wow ~ these body pains ~ unbelievable! this is not normal for me. i went to bed early and slept almost 13 hours. still needing to sleep. lower back ~ frig! mind tired. heart heavy. i cried for a long time this morning purging (again). E N O U G H! ok ENOUGH! i am finding no joy here. done with the waiting game.
making a meal. shaking my head and wondering what the purpose of any of this is. oh – of interest perhaps – as i lay in bed this morning crying i kept saying “i’m sorry” – over and over. it was all i could say.
and that is all i feel i need or want to say now other than S O S!!
love,
v.
p.s. ~ anyone else gassy?? burping a lot?? even my girl is – burping a lot and she rarely, if ever, does this.
wow – this physical pain stuff continues. i’m feeling it in my bones. bottoms of feet. hips. lower back. hands cramping. riding my bike normally makes me feel good ~ not the last 3 days. seriously WOW!
bloating. little appetite. and the slug-sensation continues. i feel most everything about me – from how i move to how i talk – is in slow motion.
watched a WSO/Steve Olson video tonight detailing the magnetics (will link it later). serious pressure and a lot of ions smothering this realm. as i mentioned to my mate earlier ~ it feels like we’re being radiated.
in the shower earlier i was contemplating “stuff”. the concept of “heal thyself”. this has often felt unfair to me ~ not that i don’t know we have this capability. we do. however much of that in our DNA was shut off so we are in a guessing game as to how to heal ourselves. just like we’re in a guessing game on how to really create. feels like walking/being/doing blind, as i have recently come to feel. (plus there’s the assault games we have been under and the entire energy harvesting system of pay to live….)
this way of Being ~ healing ourselves ~ is supposed to be natural. and easy. miracles aren’t supposed to be a rare gift – they are supposed to be THE WAY we live and experience and Be. maybe that doesn’t resonate with everyone. i have had to open myself up to the idea that not all carry this knowing. not all have the cellular memories, the impressions in the body, the conscious awareness/visions, etc. and maybe not all have had the experience of being Pure Creator’s in the purest, divine, most free sense. i KNOW what i have once experienced while living in a physical body. early, original gaia. other realms. that’s why the more i have awakened and become aware of all of these memories and knowings within me, the more difficult it has been for me to be here. while it has been easier to be Me, it has NOT been easier to be here.
the book “the secret” popped into my mind. i was once heavily into all of that. i even started a discussion group around it. i saw so many struggle with this – including myself. one woman, a friend of mine, who had a host of health and money issues and who was so positive in her focus and thinking, seemed like a natural at all of this “law of attraction” stuff. and yet – years later she still had (has) the health issues, the money struggles. but she remained focused and positive.
you know – we were designed to heal INSTANTLY. and manifest INSTANTLY.
today as i tune into this, i have this feeeeeeeeeeeeeeling that this law of attraction and all other things similar do not work fully here in this realm. the frequencies of this realm are not compatible. if it were, we would all be manifesting our heart’s desires regularly and often – not this hit and miss that seems to be the case. it is likely, imho, that the authors and promoters of this book did not create their success w/this “secret” stuff alone – they had system controllers (i.e. publishers, marketing guru’s and the like) promoting them – giving them recognition and money. hey lookit me – i read the secret and my life expanded hugely. oh but i forgot to add i had a lot of help and support along the way.
self-made. uh huh. i’m not buying it. i gave the secret away ~ donated it to a local little library. i stopped reading such books several years ago. as i say ~ help us turn on those magic codes within so we CAN do this self-made creating!
and get us OUT of here too please. thank you.
other than that, my sensitivities continue to be intense. noise. other’s talking around me. my goodness, the need to be alone has become more intense if that was possible. people i see around the neighborhood, with whom i would normally at least have some sort of conversation, just cannot do that now.
i am also calling forth each day to see the purple and pink skies. to see the matrix. to see the dome, the grid. to see the new realm. so speaking of the law of attraction if it worked the way it was supposed to here, i would have seen some amazing things by now. i would have created it. i am calling it forth with all that I Am.
and even though i am moving at a slugs pace these days, my I AM is quite done with the slugs pace of manifesting.
i did have an insight come to me ~ not that it soothed me much but it made some logical sense (grrrr). taking down the deep state, the cabal and all of those systems they infiltrated is a process. shutting down the matrix realm and “removing” – releasing us is also a process.
yes ok i said as i kicked some rocks and resisted the urge to pick one up and throw it. hard.
it is a process. of which we are at the end. collectively those of us aware of such feel this too.
for now we do what we can. the best we know how. i for one continue to call forth THE END and freedom.
that is all for now….
