I watched a video last night (YRFT) about the vatican lies.  Just when you think you have gone down the dark rabbit hole, you find another path.  No thank you!  I passed on by certain parts.  I have had to become SO conscious of what I allow into my life.  Energy feels very sticky right now and I feel more open then in previous times to feeling it.  Sticky as in energy feels it is sticking – more visible and much more easily transmitted and felt/received – whether that energy is for creative/uplifting or destructive purposes.

Anyway, I had a thought as I watched the video as it was presented in the video that the energy of Good stands on its own whereby evil needs good. Not sure if I fully align with that ~ but I do know from experience evil likes to attach itself to what is pure ~ likely for consumption at most, manipulation and “amusement” at the least.  Sigh….somethings I just will never ever get nor do I want to.  See and accept, yes, but “get” inside?  NO THANK YOU.

Look around at the trafficking issue as well as your own life and you will see how when you have been in your state of purity, especially when young and vulnerable, evil found its way through others to scare and/or attack you.

At the current time, there is a lot of talk that says how we “should” (I have disdain for that word as it is a power-over program) forgive the cabal and other entities and all of the evil they have perpetuated (and continue to perpetuate).  Send them love.

My thought?

Fuck.  That.

No way.

Another thought ~ NOW?

So SOON?

Many are just now finding out about these horrors and they “should” forgive them now?

REALLY??!!

Let Source in its fullness make that decision.  As “Q” says – we will arrange meeting.

And guess what ~ LOVE allows the rest of us decide when we make that decision.

I know those speaking “we should forgive the cabal now” and “they aren’t bad” (yes, that is another perspective being shared at this time) are pure in their intentions.  Their perceptions often include the idea that we all choose these experiences and that we have all played the same role the cabal is.

I uh, well I find that very difficult to swallow and strongly feel such perceptions to be part of the matrix game so that we won’t go full-on goddess and god warrior on their asses to get them to stop their horrors.  I have also tuned inward many many times on this issue and there is not ONE SPECK OF Who I Am that says I have played such a role in one of my life cycles.  As I have read – these “entities”, upon death, return in another “meat suit” and keep up the game and that they are allowed full remembrance of their “role” (past life experiences) wherein the rest of us are wiped clean.

Doesn’t this explain why their horrors have been on the “repeat” cycle for eons???

Time to fully remove the blinders and step up into our FULL POWER of Full Awareness.

I give my love to those who one, respect themselves and me and life.

I send my love, my focus of healing and rescue and freedom to the victims of this horror.  Certainly not to those who created it.  Certainly not now.

I have learned to be Conscientious in who gets my energy, in particular my energy of love and forgiveness.

I have learned to be Conscientious in that not all appears to be as it is.  Not all have a Soul.  Not all have Purity or Divinity.  Clones.  Holograms. Projections.  ALL has been “fair” game in this matrix simulation.

I have been in the presence of evil energy and let me tell you, sending them love does not work.

And I am at the space right now where the energy I send to all of the clones and entities and beings who engage (knowingly and fully AND REPEATEDLY) in behaviors vile and destroying and traumatizing is one of STOP!  YOU ARE DONE.  NO MORE.  NOT ALLOWED.

I don’t even bother sending them love and light and all of that as I once did.

Today ~ I imagine them being destroyed.  Recycled.  Purified.

Nothing more.  Nothing less.

All else, for me that is, feels like a waste of time and it leaves me with this strong internal impression that to do otherwise allows their games to continue.

And We – I – cannot and will not allow for that.

Humbly and strongly shared~

Victoria

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I need to hash out this internal processing ~ get it out of me.  (better out than in)

The Event itself IS one HUGE wave of energy.  It isn’t a bunch of little dibbles over decades or centuries.  It is ONE EVENT because that is what is needed to create the change we all desire ~ consciously and subconsciously and unconsciously.

And yes it will knock many if not most maybe all on our bums to varying degrees.  Why?  Because as these Human Beings that we are, our DNA has been so compromised, so much of it disconnected, we have been functioning at a very low frequency for countless life cycles (thus it is in our DNA code at this point – an energy imprint – that this is how things just are – or were – for we also have Source Code within that more and more are tuning into/hearing).  I feel we were “tuned” at a level that has been just enough for us to survive and as such, our ability to experience TRUE LOVE – Divine, Pure – has been severely compromised (as well as our inherent abilities/gifts).  What you and I think of as love is small in nature compared to what is coming for us to experience once again.

Aren’t you thirsty for Love?  For love of this level?

Aren’t you thirsty to KNOW it again?

To feel it and BE IT again so you can SHARE it again?

I AM!

As my mate just shared with me:  There’s a man crawling across a hot, dry desert.  His clothes are tattered.  Crusty dirt lines his eyes.  His hands are withered, beaten from the wind and hot sun.  He looks as though he is on deaths door.  He looks up at you, his arms reaching up, hands trembling. You think “he’s gonna ask for water” but instead he says in a weak but powerful voice, “The Event…..the event….”  At that point…..A rainbow wave of energy floods the entire realm, transforming everything.

