Tonight’s Messages

 

i should just get a chair and sit in that shower for a day.  i was tired tonight and just as i thought “ok no messages” the floodgates opened.  i also suddenly felt energized.  here’s what came through me.

  1. the female being Clair i (and rick) have communicated with ~ he much more than i ~ is part of a team that are an observation unit.  they are observing the processes taking place to bring this game to an end.  she said if it had been up to her and her alone, she would have wanted this game to end long ago (speaking in earth terms, she said).  it is no coincidence we have the dismantling of the old system’s inside as well as on the outside.
  2. as i received this info, suddenly i “see” myself at a party in the new.  there is a big stage in front of me.  this is going to sound strange ~ it still does to me ~ anyway this screen is off to the left and all of a sudden, there’s an announcement and on the screen appears Trump.  the feel i continue to have is upon the end/transition, many go to the new timeline where there is no money systems, no government ~ our inner “tech” is what we rely on.  instant manifestation.  our real Original bodies and abilities.  then there are those (who are not quite yet ready or not ready/awakened at all) who will be in the new realm that Trump and others are putting in place ~ the $$ relief, new tech, healing machines, etc.  anyway Trump has chosen to stay in that realm for awhile to ensure it doesn’t get hijacked ~ as well as to “enjoy the fruits of his labor” so to speak.
  3. i felt in the new, in “time”, i will be part of a welcoming team greeting those who choose to leave the, let’s call it the Trump timeline realm ~ and venture into the “all is free” realm.  welcoming teams help with the acclimation and assimilation process.  kinda like when trinity worked with neo upon his full awakening out of the matrix.
  4. the part of me that is highly logical and questioning is starting to pitch a fit right now.  i am hearing “this is NUTS!  fantasy!”  as i was saying this in the shower i heard “this is what made you a good leader in the previous experiences with us”.  so apparently this is not just my personality.  this is just Me.
  5. i was also guided to tune in to today’s weird sky stuff and how i felt upon awakening.  i awoke agitated and seeing the skies only amplified the mood. i felt like “they” had put up the shit screen/image.  the chem’d skies.  the smoke in the air.  but then throughout the day the skies seemed to miraculously grow quite beautiful ~ blue sky ~ clouds leading to a beautiful sunset.  my mood also elevated as the skies changed.  so it felt like to me a game – the “bad” dudes putting up yuck skies and the “good” dudes say nope – and slowly put up the beautiful skies.  are we literally seeing 2 different scenes playing out now?  just an impression i received.
  6. now this part is pretty wild.  i had a feeeeeeeeeeeeeeling we have what i heard of as “telesponder’s” in our homes.  it is how we communicate w/those outside of our realm.  i didn’t know what a telesponder was.  at first i thought – teleprompter.  or transponder.  nope – telesponder.  so i google the term and see it was a term used in star wars – a communication’s device found on spacecraft.

ok then.  i feel that is enough for now.  more to share from other channels.  whether they are on the same page as many of us, all are saying the same thing:  weird things are happening to this realm and quite quickly too.

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More Matrix and Energy Weirdness

 

august 25th.  supposed read:  12.500.  i have to consider the possibility of coincidence, although i don’t feel that.  as i pondered this, i thought of the movie Contact where Jodie Foster’s character Ellie is testifying in front of heads of state.  she says she has to offer up the possibility, as a scientist, that what she experienced was a hallucination.  and yet she could not give that as the final answer as “everything that I know as a human beingeverything that I am tells me that it was real!”  energy reads are intensifying as the (alleged) increase continues for the next 72 hours.

well first, below is an image i took earlier today of some of those square-like clouds that have been showing up lately ~ only here we had them in a line.  a first.  after having what was a pretty “normal” day yesterday ~ blue skies, puffy white clouds, clean air ~ today we are dealing with chem-laden, mildly smoky crap.  fake fake fake  seriously WHAT is the purpose for something like this?  below i show an energy signature/image captured on the MIMIC out in the west pacific.  more b.s. nonsense weather control? looking out the window now the clouds like ridiculous.

yeah, that’s a normal cloud formation…nothing to see here…

here is a current read of the magnetic field:

then we have an updated schumann read:

then for grins and giggles (and pondering’s) here is an updated Magnetopause Live Data capture….or WTFrig??!!