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in the shower a bit ago i recalled some other experiences i had earlier in the day – that i completely spaced out on. i get a bit annoyed at myself ~ well old me would get annoyed ~ new me just laughs at how i process things and what i focus on. sometimes the most OBVIOUS of experiences ~ right in front of me ~ will be dismissed.
today’s most OBVIOUS of experiences that even when happening i failed to grasp just what was happening was this sensation of falling. i had it several times today. it was not just dizziness but i literally felt it – in my entire body – that i was falling. this is new. it didn’t feel like a tripping/falling sensation – more like a free fall – slow mo.
and at the time i knew that – this is a new experience – but i just chalked it up to how things are in that moment.
then tonight in the shower i remembered lisa harrison saying after the 7th wave begins. many will spend the first amount of time/days experiencing the sensation of falling.
why didn’t i put that together at the time? lol seriously will someone tune into me and say “girl why did you not SEE that one??” it isn’t like i walk around on a normal day and suddenly feel like i am falling.
i remember hearing lisa speak of this. i have also heard of 1 or 2 others speak of this potential if not possible experience after the last wave. i just never stopped to consider i could have this experience ~ likely because i often think “that happens to others – not me”. not in a smug way – not at all – but in a way that says “they get to experience the cool stuff – not me.”
time to shed that program too. this is an INCLUSIVE experience.
the other experience is quite intense lower back pain. in fact by 7pm or so my bones were hurting – all over. going for the usual bike ride was very uncomfortable. i could NOT get comfortable. i would stand up – then have to sit down – then shake my right hand then my left. repeat.
while in the shower i also recalled lisa again saying as our highest/biggest selves come back online again (after being squashed, as she put it, into our lower spine ~ something i absolutely align with given previous feels and an experience) – that region would begin to hurt. yeah no kidding. i recall last fall when i was at the kitchen table and the base of my spine began to buzz strongly – traveling up my back, neck and out my head and that is when i felt i was being lifted and heard the “this is how it happens” ~ so i have had my own confirmation of where my “power ME” resides – and how she is coming back in full power….so apparently that is including some sudden low back pain.
so be it.
the falling stuff today – it happened when i was at the sink and i thought “wow i’m falling” but of course i didn’t. it happened at the neighbor’s house. it happened in the shower tonight in a big way.
of note – on bike rides the past 2 nights i rode by the sacred tree – not much into speaking w/it for some time now but the last two nights i felt “buckle up and hold on” coming from it. along those lines – i will end w/a note of synchronicity. tonight my girl was singing to me. she has this amazing innate gift to make up songs on the spot – songs that are quite good and often full of wisdom. tonight as she sang to me, snuggled in bed, she told me now was the time to buckle up and enjoy the ride for the ride is just beginning.
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people are going batshit crazy (to borrow the phrase)!! programming breaking down the bots and pushing the humans to purge. the last two days i have been all over town and people, i gotta say, some are flipping the farm fu## out. lol yesterday i witnessed a woman ahead of me (on a 2-way street) turn on her left blinker. i naturally assumed she was taking a left into one of the driveways or streets. nope. she pulls into the left lane and continues to drive – the wrong way. i begin honking, waving my arms, attempting to get her attention. nope. she kept on going. i saw cars coming the opposite way, headed straight for her and figured she would see them (my venture out required that i turn off the street). the speed limit is 25 so hopefully no accidents. i didn’t hear of any.
my mate witnessed someone freak the farm “f” out and throw her bike into a row of parked bikes, yelling all sorts of obscenities. today he said people seemed irritated and the energy was very chaotic.