That is how thirsty we are.  Some are more aware of the thirst.  Some are more thirsty than others, although I have a feeling that those claiming no thirst are still going to be in for a beautiful surprise.  For no matter how much we work on raising our vibration, we need this energy wave to ignite within what has been turned “off” – or at least turned down.

Turn on the music so we can start our days the way Source intended.

I am not going to say be patient.  I have a strong disdain for the phrase.  We HAVE been patient.  Oh goodness gracious goddess have we been patient. We have it MASTERED at this point.  And I also feel that term is going by the wayside once the event hits.  I have a strong inner knowing the concept of patience was by and large a matrix program.

So what I will say is go within your heart.  Be.  Be tender.  Accepting.  Kind. Gentle.  Visualize and feel what you desire.  That is what I do to soothe myself when I feel the disappointment and apathy and sadness.  I Remember again why I am here now.  And darnit all, I keep at it until IT manifests.

We got this but good this time!

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the truth is ~ we are ALL supposed to be living amazing lives – not just “ordinary” and certainly not difficult – but AMAZING and deep within we all KNOW this. we all KNOW this reality is a sham, its systems put into place to create most of these difficulties. it is time for all to FLY and live fully and freely from the desires of the heart. 

 

I watched a few minutes of a video earlier today (link here).  She speaks of the purging as well as entities releasing themselves – raising their ugly little voices in an attempt to keep their grip on us and how they will slam the door when they leave.  She went on to say women are going crazy at the moment and the men have become stupid.  Kind of like a cycle.  I go crazy as you go stupid.  I found it humorous.

And all if containing some truth.

I don’t always know if my triggered episodes are all my own stuff or something outside of me.  Maybe it doesn’t matter.  What matters is what I do with it.  Engage.  Or disengage and remember again who I really am – that voice within that was here before I came into this realm and experienced the systems in this shit pit.  I know this ~ I am quite done with revisiting old stuff.  In the grand scheme of Who I Am – this life cycle is just a grain of sand in a vast ocean.

And yet it is also feels like so much, doesn’t it?

I also know this experience is beautiful as well.  Life is beautiful.  Our purity is beautiful. Our kindness is beautiful.  Love is beautiful.  Generosity. Kindness.  Moments of beautiful.

And yet we are creating an experience where life and its beauty are more than just the moment here and there to savor so that we may have something to remember during the rest of those moments.  Asserting that life is a challenge, a struggle and so hold onto those little miracle moments to get through is just another program.

We are designed and meant to have beautiful moments in each moment without the struggle the systems put onto us.

I know this and feel this to the core of all that I know I am to be.  And I am fully aware all that I Am is still merging.  My desire for connection and truth and love and beauty and joy and fun and total healing/inner full totality awareness/ability and total freedom only grows.  It has only felt like a need because I have gone so long without these experiences in their entirety.

We all have.

The power-over/enslavement game is over.  Done.  These increasing energy frequencies are squeezing that game out of every one of us.

Here is to our freedom.

Our healing.

Our purity.

Our joy.

Our FULL AWARENESS.

In being fully Who We Are, we cannot be anything else but.

Shine on you crazy diamonds.

Love,

Victoria

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UPDATE:  In my state of wooze, I forgot a couple of things.  One, I have not been able to wear my pendulum or other stone based jewelry I normally wear.  A sudden aversion with that.  Same for the rose oil I wear daily (for its assistance w/opening the heart chakra).  And two, while at the breakfast table, I had worked with my energy and thoughts, ramping them up, elevating them.  As I felt them working in my body my girl suddenly looks at me and says “Mama!  You look taller!”  I looked at my mate with a quizzical look and he agreed.  I then looked down at my plate and wow – sure enough – it felt rather “waaaay” down there.  I did one of those blinking the eye gather my senses what’s going on and let that sink in.  I’m also really into my fidget spinner ~ watching it spin and just holding it.  That and watching the skies.  Needing that inner quiet solitude only continues to strengthen…

While in the shower I received the first two insights:

1. It has now become easier to let go of programming and we are being helped with this.  There is so much we have been programmed with including some of the ascension stuff.  ANYTHING that is about controlling ourselves or another, ANYTHING that has the power-over energy/behavior/experience is false.
2. We are not fully in our bodies nor are we fully in our Full Self but all of that is changing and merging again – in greatness at this “time”.  As I felt this message, I had a flash of an image of myself in another realm, kind of like the video game player and I am the game.  As I saw this vision, I got very dizzy and had to lean into the shower wall.  So that’s why we are having so much dizziness.  It isn’t just due to the magnetic’s.
3. Along those lines, when I suddenly HAD to lay down (HAD TO), my left hand began to buzz and felt like it wanted to float away.  Yeah, strange!  Then as I looked at it, I felt I was looking at it for the first time, and felt really detached from it.
4. The sun is off again – farther South than it should be right now at this time (5:50pm PST).
5. Speaking now with several other people who are either not aware of what’s going on to yeah having an inkling ~ all are saying my goodness I am exhausted I feel like I am not altogether “here” to just simply feeling “off” and “weird”.  It’s happening and we are about ready to exit.  I FEEEEEL it.

