The other night I shared a video by Dustin Nemos showing the benefits of Shungite and its use in protecting against smart meter, wifi and other types of radiation. I came across the video below and as you will see, this claim is highly dubious if not outright false. I have contacted a woman who sells shungite and other crystals, sent her the video below and asked if she has done similar testing on her products as well as her thoughts on the video. If there is one thing that immediately gets me it is deception – but then again many if not most of you already know that after having visited this site for some time. So when I discover something I have shared may have been false (FAKE) information/news, I will tell you about it so you can make the best choice for yourself.
The second video below is another channel I found. He speaks of the smart meters and how even the mesh covers – even the Faraday type covers – do not protect you from the dirty electrical fields that zap into your home via the wiring. !! (i did not know about that) He links a company that has filters and other products to help protect yourself and your home from these fields. Here is the link for that site: https://greenwavefilters.com/partners/278/
It’s so fucking insane to me and a cause I continue to follow (getting them outlawed AND getting REAL Clean Tech released)…
Broken heart is the theme for today. Feels like eons of experiences of those moments when your heart feels broken are overwhelming me today – poking to engulf me until I float away in a raging current of tears into another reality called numbness.
How’s that for drama? lol
What’s the solution for pain? Chocolate? Ice cream? Or spilling the beans and releasing it all and knowing every one of us gets the heartbroken program over and over, incarnation after incarnation (meaning: Victoria, you ain’t alone in this). Doesn’t really help – the energy is there in my throat asking for release. So ok cry and remove that damn program already.
I remember in high school telling myself “don’t let ’em break you” – a mantra I continued until sometime in my 20’s when I asked myself “is it possible I AM broken?” Buck up and keep moving on little warrior.
Today I am, well not in my 20’s, and still that broken feeling arises now and then. About the only remedy I know for that is to command – demand – all of me return. The search for the proverbial twin flame and all that is really just a longing to return home to full Self. Has nothing to do with romantic love and all that. We know we’re just a fractal here. Wouldn’t surprise me if pieces of our whole are scattered in other experiences. I need all of me back.
For now I feel as many of you do – lonely, disconnected, needing something really big within – and lately – needing appreciation. I don’t know how to get past that one. Again I know most comes from within. And I know sharing these words doesn’t do a damn thing to change any of it – for me or for anyone else. I’ll just ask if any one of you feel completely Whole and I mean completely Whole as in the feelings of doubt and disconnection and loneliness are completely absent, let us know how you created that.
The financial stress is still nagging at me. I laugh – almost a crazy type of laugh. Will I ever conquer that one here? Is it something to even be proud of really? I’d just like to see that sharing ME is enough and following my heart – doing what I feel called to do – will reward me abundantly in all ways.
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Going to take this weary but always hopeful me/vessel into the water portal and see what happens.
i thought i would start this piece while i am on hold with my insurance provider. of course they spoke of the importance of getting the flu shot so you can protect yourself. oh stfu, i responded to obviously blank air.
system insanity. that has been allowed to exist in this free will realm.
i had a hugely challenging night last night energetically. i didn’t think it possible that i could go to another level of inner frustration – the inner ME screaming to get out of this realm and the frequencies that support it. my dream experiences last night – frustration. closed doors. turned backs. it didn’t take me long to say “i’m out” and i left the experience. at one point i awoke releasing a low, moaning guttural type of sound/feeling. my child climbed into bed with me earlier and she too was having similar experiences in dream state. my mate awoke with the same feeling. new level of frustration. and checking my e-mail and phone i happened to hear from several of you who were expressing the same/similar experience.
we had snow last night – not much – but enough that perhaps there could be some sledding on some of the nearby hills. so my mate took our girl and her friend and headed out. they couldn’t find anything suitable and each new road or direction LITERALLY ended in a dead end. i intended for them to have a wonderful time and visualized my girl and her friend sledding down a hill. while they were gone i did a few chores and some energy clearing – making the space nice energetically.
and then learned the entire trip was essentially a waste of gas and the ensuing frustration came.
