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Had another one of those “did not ask for” dream experiences.  I arrive in the Hampton’s or someplace similar (some place exclusive in the North Eastern Seaboard ~ been there a few times to know where I was).  I see this beautiful home up on a grassy hill.  Few other homes around.

I go inside.  Next thing I know I am in the bedroom – huge room – round – with floor to ceiling windows looking out at the coastline.  I see JFK Jr and his wife, Carolyn, lying in the bed together, both of them each wrapped up in off-white linen sheets.  They are both very young – 30’s – so I know I have gone into the past.  I feel ok being there so I stay.

I then walk over to them.  I hear JFK Jr telling her “it’s ok.  We have to do this.  I need you to trust me completely.”  He was very focused on her trusting him – there was a huge energy with that.  She looked hesitant ~ a bit afraid ~ but I also felt she had agreed to do this, knew it was the right thing but was now having doubts as she was pregnant.  The connection between them was powerful – purposeful.  He then patted her hip lovingly and smiled while saying “and besides, I also have this beautiful bambino to protect”.   She smiled.

For some reason, I then touched his hair.  He was ok with it.  It was thick and very coarse.  Probably my own need to verify the texture of his hair given the images we have been seeing.

I then looked around the room one last time, sent an energy of thanks and well being then left.

And there you have it.  I know I have been posting a lot on JFK Jr ~ I feel it is highly relevant.  Proof is in the pictures and while I am not convinced yet the pictures we are seeing of him ARE him ~ that is indeed Carolyn.  I also awoke yesterday morning, recalling the video The Plan to Save the World.  The narrator sounds exactly like JFK Jr.  I thought back to the video and how many times the video showed an old speech of his.  Why would they show that speech unless he was somehow connected to this movement?

Until I see otherwise, I strongly feel he is alive as are his wife and wife’s sister.  It was all a psyop – against the d.s.  I also found a video of Trump – put out a few months after JFK’s jr’s alleged death.  It was with Dan Rather.  Trump spoke of his desire to run for President and said he would make the announcement the following February.  Watching it you knew it wasn’t the time – but he was putting out some clues, feeling it out.  What was comical was listening to “experts” in the video saying he was just all ego-talk, no way would he ever run for president much less win.

Aside from that, it has been a quiet day.  Unless you count the car insurance that jumped up again.  State Farm.  I left AFI after State Farm said my rates would gradually decrease over time.  That has not happened.  They have gone up every year, always under the system mantra of “corporate policy”.  Today I said they could fuck their corporate policy.  Lower my rate or I was going elsewhere.  I haven’t cost them a damn dime.  And besides, I am overly done with some corporate overlord telling me I HAVE to have insurance if I wish to drive.  Really?  In what reality?  Not mine.

Turns out I had been eligible for a much lower car rate but they cannot credit me back.  State Law.  I said I was a Free Being and was done playing the corporate game, done being told I hadh to follow their laws when it does not align with Higher Law and Who I am.

Now we have to have a conversation on how we are going to handle the electric bill next month.  They are charging me an additional $175 for refusing to take one of their toxic smart meters.  All along I said I do not consent to those fees and I stand firm.  Just more system bullshit intruding into my life when I DO NOT CONSENT nor ask for it.

It cannot crash soon enough for me.  And that is not one of those statements put out by bot Bill Maher who wants Trump’s economy to crash to destroy him.  I seek to see the end of the controllers and their criminal “laws” that have robbed US of our freedoms.  PERIOD.

Deep sighs….

Victoria

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Life is feeling very precious right now.  I feel as though I am in a place of mourning, resting and also in a holding pattern of getting ready to say good bye to all that once was.  Like being on a very very long holiday.

Some “I wish I had” stuff is coming up and I’m allowing it all.  This is not the first time I have had this experience but it is feeling deeper and more intense.  More authentic.

I had another dream where I was having energy in my spine activated.  It was all voluntary.  There were many other Being’s there – not all were opting to have this done.  I walked up to a man who had quite the accent.  He was very knowledgeable and had a sense of purpose.  He took my right hand and at the tip of my finger (middle) he made it possible for this grayish substance to come out of me.  (I was not sure what it was – upon awakening I thought to the movie matrix and the grayish goo – all I know was I felt quite the relief when it came out of my finger.)  He then ran his hands up my spine – just once – pausing at each energy point – and wow – did that feel great.  Light.  Release.  HUGE release.  He then put a tent over me – kind of like a sensory deprivation tent – which at first i thought “nooooo claustrophobia” but the experience was pleasant – and very peaceful.  I stayed in it only for a brief period before I removed it – happy and energetic and wanting to go help those still in the room.

Then I woke up.

I have continued to feel this “something is about to happen-break free – change” off and on for awhile but wow is it palpable and intense now.