and lastly, a video capture i took about 20 minutes ago of the MIMIC:

it is 4:44pm.  i will leave this with a couple of messages received last night. the first one says “ALMOST THERE” in chalk.  i tried to capture it as best as i could.  injoy!  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

love,

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An Interesting Conversation

 

i’ve been having some insightful, interesting conversations with real earth brother rick the past several days.  he continues to correspond with clair ~ i have felt her more lately as it has become easier for me to tune into that space of the All.  i wanted to share an amazing synchronicity that happened earlier tonight.  i was telling my mate my ability to tune in has really increased the past several days.  after i said this, my phone let me know i had a message and it was rick who said  “she (meaning clair) just said you are tuning in much better.”

some other tidbits ~ clair said our conversations have been very accurate lately.  (we are trying to put together the pieces of the puzzle – what’s happening – where do we go from here – what happens upon the transition)…..

and here is ANOTHER synchro that just happened.  it is 10:00pm here (pacific time) and as i go to pick up my phone to find the exact words he said, i find another text he had sent i did not hear.  i did not hear it for i was in hysterics, laughing so hard along with my daughter as we recalled something we experienced in our bike right tonight which we both found very funny.  i had to leave the room to calm down – i was laughing so hard (plus choking on popcorn and needing to use the bathroom – not a pretty site when you’re my age).  so as i was in the bathroom i suddenly could feel a group of people “around” me – next to me is more accurate – and i could sense clair – i don’t know who the rest were.  anyway i could sense them laughing along with me and i could FEEEEEL the energy of their humor.  it was pure delight.  my girl came running into the bathroom and we both just stood there, giggling like crazy.

i can honestly say i felt almost manic – the intensity of the humor i was feeling was so intense (don’t get me wrong – i LOVED the feeling).  my girl – behaving the same way (although she’s a child so not that unusual of her.)

so imagine my OMG face when i go and notice, just minutes ago, the text he had sent at that time of me and child going full on giggles ~which said, and i quote:  “omg i just heard what sounded like 10 people laughing their asses off….must be we are the entertainment.”

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also having a convo with a youtuber and social media friend who is suddenly having abilities of his seriously amping up now – totally freaking him out. this is all so beautiful!

love,

victoria

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Today’s Reflections ~ Tidbits of Info

 

according to the graph lisa harrison put together (of the numbers leeloo shared) today we are at 6.250 ~ set to double tomorrow, continuing that pattern until Tuesday the 28th when we are set to reach 100% completion.  does this mean the event? my feel and under and inner~standing is it marks the end of the 7th wave and this event experience will very soon follow.

the white patterns showing up on the mimic ~ which I have been following/observing/sharing off and on the past year ~ have intensified. here is the most recent image:

dutchsinse, along w/the Cats (at schrodinger’s other cat blog) call these “wave x”.  (it’s essentially big waves of electromagnetic frequency).  dutch says this pattern will only intensify quite dramatically next week.  all seems to be lining up for some huge shift next week ~ data points, intel, graphs, visions, messages received.  and suspicious observers ~ an overall pretty mainstream guy on youtube put out a video speaking of rapid pole reversal and deep destabilization.  as he says the earthquake uptake is raging ~ and “strangely”.  so even though these two aren’t embracing the concept of the event or the matrix simulation, they are both rather freaking out over the intense energy occurrences and how fast all is changing.

there are also some channels speaking of ripples showing up on the sun and moon.  bruce sees all had a video up last night on youtube showing a ripple showing up on the moon.

given all is energy frequency, these wave x patterns (which some say are coming from w/in earth, others outside of this realm ~ i lean towards outside of our realm) ~ are changing the frequency all around the realm.

home, anybody?  breaking down the matrix grid anybody?

hands raised?

ME TOO!

i also tuned in to the simulation ~ in particular the mindset of one who would create such a situation.  i have a rare blood type (off world, linked to those who allegedly altered our DNA) and i feel – i know – this gives me the ability to tune in to their way of thinking.  i’ve done it before.  if i were to create such a simulation, i would make sure i had a variety of safety checks (what we would call booby traps) in place for when others caught on to what had happened and decided to end it.  i had a vision of a variety of wires you would see attached to a bomb.  not that this is a literal vision ~ more like a metaphor.  anyway a being would need to know which wire to cut ~ and given there are many ~ expertise is needed in undertaking such a venture. cut the wrong wire and you go “kaboom” only to have that particular area of the simulation replaced.  so that’s as far as i have chosen to go with that one.  know thy “enemy” without becoming them, right?