if our experience here is UP then LET. US. LEAVE. i don’t consent to this crap for one more second.
i know many of you are fed up and DONE as well. we know what freedom is. we KNOW we desire to create FREELY. we KNOW we wish to be the one operating the vehicle – us (us/US – human us and higher self US) and NO ONE ELSE. religions and new age types tell us to surrender to God/Higher Power to soothe us in those moments. we hear the blah blah blah “you have control of your life. take control!” but then moments later we hear the blah blah blah of “the only thing you can control is your reaction.” we have blah blah blah of “there is no right or wrong. all just IS.” UGH!
who is steering these vessels here?
the truth of that is withheld here to keep the experience of free will going. and free will is literally allowing ALL experiences to be brought forth. that’s why we have power over games and manipulations and deception. we have enslavement. we have pay to live. we have transhumanism. we have this insane speak and pressure to ALLOW for ALL to exist ~ even if that ALL happens to be harming and abusing and destroying others.
Freedom however is the right to create as one wishes. and when we are in that space we don’t seek to take that right away from another. that means no more power over games. i’ve said this all before. perhaps i keep saying it because i WANT THAT EXPERIENCE AGAIN. i don’t consent to this one. why i chose to come here i am yet to be fully clear on that – if i even did make the fully conscious choice to do so i have decided different – and even at that, i have doubt. i likely got trapped here after the takeover. nowhere does free will align with me. freedom? in every cell of my being.
i’m beginning to feel as well that i am part of the original Human species experience. i’m feeling many of us were – those who long for home. new subscribers don’t know this but you will never hear me say you chose this experience – suck it up. you’re here to do the work now get busy. this is all about YOU and your perception. what i do say is how do you feel and what aligns with you and what do YOU wish to experience? in other words – i support YOUR right to FREEDOM. i do my best to keep all power-over games away from this space.
for now – while i am in this space – i have reached out to a new healer (trauma focused) to see if she can provide me some relief from this panic/claustrophobic experience. i’ve been at this (finding relief/healing) with this one experience for 25 years. i recently went on some homeopathic pills and CBD oil for relief. nope. the whole tapping and exposing myself works – temporarily. i don’t get it other than deep within i KNOW i am trapped here and HAVE been and the entire experience won’t leave until i am free. and i don’t like that one bit – so i continue to make new roads when i can to create a NEW experience – right within here (touching my heart) utilizing tools of within and “out there”.
for now i am roaring like a caged lion wanting OUT. NEW. NOW. intending. letting go. allowing. it simply feels like N O T H I N G is helping/working right now – but i continue on seeking and trying new avenues in whatever way i can given the limitations of here.
oh did i mention the boredom experience? yeah that too. but i will talk about that later – unless i don’t – which i probably won’t because what purpose does it serve?
this is just day of UGH so ending here…
love,
victoria
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One of the “new” experiences I am deeply desiring and ready for is a new way of communicating. New language. New ways OF having conversations. Both of which will satisfy my deep longing for more connection. Oh how I am longing for that…
So much of our spoken language is harsh. I have been playing around with sounds and consonants and vowel blends. I have a preference for l’s and vowels. Today I came up with a new word for “hello” (which I have gotten away from). I was saying “greetings” but that feels harsh in my mouth/throat. I thought of the word “aloha” and even the “h” didn’t feel right so I came up with “alola” – and followed that with a smooth gesture with my right hand. Heck, I’m even wanting to change my name to something that contains l’s and vowels. That “v” sound is just not resonating with me now.
There is a scene in the movie “Valerian and the City of 1000 Planets” where we see the beings of the planet Mul and how they greet one another. They gently touch their 3rd eye and wave it back at the other they are greeting. I had naturally been doing that before seeing the movie so I was surprised when I saw that scene.
