my feel.  I have not read the entire piece by Terran yet – just what brother Rick sent in a text and my mate read a few sentences to me earlier today when he read it.  So it will be interesting to see what he “got”.

I want to thank those of you who have contacted me on this site and in private encouraging me to continue at this.  I won’t give it up but I KNOW within I cannot expend the amount of energy I have been unless there is some return.  Until the pay to live system ends and/or we are free from it, I have bills to pay and mouths to eat.  Practical crap, you know.  lol  If any of you are like me, you may feel $1 or $3/month feels cheap and insulting – but it isn’t. Those little amounts add up when done in numbers.  This is my request – shared from my heart.

Love,

Victoria

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Something has switched since last week with my sleep.  For some time my mate and I were both wired at night – staying up until 3am most nights.  I began needing naps around 7pm which would refresh me.  That was a pattern for quite some time – but it suddenly changed in the past several days. Staying up past 9 or 10 has become a challenge.  At first I thought it was due to the changing of the seasons and yet when spring arrives, I typically need a little less sleep, but that’s not the experience now.  I am feeling the need to go into a hibernation state – much like when late fall arrives.  Not only am I needing to get to sleep much earlier, I’m still sleeping as late.

Many moons ago I had this thought that the closer we got to the transition, the more I would find myself sleeping – and quite suddenly too.  Is this it? Who knows FOR SURE until…. but I do know within I am feeling something has shifted/changed in a very big way and I feel I was pulled away even further from 3D living/doing – most noticeably in the last 72 hours.  I also let go of one lingering attachment here so perhaps that’s what triggered this change.  I just got the image of cords attached to a ball and that ball was wanting to fly up and away only it was held by cords.  For this visual I saw just one thin little cord – and that has been cut and is withering in the wind…

While out and about today I had peaceful experiences.  My mate though noticed people were seriously lacking in driving abilities, which included one near-miss where a red-light-runner almost t-boned him.  And the dude didn’t even see my mate – didn’t stop – just kept on going.  I know I’ve seen increased speeders and stop-sign runners in our neighborhood in recent weeks.

The biggest “feel” I had today was one of being absolutely done.  Just, done. That experience – that feeling – went to a new level today.  Pondering this, I had a visual in the bathroom of an experience from years ago.  I was working in a preschool and it was the end of the day – parents were picking up their children.  One parent was having a challenging time getting her boy to get his belongings and get into the car.  She was obviously exhausted, in no mood to deal with this conflict, so she chose to simply repeat her request over and over in a very tired voice.  The kid wasn’t listening.  I had to restrain myself from walking over to the boy and saying “we are going” and physically picking him up if necessary.  However that went against policy which said once the parent is in the room, staff could no longer take disciplinary action.

Well this continued for almost 10 minutes until finally the assistant director walked in and silently picked up the boy like a sack of potato’s, carried him outside and put him in his car seat.  She walked back in minutes later, told the mama “he’s ready to go” and that was that.  I smiled and quietly clapped her way.

Why did I receive that image?

I see the action that the employee took as a representation for where the collective is.  WE.  ARE.  DONE.  Done with games.  Done with delays.  Done with disrespect.  Done with deception and power over and this entire enslavement experience.  D O N E.  The Source energy within me and you and “enough” of us have put out the call – IT.  IS.  DONE.   And that collective Source Energy is sweeping up and clearing the board.  Quietly. Universal laws and other guidelines?  Forget that all. Freedom is what we wish – peace – and we are stepping up and DOING that.

How?  I don’t know!  I just know this is the visual I received and it matches the collective feel I am seeing/reading/hearing.  What action do I need to take?  I don’t know at this moment even though I feel the need to DO something…..  It is not my nature to sit back and observe – not my personality – not when I get an urge like this.  Perhaps the “making up of one’s mind” and drawing that final line in the sand is enough at this moment – that line in the sand that will not be softened due to the program of being told to be patient nor will it be rubbed out due to delays and rules/laws. That line has been drawn.  I feel it within from me and from the collective.

I feel we are having outside help as stated many times.  Perhaps US arriving at this state of Being is aligning w/the physical steps being utilized by those with the means – the tech – the abilities to ensure our collective energy IS carried out in full.

Even if that means others will have to physically pick up and remove those who refuse to change their doing’s and their ways.