today, i walked up to the manager of a store to ask where the stationary aisle was. she stopped suddenly and gave me a look like “WHAT do you WANT??!!” (which actually made me shrink back) before telling me. i smiled and thanked her. don’t want to feed the beast. lol
while in line, the clerk, although pleasant, emanated tension and exhaustion. and the dad and son in front of me – well let’s just say the look on the dad’s face said “if i were at home i would be grumpin’ all over the place” (his little boy was being annoying – nothing unusual – just kid annoying). dad looked exhausted and at the end of his rope.
headed to the next store, i observed some guy in a large green work truck in back of me driving erratically. swerving recklessly, driving far too fast. at one point as i watched him swerve out, i thought he was trying to avoid an oncoming car. nope. he just pulled into a driveway.
as i headed down the road, this human bot in a subaru was driving down the middle of the road so i had to swerve to the right.
it was at this point i said “jesus effing i’m going home NOW!”
so much continues to bubble up ~ i have to pause and wonder why some people, when asked, claim they don’t feel a thing.
i know this much – my body certainly feels different today. light and shaky. spacey. getting myself out of bed this morning was unbelievably difficult. moving the vessel in a slug-like fashion. i had some heart palps today and a few times anxiety sky-high. i moved slow and breathed calmly and deeply to soothe thyself.
while in the car, i turned on the radio and said “ok Universe inspire me with a song”. what comes on? Foreigner ~ “Long Long Way From Home”. Talk about an appropriate song. “It was my destiny. …. I was inside looking outside. Millions of faces but still I’m alone. Waiting…..I could feel the tension. I was longing for home.”
YES!! Every cell in me, every piece of my heart, all of my fractals cried “YES”. Tears came.
Longing for home.
Because this is Not. It.
Obviously. (watching the skies a lot right now)
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Much love,
Victoria
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Well a lot of purging today. Some of it I feel is the “finality” of it as in somehow this will no longer be allowable in my life/space.
Are you the type who colors outside of the lines now and then? Or do you feel the need to keep it all in between the black lines/spaces? I go back and forth ~ although I always come back to the wild, free Spirit within who says JUST BE ~ however and whoever that is at ANY given moment.
I recalled today as a child a girl from school. She let me borrow her markers. We each had our coloring books. First she lectured me on how I was to use her markers. Then she lectured me on how I was coloring outside the lines ~ not allowable apparently.
No one had told me such a thing. Given my age, I took another one of her markers, used them exactly the way she did not wish me to use them while scribbling all over the page. Just because I could. I remember thinking how absolutely uptight she was. We were KIDS. Not adults.
My mother was the type for whom the house had to be spotless. My dad, he had to have all go his way in order to feel safe. Overall I appreciate that because I too like things to be clean and, overall, orderly. I like things to go smoothly. And yet sometimes you just gotta breathe and let things unfold. let others BE.
And I have extreme dislike for anyone who tells me “how to do things” ~ especially when I have not asked ~ or when someone throws anger or what I call the “buttinski” my way when I have undertaken a task and done it my way and not theirs.
THAT is the behavior that is no longer welcome in my space. I set that in place today.
Part of freedom. Let me be ME. If I am not harming another, there is no issue and vice versa. Serious issue of mine. I need – love – thrive – on being left to just BE ME.
I laugh as I visualize a bubble around me and someone has stepped into it and begun telling me how things are and how things will be and other rhetoric. Excuse me, I say, I have not invited you into my bubble. We could ALL use such a bubble, right?
Noticing some computer/internet/electrical stuff too…
Before heading out to get a few food items, I listened to some of Linea’s latest video (which I will link). If this intel is accurate, at 7:37am, Pacific Time, we will experience the ending of this old and a transition into the new. I don’t know if it is the Schumann spiking (image below) but I had sudden moments of feeling so light, I thought I could fly. One happened while I was in the car and so I felt the need to say “ok girl keep the vessel on the ground”. It was that strong. (also of note ~ the magnetopause live data has not been “live” in 24 hours ~ WSO/Steve Olson noticed that as well. I still see a white rabbit off to the left which continues to perplex me)
I had a hard time keeping myself grounded while in the store too. I have said on many days over the past year and a half I have felt between 2 worlds, pretty equally split. Today I felt like 3/4 of me was just elsewhere, leaving a small portion of consciousness in this body here. As I left the store and the clerk handed me my receipt, my immediate thought to say was “have a good life”. I shook my head and thought “that’s nonsense”.