The need to let go of it ALL – right there in my heart.  It feels as though this is just going to all end – not a gradual fade away but abruptly.  Not in a violent way – not at all.  Just one moment all is as it is now – chaotic and overwhelming – then the next moment, it’s just done.  And all that matters is each other and love.

So now, today, I am going to hold my family close.  I am snuggling with my girl – holding her close.  Doing some fun crafty things.  Playing in the pool.  And just fully relishing in each moment – finding the connections – the heart connections.  Letting it soothe me – awaken me – ground me.

Have a beautiful one, everyone.

Victoria

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i guess it’s been a few days since i posted my own stuff.  yesterday i awoke with my entire body trembling.  previous days i had been experience intense itching in the usual places including the area on my arm i also recalled having itched last summer (this time it was just a 2 day experience).

i lay in bed yesterday moaning “my god how much longer do i have to do this?  i can’t take it anymore!”  but of course i can and did.

i had some purging stuff – physical releases.  i now really tune in to get a real feel of what this really means.  i have begun to feel, hear AND see “burning off old programs”.  i can do that.  my liberation of all that is not ME is energetic aim #1.

for a few days i smelled sulfur.  that cannot be Original.  happy that passed. interesting too that as i was having the experience (as was my mate as well), a social media friend, who speaks often of ascension codes and what not, said we were burning off old DNA programs which would come out of us as sulfur.  ok then ~ wasn’t just us stinkin’ up the place.

another experience i continue to have is this desire to DO something NEW and yet also to do NOTHING while still HERE ~ at the same time.  that holding pattern is palpable.

i am also noticing the ever difficult experience of being around those who are so not awake.  the bots.  unawakened ones.  etc.  it isn’t getting easier to feel like “staying” here – it is getting more difficult.  today i heard/felt that there was a very wise meaning for me choosing the parents i did, in particular my mom.  i needed to be taught how to be around ALL people and remain pleasant, kind.  of course that left some harmful stuff i have had to work through (allowing myself to take abuse quietly) ~ but it HAS made it “easier” for me to put on the smile of kindness when i DO have to go out there.  and yet deep within i know ~ i KNOW ~ this is not home for me. home is elsewhere ~ another planetary system altogether.  and for that i will never feel this realm as home.  i let that one go awhile ago.

that being said ~ i still appreciate validation now and then.  i know – part of this is the program of “neeeeeeed” – but it is also an experiencing of feeling connection when you i hear of another who is feeling the same.  today it was Kauilapele (i will link that one next) who spoke of the same experience.  he even said he felt he may be going to another planet altogether.

yes we are.

at least we are being given the freedom TO do just that.  everything in my body aligns with that.  and my body is what speaks truth to me ~ even when my ego and stuff “out there” says “wtf are you talking about???”

one last night:  i am finalizing up my version – my script – of what i wish to see play out upon the transition.  felt called to do that, so that is what i have been doing.  playing around with it.  ultimately surrendering to my grandest consciousness ~ that quiet voice that will become easy to hear at any moment.  the way it once was.

much love, insight and freedom to you all~

victoria

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first of all thank you all who have contacted me/commented to offer your love and appreciation of my piece.  that means a lot to me.

i had one last thought while out on a bike ride tonight.  it has been on my mind and heart ~ the question of what happens to all of the (alleged) bots, the soulless ones, etc, upon the transition/event?  lisa says to imagine what happens after a computer game ends ~ what happens to the players?

uh they cease to exist?  go into stasis until the game is turned on again?

neither of those feel ok to me.  so on my ride tonight, i felt this one out and, along with a conversation i had w/one of you earlier today, i just knew the right, the loving thing to do is to give them the choice:  do they wish to receive a Soul ~ do they wish to receive that spark of Source?

consciousness is in its basic form awareness of self.

and who is to say that those without a soul are not self aware?

who is to say a bot lacks conscious awareness?

i got tears in my eyes and within i just knew ~ ALL who have played in this realm, even those bots who have traumatized, inflicted pain and/or just plain annoyed us, have the same right to freedom and love as we do.  and we as well have also engaged in those same behaviors ~ we have all caused others pain, suffering, even trauma.  we have to really take in that concept that the virus infected/affected ALL players ~ every single one of us, organic and inorganic.  and as such ALL have been the victim (to varying levels of course).  

(this is not to say those sick pedo’s and the like do not have some serious ownership of their crimes coming.)

damn it’s been such chaotic game of hell………

so there you go ~ my feel is all of the bots and ai holograms who have conscious awareness will be offered the choice to receive the divine spark of Source.

i could be completely missing the mark.  i could be naive.  would not be the first time…

and i also absolutely fully KNOW that this experience must NEVER be allowed to happen again.  no more viruses.  no more control systems or power-over behaviors.