So much talking we do with all of these words that so often just grate on my nerves now. Noise noise noise. Very little connecting. Just lots of blah blah blah’ing. At this point I would rather just make eye contacts and smile – at least much more of that and less talking. I did that this afternoon when I decided to treat my girl to a mama and daughter lunch date. I didn’t talk much – did a lot of listening. But there were moments where I just sat and watched her – observing – smiling at her. This little being. All her own person. It was quite special. There was far more connecting going on with those eye to eye contact moments than there was using our words.
I’m ready for the party. The new. Deeply deeply deeply ready for it. The NEW and how we all celebrate the new – things – experiences I don’t yet even know of. I will know it when I have created it – when that door opens and I don’t give a god damn darn if I have to wait for 50 thousand more years to have that kind of freedom – I WILL NOT STOP DESIRING ALL THAT I HAVE SEEN and FELT. (not saying that is my timeline – just that this is one dream/vision I AM NOT LETTING GO. I know it THAT deeply.)
It is truly Freedom or Bust for me now.
Love,
Victoria
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I’ve been sitting with this one for a few days and decided to share it here. While laying in bed one evening, resting, in my mind’s eye – what felt to me was that “3rd” eye area – I began seeing a 5 pointed star rotating clockwise. It continued for a couple of rotations before it stopped and was replaced by a 4 pointed star, which then began rotating counter-clockwise. That rotated on its own until the vision faded.
At first I thought perhaps it was a mandala image. I went down that hole for a bit and felt I was being too complex. Keep it simple (something I keep feeling lately – to keep all that is happening in simple terms as we often make things so complex when using our minds. Higher Mind, to me, keeps things simple).
So I looked up some meanings of the 5 pointed star. Obviously a lot of occult stuff around that (which I already knew) including the symbol of the goat. Baaaaaad. (unintentional funny there – decided to leave it – if you can’t laugh it away….)
Then the meanings of the 4 pointed star. In Christianity it represents the cross which can also have occult energies as well. However, I feel dark took over everything pure and made it into its own.
Something occurred to me. Keeping it simple….in the beginning there was Consciousness. That Consciousness created both dark and light. One energy creates freely – the other by using power over means.
I felt the “Light” is more representative of Christed Consciousness thus the 4-star symbol of the early cross. The “Dark”, occult, evil/satanic worship and behavior, thus the 5-star symbol.
So at this moment I am taking my vision of the 5 star transforming into the 4 star symbol to represent the experience that after eons of “dark” we are now returning to “light”.
Control to Freedom.
Enslaved to Liberation.
Keeping it simple, I find and feel my way to Truth.
One last share ~ I contacted Yellow Rose with a few questions I’m having. If these bodies are truly holograms, why have all of these (alleged) ascension type experiences in something that isn’t more than a projection? Is it our REAL Light Bodies getting the experience and via conscious connection, we are experiencing this as well in these forms? I also asked if we have our other (Real) bodies in stasis, who has been watching over them? Did this begin as part of the hijack experience and has now been taken over by family/friends from Home who are helping liberate us?
Perhaps those are complex questions but I feel the Truth will come in simple terms. I will share her responses when they are forthcoming. She has always been quite generous in answering questions – even from those who are obviously seeking to stir up trouble instead of Truth.
currently “pushing” at me from within – LET. ME. BE. and note to self: listen to Me. let little me go.
can no longer let anyone else’s agenda for me allow me to give in. it can no longer matter who it is or how i feel. i have to even be careful in who i touch now. i feel ALL i am experiencing is “soaking” into my Being now.
feeling into my empathic side. i want to be compassionate and understanding but i don’t want to feeeeeeeeeeeeeel things from others unless I CHOOSE the experience. so tuning myself up in that regard to be neutral and CHOOSE by asking “do i want to feel into what this person is experiencing?” i honestly feel i need to stop caring about everything and everybody. time to select those experiences consciously.
today we visited with a neighbor. he’s a bachelor – eats a horrendous diet – lots of processed foods. he’s been like family to us and invited us in where he made my girl and i a bologna sandwich. normally i would say no but today i was so out of it – i was simply not myself. not Me. i hadn’t eaten bologna in years. my girl has had maybe one bologna sandwich in her lifetime and that was when she was a toddler. one slice we split – and wow – the stomach upset was quick for both of us.