Love,

Victoria

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so i’m sitting here going through stuff.  nothing is interesting me at this moment.  i have no desire to post or share anything.  today was a beautiful day.  energy “out there” was intense or else i am just getting more sensitive – if that is possible.  enjoyed the sunshine all day.  cleaned the car.  chopped wood.  carried water.  (lol just kidding on that last one – chop wood, carry water)  trip with the family to the park then to a very crowded store to pick up some things for the week and for dinner.  lots of walking.  brain is tired.  sun has set and the air is cold once again.  fire is going.  and all i desire is a hot shower and something in my belly.  quiet.  no doing.  just pure being.

as i pulled up the site to share this brief piece something said to check out kp – as though perhaps he may have something insightful or new to share.  i laughed.  nope.  he’s in the same space.  “Cannot go into anything today about posting this or that. It’s almost feeling (to me) like there’s nothing to post.”  he also speaks of what i have spoken of – others offering their insights on what we HAVE to do/be/think, etc. and KP said essentially, not doing nothing but going within.  (link)

i did want to share one thing – just came to me – something i forgot to share earlier today.  allison coe’s recent video i shared here about the need to focus on inner earth.  felt quite urgent – that need – and such “we MUST do this” simply doesn’t resonate with me.   at the time i shared the video, i tried to come up with some story to make it well for myself – and for all of you.  i said something about antarctica while still dismissing the whole inner earth story.  i have remained w/a bothersome feel about this since sharing the video (which otherwise i found quite positive).  i remembered something i had read from yellow rose about inner earth and cannot find it at the moment.  if memory is correct, i think she said inner earth was the creation of An.  i feel – for myself – it is not in my best interest to focus on the concept of inner earth as i too feel it has been part of this control game. it feels as though it’s another term for the underworld, so giving that focus i feel is giving energy to the old controller’s.

i am instead focused within.  doing my best to remain in my heart.  nothing else i feel the need TO do.  other than shower and fill the belly as i stated above.  so going to do that now.

love,

victoria

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I’ve had a few interesting encounters with the unawakened ones – “agent smith” programming coming online when around the awakened/awakening Ones.

first experience i’m on a walk with my girl.  it’s a spectacular day – 70’s and sun.  no clouds.  no trails.  just brilliant blue.  coming around a corner one of the aggressive type dogs around here decided to growl and spit and bark through the fence suddenly – scaring my girl who then ran across the street.  the owner, who has allowed her dog to lunge at myself and my girl w/o a word of apology, was lamely telling the dog to stop.  the dog of course not listening.  i had my walking stick – my stick of protection as i call it – and for the first time used it.  i stuck it in the dog’s face and said “STOP IT NOW”.  the dog backed off – i continued on my way until i heard a mutual neighbor laughing over our encounter.  “i find nothing funny in an aggressive dog scaring a child” i said and walked away.

later on my girl wanted to call up some family.  all was going well.  my girl was sharing what she has learned in the school of mama lately, to which the family members were very impressed.  all was going well until i was asked when i was going to put my girl in a “real” school with “real” teachers.

wow.  WRONG thing to say.  and yet i am quite used to that from members of the family and know how to deal with it without causing further stress.  i made it clear she was in a “real” school with a “real” teacher.  this family member pushed back with their programmed agenda (agent smith was on fire today) and i pushed right back.  changed the subject.

there is a saying you cannot pick your family.  i no longer follow that.  you CAN choose who you have in your life.  and i no longer put myself in situation where i don’t feel supported and where i feel i can trust the other people to show me love and respect.  i want to teach that to my child so she doesn’t feel this sense of “obligation” because someone is put into the label of family.  CHOOSE the relationships consciously – CHOOSE the experiences consciously.

and be within thyself so solidly and assuredly that you are equipped to deal with those situations when the agent smith programming kicks in.  from thyself and especially from others who are slumbering away in their cushy matrix pods.  for ALL are being shaken awake – some continue to heed the call – some do not.  but awaken ALL – that is the result of this transition in which we are going through.  transition.  liberation.  Freedom.  it’s been quite the ride, hasn’t it?

love,

victoria

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While I was out getting some Friday night necessities (chocolate frozen yogurt), I received a text from my friend, Brother Rick.  He had received a communication from Clair (Being from Home) and she spoke of why we age here – we don’t have access to the Crystal – which is the Sun.  The Galactic Sun (that is my feel as to what she meant).  I’ve had that thought many times the past couple of years that our REAL sun on REAL earth is where we derived our Source Energies that kept us alive as long as we chose.  Isn’t that what Freedom allows for?  Full creation which includes the ability to stay in our particular vessel for as long as we choose.

After reading his words, I thought back to my dream I had earlier this week about Melania.  I remembered another detail.  When she looked at my life line on my palm, and as she told me I would be living a very very long time, I noticed my life line began to expand and grow longer and longer.  As I’m thinking of this I turn on the radio and the song from the 90’s “The Way” is playing.  I loved that song when I first heard it and resonated very intensely with it.  I wanted to go on that highway to where this couple went.  I could feel it strongly in my body.  Here are some of the lyrics that totally align w/the whole aging concept:

Anyone can see the road that they walk on

Is paved in gold

And it’s always summer

They’ll never get cold

They’ll never get hungry

They’ll never get old and grey

You can see their shadows wandering off somewhere

They won’t make it home

But they really don’t care

They wanted the highway

They’re happier there today, today..