on to the next share….

today in the shower i heard “final ops” ~ then had the vision of a sling shot followed by another vision of one being pulled up and out of quicksand.  in my dreams last night both my child and i were connecting with some family members ~ the same 2.  and speaking with my new earth brother, he said he had a vision last night of people uniting with families on a stage, some leaving together, others saying good-bye.  upon waking up this morning, i had some tears to release.  deep pain over the connection i have felt with these particular 2 beautiful souls.  the connection surpasses the human self and concept of family.  as i cried i was called to look at the television.  synchronicity.  a few moments later, i felt some hope return, again was guided to look at the television to see more synchronicity.  and last night before going to bed, turning off the lights, etc. again i was guided to look at the television for one final message.  all 3 photos i took are below.

we are being prepped.  guided. i feel it.  i know it.  my mate is having similar experiences.  and like many of us feel, this has gone on longer than anticipated/intended.  and yet like the plan under team Q, those timelines have changed as well.  when you are in a war, whether it is literal or energetic or a bit of both, NO ONE in ANY dimension or of any ability can give precise dates.  shit happens.  plans change.  but the goal ~ the end result of the plan remains the same and given the mass scale taking place with the plan(s) being carried out here, this time failure is not an option.

success has already been predetermined.  we have already done this.  we are just playing catch up to the timeline where the outcome intended has already been achieved.  this is the game that was played in the realm of separation.

freedom is the outcome.

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love to all of you ~

victoria

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Today’s Reflections ~ 8/22/18 ~ Lovin’ Is What I Got and Processing The Fullness of Knowing I/We Live in a Simulation

 

i awoke trembling within ~ again ~ this after going to bed and falling asleep having the same experience.  magnetics.  schumann.  solar energies.  dna changes. who knows at this point.  i just go with it, although i did tune in and had the vision of my cells vibrating.

i go about my day ~ listening to some news stuff in the background ~ feeling the insanity and chaos of all of that.  and yet as i am out and about today i didn’t have that experience or sense that those around here are in chaos.  all felt neutral and at times, peaceful.  how much of the political stuff is just hyped?  part of the simulation?

ah, the simulation.  this mandela effect thing is really sinking in today. sure, i’ve heard of it ~ researched it in the early days of my website.  linked some stuff.  but i didn’t fully dive in to understand the meaning of it all.  now i get it.  the mandela effect is proof we live in a simulation ~ an environment that has been heavily controlled ~ altered, changed up without our permission. funny, isn’t it, how many in the new age community swear by the motto that we don’t control a thing except for our responses (and such a beautiful thing happens when we surrender to that) ~ only the ego wishes to control and we have to let go of all of that.

more programming perhaps?  if i am not in control of my life, then who is?

if you are not in control of your life, then who is?

and doesn’t that bother the sheot out of you?  it does me.

this same philosophical train of thought will then say if your life isn’t going as you wish, then only YOU can take the reigns of control.  we need not focus that these matrix controllers/creators poison the air, water, food and command we pay them money to live.  we’ll just put all of that aside.

wow.  head spinning 101.

so many thoughts ran through my mind as i processed this.  while i am angry over partaking of this simulation, i am more interested in ending it, getting out.  is this happening?  i have no proof of this.  i have a lot of data and visions ~ from others, some from self including a message i received in the shower this morning that came with a vision.  i suddenly saw a misty veil that parted and i could see a council of people meeting then received a message before having the experience end as quickly as it started.  i am only comfortable saying the message came with a number of days.  i passed this on to one i speak with daily, often numerous times – just the 2 words. nothing else.  nothing about the vision or who i felt was there.  he then wrote and told me he received the same message (only he received a date which aligned w/the timing of what i had received) and went on to tell me who came through (same Being) and mentioned a meeting.

i put these pieces together with the one event dream i had (the one that convinced me that maybe this thing was the real deal and not just some fantasy) ~ how the tree, the focal point of the dream, looked ~ the time of year, the weather (the long term forecast aligns w/the weather in the event dream)….anyway all of these puzzle pieces are coming together and now i just wait.

apparently.

control.  again.  it comes back to control.  and trust.  trust in not only myself but that there ARE Beings who are helping and who as well want to see this simulation end and have worked/assisted to make it so.  a hugely cosmic multi-dimensional happening.

trusting in things i cannot (yet) see.  a challenge for me.  i remain a “prove it” and a “i’ll believe when i see” type of Being.