it is the end of the month and when that happens, money is short (donations are really down for the month, nudge nudge) so for dinner i opened up a can of tomato soup. processed. i could have made it with canned tomato’s if i had wanted to but after last night’s unbelievably strange/long night, i could not find the energy to do much other than open a can and pour. that too upset my stomach.
reminders – do not go visiting when my energy is low/i am tired. i need to be on my game – grounded – Conscious Me online – so i can say “no” to ALL that does not align with Who I Am and Who I want to Be.
and do not eat crap.
perhaps that’s better. does it make me feel like crap? don’t be around it and don’t put it in me. most days i do this – today i slipped.
something has come in today. emotions off the charts for all in the house – and yet i realized it was so much easier today to get to the authentic emotion. pure honesty. beautiful.
the shared dream experience happened again last night – this time it was my child and i having the exact same dream. i’m not so convinced now as i was that these are attack dreams. they are feeling, to me, to be guidance dreams.
let go of all that does not align. let it all go.
settling is 3D. matrix program. let that go.
keeping up and doing the “right” thing. matrix program. let that go.
let others have their own path so i can have breathing room on mine.
even in my exhausted state, i can come up with some good tag lines.
love,
victoria
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It’s 4:44pm as I begin this one… Today as I have gone about my stuff (or doing’s as I sometimes say) – I have wondered “what now”? What do I do now? From here until that moment we feel/see coming, what do I do?
Going onward, I am also pondering how this will transpire. Many questions I am exploring. Do we stay in these vessels? Do some stay in their current vessel while some go on to new (REAL) human vessels?
Does it happen in an instant?
How much of our memory of this do we retain? I would think that would be a choice given the whole freedom thing.
And what about those around us? I don’t “see” most people around me staying in my experience. Do they forget about us? If not, they would question “hey where did these people go?”
The trolls keep on a’trollin….I don’t even know if they are anything more than AI at this point. There was one who did the usual low-vibe/fear-based attack towards something I said on a forum. Completely unnecessary. Completely unhelpful. At first I thought hey, not cool. Why you doing that? Then I saw them saying the same words to others who hold the same or similar mind-set as do I.
They do because they can. Here that is.
I was feeling that one heavily last night. I was lamenting to my mate and giving him a visual. I have seen myself as this Being who just wants to play in my sandbox – make whatever creations I want in that box – and be left alone to Be. If someone else is nearby doing the same, have at it. Have fun. Just stay OUT of my box, you know? And my experience in this particular cycle has been full of big ‘ole poops who come into my box without asking and throw their sand in my space, on my body, etc. (metaphorically speaking here of course)
Who does that?
As I lamented to brother Rick awhile ago (I’m into using this term today apparently), “robots, robots everywhere.” My girl and I were out on a walk. Most everyone around here knows my girl has dog trauma after the numerous attacks she and I went through all last year. It was unreal. So today, being it’s a beautiful day, we went for a walk around the ‘hood. We arrive at a housing area where there were 3 people we knew – and all 3 had dogs. Two of the dogs were getting out of control. As I approached the group of people to say “hello” one of the dogs went full on nutso – lunging towards one of the other dogs (who was more or less sitting there observing). I was suddenly in between these two dogs – and not one of the adults seemed to notice what was going on for they let the dogs continue w/their posturing while they gabbed away. My girl had by now taken off, understandably, so I announced I was “out of this land of insane stupidity” and walked away. Not very loving but in that moment I wasn’t feeling the “love for all” but instead the “you all know my girl has dog issues and you let this situation happen? DO YOU NOT THINK?” I located my girl and we headed home. She even commented on how “invisible” we seemed to be.
Invisible, yes. A life long experience for me – one that has indeed grown the more I awaken and question.
We also heard of a situation here with the local school. Apparently there was a mix-up with a bus or some such thing and frightened children came home quite late – no word from the school. My girl witnessed one of her friends get off the school bus, in tears.