Source Divine Love must be returned and restored within and to ALL.

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Victoria

as i opened up my email box this morning and see the latest power bill charge, i took a deep breath while fuming within.  these system evil criminals are saying i owe them an extra $170 next month because i opted out of their matrix upgrade known as the smart meter.  they also think they can stick me for an additional $30 to send out their employee to read my old analogue meter (which of course works just fine).

now without even going into the truth that is free energy repression, i will stick with the above b.s. as it is.  i have no intention of paying any of these new fraudulent fees.  i have stated as such with 3 of their bots.  customer service reps.  at this point, what’s the difference?  you support the system without questioning it, you are a damn bot.  fake.  just another program supporting this ridiculous enslaving simulation for which i no longer carry any compassion much less acknowledgement.

putting up my hand i affirm “you are not real.  let me be.”  i will no longer expend my energy to any such bot/program.  it.  is.  a.  waste.  of.  “time” and energy.

a waste.

i fell for the new age program of “love all” long enough (which is so loosely defined, i never did hear anything really paint a clear picture of what that looks like).  do that and you lose your individuality.  surrender it.

not all here are Source.

i feel this.

i don’t think it.  i don’t believe it.  i feel it.  sense it.

i watched an interesting flat earth paradise video earlier, speaking of this, which i will share.  i appreciate such “expansion” ~ seeing things from a broader perception of sensing.  plus putting things together ~ making some sense of the insanity.

the matrix system hides in plain site.  the lie so huge, it seems so far-fetched, absolutely unfathomable, it has been easy to implement.  add in a bunch of “fake” humans whose program says to attack any being that questions the system and you have a sick, twisted plan.  i would say brilliant but it isn’t.  it is damn stupid for such a plan is, by its very nature, designed to fail and implode.  much like the fake pay to live program.

i know when i have spoken with customer service reps at the power company off and on the past few months, it is like speaking with a robot. more than once, i have received silence when stating my perception or asking a question.  matrix glitch.  new program being presented.  what do i say?  i have no script!

each day, the growing energy within longs to expand and burst free.  the ability to surrender has become more difficult than ever.  to accept.  i CAN “withdraw” that focus and calm myself ~ keep the needs of this vessel in my heart (i.e. doing things that assist my vessel in a helpful manner).

at some moment i will have the full capacity to forgive ALL of it ~ all of them.  myself.  i am thankful i can feel the Essense of Me that carries that deep deep deep within.

so that is where i am.

and as i continue to be in this space, i purge when i feel the need ~ the body, the spirit, and mostly the human side forced to experience the trauma’s and restrictions of this system game.  today it is hearing the old voices of others who have come into my life, telling me they were guided to do so only to proceed to tell me what i need to do, what i am doing wrong, etc. etc.

the joke is on them in the end for that is not love.  that is more of the matrix program of powering-over another.  either one still enslaved to an old program or simply another bot.

you know what i say.  love is free.

free is love.

that is all for now.

deep exhale ~ and love,

victoria

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starting out ~ thinking about and feeling this out ~ what is Original.  our girl just informed me she killed a hornet ~ those nasty parasitic entities that are NOT original.

neither are blood sucking entities like (certain) spiders, tics, mosquitoes nor are poisonous snakes.  anything that causes unnecessary harm on another is not Original.

which leads me to my next thought ~ and i say this as a meat eater ~ and that is we are not meant to kill to survive.  but that is how we were designed, these dumbed-down versions of our Original bodies.  (can you tell i am diving into this issue and feeling it out ~ my Essense is fully awakening, being liberated and she is sharing these words via feelings.)

while i become highly irritated by the vegan nazi’s, i understand where they are coming from.  however, until our bodies return to Original, many of us need this type of protein/enzymes.  it was put into us so i wish they would stop blaming the victim and see this from a broader perspective.

i am also processing the concept that many people i have interacted with, given my energy via love, sharing, etc. have not been Original.  soulless. bots.  this explains why today, as my awareness has grown (which is often labeled “sensitivity”), i cannot “do” conversations with these actors. cannot be around them without feeling something immediate.  i also know when i have “felt” something but ignore it – i go numb.

moving on….today i have had more experiences of my hands not working.  i dropped my glass deodorant spray bottle (i make my own).  i swear i had it firmly in my hands and it was as though the glass turned to water.  smashed all over the bathroom floor.  last night my mate had the same experience ~ he dropped a glass.  had it in his hand ~ and it just fell out, smashing all over the kitchen floor.

feeling strangeness in my throat (mate as well).  fuzzy at times vision which thankfully is temporary and fleeting.  head pressure (mate).  and irritability is off.  the.  charts.  