Now for a humbling moment.  As I was finishing this up, there was a knock on the door.  A middle aged man, apologizing for disturbing me, was looking for odd jobs to do to make money or either bottles and cans to cash in for money.  He said he and his wife are living in a 30 foot trailer and he needed money to get some propane.  Damn.  I felt for him.  I told him briefly our own situation and so we were in no position to hire him out.  We had also just turned in our bottles yesterday.  He thanked me and went next door, then took off in his vehicle.  As he did I thought wait a minute, I have some bills in my wallet as does my mate. So I grab some money and take off looking for him.  I couldn’t find him.  He must have left the neighborhood altogether.

I have had this behavior style where I often don’t know how to respond fully in the moment ~ especially when faced with a situation that catches me off guard.  Now if it’s an emergency and someone needs immediate help, that’s when I know what to do.  But situations such as the one above?  I don’t always get clear until after-the-fact and it annoys me to no end – as it did today.  Why didn’t I stop and think at the time “hmm, I have a few dollars on me I can give to him”.

Well, it gave me pause as I ran around the neighborhood (where did I get this energy??) – to give thanks to my living situation.  And really feel the gratitude.

As I end this, I look outside – the sun is suddenly very far north.

Strange days continue…

Victoria

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We do not consent to this simulation any longer.

We command to be let go ~ to be FREE of it ~ in all ways.  NOW.

We do not consent to be powered-over by ANY being, person, entity, organization, or thing.  NEVER AGAIN.  DONE.

The ONLY experience we consent to is FULL FREEDOM to DO BE EXPERIENCE CREATE NOW WITHOUT LIMIT.  And to see this matrix collapse NOW.

All false thoughts, experiences, energies be gone NOW.

So it is.

It is so.

It is DONE.

NOW.

SO SAYS WE.

 

And aren’t I just done with this.  Open the exit gate.  I command the portal for our exit be open now.  N O W

I can’t get warm enough.  Then I get heated and struggle to cool down.

Sleep is a challenge much past 30 minutes to an hour at a time.

Heart expansions continue.  Did a lot of energy work around that last night.

Voice – speaking – continues to be a struggle.

So much sinus congestion…

Feeling “off” – uneasy.  Unbalanced.

Dropping things.  Feel the world around me wobbles.

No longer ok with feeling like I am being squeezed from within.  I have purged and let go and surrendered countless times.  I am as “advanced” as I can be.  This is no longer a journey I enjoy much less benefit from.

Can I say it again?  Unlock the gates to this fucking prison and let us all GO.

Continue with my obsession to be alone in my personal bubble space.  No desire to talk with others “out there”.  Today I went for my walk with a heavy coat and dark sunglasses, half hiding in my hood.  (it was overcast and cold – the norm for weeks and weeks now)

Silence is my best friend.  My necessary best friend. I do not have nearly the amount I need.  Today I had that chance – sat down at the piano and began to play only to look off to my left about 15 minutes later and notice our neighbor had just walked in (to return something he had borrowed). He didn’t want to disturb my playing.  Not ok.  ALWAYS knock.  (note to self always make sure the door is locked 24/7)

Putting up boundaries without guilt or concern with what others may think is becoming natural.

Easily irritated.  Mate – ditto.

Phrase of the day :  We’re done.

Paradoxically enough, I am quite done with having that thought.

Birds are showing signs of weird behavior as well, along the 41st parallel interestingly enough.  Southern Oregon (where the birds have disappeared) and in Connecticut.   (where birds are diving at people)  As I took my walk today, I notice the trees look stressed.  I sense they are not happy.  They begin to open, then close up again.  Perhaps waiting as many of us are.  As I heard last night “all go” – people, plant life, animals.

And with the patience waning…

But on we go nonetheless.

Just weary tonight.  Bone tired fucking weary.  Some are in bliss.  Some are not.  Let’s all be kind and accepting of one another in where we are and remember to ask what one needs instead of assuming (I see that far too much).  No more of such power-over behavior.

Love asks.  Period.  And carries on with a listening ear, mind and heart.

Victoria

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In the last 24 hours we have had two people in our life, both not aware of the earth changes and ascension process, reach out to us and say “I am feeling weird today”.  I awoke this morning with this feeling “they” tried to mess with the timelines again in the past 24-48 hours, the result being the attempt simply lead to it collapsing instead of being “held back”/put on repeat.  My mate had the feeling last night.

It’s just really tough right now.  I know some are in continuous bliss at this moment ~ I am not one of them.  lol  I did have some of those moments last night and early this morning, but then again I was more or less alone, in quiet. For now I want to just watch the skies, in quiet, in solitude.  We have had several visitors and numerous phone calls.  Each experience felt like an intrusion energetically.  Having moments where I feel as though I am being squeezed…

My interest in the political game isn’t happening at this moment.

Off to watch the skies now.

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