We see the breaking down of ALL continue. And yet I wonder – if there IS going to be some split – will the ALL really break down? The questions of what’s going on and how it will all manifest continue….
Aside from my little girl here inside these walls, my saving grace is music. Home continues to speak to me through music. As I drove home I suddenly recalled the dream I had of Michael Jackson 2 nights ago. As I thought that I turn on the radio and there’s a Michael Jackson song on the radio. Not one of my favorites so I turn to another station. Yep. Another MJ song was playing. My mate gets into the car an hour later, turns on the radio and there’s another MJ song playing. Earlier today I was drawn again to look at the television music station. Below are the captures.
Physically, I continue to have facial tics. The fatigue from yesterday is gone. I have been awakening with left foot pain. Just the left. Mate too. No explanation (for me that is). For him – he broke his left foot so that could explain the experience from his perspective. It COULD be the “empathic illness” experience that I realize I may very well allow myself to experience. I cancel that program!
One last insight. I awoke with the thought “50 ways to leave the matrix” (parody of “50 ways to leave your lover”).
Awaken your brain, Jane.
Question the game, Blaine.
ou don’t need to be in fear, Dear….just get yourself free.
Step on the Q train….you don’t need to explain yourself…
Just go in your heart space and get yourself Free.
And so it is.
Love,
Victoria
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Today I simply feel WEIRD. It’s a new energy coming in and it is giving me a lot of twitches in my face (left side interestingly enough) as well as an increase in the mucus (which had subsided in recent days).
I reflected on yellow rose for texas’ info from last night. I remembered how by last fall I was disillusioned by the whole transition/event experience because the event tree (up the street) had lost most of its leaves. In the first and most powerful event dream I had, I was intent on focusing on the tree. It felt to be a focal point – how it looked. It’s a Deciduous tree (loses its leaves) and in the dream it was full of fully-bloomed deep green leaves. When that experience came and went I began to doubt the whole thing. However, something kept gently nudging me saying “plans change. Trust the plan.”
The plan inside and the plan outside.
When I saw YRFT’s video last night, she said September 17, 2018 was the green light/go light for our exit. However, as you know (if you watched the video), those going “west” weren’t quite ready yet. More had to be done. So, given that date/timeline, I WAS in tune w/our exit. I did not know the exact date obviously, but I was in the general time frame. (after I had the original dream I felt early spring or early fall)
Which brings me to my next reflection on her video. She says we aren’t to focus on a date. At first this struck me as odd, mostly because I simply don’t like to be told “don’t do this or that”. lol So I decided to let go of my attachment and let the answer come to me. When we focus on a date and that date comes and goes without our expectation manifesting, we get disappointed. Sad. Angry. And those are the energies those creepy little bastard’s have fed on.
So I made a new choice. I don’t need a date. I KNOW this is happening and I don’t need to prove it or know WHEN. I would like to know HOW just for my own preparation and I feel I have had nearly enough insights come my way to prep me for that. The big question that remains is am I in an avatar here and is REAL ME (BIG ME) in stasis. I keep coming back to that as being Truth.
Now on to last night’s dreams, which were quite amazing. New too (and very interestingly enough my mate shared one of those dreams with me as in he had the exact same dream and theme). And one that was obviously of outside influence. I won’t share the details for I am not giving it power. It did focus on my top fears I have experienced here – fears I have been working on with a breathing exercise – detaching from those programs and returning to the state of Love and Freedom. I finally awoke to this in the dream – feeling Big Super Woman Me off to my left in the dream nudging me to get out. Plus I knew the characters in them were NOT the real people in my life – they were imposters. I did not need to be in the experience of more fear and trauma and drama – and deception. So I walked out. It was like suddenly looking at a screen and I turned off the projector – making the screen suddenly turn a pale beige.