Or is it?
I cannot say for sure.
On the way home, I said ok Universe, show me some guidance on the radio.
Turning it on I first hear “Young hearts be free tonight” (Rod Stewart ~ Young Turks). Second song ~ message in a bottle (The Police) ~ last song “The Sign” (Ace of Base ~ “I got a new life…you would hardly recognize me”…). That last one faded out ~ I couldn’t get it to come in again.
A “sign” of what is happening?
Letting it all unfold……
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editor’s note: i will not say where this came from – but it made me want to take those words and put them right back on this person. what is it they are looking for? more fame than they already have? more people dishing out money to them to ensure they ARE “ready”? do they wish to see this event postponed so they can ensure more followers? more fame and glory?
i cannot stay quiet about this nonsense any longer. and i don’t. i do not wish to pass judgment – we are each on our own journey. and yet COME ON already. this is about LOVE. we have been imprisoned here. we have been enslaved. we have had our precious DNA altered. we are running BLIND half the time, left alone to figure out what’s going on, what’s happening.
this thing we all call “the event” – if it is to be the REAL DEAL – is about Love. a beautiful hug and hand UP – saying “here you beautiful being – you are now free – the blocks – the viruses – are being removed so you can once again create FREELY as you once did. as Source originally intended.”
i swear if one more person says we have to prove our worth or that we have to wait for the masses to awaken (when it is very possible if not probable many of these beings have no Source codes within and are just simulations working consciously or unconsciously for the matrix system energies)…..well i am going to need a large abandoned field to go scream out my frustration. i want to see us all FREE of this shit – every one of us – and i have so much love (or something that is hugely expansive in my heart) in me for ALL beings who have been harmed and traumatized and enslaved….. SO MUCH LOVE – i could never find it in me – not in all these years – to once FULLY resonate and feel the idea that we had to prove our worthiness/readiness. we are HERE. WE ARE ENOUGH.
NOW.
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“Many ask me about the Event and why it has not happened yet. It has not happened because humanity is not ready yet. They are not ready because many are still suffering from programming, conditioning and illusions. Until these false programs are discarded, the event will not be able to take place.”
i received this one in the shower earlier this evening….wanted to share it….forgot….(no surprise there these days)…..i had a visual of us in this realm – in this pit. i thought about the concept of ascension and all of the ideas on how we have to raise our vibration in order to more or less “earn” our right outta here. that never resonated with me even though i was on that wagon for awhile. i know – not new “news” with most of my regular readers. i just got so clear on that one tonight. it all linked up within.
love doesn’t require us to “prove” itself. when a conscious being has been changed and put into prison like environment, love lets the prisoners free. it doesn’t say “climb up out of that pit yourself”. ascension – just another program here.
also feeling out what i heard earlier about the pleiadians being “hope harvesters”. what an excellent description. i let go of my attachment to this race awhile ago. they have been the go-to in terms of channeled messages. ashtar and the like. i feel they were/are conscious beings – but here to serve us? absolutely not. their messages were filled with introductions that felt so derogatory. “dear ones” and “children of earth”. often the messages contained tidbits like “one day you shall be free like us” or “one day when you have earned the right by learning your lessons you will be advanced like us”. oh how i have seen people, beautiful well meaning, heart-centered people say “we have to be more like them” or “we’re not ready yet”.
arrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhh!
today i know different for i have let myself feeeeeeeeeel different. i pondered their shares, words and continued to come back to feeling the inner bullshit radar while hearing/knowing “love helps”. period.
love is supportive. and sending out a message to the hostages that “one day you shall be free like us” and the like feels exactly like beings who harvest energy based on hope given.
nonsense. fake.
hence – you will find little on this site these days on the topic of ascension. the galactics. etc. talk of love and support and show equal respect (NO power-over/separation) back it up with actual PROOF of such action, it will find a home here.