even all of these graphs i check daily ~ and continue to attempt to understand their signatures ~ it’s still NASA/gov stuff ~ still part of the simulation.  how far DOES this simulation go?  are our bodies even real?  obviously they have been altered but honestly, what is real here?

which brings me to feeling.  and love.  consciousness.  it all begins with consciousness.  and love is the pure result of that, i feel.

so it was a nice little gift from Life tonight on the way home from the library, where i was tired and a little uncomfortable driving, to turn on the radio and hear the piece by Sublime ~ What I Got.  “love is what i got”.

consciousness ~ love ~ is the one thing that while it can be muted, cannot be distinguished.  nowhere.  no how.  no way.  it always remains and rises up out of the most horrific of situations.

and if my consciousness is correct, we are on the cusp of busting free.

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Your Meterage & Timeline Jumpy House for 8-21-18 [MAJOR UPDATE]

 

editor’s note:  after months of not feeling the draw to link the cats stuff, i now have been having the draw to check them out lately.  so…..here is my feeeel on “things” ~ i noticed something different today.  a lightening up.  a smoothing.  that may be due to recent purges and unplugging and all of that i went through this week.  so is it ME having this experience as a result of what i have done or is it due to outside energy spikes and changes ~ or a bit of both (likely).  i know this ~ i feel like inner ME pulled me away from politics and all of the awakening stuff going on in this realm and said “focus HERE” hence my return to more Event and Spiritual and “get outta this realm” stuff.  it was a sudden and strong yet gentle shift w/in.  Self works in this way.  this morning my mate had on a youtube channel where POTUS was set to speak ~ and i had no desire to listen.  zero.  not that i have lost respect for who he is and what is doing and not that i do not see and feel his greater purpose ~ just that ME says “no longer need to follow that”.  
so instead i am going to make a brazilian coconut dessert later.  sudden desire to cook brazilian type foods.  expanding out for what is to be our new way of living?  the huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge draw for the New?  
i am also allowing myself to recall and play with the initial thought i had after my kitchen table spine buzzing lifting up experience last fall.  first i knew at the time either big Me or the Source Me or fractals multi-d Me or all of the previous gave me that experience so i wouldn’t totally freak out when “the time” comes.  i have a very strong personality (NO!) and as such a strong need to KNOW and CONTROL (double NO!!) my life, my surroundings.  so, for example, while i may be the type in my heart to welcome any Being who would wish to visit, i am also the type to want to know their purpose, their reason to visit and to feel them out.  anyway….(i also ramble a lot at times ~ sorry)….so i was drawn to go back to that experience last night.  and the thought i had at the time was i was being pulled out of my body.  my first feel was i was leaving my body.  my conscious full aware me was.  so ok ~ that freaked me out because i automatically go to NO I AM NOT DYING NO WAY NO HOW am i leaving my body for this line of thinking.  totally natural.  and YET…IF all of this is a simulation it is completely possible these vessels, these altered, dumbed down vessels, are also part of the simulation and taking this one step further in written word (which has already been playing out in my mind for months) it is possible that upon the end of all of this and the transition/event, the fully conscious We leave these bodies and quickly if not immediately enter into our REAL bodies with REAL Source Code Original.  a possibility some have not only suggested but have said this is how it will be.  it is MY feeeeeeeeeeeeel it would be a choice.  new body altogether or take the one we have and change it/heal it.  i have seen myself on the real earth (new earth i have decided is a term i don’t resonate with – real earth feeeeeels right to me.).  and i look more or less the same as i do now.  lighter.  younger.  fully healed.  and yet it is also possible i look quite different.  if i had had an experience of being on real earth looking the way i (possibly) really will, human me would likely have not thought it was ME but either a previous ME and i may have dismissed those dreams and visions.  or perhaps i here now am but one part of the fractal left waiting to enter the new Me which is already “there” and waiting for the rest of the merge to happen.  scientifically this is all totally feasible and i could spend hours talking and contemplating this one so i will stop for now….  i just know i have been encountering others who are contemplating the same/similar.
so those are my current feels at the moment.  well ok my feel i have had for awhile now and am just giving myself permission to allow it.
please as always share your thoughts (in so long as they are respectful.)
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On and on it goes (and on) as we try to sort out our various futures and wishes and dreams vis-à-vis the energies and shifting timelines. What we’re seeing is a kind of “stepping-stones to The Event” situation, with lots of little steps instead of the bigger Steps we were seeing before (which may come back), with some of us like-minded SOURCE enthusiasts being jollied into an evolutionary timeline-y group (we’re guessing), so we can more easily GROUP-PUSH the UP button on the Cosmic Elevator of Cosmicness. Or something like that.