The next dream was a little different. Michael Jackson walked into a room – looking like he did when he was in his 20’s. He was in a play I had been watching and he wanted to talk to me. Surprised me. I never really felt a real connection with him aside from loving his music. At the end he tells me he could not take living the life he was living – not how things are in the business. It was robbing him of his Spirit. So I asked him if he really died and all he said was “remember who I was married to.” I tuned into that. Lisa Presley. Then he said “and remember who her dad is”. Elvis Presley. Duh. lol Then I felt there was a connection between him and Elvis – Elvis’ alleged death and Michael’s alleged death. There are people who insist both are alive and have shown video and photographic evidence that is very compelling – especially the intel on Elvis. So….it would not surprise me if both are still alive – ala JFK Jr – staging their exit so they could be free from the control’s they were under.
So….as I said a few days ago…..I do feel we are so very close to exiting. Intel I follow has all said the same (all is complete) and that intel includes INNER ME. We have been here before and things got put on hold – now I see it was for good reason. Plans change. What’s most important in this particular experience is the END RESULT (never did much align with the concept “it’s the journey that matters – not the end result” – nonsense – BOTH have importance – especially when that journey includes getting out of a control system/prison).
Much love,
Victoria
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I have been wanting to have communications (comms) with family from Home. I had some time alone today – making pancakes – standing at the stove I was tuning in. I was feeling nothing. After a time, my mind began to ramble – that monkey brain – questioning why I was receiving nothing, did I need to be doing something different? It was then that I heard “we speak to you through music. You are a musician. Music is your Soul.” I was guided to look at the television – I had the music channel on only I had it muted so I could have silence. Below are some captures from today. The first one is what was playing when I was first guided during my attempt to “tune in”. It is significant to me. The last dream I had of “home”, I was standing out front of our house. There was a light dusting of snow on the ground and I stood there – feeling amazing. I could not believe I was really home. I could not believe I was finally there. The feeling of “I did it!” was so powerful and beautiful. So seeing this image below on my television was like a kiss for my heart. (and btw – i had not heard this song before on this channel – that is happening often lately)
We’re always tuned in. I can only control how I communicate. So if Music continues to be a form of comms, so be it. Music has, in so many ways and in countless times, been my Savior – whether it is listening to the music of others or playing my own compositions on the piano and guitar. Below the music comms are some sky captures I took today and this evening. [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]
the energies today are INTENSE!! i feel (again) like i could run a mile or two and keep on going. our child is all but manic (and i am going to take her for a walk in a few – yes like a dog – she is really that intense). energized is the word of the day the past few days. i also feel really in between two world’s although i don’t have the “where am i” feeling but more of the charged up “let’s get it DONE” type of experience.
i also feel time took a leap today – perhaps we got pulled away from the concept of “time” – i’m not sure. i can only go by how i feel and this day literally F L E W by. after feeling as though i’ve been walking in a slow-mo movie, today shot ahead. it’s like someone turned on the “GO” button – only at hyper speed. i could not keep up with even the basics – although i did realize i seemed to have pulled off dinner (a new recipe) in lightening speed. wonder woman powers. what’s comical about this is my mate, who began checking the local Coinstar machine the past week for coins and he’s finding all sorts of things including a Captain America medallion – which is now hanging around his neck.
i’m still craving sugar and tonight he brought me polish donut’s. (i am polish.) other than that the desire for meat continues to be next to nothing so other than sweets, today i ate beet salad, mixed green w/quinoa salad (going to get some more of both of those – YUM), almonds, coconut, eggs, potatoes, bread with homemade jam.
i’ve also been doing the breathing exercise Lisa Harrison mentioned in her latest video. the 3 times i have done it, i have noticed it just takes me a couple of visual attempts and the infinity loop takes off on its own. i am assigning particular programs to detach from while reinstating the codes of love and freedom. peace. trust.
the mimic is back and showed 3/4 whiteout on 2/15/19. i will link the video i took later. will also link some energy graphs later as well. if i remember. for now i have a manic kid saying “let’s go mommy-o let’s go let’s go let’s GO!”
ok then. until next time….
love,
victoria
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