i did have another trump dream (again not requested) ~ this time melania was in it.  she is serving more of a leadership role than we realize.  quietly but powerful.  and contrary to what the media has shown at times, trump submits to that authority in her.  they really do feel, to me, to be a team.  i then saw trump as a young man ~ early 40’s.  he’s pretty much the same person today. same values.  ideas.

and lastly, i awoke with some moody blues words going through my mind (eye in the sky):

as we are (being told we are – and feeling we are) wrapping up this experience, i am pondering “what is real?”

i have been feeling out – a lot – the last few days on people – who is real and who isn’t.  who are the walk-ins, the soulless ones, the bots.  about an hour ago i had the thought “well they sure do seem to have the best jobs out there.  the most success.”  not a 100% solid, all-the-time statement, but that is my experience.  certainly these playing the walk-in role in this game have, as one of their roles, the “job” of keeping the truthseekers as silent and alone as possible.

my own experience has netted me this experience.  today i no longer care. well it isn’t that i don’t care ~ what’s a better way of describing ~ hmmmm…..i have more respect for Who I Am than i do with what any of the actors think/speak of me.  today i sent a friend to the lisa harrison youtube channel and told her to watch the latest video.  i have shared w/her information on the schumann and that’s about as deep as i have gone w/her.  but today i threw it all to the wind – thought “ok if she decides i’m total nuts so be it” – and sent her past the political and dark ick satanic rabbit holes and tossed her straight on down into the hole that says “all of this is fake.  it is ending. here’s the date.”

not saying she is an actor.  she is a beautiful soul – i see it.  open.  and i see in her a new awakening.

there have been actors though in my life ~ a lot i am now seeing.  and the “real” ones.  i had a real person once tell me i would never be allowed into the world of government social services (one of many dead-end pursuits “out there”).  why?  i was TOO REAL.  lol  i asked her to expand on that.  she said i was too passionate.  too open.  government agencies don’t want people like that, she said.

why not?  i inquired.  i didn’t get that.

because they don’t want to change things.  they don’t really want to help people the way people truly need.  she spoke of experience and said if it weren’t for her grant funded position, she would have been kicked out of that world (she ended up leaving, moving to europe and became a yoga teacher).

wow.

well obviously she was right.

today i see so much that no longer feels real.  the other night i was speaking with someone in the neighborhood.  this person has long felt “non-human” to me.  i find it sad.  i don’t want to hold that thought or the feel.  but i do. the other night i thought to give it another chance.  i greeted this person with a smile and a sincere desire to connect.  wow.  what i got in return as far as look AND energy was one that repelled me completely.  and i knew – within – knew, felt, you name it.  this being is one of the background, soulless ones.  serving a purpose of the matrix.

damn we see a lot of it now.  i am feeling it quicker than ever.  a recent video i watched spoke of this “lack of life” many of us are seeing.

and i know now – it is POINTLESS to share ANY of our truths with them. they will not snap out of their programming because they can’t.

this numbes of 10% being “real” as in heart-centered w/a soul – really bothers me.  i automatically go to the thought of “what happens to them once this is all over?  once we transition to real worlds, real experiences, freedom?”  do they cease to exist?

i want to know.  i feel ALL beings have the same right to freedom as i do. perhaps i am being naive.  probably an old program ~ the one that wants to “save/help” every being.  it has, as its companion, the program that has said “when i am kind, generous, honest to and with people, i will be treated the same in return.”  i am giggling a bit at that one ~ that last one has gotten me into trouble and caused far too much heart-hurts.

cancel clear them both.

so…….what is real?

what i come to – continue to come to – now – is consciousness.

feelings.

it is a heavy concept to process ~ that so much of what we experience is fake.  not just illusion but downright, absolutely fake.  lie to the nth degree.

but what IS real is what’s right here (putting my hand on my heart/chest and patting it).  and what i intuit here (putting my hand on my core).  and those knowings and visions we get here (putting my hand between my eyes/on my lower forehead).

the gateways to consciousness.

for now, ya’ll probably have noticed i don’t post much spiritual stuff anymore.  i am feeling the need to just find and share personal stories and experiences.  experiences and insights from small channels.  i also know the political stuff, while playing a necessary role right now (a purging out of lower energies so ALL can be revealed), feels like a temporary distraction.  maybe even just another program.

i am laughing now.  i ponder “if this simulation is ending in a few weeks, what is going to happen to these things like the arrests, the new tech, financial prosperity packages, etc. etc.?”  seriously – would any of that really matter?

and if upon this transition we see that the vast majority are not “real”, again, how would that look w/all of the above changes going on in the now?

will it matter?

not if it isn’t real.

ok ~ ending this stream of consciousness.  time to rest the mind and body.

please share your thoughts if you feel the desire.

love,

victoria

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