lots of speak now of the lunar eclipse (of which as i continue this piece and post it, has already passed). as i shared yesterday, i am not giving my energy to that. i thought of the moon after i woke up this morning. how many decades have we heard from docs/nurses in ER rooms how accidents, erratic behavior increases during the full moon? calls to 9/11. etc. etc.
this is enough for me to know this construct we call “moon” is artificial. i have heard it works in conjunction w/saturn as a receiver – beaming down negative frequencies. disruptive. there is also ample video/photographic footage showing bases on the lunar surface (bruce sees all – youtube – has the most recent and imo, excellent footage).
all of the planets here – the sun – the moon – are simulations of the real thing. i have an inner knowing that where i have once created, we had real sun(s) and moons and other planetary objects. and they worked WITH us – not against us. they were beneficial. helpful. not used for some nefarious purpose.
it’s so sad ~ if this is all a giant simulation, so much of it is really beautiful. still struggling w/the totality of that concept. at this point i feel like that television show during the 70’s – where 3 people came on stage, all claiming to be the same person. 2 were “fake” – one was authentic. i am ready to state “will the REAL x y z please stand up now”. waiting around, trying to decipher the truth of what is real and what isn’t ~ kinda done with that part of the journey.
the real planets – that is what i focus on now. what is REAL. i call them forth.
i pause as i re-read these words. i reflect. who i am – where i was in the beginning of this journey, who i am today. i try not to hold beliefs any longer but rather, go within and feeeeeeeeel what resonates. in doing so, i remain fluid, not fixated on a particular outcome so strongly i forget to bend when i need to bend, expand and change course when i need to do that as well.
today i felt – again – some grieving – feeling i am about ready to say good-bye to what once was. how will this look upon transition? who and what will i see? who will i not see? i get that way – kinda comes w/the package that is me – even upon a good change i mourn. and it isn’t mourning what has hurt necessarily, but mourning the moments of beauty and purity – mourning the love that has been mixed in with the lack of and…(deep breath)…realizing how i could have been more present in those moments of divine love, purity. so much distracts me – such a ridiculous program i took on.
i am also seeing and sensing deeply the preciousness of life. the innocence – my innocence. that has been very present in my mind and in my heart.
as far as physical stuff, a sense of clumsiness is in the air – affecting all in this household to varying degrees. moving the vessel slower and with intent/focus is quite important now. had another glass breakage – this time a glass candle holder my mate and i bought once upon a time when it was just the 2 of us. it was always placed outside – sometimes we would put a tealight candle in it, lite it and sit outside. it felt strange – feels strange – seeing it break. all my mate did was touch it w/the broom – he was sweeping away some cobwebs. the thing immediately fell and i swear, shattered into hundreds of pieces out in the gravel. as my mate said “it’s as though it wanted to leave. maybe it’s a representation of what is happening to this realm.”
i could not argue against that. possibly, i said, as i paused and reflected while i helped him clean up the broken glass. so emotional right now – just reliving the experience, typing these words, i feel the emotions well up in my throat. it’s been a ride – one in which i know many if not all of us wish to end and go forth on a new adventure. adventureS. for now, remembering the innocence and preciousness of love and connection. because, you know, those moments ~ that’s what matters more than anything.
love,
victoria
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i took the night off last night and watched “guess who’s coming to dinner”. i love those old classics. there was an innocence ~ intelligent conversation. i was in great need of that energy after skimming through some of the headlines of yesterday. the horrors coming out of hollywood ~ the articles ~ the naming of names ~ it just got to be too much. i needed to recharge and get back some energy of innocence.
today – tonight – i am feeling like i need more time off. Q is now addressing this filth. i read someone say they (the perpetrators) are just playing a role, another said we need to know how to tune inward to see how we are calling forth such experiences.
seriously W T F?!
i won’t even address that shit. i won’t say “STOP BLAMING the victim! NO PERSON ~ young or old says ‘hey come and rape me. come torture me.'”
ah, but i did, didn’t i?
playing a role? really? so if one of these sick filthy pieces of vermin pulled that horror on their child, they would just dismiss it as “playing a role”?
it’s difficult enough for me to understand why a person would sell out like this. why anyone with a speck of source, with a soul, would make such a choice.