First, we had another big K-index (as opposed to Circle K) event at Kiruna… that’s two in two days:

Woof.

And, lo and behold, the NASA meters were NOT edited! A miracle. Lookie:

And this brought the usual geophone/ULF/ELF/SR confirmation…

…but now we have so much timeline kerfuffflage that it’s tough to keep track:

Timeline SMEEEEEAAAAARRRR…
Timeline jumpage in Lombardy.
[sigh] And Canada.

AND another GRB…

…which in some cases are “Universal Being” information transmissions. It’s a long story. The message? Either, “The Event is almost here!” or… “DUCK!”

Arrrgg.

We feel you, bro.

MAJOR UPDATE

Ok. One of the CATs just spoke with Lisa Gawlas and we are all now literally swimming in a new energy — an energy that’s already here; we’re living in it, now — an energy that has never been on the earth before. Those tingles you might’ve been feeling are going to start getting more tingle-y!

Note that you also might start noticing people REALLY getting twitchy, that is, those people who don’t know what’s going on. Some people are open to knowing, some aren’t. Be careful and gentle with the norms.

Also, when you meditate, try asking SOURCE to merge with you. See what happens.

Oh, and we’ve had more activity, so you may have felt some of it:

Please note that, while some of us are trained as scientists, we use these (and all) meters in ways the techs and scientists didn’t intend. Basically, we understand what scientists are seeing a lot better than they do because our brains on running better software. Simple as that. Everyone on their path, everything going well.

Lookie here:

Lombardian timeline jump, slightly delayed from the Russian one above.
Those numbers on the right basically indicate vibration, in Hertz. (That’s much higher than Schumann Resonance).
When the meter goes dark, it’s showing that the 3d computer system is reacting to the timeline jump.
You might notice lots of electrical and computer systems will become spurious during timeline jumps.
Here’s Canada, showing the same jump as the Russian meter.
Like the Middle East and Pakistan, Canadians are dealing with TONS of energy. Timeline jumps.
Wow. This is crazy, the SR meter totally saturated. (We suspect that 50 Hz signature in the middle is a power line, btw.)
Krikey. Never seen this before. It could be showing us that new earth energy we mentioned.
Look at the amplitude recording on the far right. (Psst, actually it’s a CME.)

Like we said…

A small CME, but looks like it’ll hit around the 25th (the chart’s an estimate). Some energy travels faster, some slower.

And… wow! Look at the Wave X bursts! (Sorry for the large file.) That spiraling one is HAARP making hurricanes in Asia… which is then negated by SOURCE and Wave X!

Wave X in action.
Wave X in action.
Wave X in action. Is it lessening a hurricane??

Wow. What a day.

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Today’s Message ~ The Purge Continues

 

wowser!

the purging is begun again.  today i began feeling the longing for home and what i know has once been REAL.  full return of Who I Am.  merging of all of my scattered pieces.  Bliss.  Love.

i am also purging some stuff related to my pregnancy.  the pregnancy was amazing ~ easy ~ beautiful (of course some issues of heartburn and leg cramps that would send me flying out of bed at 5am – but those issues are just part of the experience) ~ it was life at the time.  surgeries for my mate. an eviction threat.  i looked back on that today in amazement at how well both of us handled it all.  i know too there was a lot of stress and i know babies pick up on that.  i know i did all i could to keep that to a minimal but i know somewhere she remembers.  and wow, you know?  the last thing any parent wants to do is pass along stress or harm to their child in any way.

and yet again…………this realm does just that.  gets ya from the get go.  no more.  love freedom now.  some are feeling this excitement ~ bliss.  i have had a few moments like that recently.  today?  no.  today it is the purging.

purging as well as going through old stuff.  i know of some who are moving or packing up or ridding themselves of old stuff.  i feel, for me, that i am cleaning up this space to leave it beautiful as a way of honoring this space in which i have resided.  we got rid of some old junk because new, beautiful replacements came along.  at first i was like NO NOT MORE STUFF but then i tuned within and heard “enjoy this while you are still in this realm”.  it felt like a gift of beauty ~ and i decided to take it.  so much of our stuff is old or used.  there IS a pure energy in something that is new, unused.  you can put your own energy into it.  and there IS a pureness to something that is clean.