I got chills as I listened to this song.  Something said “look at that car” and as I did, I noticed the license place had a 555 on it.

Synch!  While I don’t place importance on seeing numbers as I once did, I feel on occasion my Self outside guides me to tune in just to give me a kiss of validation.

Where we are going we don’t get old.  We don’t deteriorate.  Hunger?  Poverty?  Illness?  Those things aren’t part of that creation.  All of those are programs here.  And we don’t need to “die” and “go to heaven” to experience that.  At least this is my perception – my feel – and it is my desire to have such a creation.  And Freedom and Love ALLOW for such a creation.

Want another Synch?  I just pulled up youtube to find the video for “The Way” and the first one to pop up – the official video – is 4:44 in length.  There ya go!

love,

victoria

I woke up this morning and simply did not want to get out of bed.  I just wanted to sleep and this was not just about the need to sleep but the heaviness of this movie still on screen playing out – in this realm and outside of it.  A phone call later from Sister D helped boost my spirits.  It’s always a beautiful gift to me to be able to not only speak with some of you now and then, but to know my voice is safe ~ supported.  (i always love hearing from my readers – sharing experiences, supporting one another – it is like a tribe to me – a family)

So the spirits raised, I created the energy to go out into the world and get supplies for the family.

I spent part of the afternoon running some errands.  After my first stop, out in the parking lot, I saw an old family friend.  I had seen him only a few months ago, but this time he looked different.  My girl noticed it too.  He looked shorter and not as muscular.  His hair was quite different – it was darker.  His humor was the same though and I gotta tell you, if it weren’t for that I would not have been positive I had seen the same person!  It was that noticeable.  Part of the merge process I would say…with whatever is going on with us here and out there and all of that coming together.  Given the experience I had Monday evening that I shared here – and learned today that one of my Patreon supporters had the same experience – and given I am having moments where I see myself looking different (had that today as I got myself ready for the day – I am changing and it is noticeable some days and other days I see nothing different)…..I would say to expect the unexpected in ourselves and others in terms of at least how we look/appear.

Upon visiting another store later in the day, I realized the traffic was getting really congested so as I left, I quietly and quickly intended for a very easy trip home.  The message was received and created.  Traffic seemed to part for me much in the way Moses is said to have parted the Red Sea.  I came upon another snag and thought “ok I’m gonna sit here for a bit” but this wonderful woman stopped her car and let me through.  I smiled, waved, touched my heart to let her know how touched I was by her small but still very welcome gesture.  As I have mentioned here before, I have this issue with panic in certain situations and feeling stuck in traffic is at the top.

I headed to one last store to get some jam.  As I went to get in line, I suddenly heard very loud shouting from the parking lot outside.  Several clerk’s stopped what they were doing and monitored the situation.  I could tell they were wondering what to do.  Two men were going at it.  The anger coming from one was so intense – the other man seemed to just be defending his personal space – standing his ground.  At first I felt fear so I calmed myself.  Thankfully the situation ended for the one doing the most screaming drove off in his car.  The clerk and I spoke about it and he said there was a lot of tension in the air today and this was not the first such incident.  I told him this was not surprising to me given what I know and see.  I said perhaps it would be useful to play soothing music on the radio instead of the pop music that is usually playing.  Maybe place some lavender oil on cotton balls around the store too or burn sage.  He thought those would be useful ideas and mentioned he may just relay that to management.

I gave thanks for no injuries or no need to call in help.  After I came home, I relayed the story to my mate, who told me there was some suspicious activity at the story in which he visited earlier.  He too could feel the tension. As I walked inside the house, tears came to my eyes.  A deep sadness gripped me as I thought about what I had seen.  I sent out a plea for ALL to stop the violence.  Be kind to one another.  We are all easily triggered right now, no doubt about that.  We’ve all been pitted against one another and it is now time to see this for what it is.  Take care of thyself first and foremost.  Self care is absolutely essential now.

The needs for myself and family for the rest of this month include money for food and as I mentioned a day or two ago, some CBD oil for myself.  It was helping me with sleep and anxiety.  I still have not received that free bottle and again, have not heard back from the woman.  The electric bill from February and the need to buy a cord of wood to continue to burn (it’s been a very cold winter here) was a big hit to the budget at the first of the month.

Thank you to those who do read my requests and donate when you can.  It means so much to me and I appreciate you showing your support for the work I do each day.

Love to you all ~

Victoria

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