that is why i tell myself – they are soulless. bots. projections. FAKE. as fake as the sun, the moon and other planets in this realm.
am i the only one who feels when this simulation ends, we are going to see how few of us pure-hearts there are?
i am feeling a bit heavy – all the money i threw at these entities. the energy i invested in their movies and their lives. all of it – a waste. i even told my mate to stop buying lottery tickets. i had a feeling followed by a chill that this money has gone to supporting trafficking. it goes into the general fund which is a fancy way of saying “we don’t have to account for the money”. given the massive revenue in my state alone from lotto sales, we could have redone our infrastructure. instead – all of these “promises” made by the lottery commission – the fixing up of roads, parks, cleaning up of x y z have gone unmet. we have resembled a 3rd world country as each year has passed.
it brings up my own “stuff” here too ~ the unwanted attention, the fondling, the grabbing, groping, the stares and “cat calls” – being forced into situations i said “NO” to and/or did not ask to participate in. the one time i didn’t know what to say or do – i was much too young – so i just had to let it happen.
the heaviness of this realm – the energy of power over and control – all of it – i am ready to drop like a heavy, stinky, mold-ridden, musty coat.
until then, for now, i soothe myself. i send love and healing to the victims – not that this does a damn thing to remedy any of it. i know there are people rescuing these people, young and old – just as there are those exposing the perps. and i applaud them. honor them. have deep respectfor them. for i know – i do not have it in me to take on those roles.
well…….aside from that i am feeling quite reflective on the upcoming week. will the magic begin on the 30/31st (depending upon where one is)? will it be sudden? slow? today i was feeling very floaty-like – the “between two worlds” sensation. a huge fear-based dream last night – where i took control of a horror and stopped myself at the last moment from taking the life of someone who had harmed a child. that is all i will share on that. a dream that was influenced? or processing out a fear, showing my power? both? how are we to know?
how are we to truly KNOW a thing living under the parameter of lies and deception/manipulation that we do? until felt and seen, what we have is speculation.
off to self-soothe now. if any of you feel inclined to share a few dollars, i would deeply appreciate it. pay day is another week away and funds are very low this month – the lowest they have been at this time in a very long time.
then again, maybe this is all happening for a reason and i am being guided to continue this self-soothing/go-within/reflective space while knowing in a few more days, this pay to live money stuff will no longer matter – for any of us.
now that is something i can breathe in deeply.
much love,
victoria
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some new “things” – deep inner ear ache that has felt like someone quickly pokes my inner ear with a needle.
intense dizziness a couple of times today – mate had the same experience at one point at the same moment.
drinking copious amounts of water. as in W O W!!
feeling like i am at the end of an experience. some grieving. mostly just very very reflective right now. quiet.
so disgusted w/the filth that continues to leak out of hollywood – the pedo crap and other equal horrors – i will not watch another movie out of that land of filth. i have thought to sell the collection we have and use the money to support one of the groups exposing this horror. then again i think let us all smash the dvd’s to pieces, video it and throw it up on youtube. let them SEE that WE see THEM and our support of them is ancient history.
some people are simply without a soul. it isn’t as though they simply just sold out – their soul no longer resides w/in their vessel. or were cloned. or artificially created.
triggered in the area of support – lack thereof. HUGE lack in that area. i have been hearing – feeling – lisa harrison’s words on support and the universe – how the REAL universe of ALL is an energy OF support and does not exist in this realm. it is a horrid energy here – this lack of support – and i am ready to see it obliterated.
when i am honest with myself, i see the miracle that I Am. i see how it is a miracle that i have maintained my beauty, my purity, my divinity in spite of the abuse and neglect i have experienced from “out there”, family, “friends”. and even having gone off target now and then, not being the authentic ME but the me who has felt bitter, enraged, isolated, unseen and apathetic…. WHO I AM STILL IS. and she is ready to take the hands of those i love and who love me back (very small number that is in this realm) and GO HOME.
that is all. hopefully this one will get through to my subscribers. that is an unresolved issue and i do not have the tech know-how to fix it. and to be honest, i am feeling the need to just let it ride, let it be. for if it ain’t EZ flow now, i am not engaging.
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