it’s all energy!

i just finished up going through our girl’s clothes ~ taking out a lot of items she either doesn’t wear or no longer fit.  i have some messages out for mama’s of younger girl’s who may wish to have them.  i also went through some of my own clothing last night (and i am not yet done) ~ i actually threw some of it away.

purging.  emotionally.

physically.

ah and i see KP is having the same/similar experience.  i will share that one next.

how are all of you doing?

love,

victoria

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End of the day share…

 

…or the gist of it all:

~there are no lessons…that is part of the matrix program

~there are no tests…again, part of the program

~the terms 3d 4d, etc. are all part of the program

~karma and contracts ~ again, all part of the program

~the concept we have to work and prove our worth to “ascend” ~ also part of the program.

Even the basic notion of “ascension” is part of the program.

Love is Free. Freedom is Love.

This is the time we are seeing an end of the game of enslavement.

Deception.

This is the time we are seeing the prisoners freed.

There are no rules or should’s or have to’s.

Go within your heart and listen.

Feel.

Ask what Love does.

Then go with that.

All else is programming.

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Today’s Experiences (in this pay to live realm)

 

Today was the day of the local street fair event.  I worked on my creations for over a month.  I bought the supplies.  I also practiced my songs, for part of what I was selling today was (donation-based)  my music.  I sat outside for almost 5 hours.  I played for over 2.  Here is the result:

I sold one bracelet for $5 and had a $1 donation for my music.

I had numerous very positive comments on both my bracelets and my music.  People stopped.  Listened.  Asked questions.

And yet, as for whatever reasons completely unknown to me and perhaps I need no longer care, which I would if food, etc. were free, I seem to repel making money.  I could check my thoughts although I know plenty of people who hate the money system and still make a good living at it so that isn’t it.

It is something cosmic.  Is it a negative force?  Am I being called at a Higher Level?  I don’t know.  And I don’t care right now.  What I do care about, what is causing my belly to clench, is how often I put myself, my gifts, my Higher Gifts, out there and do not receive in return what I intend, desire, etc.  Or very little alignment w/the energy of efforts in terms of money flowing back to me.

I know I said I had no expectations.  I guess I was lying to myself.

I expected to make a good amount of money.  I did set the intention and visualized selling over half of my bracelets.  I also saw people tossing in dollar bills listening to me play.  Damn, people do that all over this town for the busker’s.  Today though?  With me?

I don’t get it.

Maybe I should just stop giving of myself and sit out at the corner with a sign saying “Money needed.  Anything helps.  Thank you.”  People do that all over this city and the masses give them money.  I don’t like that idea.  I like the idea of an exchange of energy.  But apparently “liking” something to make money doesn’t matter because if it DID I would be making far more.

Crap, you know?  Donations are even down on my site in spite of subscribers increasing.

I’m just disillusioned.  My heart is aching a good deal right now over this. This goddess is very hurt at how I have shared of myself and gotten very little in return for the amount of energetic investment I put forth.

Sometimes there are no answers.  Perhaps that is how it was designed here. Perhaps that is part of the programming.  Some people thrive, others struggle to survive.

I’m ready to put the struggle to bed.  I’m far too gifted and willing to share to struggle in this manner any longer.

Other than that, to end on a positive, I DID enjoy myself.  I did an experiment with the piano.  I began by playing cover’s and while people would listen, few stopped and listened.  But then I switched it up, closed my eyes (to get into my zone, my heart-space) and played one of my most intense originals ~ a song of how we are all a part of the same life and wow. That’s when people stopped and listened.  Some really listened intensely (mostly the younger crowd ~ which gave me chills).

So while I may not jive and vibe with the whole pay to live money system, I do vibe with the All at the Cosmic Level.  And that will have to be my gift for now.  Some day very soon that will be payment to put food on my table, right?

Speaking of, off to put together some dinner.  Until next time…

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hello everyone ~

i am still trying to figure out the e-mail notification issue.  it seems w/the new plugin i installed, i lost all of your e-mail addresses ( aka the subscriber list) so instead of taking time to figure that out, i just went back to the original plugin which has all of your emails.  so once again, some posts may go through and some may not.  either way, i do post daily and if you aren’t receiving notifications, you can always go to the main page and click the latest posts menu.  for now i am just going to walk away from this issue and let it simmer on the back burner.

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